these wells reaches the people there on the move to change this, the paralegals of sierra leone posts up this weekend on the dw, the the that is happening in that tides in dallas, during those really difficult times myself arrangements funding, it's about supply and best buys. when i called it, my problem is always ringing and miss with it. i promised myself that i'm not today . i wouldn't take my own life and these and talking indeed miss nemo students, i still make that for almost every day. and that has a very special meaning for me is to have a thought to and from is that to?

yeah, it's been, my name's, i've seen that i'm 22 years old. yeah. and i still do psychology at mazda of university is inside of me every day. i face lot of so just leave every day i choose life is to and i'm actually a very cheerful person. but if i had to describe myself in the policy, let's say i was someone suffering by the depression and it's amazing disordered as strongly as coverage. i think i'm on the right tall, big or fenced in a long way to go. but i do believe i'm home. the right office in the and the life coming away from the from yet does minutes. since i get to dollars when i was 16, when i had kind of capex and i also didn't even realize that i was crossing myself because of him, that was a way for me to deal with my emotion based including ones. i didn't want anyone to

see him as soon disappeared. i have seen less than 1000000 self as might sound controversial of the behaviors, save my life. got them on this. i don't mean to say that it was right or a good way to deal with emotion with aptis inside it went through and the also the right way this little to turn to someone on the and in an emergency to go to a clinic of other months solution effects, as long as it should be fine if you're choosing between the desk themselves, home mumbles, and you know how died on the list for other people. if you took your own life and you draw the choose the option that can come well you might end up in hospital, but you're still alive. how many most? and that's what i did. the 1st month there, you might help. you can help chop to

sophia, i didn't buy any. you can come fresh cold. do you have anything else you can put on it otherwise we still have the yeah, yeah, well good, really. this one here with some and then me live here with 5 of the go. so to 6 testing upon and we're like little family, very close. emily. she is. feel very comfortable here because there's always someone to talk to it as middle of what you want. there's always someone that you think of, i'm just really, it's just a nice to be like to have found that sounds great people that live with them. one golf as with as much to feel comfortable and they're saying like, don't take, don't around. it's lisa as percentage to revise. no. oh we went into have a toast and we need some glasses please. oh, okay. first of course to the successful weekend to uh to the apartment looking the way it does again

and all the chaos we overlooked. the fact that sophia has been living here for a year. you go to the apartments of southern beaches. glad you found your way here. thanks for letting me loose club as a fashion here. i'm going, sophia moved in here. she was already in a relatively good place for electrical or vice cups. otherwise i don't think she would have made the decision to move in with strangers so far are ways. so, you know, they make such a big legion to a completely new lives. some of the dumbest thing shows on the internet decisions you may dump down, mess with something she really wanted to do on voice is reinforced at a small prophetic tom mazda of these. he'd already made that decision for herself, and we supported her the note on touch to me choosing life simply means i want to be here. i want to experience joy, the sadness, everything cards, it's all part of life. so i can definitely so that in sylvia as a feel for you and fire. yeah. as we checked in the country,

i said also at the accounts when i was deep into my eating disorder. and for me, guessing i also have not just sort of was about to choose online specifically. i wanted to share of what i was going through. that's including the release that my life goes on to that nice the way i want to the other people i to hear about 2 months of payments. but i know that most of all the consumer wants to know anyone who pays a couch in the next 2 weeks from an excel. larry stimuli live on a quick while. i think it would be cool to live alone. just tell the designer won't be able to do is at some point of a right now. i feel a bit too insecure. i'm sure. now the most that you do have to try these the, i'm always on a bit of a tight road bus. so i wonder, what should i try, what am i capable of the tone? when should i believe all myself and what is the deal too dangerous the status of a surprise? i know i'll get the stuff i will be able to live in the that is possible kind of

best as much as you of the toughest positive. i think i was like, you know, trick clinics for 11 and a half. so about a year, i always wanted to come across as perfect that i had to put it in canada. if not, everything was great. and that was destroyed by the fact that i ended up in the clinic between account it's got kind of the clinic when i was deep into my eating disorder. there wasn't a 2nd in my life that i was free of it. i was constantly thinking about it constantly did i of i couldn't stop. she liked, i wouldn't lie awake at night, thinking about food as would it be felt like every thing happened, sprinkled with corey's father instead of asking some gift the spring canals on the same goes for depression and he's when it takes over everything in your life when last a face to face and you can no longer enjoy

