on foot, i live near frankfort and i'm trans split to it. that means the gender i was assigned to birth is wrong, but it doesn't fit this time. i don't have a gentleman who's this. how can use list of the it's nice. there's nothing there. this is okay, i know that now, and it's okay that there's nothing like that because the past, the term that fits best as a gender non buying, they're usually tools. i don't know if it's in my g mazique. i definitely didn't choose any of the i the set scans on this one, then have a still not so much

lindsey, but it is possible for me to go to and i walk across the street and people look at me and want to categorize me as a man, and i've always and whenever i'm out in public and i noticed that i'm seeing is a man that people address me is that some young man, it's monday about a distance. that's what people think. when they look at my body type this cup a bit, that's what i want it and want to achieve it's advice and video to it's been the full mismatch. scully believes in savannah, i'm very happy not to be seen as a woman anymore. how about being seen as a man isn't quite right either this or any of us took the most people don't see that there's another option in housing, but there are more than just to generalize the mist mentioned. i know that most people aren't being mean i funny, they just don't understand about what happens over and over and over again in the past, i find it to exhausting to endure all the time. also her the status

my, how long is this is my hormone, jones, me didn't talk of. i've been putting it on my arms every day for a year now. and it's me, my voice deeper, mazda, so i understand i can grow beards down. just move on to the the oh, i know it's something i mean, i'm dr. websites. yeah. basically just the way she gets files. yep. so try it. tasha. yeah, thanks, susan. this is it's been hard to hear via the car today because i'm due for

a mistake to me. check up. i have everything removed in the doctor's checking to make sure everything is one of the highest of must be a mice and i'm, i'm crap. i understood enough because they bothered me most about my body apart from my voice, with the breasts fisting simply because i couldn't either because it was too much. and the people says that, oh my god, you must be a woman because there are presents, there are only got the most santa falls on men to buy a house on the spot. i'll ask them give, it was just an area that i never considered my body cup that never belonged to me, but that was never a part of i need. i'm tired from you and the surface was human, vic, to me said, i always wanted to go and cook. i believe my own body should make me feel comfortable and secure. she lives in the system is f of the bottom few the in the as soon as i found out that there was something i could do about that this, it was very liberating. the select some, but as the once i knew it was possible that i could do it by own like,

it was clear to me that i wanted to go through with kind of this my home on the inside of my milk science. build us all the photos of the really don't like seeing photos of me where the breasts are still clearly visible along the name. i don't like boxiness because i just see a completely different person under because of a stranger theme you sent us on this. we don't want to present myself that way either who's present to you in the state. that's why i'm covering my face a little bit of a stuff because it just doesn't feel good brothers. i have to scroll down for manual that's about any pets, isn't that for us to wear, like having a 3rd arm or something finished, something completely wrong in my body. i couldn't touch the lesson that's consistent. when i looked down at myself when i just thought it was terrible, i really couldn't cope with it it on there was something i hid from everyone on his stomach throwing himself selling it on the suspect. open robin, would you come with me? hello. hello. so thank you my i'm, are you okay this way right in here? so i, if you go under via phone and take

a seat here on the left. perfect. how are you? how are you doing? great so far? yeah, yes. i assume your quality of life as an approval normally michelle yeah, yes, very much cover. my body feels completely different to me and i can touch it all and it feels good. it feels like me. oh, you're close to probably. yeah. yeah, totally haven't the shirt wouldn't have worked before because my shoulders are brought her down and the ones who need different sized clothes last night in class, i'll have to figure out where to find something that fits managed by spending time with me sitting in front while it looks good on you. you where it? well, actually i'd like to see how things are looking right now. for that i would ask you to take off your shirt and 5. so let's, let's estimate assessment for the cup is the 1st time i saw my flight upper body was at the hospital for hours after surgery. i'm still p, shawn. i didn't have a mirror. let me just have the can speak is i could put down the front when i noticed that these mountains were gone. i'm

