the increase in the number of ukrainian prisoners - 82 in just one week according to reports from the ministry of defense, and vladimir putin spoke about this the day before. today the topic has been developed. six more surrendered on the border of the kursk region. this is a video from the telegram channel of the regional governor roman starovoit, who reminded: you can be saved if you go to frequency 140.

on the normal side, where they treat you normally, feed you, fear you, let’s end it all, but there are others, they are purposeful, like terrorists attack civilians, two killed and two wounded in the kherson region, in the village of new mayachko, as a result of rocket fire from the ukrainian armed forces. at that moment, humanitarian aid was being unloaded, our air defense did everything to shoot down the missiles, but only one. one of them exploded near people. there is information that it was an american hymers. meanwhile, our paratroopers destroyed several targets on the right bank of the dnieper. the lancet loitering ammunition destroyed a radar, a western-made self-propelled gun and a howitzer with a tractor and combat crew. in search of those whom to drive into the trenches, ukrainian military commissars in the evening friday they combed shopping centers, sports clubs and restaurants. krivoy rog, kyiv. odessa,

telegram channels are full of similar videos today. they write that sbu officers are involved in issuing subpoenas, although in any normal state counterintelligence does not do this. the outrages can no longer go unnoticed in the west. here's the new york times. as the ukrainian military faces mounting losses on the battlefield, military recruiting officers are becoming increasingly aggressive in their efforts to fill the ranks. men are forcibly taken from the streets to recruiting stations. according to lawyers, activists and men. subjected to coercive tactics, officers confiscated passports, suspended people from work , and at least once tried to send a mentally disabled person to military training. something else in the same newspaper, today is the starting point of the author's commentary by mikhail leontyev, then we will return with news. however, hello.

today, ukrainians are beginning to suspect that the united states wants to force us to lay down our arms and conclude a shameful truce, the new york times quotes a certain ukrainian politician figure. wow, which ones are suspicious? months of brutal fighting gave moscow confidence in its abilities, but kiev’s prospects, on the contrary, became clouded, the new york times sheds tears, compensating for the grief with characteristic american boorishness. this trend. was evident last week when vladimir putin casually announced his plans to run for the russian presidency for another six years while sipping champagne and boasting about the achievements of the russian military. this atmosphere of self-confidence was at odds with the ukrainian president’s sense of hopelessness. vladimir zelensky. all western official media synchronously and recurrently, in a harmonious, i would say, obscene chorus, bury ukraine in the range of everything. russia is gaining

confidence, and ukraine is gripped by new problems, new york times headline. ukraine is facing a stalemate, it is facing defeat. washington post. british telegraph. russia is close to a devastating victory for us, the foundations of europe are shaken. 100, now congress won’t give money, then europe won’t give money, and then trump will come and completely disperse nato. this is bullshit for suckers, now they ’ll get tired of giving money to fight russia, they’ve been giving for 300 years, and suddenly they’ll get tired. of course, betrayal is an integral part of european political culture, as well as ukrainian. this is the only thing that unites them. but the most harmful and dangerous idea is to combine military planning with geopolitical projection. fortunately,

our supreme commander-in-chief does not suffer from this. a negotiated ceasefire with russia while maintaining the existing front line is unlikely. believe in this one. russian city, this is a historical fact, however, goodbye. this was the author's commentary by mikhail leontyev. we continue. emir nawah assabah died in kuwait. he was 86

years old. the monarch enjoyed great authority in the middle east and made a personal contribution to strengthening relations with russia, vladimir putin emphasized, expressing condolences. two tu-22 m3 long-range bombers patrolled the airspace over the neutral waters of the baltic sea for 5 hours. at certain stages they were approached foreign aircraft, as far as the su-30 fighters accompanying ours allowed. russian long-range aviation regularly makes flights over the waters of the arctic, north atlantic, black and... baltic seas over the pacific ocean, always in strict accordance with international rules. a little more than two weeks remain until the new year, the time when dreams come true. today the wish of eight-year-old snezhana from astrakhan came true. her request to visit the confectionery factory

was fulfilled by mikhail mishustin. he participates in wish tree promotions. the prime minister invited colleagues and children from the cis to the excursion. anna kurbatova was also there. let's go have a look. how the candies make huge real ones, are you ready for this? for eight -year-old snezhana zakharenko - the kingdom of chocolate - a dream that mikhail mishustin fulfilled today, a ball with a wish, a girl from astrakh who does not dream of becoming a pastry chef, the head of the cabinet of ministers removed wishes from the christmas tree, not only she herself, but also her five-year-old brother yaroslav in moscow. the children have never flown on an airplane, yesterday was the first time, everything was the first time, in astryakhan there is practically no snow, here we... arrived, there was snowfall, there was a lot of snow, a lot of snow, yes, and the first thing they did was leave the airport and start running in the snow. snezhan, tell me how many candies you are usually allowed to eat a day, two or three, but today, today is a special day, you can eat as much as you want.

