you are also depriving yourself of a very wide range of experiences that people and you need, well, it seems to me that loving is painfully simple, so falling in love is also very painful, listen, well, look, you love borscht, i love borscht, great, just imagine that you are sitting, eating borscht in a restaurant, very tasty borscht, and you like it, you have a real romance with the gathering, you love borscht, it may even seem to you at that moment that borscht loves you. uh-huh, at this moment i come and start eating the same borscht at the next table, uh-huh, and why are you jealous? you’ll start or something, well, no, you ’ll probably happily share your love for borscht, really, well, yes, so why then does it hurt to love a person, how does it differ from borscht, well, borscht can’t hurt, but a person can do it, because that a person has why - nothing, that well, as from...

an unrealizable desire to possess, of course you cannot possess, you can lock you there in a basement somewhere and know that i have you like that and love you because you ’re sitting in the basement, you really won’t feel very good in the basement, love should not be confused with desire to possess, love is what you feel, what fills you, when you begin to train in this very self-love, you will little by little, of course, melt your heart and... with a high degree of probability

a man will come into your life and this is wonderful, but this man is unlikely to come without instincts, i still know, no, i understand that he will come with instinct, i hope, yes, it would be a shame to deprive him of all instincts, that men without instincts, yes, it’s boring, you know, even while sergei was speaking, i imagined that i had there were just pictures like this, where is little elvira, she’s telling you, are we seriously not going to try again? are we seriously going to end like this and this is how these 100 years of ours will pass 100 years alone really never well of course we’ll try just for now it’s difficult yes it will be difficult then it’s difficult it was difficult last time it was difficult now it will be difficult it will always be difficult to love in general difficult because loving means giving. very often i don’t

get anything in return, but it’s only worth doing this for yourself, not for another person, but for yourself, to love yourself, when, when i am in love, when i love, this is the main core, you are watching the triggers podcast, with you its host sergey nasebyan and tatyana krasnovskaya. our guest is the beautiful elvira, who tells us a story about how difficult it is to love yourself as beautiful as you are now , sad, what to be sad about? well, about the fact that you probably gave up, well, you gave up once, now maybe it’s worth it, you know , in fact, if you gave up, you would stop biting yourself, because if, again, you ask, how, for example, love yourself how to accept yourself, well, this is where you have to give up, and you are always trying...

remember this child and tell him that you love, that you will be there, that you will support, try to avoid the words i will protect, on the contrary, tell me that no one is attacking us, yes, this is very important, because if necessary, it will work out, you have experience, you have dealt with so many difficult stories in your life, you can handle any result. but

there is no point in expecting him to defend himself in advance while sitting in a trench. your pain, in fact, i can just imagine what i really look like forever. not in a trench, in a tank, in the middle of a field of daisies, they tell you, you can go out and smell the daisies, you say, yeah, look happily through the combat hole, accordingly, at this whole world and think, no one is attacking at all, everyone is walking around, smelling daisies, and you think about who to shoot at, who you need to defend yourself from, you just need to get out of there. it's true, it's not easy, i agree, but it will open you up for you, that's what it's all about, because it's, you know, pain and love, they are generally felt in the same place, in the same organ, and if you were able to experience such an amount of pain, then this means that you can love, love very beautifully, and in general the most

beautiful love unrequited, keep in mind, because any reciprocated love eventually turns into a routine, into everyday life, into unrequited love. i don’t know, i loved you there. alice from this, what’s her name, guests from the future, well, in childhood, yes, well, she remained like that in my fantasies, a beautiful girl, in fact probably someone is not delighted with her either , but i loved, and this is the most beautiful love, and reciprocal love is good when you love yourself, because you will always receive a response immediately, and this is the only person who as if he would immediately answer you, and you will see directly, you know, this is how, if you...