a ton of the back of it. and then i could see my belly button. i'm just going to men bolton out of the. yes. why it felt like so i'm coming home actually assess this the opposite. the scars have faded quite a bit. so i notice there's a bit of stretching here. right. so yeah, probably because i'm right handed. assigned to that. so it looks like you massage this well in the meantime as i recommended to think, oh, i think the scars will get better with time. association fee can continue massaging them. but overall, i think your upper body looks more masculine. edit suits you very well. thank you. that safety, fiscal always pretty tough and i think for those with this issue, the most important thing is simply to be accepted, but they don't want to take away anybody else has freedom and i, they just want to be appreciated and accepted in their own freedom of this isn't some kind of frivolous process, it involves getting many expert opinions, changing or legal status, and who knows what else of each other. it's just not something you decide to do on a women's go and try that. that should be well, if you need anything,

come back any time to eat outside. thank you. thank you. it is, i'm not a new person. my personality is still the same, but this shadow self is finally gone. as i skipped the color to design, there are those who say i just want attention and sometimes is specifically about being a non binary person identity and gauge about it. so when you look at how long the journey i am parked on really is them on this, on what it takes to get where i am now finished. that's just so much was on. they didn't choose. this is from voice been this is sophia and no, i don't want attention on line semester kind of make some kind of just name list. i didn't even go through with all these operations just to get some attention off. my son cut the human side. so applies in young time when i was between 13 and 23 was the worst of

my life. even somebody not just one of my old school advice and images always in the middle and high school here for 5 or 6 years from 6 out along the off their loan bank. they're on the blue bench and that's where our cost would hang out at lunch. time, but it was always an outside or in the loan. a bunch of other email just opposite brings back old emotions as a news feed. i'll just have that kind of a one bedroom. i only have any friends because they all thought i was weird illusion and my classmates would often just make up words to tease me. you know, think i forgot to phone. one word for example, was farmer. because i didn't shave my legs, sign on, was considered on hygenic somehow in any of the a tough on its own conflict. guided me about feet,

it will make fun of me. that would be invited to a party that wasn't even have i smelled. and for this one, so in the not potty and then so for an option that will be taught to me if you listen to you can further on you know, started when i was young. i realized i didn't fit in with the girls, and i didn't fit in with the boys. the girls just did girls stuff and i found it strange mass. linda's fun, but i wasn't at home with the boys either. i'm already used by the office. i didn't know where i belonged to him as if i were to tell me, i still haven't processed that yet. it's deep within me. so it's no teeth. and it's been like i used to put into it and they couldn't talk to me, appear in this family or friends as

a kind of want because i didn't know how to put it into words. that is, does this was the news was what i'm going to i didn't fit in anywhere. he was sort of stuck in limbo because i couldn't stand out. so i started trying to fit in with the girls because that's where i supposedly belong. i had a job, i'm trying to find me. it's a flutist anchored and we look at these photos. it's always very strange mac. i think that's the best word for it. the best of what the fear via because i know that to me, and that's part of my past. but i've lost my connection to this. savannah forgotten i had good about it. have to do for been so fellow on. i don't talk about myself as a girl either each and because i never was want to. i never was, i never will be. it's bonnie ions is that only and sign and that's why i don't use my old name anymore. important because it's just not relevant anymore. now, but of this i finished 1011, so anyone else could soon understand some point in 2018?

i left home and i thought to myself, hey, i don't know any people who work. we're in the mentioned to me and i came across close 41 in frankfurt stores. then from 1st the 3 of us you sent for queer youth center, a safe place for people who work a bi, sexual, a sexual trans or non veneer tongue. so who's been as ins gonna for me all started here, 2 and a half years ago, the youngest on the phone, just as estimate here. the 1st time i was here, there was an introductory meeting. it was at that meeting that i met people who weren't, we are for the 1st i asked my yellow to calculate the confusing um one for more importantly, people who are trained some more like me, diesels into the is my little world kind of exploded and it is and it was like, wow, i think on trans to slope, but not a trans ma'am. as being 10 i started googling and research quite a bit on the internet to see what's out there. oh, guns,