100, a holiday of chocolate, the head of the russian government treats a clubfoot bear to a bear, straight from the assembly line. yarik fills the kids' pockets with bird's milk and... immediately after the conversation, over a cup of tea, the head of the government of belarus roman golovchenko i remembered the taste of childhood. for me personally, one of the most memorable new year’s

gifts were chocolate bunnies in colored foil. it was a terrible shortage, which means it was the dream of every boy and girl to get such a chocolate hare. here i am today. but they are here, they told me that they were discontinued, i wanted mikhailovich to ask you to give an order, that means to resume them. mikhail mishustin told his colleagues that visiting a chocolate factory was also his childhood dream; the prime minister of tajikistan even tried to attract chocolate business before. i’m here with my daughter, dinara, from tajikistan, she ’s been here for many years, i ask her, will you be a confectioner, she says, only a director. since childhood holiday, i want to say with all my heart that we are all friends, our cultural, historical, if you like, spiritual roots, they come from a large space, from the former soviet union, but today our community, independent states are friends, and

of course, guys , you are also friends, regardless of nationality, what country you are friends with, you could start right today, for example, during the chocolate master class, there was an ingredient for your sweets, yes, but you already ate it, delicious, yes, the composition for chocolate sweets from the sisters from armenia melted before our eyes, like those boys from... well i liked making these candies , maybe i’ll be a pastry chef, if it’s impossible to eat everything, you can at least try to capture it all, do you want me to take a photo of you , it’s time for a joint photo, look at the cameras, guys, yeah, take your mind off the candies not easy, especially when so much is delicious, delicious candies, yes, yes, this is an informal meeting that precedes a meeting of the council of heads. the governments of the cis member countries, the day after tomorrow they will discuss in detail the development

of humanitarian cultural cooperation in the post-soviet space. anna kurbatova, andrey melikhov, channel one. first deputy head of the presidential administration sergei kiriyenko also took part in the wish tree. at the russia exhibition at vdnkh, he took down a balloon with a request for a set of theatrical dolls and promised to fulfill it. and there at the exhibition is sergei kirienko. took part in award ceremony for the new philosophy of education award, it was held in the lecture hall of the russian knowledge society, the award is worthy of the best school teachers involved in extracurricular activities, they are the ones who organize sections, clubs help to reveal talents, and most importantly, they know how modern children live and speak the same language with them . it is a great honor for me to present one of the awards today, firstly, because... well, in my opinion, this is a very amazing fair award, which was invented by the guys themselves, who

nominate and propose people they are proud of, the future of the country, it is determined by what the next generation of russians will dream about, what the next generation of russians will believe in, so it is no coincidence that this award, it is very correct, is being held here at the russia exhibition, which also on behalf of... our president collected what our whole large country is proud of, each region brought here what it is proud of. battle of robots is an international championship in moscow, where the intensity of passions is akin to a super show, 12 teams in the final, competitions between engineers and their battle cyber creations. all attention to what is happening in the ring. in 3 minutes, sometimes something that you worked on for weeks, or maybe months, turns into trash. in the end, the team became the winner.

therefore, this is a very appropriate event and we are waiting for everyone in kazan at the games of the future, we tried this format for the first time, and i saw that there is a huge interest among businesses in supporting university teams, a very good collaboration is happening, next year we will open a school league for more schools could compete with each other, i think that next year this movement will gain momentum, so we are doing all this to popularize it so that more children will be involved in this whole story, because this is the future. today is the anniversary of yuri nikolaev, a special presenter on domestic television, the entertainment