didn’t try to build relationships, sit in a trench, it’s not fair, i’ll just try, what are you leaving with, with such a head, with ease, it probably made me feel better, you know, do something like this again, well, at least a couple do this practice for months, go to the mirror, look. yourself , you just start noticing what you like , there will be elements that you don’t like , your knees are pointing in the wrong direction, i don’t know, your leg is bent in the wrong direction, all this will happen, but mark what you like, let these will be some small elements, it doesn’t matter at all what, but at the same time, don’t

pay attention to what you don’t like, it, you don’t like it, you say, yes, yes, okay, we are now looking at that what do you like, do you like the left eye, here it is look at your left eye, at this time your mind will say, yes... we will deal with the right one later, look only at the left eye, little by little from the left eye it will begin to open up in general, in principle, what is it like to have such an attitude towards yourself, just do each day two of these exercises, the first is to confess your love to this girl, the second is to stand in front of the mirror, love what you really objectively like, because obviously you don’t see yourself as beautiful as we see, and i’m not only talking now ... thank you thank you very much for coming, for talking to us about this, this is not an easy story, not an easy task, but i am sure that if you start doing this, you will cope with this, really, thank you, thank you for being so open with us, thank you very much, thank you, thank you, i can you, yes, thank you, thank

you, thank you, you are very good, well done. greetings, this is a podcast chronicling the end of times, and i, evgeny dodolev, will tell you about gastronomic corruption in the soviet union, that is, about bribes with food. the fact is that now many people of my generation, and older people, and younger ones too, very romanticize the soviet era, everyone has forgotten about the total shortage. and often people are dissatisfied when they remember these rather humiliating moments, when it was impossible to buy some basic things, including sweets, this shortage in no way neutralizes or reduces the importance of the social state, which was the soviet union, with its

free medicine, with free education, with stability, and i also think that it’s important to talk about what i talk about is always my personal experience, i i’m just talking about what i remember, that’s what i noticed, that everyone remembers the same things differently, when i was working on memoirs... about perestroika journalism, i was faced with the fact that the same people remember different things in different ways, that is, the same people, i mean, the same age, the same social group, uh, colleagues who worked together, and we’re not talking about some, let’s say, there, well, uh, relatively speaking, selfish moments, no, some completely insignificant moments, well, like the fact that on this day it was cloudy, or , someone says, no, on this day, it was sunny, the weather was wonderful, or there is this table, it was made of oak, and not of

ash, well, relatively speaking , that is , some things are remembered in completely different ways, i want to emphasize again, i will talk about what i remember and how i remember, so, bribes with food, in fact, when i sat down in this chair now, i i thought that... the girls, this is not a waitress, this is a specially trained person, they lay out the sweets right

here, starting from the knees and ending with the nipples, where they put in the most delicious, i ’ll tell you about this bribe at the end, first about my first bribe, how it was, i was then working in the moscow komsomolets, headed the department of student youth, students approached me: from one of the moscow schools, who said that their teachers accused of pedophilia. i met with this teacher; this was the second time the students had come with their mentor. of course, there was no internet then, that is, i just had to go to this school, communicate with the director, with the teacher, with colleagues. i've heard a lot of different things. as a result, i made a fairly neutral essay, with the message that you can’t blame anyone at all without...

congratulations to you on your first bribe, in fact, there was a shortage in the soviet union

, a shortage of absolutely everything, including food, tangerines appeared, for example, only in new year, bananas and pineapples, some people simply tried it once, twice, three times in their lives, there were such formats as trips to moscow for food, for sausage, entire electric trains departed there. they found out that in koluga they threw out the balyk there, you flew there, shopped, bought 10 cans, this is how it looked, that is , there was not enough of everything, literally, including food, so... an offering before this was a very common format in the form of corruption. i remember one episode, this is also

from my journalistic biography, when i wrote about the so-called sochi-krasnodar case, this is the case of sergei medunov. well , the investigator called it the case of sergei medunov, because he headed the krasnodar region and was one of the suspects and accused later. so here it is there i noticed a number of very interesting episodes. some very clever georgian, he came up with this format of a bribe, that is, he brought a basket of offerings as if from his own, so to speak, garden, his farm, well, these were seasonal affairs there, there...