few intended to associate. so i quickly came across the term non binary series, often because miss been yeah. and that word on tied a huge not within making excuses and cannot into any type. the good news perhaps as the s less can see that light is still 1st. it was a big relief when done. com and i was afraid of the youngest. because the moment i knew this about myself, which this was, i also knew i couldn't go back and double key that wouldn't work for me just a minute. to look in this deed of men's, i had to tell my boyfriend, delighted. i had to tell my family. well, i had to tell my friends who was this man of a medium. it was time to let the cat out of the bag glendon ends on most of this up club in cousins. they sent it said confound from chris and i have been together for 5 years now. i asked for, and i only came out to him about 2 and a half years ago in the outage. i just mean my partner with transwestern crestwood

all, madison. i showed him videos of people who were non binary of these because it was important to me that you get to know that as well. and, but this maybe this value is super interested and super supportive as well inside. and we'll see, hey, all right, well figure it out somehow. what do you need of? how can i help you in my cries, because i hadn't expect of that. and then it was just like a horse. it. yeah, that was incredible. yeah. what's the city moment? what was it like for you? and i told you when i told you i was track, that's up to something ok for that from it listed. um it's definitely a lot to absorb. we just had no idea of what that meant for as and how things would change by should i accept the challenge or the challenge, i'm gonna have to say this. anything change for you between us because of in the thing? no, no, just a life event, but nothing traveling is ex covian and then not in my name is it may i see your

name, but i don't consciously think about this anymore, but it's more subconscious now because it's still you saving and strange that i have a deep voice mails to my hot the mattresses on the system again as well as your questions to be honest. i don't even notice so tiny meg with the i don't remember what your voice was like before closing time. i just have it in my hand type stuff in my little image, i have a view right now as also replace the one and my memories. nothing on the, on the sides. when i think back to the time before the changes, you still look the same as you do now if you do it by myself, cuz it's all a fish design because that's what my head thinks is, right? it's like, it's always been this way. the read in the mind, fish corbin and you back over to tech. at 1st i was confused when robin came out to me and said that because they had no experience with the whole thing and the incumbent file of a. but i learned all the terminology and all the things that go with it. and again, just as rather not to i'm hanging i was just looking down like

a few less and then level and what am i feelings for each other and especially my feelings from robin were not affected because for me the person is always in the for grant and it depends on who knows, looks like there is more to a person than just their gender. so of course after robin came out initially i didn't question or feature because it didn't matter to me what the others talked about as a couple 100 bucks. yeah. and then so it was very clear to me that we would stay together and decided let us finish and we can kind of thing just go through. i'm glad i kept up this about seats in the income for a while. i wondered whether this could even work to outside or so we'd always been hetero. yeah. social norm because that we knew that was going to change and of course that does affect the relationship of to this office, but did you? so the question was, how do we do with a v? i think for most people, the whole trans issue is still very for us in man on 50 because it's just most of

the if and the mac symptoms. yes, there is more acceptance. active tons of but acceptance is not understanding. this is, there's a different used to skip the membranes. people keep getting assaulted with tons of kids and it's not just the other day in frankfort on the trans women was attacked right on the street discipline. you seem discrimination like that makes me so angry me. so uh, but also very, very sad, told me i realize other people were denying me the right to have my own identity. my own life feed up, taking me and my lima things aren't going well politically, either off to pretty much the kind of quinn's look at a hungry or colon gun at a point on roland is currently setting up eligibility to frequently be chiefly, it's on line where people who work, we are not welcome you as an alpha induced and a yeah. so, so what is that going to duty? you think you're not welcome here in the world. you think you're not allowed to exist on the success to you know,

if you try this kind of absolutely been discriminated against, but in many ways, i mean it's pretty simple. come on them. whenever i get letters, it's always a very strange feeling for me then because they always call me the wrong thing to say to my wife has on the 12 investments and this, and i'm like, i think it would be best if that were simply a minute. it's not because it's not necessary and when needed, i use neil pronoun, but not this new one on this and there's a whole list of them because they let father put on. they get to my god. i chose the pronoun and it helped me at the spelled n i, and also google as an investor, for example, instead of saying that he plays with his dog. and that would be in place with means don't stucco, kinda smack i'm on the phone. sure that might seem complicated at 1st one, but with a little practice can you get used to us? so pushing it in one time on business and the comforts on that also can, i think getting out of your comfort zone is the least you can do to except the 1st on tying this active tip. but sylvia is saying that it has, it's just a little word means we can change so much. let's, let's know,

