i think, number one, people figured out very quickly that me and desiree, we're just two or two different people. so i think that we people figured out like it's not all social secretaries are like, you know, and i think that it affected me in a sense of i knew that i did not have desiree amazing. she has this decorum she's. beautiful she has these connections. i had none of that. and so, i mean, i think i'm beautiful, but like i didn't have the connections and everything else. and so i think that it affected me because i felt i had so much to prove. like i had to prove, to prove, prove, prove, prove. and so nothing was stopping me like, on my feet weren't stopping me, you know, a pregnancy wasn't stopping me. so i feel like i had to because this town already like, you know, washington's washington and, we could have a black president, but people don't like them. and so i already also was about the obama reputation of like this, you know, unmarried pregnant woman, social secretary who's messing up these events or whatever. so there was a lot of pressure and i felt like if the world knew t