a move and feel fulfilled. you feel like a show a food fruits and when that's the case, it makes complete sense to things like, okay, that's nothing name. it has been, this is where i'm getting my 1st to say, and it's going to be the left is m c l 5th full can push them instead of me choosing life, which also ties into the industry. the challenge was i'm saying i owe you something you know high res, you ok? yeah. you can see that k. oh okay. is it is for i think it's the left is m c l lowercase it is on the wrong sinus fever. hm. okay. okay. what size also can be fine, cuz that's part of the task and just have it as,

as far as the least goals are coming out. it's about 9 months. again, i was scared at the beginning and she came on this website is because one of the same for $10.00 was mom and i was conscious of my arms and legs. and i'll find time when we're done. if it's, you know, within 2 or 3 months of doing it every day, it's changed, confusing, old customer, and then the 5 times it, people see the scholars have been not the home. and then the, on my mind on the right, maybe what was the hours have some mustang of political subscript. it's kind of, it's a waste of a bit of a parent adult. and i couldn't look at myself in the mirror for a while and because i hated myself and best phone and you'll all have scholars for the rest of my life. my god. when i have children, all the, the mom with the sick on. so it's an outline what as far as the interview and i was about, and i'm living and feeling just this isn't the healthy part of me, doesn't want to have the skills and does he want to identify with the appalled absolutely wants to have the stalls and one by the identifying with them that both

of my thoughts as me and i showed with these patients, it's crazy like that's how this forever i clean your to to and we can make small lines. ok, well it was easily move assumption moments of realization. i'm standing here and can proudly say, so i've chosen life so that starts with lack of boost. i never would i be able to guess attached to because i never thought i wouldn't get it to this phone so you can get out to these like com dosage i've done tend to have them kind of still hear those. the also listen have my hopes, racing, and i'm shaking a bit of i'm nervous just because a lot happens here that has negative association as well. yeah. you got to have in

the low, darling we go distance appointment. i think the worst moment was here in the clinic . when you have the address is you know, there, i say it and i saw, oh my god, how emaciated you were in the veins. everything was blue. they couldn't take your blood vain. and so alice low, you haven't got it. you couldn't dick, i can pull it up there, but yeah, i have to pump pension the toes that because of the blood, had retreated into your torso. so with that, so your body live in a comparative emergency alarm system because after that i really light on coming here. i just couldn't hear gunning people. you have a to say a is the thing you, it was like, okay, is she slaves now? so for me it was helps you to learn and started to take and quit tie up. you know, i don't take is if i don't you don't know something else. my dad, my dad was also diagnosed as depression some time ago. do you close to to sign type for nissan, part of myself and daughter. saw how withdrawn g look this up as can knew what that

feels like with me. i'd hope that wouldn't affect her, but when it hit her, it would not be able to me. i'd 16th off, i mean there's always guns cuz i have you spoken to the doctor about the have i have an appointment sonya we've been isn't what are you okay to look at some stuff that might come up for you about them through this moment? yes, i know that all the time and the it's also the as, as well. i don't take anything else or we don't sleep as much. that one by i was down the road. a of the on the other side just i'm glad you mean the ground floor. yeah. to sure long has been a while to thank god for years ago. this is because i feel, yeah, as i said, the feels good. we're good is confusing. shipping. need to have someone that good. it's up to the service. no, that's okay. what services and what can i say? it's the way it is. there's been sort of down, it's good, it's launched in my oven. there used to be a certain amount around having the policies. and so if you feel feels guys about it on social media, have gone on to an open with the different generation owns and those are, but it's also been a shift and as,

as id and social awareness. so when i say topic has become socially acceptable done and, and emissions about discussing it have dropped significantly when i'm talking about the status of the mtv to talk about. so even if it's good thing, so or no, yes, yeah. let me just have that. it's been a good thing for me to if i could finally let go and talk about it rose lesson. and what i mean by them was able come from about 5 minutes. i'd often wonder job, but what sort of comments kind of do? because i skipped so concepts can see this, the having a completely different conversations now both grading alone and so as on relationship with each other fuels and i the government's done doing been happy. so at some point i just want you to feeling so alone for so long . there are so many people out there who feel the same way and i wanted to share what i was going through and key things that life that life goes on by targets.