i'm kind of lost my surface and then con, ma'am we've incorporated so much english into the german language. language is always changing. i can't understand how you can be so ignorant and how you can have such a hard time with adding a few words to your vocabulary and human level. it's no common thing. even mama leave up. how about your mom do dad? i'm running this letter to you so that you can take, however much time you need as you read, i guess my type name cont, as such as a few things for them. i was very afraid of coming out to my parents because i knew that they had no contact with your people at all. so you had mentioned, how was it the company didn't even know anyone who has gash woods and somebody should be. that's why i didn't talk to them 1st of the assessment, then i decided to write them a letter because i didn't want to experience their 1st reaction by this the estimate. so in this upcoming budget is being kind of how i'm not a woman. i've been ok, but i'm also not a man like i for india, i remain simply who i am, who i've always been to the for less than always so that i may change my appearance

and so, but i am still the same child. you have always loved invoice, tie, it may take your time and get in touch. when you want to know more about this is when shamia does the image and i wish that you will accept me for who i am is without having to justify myself to you. i love you is need boyce robin hobbin to meet you, but that's in the attempt to my surprise, my parents responded very well, my mind and what type of screen 1st my mother wrote me on with them. this thing is she told me she loves me very much and thank me for the letter. thank toughening fees on mind. couple of other than my dad said he didn't care because nothing had changed all of this by the image infinity. it won't lose me except because i'm still his child and it was like, yeah, i need to end up spinning as i can when that result a lot of great boost. hello me, i'm me gets i'm doing well when yours. when isn't that?

from logarithm my parents didn't worry though that this might not be the right thing for me to do. mostly i found that they just didn't know me well. i know it can come. i talked to them a lot and told them that, you know, this is right for me is like me, is just trust me. you know, this, this felt like me down and how does it mean? and then they did trust me once and now they can see that i'm doing better despite its talk soon. bye. choose the machine, my endocrinologist today. 3 can you check my blood work every 3 months route and gives me a new prescription for my hormones? gets up somebody the homeowner conduct the flu? yeah. 17. 0 um. do you have a video that are recorded and edited myself,

where you can see and hear the changes the hormones have made on, especially in my voice is off and the times and stimulate create some kind of book as name, there are no real side effects. the hormone treatment will flush ice time, only thing i'm worried about as being dependent, just as i said, i think it's been, as it's been opinion here, i'm dependent on doctor is giving me a prescription so i can keep taking hormones. name come on. donald has been around as well are sometimes i'm worried. what would happen if that were to stop somehow or i couldn't get them anymore. assistance makes me you my son. so i did come to the counter

to come here and then let's mon, i remember last time you reported that you were still not quite satisfied with the effective this hormone therapy, in your case testosterone. that's the whole disorder. and severe non editor. yeah. the dosage was lower than that, it was indeed lower of new things and i wasn't doing so well. i had some mood swings in so to leave this place in order, let's talk about increasing the doses. that's possible. as long as we monitor things, this would contribute district for images. for me, it's important to note that being trans is neither a disease nor a disorder. i see it as a normal bearing and experienced by some members of our society. it's just a way of being in the world often in science. thank. uh it's my 1st time climbing since i mistake to me. without the breast,

it's very different. listening to me still come, since i don't have to focus on how it looks or what's in the way, i can just call him without anything interfere in the kitchen. when is this the good? yeah, this is the best and funding go to top. i felt very supported when i came out to my best friend and, and things changed very quickly. that's easy enough. and then she asked me directly what me and program she should be using now the vision and how i define myself and the different theater itself. and i think it breaks the ice between us a little more funny uh, being one of the 1st people to find out about it was the ultimate proof that you trusted me. okay. so the following up on us was ups is i'm gonna didn't change anything in the friendship itself. if anything has been deep and did a bit this in. yeah, yeah,

i think so to call the field follow reading definitely seems to be a lot happier in that piece. with each passing day, you notice more and more just how well robin is doing. now, scrubbing netscape, so miss from and crew a i've definitely come into my own defeat and body and soul. yeah. but in society it's a different story. yes, i have reached my personal life most, but i still have to fight until this goal is valued by others. so i can be accepted just as i am. so i can simply be a land lease even been in the system, signed the the the

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