a very loud, so-called fishing business thundered about abuse, theft and corruption in the fishing industry, then in sochi the director of the ocean store, which sold seafood, was detained in sochi, and bribes also appeared there, including caviar, all sorts of sturgeon, it was very, very

widespread, and there were a lot of such episodes, now, of course, when - we know about some very large-scale corruption schemes, oh, bribes that are given there, almost islands, there and uh measured in billions, if we are in rubles we take it, then of course these episodes are funny, but i always say that what is important here is not the volume of the bribe, the very fact that if a person accepted a melon as a gift.

in my opinion, i went to central asia, to uzbekistan, where the largest investigative unit in the entire history of the soviet union was working then a team of the ussr prosecutor general's office, which was headed by telman kharinevich glyan and nikolai viyanimovich ivanov, investigators for particularly important cases under the prosecutor general of the soviet union. and, that is, in addition to

some of these episodes with melons there. with grapes, there were also bribes with food in the form of treats, that is, when the clearing was covered and the issue was resolved, also as if, well, you might say, well, is it really a bribe when they treat you, but here, firstly, the amount of treats was significant , then i repeat again, the fact itself, you ate, drank, and after this changed his mind or made some decision to the right person who was treating you, so i don’t care about...

rubles, that is, it’s like there are 100 cars, like a park, that is, well, the salaries were, let ’s say, me in the moskovsky komsomolets, i was the so-called part-time employee, because the rate was 130 rubles, that is, i received 65 rubles a month, and then i moved to the central committee of the soviet union, shift magazine , from this shift i just went to central asia on a business trip, and there my salary was 150 rubles, well, it was considered very... very good, so - here are 150 rubles and 150,000 and or 500,000 500,000 rub. that is, you had to work all your life in order to get a lot. there were bribes associated with ocean stores , in every major city there was such a fish store and

it was impossible to go there to buy, say , black or red caviar, they also joked about this, that why are you there , you don’t have black caviar for sale, no one asks for it, but at the same time, this caviar was supplied and sold at prices, let’s say, not those that were on the price tag and for... it was given bribes to make it possible to hide these products; the can of caviar itself was an excellent bribe, especially when it came to relationships with foreign partners. this is a podcast chronicling the end of times, i’m evgeniy dodolev, and today we remember how in the soviet union they gave bribes with food. at first. it was a high-profile case in the eighties, it was called the trigubov case, because it was the name of a moscow official who protected sokolov, the director of the so-called

elysee store, grocery store number one, this enterprise was officially called, 15 thousand people were brought to justice in the case of grocery store number one, this case was handled by the state security committee. although in fact, according to the logic of things , this obkhss should have been involved, that is , relatively speaking, the police, but since there was such a pronounced political aspect here, it was a confrontation between grishin, the then owner of moscow, the first secretary of the moscow city party committee, who was applying for the position of leader of the country in the future, because it was already clear by that time that... he left at the end of the eighty-second year, but already somewhere from the end of the eightieth year it was clear

that he would have a successor, and yuri vladimovich andrpov, the former head of the kgb of the ussr, saw himself in this position, and accordingly, his task was to somehow then neutralize grishinsky.

journalists, that is, to receive this id, because i was not a komsomol member, my biography simply turned out that way that i was expelled from the pioneers, from the pioneer organization.

komsomolskaya pravda, which was the organ of the central committee of komsomol, here is me caught smoking portagaz, they were cuban. very cathedral and i was expelled at the ceremonial line, in the morning they assembled the line, put on a tie on me, which i did not wear a pioneer tie, well , because it was meant that already in the senior detachments it was somehow not a camelloe, that is, it exists in view of what the baby was wearing there , in short, they put a tie on me, not mine, because i didn’t have one of my own, and solemnly took it off there to the beat of drums, they said some words about how i ’m not worthy and just laid it down.