part of which he definitely added lightness and scope: blue lights, songs of the year, morning mail, morning star, talent , a great contribution to the discovery of young talents, vladimir putin noted in a congratulatory telegram. yuri nikolaev at 75, full of new ones plans, some of which he shared with olga pautova. well, shall i break it? let's! interviews, sitting comfortably in a chair, are not for nikolaev. he is always in a hurry to somewhere, comes up with something and always finds time for tennis, and of course, billiards, a hobby since his youth. and even from my dad, my dad was an officer and there were officers’ clubs, and of course they played billiards there, it seems to me that this ball is the most real. the coach yuri nikolaev turned out to be patient. put it in such a way that it is clear, you understand that there is a stop there, so make sure that you look at the ends

at the point where my finger is, in the frame it always looks as if there are no cameras nearby, sincere, real, and it has been like that since the first day on air. firstly, we should not be banal; an original solution always brightens up a show. in the morning mail, music program at the request of viewers, nikolaev. allowed himself to joke, fool around, cross his legs, for which he was immediately called to the authorities, they refused his jacket, his tie, his hair, i can’t say that this was welcomed at first, well, they asked him to at least open his ears, so that he could have ears visible, often he was defended by the head of the announcers department, igor kirillov, it was he who invited nikolaev to television, when he had already starred in several films and was seriously building an acting career, then it helped on the set of programs, he brought you the morning mail, the audience

adored the program, for its freedom, for

i was looking all over the country for the opportunity to hear new performers for the first video clips in our country, when i heard pilogea sing, i invited her to a separate calling competition, because the morning star did not have a folk music section. the last 10 years of pilagea she herself works with children, the voice of children in the show, she is one of the most emotional mentors, she speaks on the set, and often recalls how she behaved with young artists. nikolaev, in terms of being a great teacher, but in terms of communicating with children, i would like, and i thought about it, of course, i would like to learn such sincere, constant kindness, he really knew every child, understood what kind of the man, what he sings, what his story is, and it seemed that one could calm down with this, but it didn’t have time to end

one project, nikolaev took on another, invited viewers to friendly gatherings with popular artists and gathered the whole... country in front of the screens to together choose their favorite song in the program, the property of the republic. how i calculated this, i don’t know if it’s intuitive or not, but you need to be on par with the viewer, never be above him, it’s better if i find myself in a funny situation, in this game he clearly gives in to me, but next to him somehow immediately it becomes clear that you don’t win when you beat someone, when you yourself enjoyed the process, and this is nikolaev’s main principle. v at work, in life, a draw won, well, that’s not true, yes, thank you. olga pautova, marad khabibulin, dmitry bedrev, olga kovalenko and enesa mezhivalova, channel one. moscow is hosting the eighth international charity cadet ball. in gostiny dvor there are about 3.00 of the best students of cadet corps,

military schools and universities, participants of patriotic movements from all over russia. in the welcome telegram. let's return to the charge with which we started the release today, an exhibition of pavel felonov, a key representative, opened there. avant-garde in along with scandinsky and yamalevich, he did not fit into socialist realism, and his paintings remained misunderstood for many decades; the current exhibition will help decipher them, yuri cherbakov appreciated. the general meaning of the mood of the exhibition is particularly characterized by just two word names of the world's heyday. it was precisely this pronunciation that the artist himself focused on. the fact is that before

the revolution, world meant life without war, while world on a scale of everything.

in the pile of factory machines in the tired gaze of an elderly seamstress you can see a special the master's handwriting, geometric dynamics, mosaics and the paradoxical combination of rough simplicity and at the same time incredible purity, even holiness in the faces of the main characters. moscow has not seen pavel filonov for 20 years; such an exhibition has probably never happened. and of course, huge words of gratitude to the russian museum, which was not greedy at all, and you all become witnesses to everything. who comes and will come to zaryady, the zaryady exhibition center is absolutely stunning, which has opened its doors very hospitably to a joint project

rossio and the russian museum. one of the key figures in the artistic world of the early 20th century. he led an ascetic lifestyle, taught his craft for free, and did not sell canvases. when asked to sell at least one of them abroad, he said: my paintings belong to the people, bequeathing all his works. state in 1941, pavel filonov died of hunger in besieged leningrad. thanks to evdakiya nikolaevna, his sister, we have this collection; she carefully preserved it. and then, already fulfilling the will of the master himself, she transferred it to the russian museum, first for storage, and then the collection was fully included in our collection. and here is a unique collection of works by the great russian avant-garde artist in the very center of moscow. the exhibition runs until mid-march. there is such a word as trend, yes. trends, fashion trends, this is the spirit of the times, it seems to me that this is very timely, that there is some kind of trend in this, that we will see that it will be fashionable. today , filonov’s works occupy an important place in

