jerusalem resident simon of cyrene was returning home from the field, where his wife was waiting for is a holiday. simon did not understand anything, he had seen such processions more than once, but it shocked him with some kind of mocking cruelty, the condemned man could no longer stand on his feet. to the side, come to the side, i said to the side, but there’s nowhere, come here, i said , listen, move away, living space, well, don’t push like back, i said, disperse, this is impossible, that’s enough already. he can’t walk, can’t you see, so help, that’s all, simon managed to think, and his wife, children, what will happen to them and put his shoulder under crossbar. this episode, of course, is about each of us, how ready we are to go into hopelessness, you know, where in human terms nothing shines, where all the laws of this world say the opposite. a feat is not necessarily alexander matrosov with machine guns or something similar heroic. a feat in the christian understanding is the daily taking up of this very cross, these are the daily choices that a person consciously makes. met