as the newspaper moskovsky komsomolets was then called, and before that, not being a komsomolets member, for any bribe, for any cognac, for any sausages, i could not enter the educational institution in which i wanted to study, i... was fond of mathematics, i saw my future as a mathematician and dreamed of studying at moscow state university, they simply didn’t accept my documents there then, they simply said that since i was not a komsomol member, i couldn’t study at the most prestigious school in the country, moreover, they didn’t accept my documents even at moscow aviation institute, where then my mother taught, they also said that in the future we are working there in space,

every graduate - this business of the elysee grocery store, the number one grocery store, generally captured the imagination of not only my journalists, but also the lawyers also discussed it very much, from happiness this scale was postulated that the kgb security officers, lubyanka, who were involved in this case, they were also settling scores with the employees of the ministry of internal affairs, who were very immersed in this corruption topic, and... the kgb, in any case

, thought so, and even academician sakharov, who was generally a dissident and an opponent of the soviet system, he emphasized that there was no corruption in the kgb, in the state security committee. the security officers, when they started this case, they at the same time not only attacked trade workers, but also their competitors, opponents from other law enforcement agencies, including from. bss, because it was the abkhss workers who took bribes, specifically in food, there, of course, there were real bribes, that is, these thick envelopes that were brought to sokolov, the director of grocery store number one, but and they were products, because often a person had money, for example, but he could not buy with this money, well, let’s say, the

same caviar, that is. had to know people in order to buy something in short supply with this money, because in the stores, i repeat, there were empty shelves in the same eliseevsky, and in many others, this deficit was created artificially, precisely so that later it was possible to sell something under the counter, it wasn’t at market value then, because pricing was centralized and prices were simply set. there , uh, once a year, i think in the month of april, prices for something went up, everyone was always waiting for this announcement that there, from april 1, bread would cost so much, kefir , so much, so the problem was that yes, you could have money, but if you wanted to eat pineapple, or dine on tenderloin, you had to know people, people from,

say, a butcher. some person from the meat department or people in the eliseevsky store who could sell you this pineapple, not at any time of the year, but - at in principle, it was possible, it was possible to get these things , and at the same time, many of my acquaintances and journalists and, in general, comrades, struck the imagination of their foreign acquaintances, especially visitors from the west, by the fact that they could roll out these some unimaginable delicacies, because that even now i don’t take mine... how much did such a small jar of iranian or russian caviar cost in the city of london or in the city of new york, but here , at the very least, for some rubles, even if not for those that officially cost this, could this buy and what is called covering a clearing, bribes with food existed not only in the form of, i don’t know, this notorious loaf of sausage or a bottle of cognac, they still existed. in the format

of a clearing, that is, when a table was set, a person was invited and the person was treated to some kind of food, this did not happen in a restaurant, because...

paper letters, the letters department sorted them out, some kind of honor was held there, here is the bottom part,

it was sold, and there was a clear tax, in my opinion it was measured in some kind of alcohol, i to be honest, i didn’t dive in. into these nuances and also somehow it was not considered a bribe at all, because again it was meant, as with the order of lenin in tashkent, in uzbekistan, it was not meant that any musical team there or any performer, simply completely unknown and having not created anything, he could come to the editorial office on 1905 street in the moscow komsomol, there to bring shavyren a box of candy. or a bottle of scarce whiskey to get this coveted line, no, he had to be known more or less somehow, some there were so-called magnetic albums, but in principle it was sold , there was an attitude towards this that