it's such a serious where there's nothing for me to get myself to know drawing so there's lots of times, but i wanted to share my experiences. i wanted other people to hear that all the feedback i goes on this account was so encouraging that then i stopped posting for one thing i started to feel people expected me to perform or her son involved from . no one gave me that feelings on that post unless it was pressure. i put it on myself. english mentioned doc teacher games and then just went to the old of those adults because i realized i had to go with that because of my boss and backed up the dean time. and i think i had a little just, you know, right, was to close that chapter of my life if we could just move on of this into the real well in the opposite reason. and just sort of assuming that the item that i thought i'd leave the as well is fine. i didn't really want to go to the entire screen of item in my mind,

holding them in therapy with something. and the crazy people have to tell them it's . and, and when i was a message with the show, i was immediately assigned to a therapist and he looked online and i soon became a great for, for the session cause i tried to co operate as a back by the food till people come up and how for example, i always wrote down everything that we discussed on thursday of each month so that i wouldn't forget to, especially i kept thinking about this again, right here in the balance of a fight. that's when i wrote an incredible amount in my diary during that time, that side of the done and then i would say let's go for a village. yeah. 6 as oh, top here. 3rd piece of in the big positive my healing person that's kind of purpose . one of the most impulse, and i would say that was maybe not the most important thing. one of the most, i go to the 6 hundreds we went for so many walks and we'd always donaldson and take

a look back. leave went home to look a coffee that goes, that is true. suppose nice to look back and it's important to remember everything that happened in everything you've already most talk to you the other, my husbands, and what she did, she, sophia, assigned to sophia, is someone who likes to laugh away her difficulties and take so she was smiling when i 1st met her and so here there was something oh that's looking beneath the surface in touch with miss lucas. as far as he and i were always on the west with the searching for the right words and to express how she was feeling the same disguise. and i was pleasant to cut over time. she became a master and of that side of the show. i know my stuff and i always say it's like in the danverse thing. so if our river starting to flow withdrawal mem, this force and flu standards please. and to come with an ongoing cost and then came

bernard van and became bender of lou. the bad the came around the corner, hitting the full full level, the splash image of depression, even close the huge dog lying on your chest was thick. yes, exactly. and then you rock doesn't commands like zip down and stay. yeah. yeah, yeah, that's right. the system and vice enough to have to stop and you have that other character when you have the eating disorder. so and if equal a good haul this the calorie count or power, they're kind of, you know, a lot of that kind of the same as i said that you remember the line mccadden just click law high high and he did it. yeah. and so on, move on, we set up a kind of early warning system to allow sophia to recognize when it's getting dark

and cold again, we've done decades to counteract that with the help of therapy position in terms of partition context. see these days for it. so she has much more resilience as agents and in come her slightly different mindset events under, for both that so. so you have toyed, she's come to know the, even the deepest emotional a dentist because it was very difficult situations you can be overcome. but you don't have any experience that's no one can take away from her. i did something she now shares with others is tied 0 me. and then you have all families, once we drove to not funny, but in the ones it would be like if i became a 3rd person to you and she always said that we could do it together. something really touching me. that's hudson's, you'll see a great deal. so it isn't in my mind because she behaved to me when i didn't believe in myself. so totally honest over 60, she said we do it some day and now here i am studying. so i don't want to do if it's crazy because it costs the

pharmacy nowadays, i look forward to coming home. it's also nice that i can be this happy again because for a while it was difficult for me to come home because it has nothing to do with my family and it was my room. so like then when i was feeling that i was usually altering my room this last month to month. yeah. and so even if so, if i have my 1st balance of depression, when i was 11, no, 1212, what stopped me, humming myself as was the only s, as in like, same disorder of good was taught and then so father and replace the lead housing disorders i suppose i always needed something like a mechanism to deal with what was going on inside of the feeling is that the sense of emptiness in that, in the and so the big cold,

sophia, by months of the vista field was always a very bright child. she wasn't afraid to because she would try anything. she had friends, she did well at school. hope she enjoyed her hobby's flight at the mocked window shop. i've often wondered how we could have bought if it's something was wrong. the suspicion i asked for many times if she was okay us on this board, so fee for bed. i would go to the mines to mountain top estate always say, or guess mom. everything's fine. yeah. yeah. moment i was reassured or to get the fleeting. but you constantly reproach yourself for having overlooks. i'm saying this for bill for this one of us about saying what i don't why doesn't tell you ever do this since the last guy was a fall fall and i made chocolate rose yesterday. have to i was afraid for her life as well. and it pulled the rug out from under my feet and a good tube. yeah,

i was scared for her. i'm so scared to death. so yeah, you love it when i do this for your birthdays so that these are you didn't this you why since you didn't want anything weren't there to protect it? how should i have to assume? no, it wasn't. i was modifying. is this my go your sort of activity to the, to the is it helps with it. this is yeah. just to have to have somebody guess. so it is. i said of them my family and friends. i wouldn't be here anymore. they i'm speaking. yes. hi. lindsey, it's less than makes me happy every time she lives now because it's not something i take for granted. that's awesome. i'll be the shooting. always nice to see are in a good mood. i'm gonna have to have a good time together. i time because i just wasn't possible before about some dispute, so we lived together and our relationship keeps getting better and stronger. i'm very grateful. i'm just going to use my big stuff,