the permanent exhibitions of the tretyakov gallery and the russian museum, while in the soviet union there was neither one of his personal exhibitions, charging, painting and graphics, more than eighty of the best works of one of the key russian avant-garde artists. yuri shcherbakov, ilya marin, anastasia slobodenyuk, sergei voskoboynikov, boris chuchupalov, channel one. hello, dear viewers, you are watching the triggers podcast, its host tatyana krasnovskaya is with you. our guest today is the beautiful elena, let's talk about her story, hello, hello elena,

tell us what you came to us with, i came with my story on the topic of relationships, i wanted i would like to tell you about the kind of men i meet on my way, i very often encounter abusive relationships, and usually under... some kind of suppression of me, and i have always been a noticeable girl, let’s say, in principle, i didn’t always want to please others,

from a very early age, since kindergarten, probably, yes, i had such a desire to be the center of attention, and i believed that if i am next to a person, he should , on the contrary, be proud of this, that if i go to some beautiful clothes, yes i... i mean some yes, provocative clothes, but simply yes, in beautiful clothes, and on the contrary, they tried to somehow tell me on the topic that look, what are these bright colors for, you need to be more modest, yes, you need to be more modest, and i didn’t understand who needed it, yes, at that moment it seemed to me, okay, i’ll be what you want, yes, as long as you like it, as long as nothing, nothing could separate us, let’s say, then... gradually gradually i felt, that i no longer remain in these relationships in principle as an individual, that is, i am already doing what the person likes, yes i

i always do what he wants. but they told me that i’m sorry, so and so, he ’s in a relationship, plus also, yes, i was pregnant, i understand who i really am, i’m coming out of these , i knew that he was leaving you pregnant, yes, yeah, and i gave birth to a child, yes, some time passed, i basically didn’t see anyone around me at all, i basically didn’t even consider any kind of relationship, there was a certain state of searching for myself, gradually, gradually i

became interested in something, and... i went into sports , went to the gym, that is, somehow i tried myself distract, yes, i tried to become better, so i just wanted to be some kind of ideal and yes, not only for myself, probably, but also in order to prove it to the world around me, in the end i enter into a relationship, saying that no, i don’t need a relationship at all, but again i feel something, when i get into a relationship, that a person is weaker. it’s kind of simpler for me and for me, the relationships weren’t long-term for me, yes, that is, one relationship was replaced by another, here’s another relationship, then the next ones, let’s say, i entered into a relationship with a man older than me, gradually, gradually i again begin to feel this state that i am gone again, literally 2 months after

the relationship. that is, i’m trying to adjust again, i want to be perfect, i cook lunches, dinners, breakfasts and so on, and at the same time i don’t understand that for me, in principle, a person does nothing to somehow admire a man , i came out of this relationship very depressed, that is, i already had such a critical moment that i realized that a relationship is in principle, not my story, that is, maybe it’s better not worth it at all, probably... “having said these words, literally a few months later i fell into the same relationship, these relationships lasted several months, well, if we’re talking about my last relationship, it lasted 9 months, before this 2 months, you lived together, we subsequently lived there for 6 months together, but one way or another you describe all these relationships as abusive, i think yes, let’s do it for

ours spectators"? and let's try it for me first how to come to an agreement , what is an abusive relationship, that’s how, well, i understand that it’s very fashionable now, it’s clear that we read a lot, and you read, here you are, abusive relationships, as you describe, relationships in which yes, in relationships in where the line of your personal boundaries is erased and the line of who you are is erased, very often a situation occurs that you are wrong, no, look for yourself.