now seems completely impossible to me, that is, very condescending, that is , well, it was considered, well, yes, well, you kind of want to eat, the salary is 65 rubles , that's all here. was eaten and drank afterwards by the entire editorial staff, that is, we were all , in some way, accomplices, as they say in criminal slang, so now it’s even strange for me to remember that on the one hand there was a builder’s code communism, in general, according to the concepts , it seems to me, soviet people were much brighter, i don’t want to offend today’s youth, but... there were some ideas about good and evil, about mutual assistance, so it was difficult to imagine that there would be a drunk a man was lying on the street and they stepped over him, no one there shook him off on a bench, didn’t sit him down, not to mention rummaging through his

pockets, as i read, this happens there now almost every day, that is, with one on the other hand people seemed to be more honest, on the other hand the parties are very lenient towards those things like... which now, from my perspective today, seem in general, well, not just outrageous, but well, unacceptable, let’s say, by the way. uh , in order not to get up twice, as they say, i have to explain about the soundtrack and moscow, how i got there, uh, with my mathematical education , i got a job at the state committee for foreign affairs, the computer center realized that i don’t do mathematics there, i i only deal with potatoes there, this is potatoes - this is when people in employees - they went there to collect some agricultural products, they sent us to some community work days, well, that is... in general, it was not about mathematics at all, i quit there, it was impossible not

to work in the soviet union, that is, if you if you don’t work anywhere officially, then you’re from tunyan, you could get a prison sentence for that, that is, first there, in my opinion , there was some kind of fine, then you could get a real prison sentence, so i had to get a job at least somewhere so that my work book lay somewhere, here is my friend fedorov, who was the deputy dima shavirin on the sound road, he suggested that i get a job at a newspaper, which for me , as i will repeat once again, became evidence that times are ending, because even there 2-3 years ago it was impossible for a person who was not a member of the lksma , fell into the structure of agitprop, especially since then, if we are talking about food and alcohol, then vineyards were cut down, a shortage of liquor stores was created. artificial, that is, the top party

leadership of pole birochem did everything possible to simply finish off the country , in order to turn the population against itself as much as possible, that’s why it’s so easy, in fact, the country fell apart in the ninety -first year, because no one was ready to defend it, by the way, it’s an amazing thing that the same zhenya fedorov, who also worked on the sound track, he as a matter of principle he never repaid. i’m not talking about him like that because he’s my friend there and he got me a job in a newspaper about how, in general, all people don’t condemn, let’s say this gastronomic corruption, they treated it differently, someone thought that he this can get by, maybe because zhenya fedorov was a gmo graduate, his dad was there in the military attache, and he saw all this sausage in the required quantities all his life, maybe that’s why. i don’t know, i’m not going to dive into this analytics here, what i

mean is that this phenomenon existed, when i started this conversation, i wanted to say that the end of times means that they stopped giving bribes to journalists, then i realized that i'm very mistaken, because here i am - i mentioned mori at the very beginning, it was the last bribe, or rather an attempt to give me a bribe from the outside - well, let's say, an oligarch of the light category, it was 2000... the seventh year and i then worked for the oligarch sergei sergeevich radionov, there was a publishing house of radionov, where there were a lot of magazines and business magazines, such soviet brands, how many were like peasant women, the brownie magazine was bought already in my memory, but there were so-called men 's magazines, one of them licensed and two of our men's magazines, at some point i... headed this publishing house in quality the publishing director, that is

, in general, something like that, he managed it easily, and one of the rich, let’s say, acquaintances of the owner, knowing that the owner is very jealous of those girls who appear on the covers of men’s magazines, that is, he wanted his wife to appear there regularly, but she...

