lauren akins says the biggest challenge came after her fourth child.h postpartum depression and resentment after they became parents. >> i chased him trying to make it feel like it used to, his life went on and i felt like mine stopped and i felt like we were not doing it together. >> the 34 shares her story in the film called "this wasn't the plan", released by a religous multimedia company, i m-second. >> finding out she was pregnant in the middle of a 13-month adoption process, for willa gray. >> the adoption process, there were so many road blocks and a became pregnant, and three months later, laurin delivered ada james. saying she felt alone while her husband pursued his career. >> [soundbite]: i was holding on to resentment throughout the adoption and i hit a breaking point where i didn't like him, i resented him. >> resentment can come out of not talking or communicating at all, or communicating but not in a healthy way. >> reporter: the couple sought counseling, which they walked about on a podcast last year. >> we were coached through that, to