so you tried for some time, you spent on becoming ideal, you became ideal, or you got closer to the ideal image of yourself, good question, i think that and i became better for the person, but not for yourself, yeah, but if it’s for yourself, len, how would you feel if you received some kind of i don’t know, there’s a diploma, a certificate, but a certificate that here, that's all. you are perfect, how would you feel? lousy, probably, why? because this word ideality somehow really hurts the ear, yes, that is, there are no ideal people, i, in principle , understand this with my head, and try to please, but again, i understand this with my head when i leave these relationships, what then happens is that the desire for this to some ideal you describe, it

sounds more like you're trying to please. yes, well, these are different things, then uh-huh, uh-huh, but trying to please, this means that your, as they would say, smarter colleagues locus of control is absolutely external, and you evaluate. yourself by how others evaluate you, and how long have you had this desire to please others? well, basically it was from childhood, and it seems to me that it was to attract the attention of my father, please tell us about your parental family, you one daughter? no, there are two of us, yeah, are you older or younger? and i’m younger, yeah, and i have an older brother, i remember very well. this moment, when , let’s say , such an active life began in kindergarten, i did additional gymnastics there, my mother introduced me to gymnastics, then dancing for 12 years and so on, i had one dream, connected with the fact that

that i really wanted my father to attend this event at least once, well, at least one, what did it mean for the girl lena that dad came to watch? well, probably delight, yes, that here is my daughter on stage, some kind of pride , it seems to me that this was very lacking then, yeah, basically, like now, but what was your father proud of, what did he admire, so you looked well, this is a person who lives essentially a parallel life with you, well, you know what he loves, what he does, by the way, again a good question on the topic of what he... loves, i didn’t know, that he loves, he’s alive, and you specifically praise me all the time, you, well, this is the second time you’ve praised me for question, well, really, because it’s a good question, or because i’m a man, no, just a good question, but as you understand, is it a good question or not, which i like, so,

let’s, well, let’s talk about it, but how is it you understand that you liked him, my, well , that is, he gets into some kind of essence of uh, yes me, what’s going on inside. and what is happening inside you when, as you say, i get caught up in this question? well, the question is about what it is about my father, what he loved, i honestly don’t know what he loved, and even me i was a little surprised that i don’t know, but i’m just saying that you know, well, in principle , no, i know, he really loved companies, yes, fun companies, he really liked to relax, he really liked to be the center of attention, he really loved to be. company and i was very inspired by this, of course, you wanted to be like him, yes, and he was a very authoritarian person, that is, everything in the house had to obey his will and nothing

else, that is, the father was in charge and the mother took care of the house, yeah, that’s it it was so and such a certain the ideal picture of the family was present, of course, this is not... as you say, dad was there, dad is no longer there, yes, dad died 10 years ago, you were 22, yes, i was 22 years old , for me it was the most, probably a big shock in life, well, such that in my life there is no longer a person who for me was, i can’t say that the ideal of a man, but probably the very first ideal, in childhood, yes, that a girl receives. that is, it was my father who gave me the state of protection, security, in childhood, yeah, so this is for i had such a certain state, on the one hand, on the one hand, fear, yes, as

now without it, on the other hand , liberation, freedom, because there was this authoritarian disposition, yes, that this is possible , this is impossible, only this way , study and so on. a dog that runs after a tram in melitopol recruits the local population, using a phrase from the scandalous series posters calling for contract service in the cossack brigade dnepr, they really exist, as if there is a completely different year there, 1918 ukraine-kharkov-nkvd shoots girls

belonging to the intelligentsia class. even from the composition, i clearly see a still from some modern film production. there could not have been such a form in pomina in 1918. antifake, premieres on monday on the first. he asked aunt mema, the girls would enjoy the scene, but then you will have to stand at the bar alone. one day, when the stripper was finishing his performance, lenny bruce suddenly appeared on stage, wearing what his mother gave birth to, i figured out how to absolutely get the girl into bed, you tell her, let’s just date without a bed, deliberate presentation of material. in order to arouse lustful interests, for example

, you will say, bring me a cheap prostitute, they may bring a writer with a beard, hey leni, i am taking you under arrest, such words are prohibited from being spoken in public places, i will be forced to find you guilty if i utter, what words? matador, ladies and gentlemen, leni bruss is on friday first. you are watching the podcast triggers with you, its host is tatyana krasnovskaya, psychologist, psychotherapist , psychologist, psychotherapist sergei nasebyan. we listen to lena and her story. your first did the relationship happen after your dad died? the first is no relationship, just, let’s say, a slight teenage crush, it happened before, but were there any guys you introduced to your father? there was not a single man whom i introduced to my parents. you pretended that these guys didn’t exist, you hid it from them or

just, well, just if i hadn’t hidden it, perhaps, i don’t know what kind of conversation would have awaited these young people, and i was probably afraid here in the first place , both for them and for yourself, well what dad should have done, well, understanding the words that i heard from him, that if only i would find out certain things there. then there will be some kind of conversation, i was very afraid of this conversation, what things, what should you have done, why did dad have to be there? well , firstly, i was always worried that they would not meet his expectations, then i can tell you as a dad, they definitely do not meet his expectations, it’s normal, i don’t know how it happened that i really chose, i it seems like this the most like that, well, as they say, right?