or i don’t remember now, that is, you don’t, not with your body, as if you take it with chopsticks and only with chopsticks, naturally you could take it with any hands, i immediately understood where the conversation would go when... joined us - the singer was such a rising star at that time, a very quickly descended star, i immediately figured out that they were actually introducing us to her, because she was a candidate for one of the covers, so that the conversation would directly approach this, but i think,

on the one hand, it seems like, well it’s somehow stupid to refuse to drink sake and eat sushi, on the other hand. as if, having received this gastronomic bribe, i would be obliged to do something, to be honest, i was outraged to the core, because the cover in the publication in which it was meant could have appeared as a friend of this oligarch ulight, it cost 30 thousand dollars there, the covers, i will officially explain, were not sold, but the advertising always had such an option. that a whole advertising package was sold there, for $3,000 people bought some kind of modular advertising in some publications as a bonus, this was not recorded anywhere in any contracts or agreements, it was based on concepts, it was simply said that there would be a cover receipt, and to be honest, i don’t know how much

this very sea costs, but well, definitely not 30,000 dollars, i was generally outraged that i they are trying to manipulate like this. i must say that i didn’t tell my employer about this, because well, the person didn’t get the cover, we ate sushi and, uh , drew conclusions for ourselves, so uh , gastronomic corruption, as i suspect, it remained on a global scale, just the scale and ingredients have changed, it was a podcast of the chronicle, the end of times, and we talked about bribes with food,

hello, this is a podcast of witnesses from einstein, my name is natalya ryabchikova, i am a film historian together with my colleague stanislav didinsky we talk about who created it and how. classic, famous, little -known, forgotten soviet and russian films, and today we have a program that is not quite ordinary, not quite an ordinary podcast, because today we have a living person as a film archive, we will talk about the film “it’s hard to be a god” by alexei yuryevich german and we will talk about him with leonid yarmolnik. good evening, good evening, good evening, our first question, of course, should not concern the film, we should approach it.

said that our picture is even more complex from the point of view in terms of audience perception, for example , my wife, she adores herman’s films because she is an artist, she, i generally believe that he shot feature films using documentary means, for this he had special cameramen, fedosof, with whom he worked for many years , and not without my participation, yuri viktorovich klimenko joined this team, who shot almost, well... half of this picture, some things i understood, some things i didn’t understand, we quarreled a lot because we had different views, well, how am i as an actor who should to experience doing something on camera, we had different ideas about how it was experienced. was there soviet science fiction , or rather, were soviet films about space

fantastic, yes, because it seems that even herman’s film, on the one hand , it seems to be a fantastic story about how an earthling gets caught. such a story , that’s what attracted you, i’ll tell you more, this is strugatsky again, this is not another planet, this, this is us, this, this is what they knew everything about, and this is not about the planet, but o people who are so different, well, that is , there are people to whom civilization should be grateful, there are those monsters who are destroying this civilization, and naturally, as it was necessary to come up with, that this is where history does not coincide several centuries ago, which means this is rumata, who seems to want to change the life of this planet, it doesn’t work out, it doesn’t work out not because he can’t, but because he doesn’t...

repent, well, that is, there were several options, what the tobacconist said, from the tobacco street, from tobacco street, yes, yes, that's good, that the film was filmed for 14 years, i convinced him over 14 years that, firstly, this is not only respect and love for the strugatskys, it is immediately clear what we are talking about, about such a brilliant work, the attention to this film is already different, to this title, let's maybe look at the very beginning, a small fragment, to also make it clear to the audience. what are we talking about, this movie is not easy, i tell my close friends, this is not the earth, this is another planet, the same as the earth, but not catching up

with it by 800 years . there were several similar planets, this was closer and smaller. except in addition, the local gray castles led to the idea of ​​​​the beginning of a revival. and three dozen scientists were brought here. there was no birth here, there was a reaction to something that almost didn’t happen, well, yes, i wanted to return to the question about the actors, about how editing also gives us the opportunity to see, discern the acting or not , that’s just if talk about the beginning of the science fiction of space flight on the soviet screen, that is, it all began in silent cinema, even before... soviet cinema, there was a small, revolutionary cinema, there was a flight to the moon, yes, but if we talk about this

bringing some kind of progress, an attempt to change the world, then when tolstoy writes about the elite, and partazanov then makes a film adaptation, they also don’t talk, in fact about mars, they also talk about simply spreading revolutionary ideas as far as possible, and it’s impossible not to insert that very soviet one there.