she fell in love with balmont, balmont reciprocated her feelings, so to speak, but this was clearly not what nina was counting on. nina wanted to be exceptional, but for balmont she was just one. of his fans, this absolutely did not satisfy her, they soon broke up, but as khodosevich later wrote, this ecstasy, well, perhaps not of first love, but of first love with a great russian poet, this was the first love affair that arose in her life, it left a very bitter aftertaste, a kind of hangover, later she spoke mockingly about balbonte, spoke badly, she herself in fact... of course, she didn’t know how to forgive and didn’t want to forgive men for the insults they inflicted on her, but she was very attractive, anyway, life was ahead, and this mistake taught her, it didn’t teach her, whether it was a mistake or not, about it one can argue endlessly, but one way or another, in her female destiny, in her poetic destiny, in her life-creativity, the next hero appears, and her next... nikolai bugaev, boris nikolaevich bugaev, who , of course, is much better known to everyone as andrei white. he