the conversation is there, but in their hearts, how could

i say that i don’t know there, i’ll do something like that, well, we’re being watched there now, i don’t know, millions of people, believe me, 99% of them, although once in your life you would have heard threats related to death from your parents, but it’s not obvious that they will kill you, but i’ll kill you if i find out that you smoked there or i’ll kill you, i ’ll throw you off the balcony from the window or well... well , it’s obvious that dad basically taught you to be afraid, yes, yeah, okay, apparently, well as if while dad was alive, you never managed to reach that level of perfection so that he would finally say: well, now i love you, now i praise you, now you can, no, you didn’t succeed, yeah, that’s what. .. the feeling of what kind of feeling

arises inside you when you understand that you never met, and that means you don’t meet now, and most likely you will no longer meet that high bar that your dad set for you, so how do you feel this conflict within yourself ? i really wish, of course, that it still i want them to say that they are proud of me, yeah, okay, after all, what if dad loved you? women, men, friends, girlfriends , it doesn’t matter, just remember, you don’t even have to call him by this person’s name, but remember someone, it could be there, i don’t know, aunt dasha, aunt zina, it doesn’t matter, anyone, yes , so you understand that dad likes her now, not in the sense of liking her as a woman, he’s pleased that she’s here, she laughs at her jokes, he laughs at her jokes, as you

saw, that’s how dad became, very kind, very kind, very cheerful and , in principle, a general sense of humor, this seems to me to be something... what distinguished him from other people, yeah, the most important thing that was so bright for me was his sense of humor, his skill , yes, in certain situations maneuver , and be able to laugh in any situation , because of course he told me such words, but we’ll go back to the fact that i ’ll kill you, but then, when i’m like everything’s ok, everything’s fine, he says, well, well done, okay, but it happened anyway. more like condescending praise, but not that a triumph there of some kind of genius of your talent , which dad would admire, well, yes, yes, and this feeling, this one that you describe as the desire to still fit in, is similar to the feeling you experience in relationships with men? yes, so good,

now, when you are talking to us, would you like, as a result of this conversation, to find this button, this trigger and turn it off so as not to feel this way anymore, or this... what are you trying to achieve, my main question is probably , and since, well, i read various literature, yes, i consider myself a strong person, i consider myself a strong woman, and yes, very often i hear in my surroundings that a strong person is usually attracted to weak men, strong women, i mean, weak men are probably the main question, this is how to be in such a situation, if i... don’t want to build relationships with the weak, in your opinion, an abuser - this will be a weak person, a weak man, so we just agree on this, a strong man, how would he behave in your opinion , i think that a strong man will not push, in order to get what he wants, that is, to get

a certain picture that he imagines , yes, that you should be like that, but if i have to be like that, maybe then we need... a person to be the way you imagine i imagined him, uh-huh, uh-huh, your dad was a strong man, yes, why then did he suppress your mother, again a good question, uh-huh, yes, a good question, yes, i already understand from your facial expressions when i ask the right questions, good , not even correct, good, i like it, they praise me today, well, it was probably easier for him, so that for it was easier for him to suppress his mother, well, yes, well then you leave. my direct question , after all, if he was a strong man, but still suppressed his mother, then somewhere you are confused, either then you evaluate men incorrectly today, or you allow dad what you do not allow other men, maybe you were obviously brought up in such a way that it is not difficult to force, slander , convince you to fry cutlets,

prepare breakfast, i don’t know, clean, wash, and so on, so that you are like a mother, but essentially, because your mother, as you say, was taking care of the house, you and i generally understand that she was. degree serving as such an element in the family, right? yes, i saw this exact role of a woman in front of me, but i myself am not like that, that is, this is what, probably, the very root of the question goes to the fact that i have my own business, i work and i am myself, i am quite still - well , such a straightforward person, i don’t like to keep things to myself, but when... in my last relationship i tried very hard to play this role as a mother, i really wanted that i was a wonderful wife, there already in my thoughts at that moment, it seems to me that i was already building this for myself and at the end, when i turned around, looked at the man,

just at the moment when i cooked borscht...