but it's up to you in the content. i have a card hanging here that says and everything will be good in the end, and if it's not good yet, and it's not the end. and as i keep telling myself to do with things as they come to always move forward from, it's going to support her and give her what she needs to investigate, but also to step back soon and stay out of it. when she doesn't need to finish the boxes on the list for funding to the hi, how are you? good, you know. good luck. the coffee over the by that french one could hear me. yeah. you have the blanket. right . that, you know? yeah. it's good. his heart was worried,

we didn't have one excuse either mind that maxime is one of my best friends and one of the most important people in my life a few because we've been close for a very normal time now. almost 10 years of a. yeah, i'm very grateful for this is this, the cell phone is is in line because when things are bad, i might possibly talk to her about because it was difficult because we have to continue to choose life and time because it has to be an active decision every day as the and i didn't really feel that my wife was was living in harbor, but i have to make the decision that i wanted to the success and goes to i'm super difficult. it's super, she's a, if we'd spend a day back then like today i might some driving to this me having, i'm taking a toll king long faces, maybe playing cards or something either from what has been 9 caught seems to be to as a full service. and wouldn't have given me any when the of the energy use that and for life and how that i feel right now. and then slide onto the part is just kind

of screwed this and send you the comments lovely on things that channel. let me know for me soon. mm hm. well then when should they go past 10, maybe launch it for existing is low cost, but as i'm crazy, just 4 years ago, i would have nothing on the so much oil on them. and now i don't. how did you get new muscle use of synchronized? so i thought that to replace young, which is so nice and most also look like i'm does. oh, happy to the old a different issue. it's just processing here. i don't even have to think about them and that way you know what i'm so sure. as long as i remember the 1st time i was in hospital with you, what did you have to like to get some of those? uh for a luggage of some is not just space rental. you said it was a far as i remember sitting, visiting king, sophia, just up and down the street and your mouth. i was just to pieces, at least for them, so they don't get upset. i'm just thinking of that, i just couldn't do it, which i knew you always have or the small things like that was the crazy dining

rooms that it makes it all the nicer that we can be here now, but it's no longer in issues. the scripts we can just sit here, eat together, the carefree, you felt i'm so grateful. so helped us here's to keeping it that way, keeping it that way too. well, let's do sophia. now she's still much stronger than she used to be. deb, it's got, i think at some point she discovered the fighter within her position that you can really see that in the 6 months from just push the start off. that's it. i'm not moving my, my board was there. she would like to have some of these and shirts, and you see, i mean, she's so strong, the star full of life now obviously go to swat. the hope shall always be able to draw on the fighting spirit within her and us, off and made. and when times change and things get worse flushed of it, this is it. i hope she keeps it with her. the studies were strong and dear to keep asking for help bye to him. even when she knows she could do it by yourself upwards, i shall steps cuz i want her to be and remain happy life. i want her to fulfill her dreams, and i want her to come out of all of this feeling stronger. the extinguished costs,

[000:00:00;00] the type of coverage does fluctuate during the thank you for that matter, and if you haven't experienced those, please mind, that's how unimaginable it is to see yourself in the future sitting somewhere. nothing has trudy being in the movement enjoying the day and not thinking for guy don't feel anything. this doesn't smoke anything. i mean the scottish thing else today. i can say that i feel single so deeply and i'm ever so grateful for things. i never thought this day would come to a tech come that's. that's why i'm convinced like absolutely convinced. i'm on the right in home mostly sign furden. god. alright,

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the mushrooms, healthy, or dangerous agency is good for me to seriously ill and provide healing treatment. the wild mushrooms funds or magic mushrooms, mexico foraging in good shape coming out on cdw. the big problem is not that killing us, and the government is doing nothing to stop doing. that's what i can't imagine.

losing a china then when, when your child risk your life for political change, it needs to be stronger for the issues doesn't change everything now, which i'm forced to suspend or do you stand off foot people and then do that? i think it of us them in such a minutes on dw the, on the long voyage through the ocean and mother, i'm back with her car for a long time. they had to be humans on the journey. but now the premises have to come there,

protect the of the stuff so you don't feel the same way you expect and want different things from life than your parents. i just want to pursue what that's nice on fire or you think you kid is 2 different risk, irresponsible, unreasonable, or part of those nonsense? i wonder if my son to the doctor is there an alternative plan? we've done everything to prevent a divorce, but nothing weren't showing that it's time to you. we're

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