one of them wasn't so bad. please don't tell our parents.

what happened what did you do? do you have a bullet hole in your stomach? i dont know. i do not remember blaming blames, no one is needed, no one is needed. blame, and you have no weapons, and it was not in such a case that happened. i dont know. tell

my brother that he has already arrived, he will be there soon.

oh god, will you accept your son?

vincent van gogh was wounded on july 27, 1890 and died on july 29 from a gunshot wound to the

stomach in the last 30 hours of his life. he neither he did not say a word about the boys or about the circumstances of the mortal wound. in the 80 days that vincent spent in the obverse of the rose, he wrote 75 pictures madame wife never found out that in the ledger that vincent returned to her there were 65 of his drawings. the book was found 126 years later in 2016 in

my yellow room, sunflowers with scarlet eyes flaunt against a yellow background. their legs are bathed in a yellow vase, which stands on a yellow table in the corner of the painting, the artist's signature. the yellow sun, whose light passes through the yellow curtains, fills the whole this room in the morning, waking up still in bed and i imagine how wonderful it is. they smell. yes, he loved yellow, our brave vincent. an artist from holland, these particles of the sun warmed his soul. he didn't love that much. fog, he always wanted warmth when we were both in arles, two madmen. we always argued about the beauty of color, because i loved red. well , how to achieve the perfect scarlet color, and he took his most yellow brush and wrote on the wall and

suddenly it turned purple. i am the holy spirit, i am pure in soul. olga gen 1894 exactly according to scaled down models right at you. imagine how much more you can open to explore something that might be hiding. so what are we waiting for or doing. premiere on pervy i don't make documentaries about animals, i talk about people who are exploring

a new world. talk to me. i demand say at least something you are ready to write for money for everything, tell you a sweet story about friendship, everyone is happy, everyone is happy, as usual. and i dream of another father, can you imagine, the story, jacques and his cousteau odyssey next saturday on first go to the last untouched corner of the earth in antarctica what happened to this family does not fit into the usual stereotypes. julia is married. for many years, the couple dreamed of children, but serious health problems left them practically no

chance. the doctors' verdict was disappointing, either adoption or surrogacy, which yulia and her husband could not afford, saved their mother yulia elena at 54 years old. she became a surrogate mother of her own grandson, bearing and giving birth to a wonderful boy, kirill alone with everyone elena snegur and her daughter yulia sokolova hello dear yulia elena is glad to welcome you to our studio and would like to thank you for the fact that in general, you decided, uh, and shared with us such an unusual case, but i understand that up to a certain point you not that they hid it, but they didn’t advertise it very much, as it were, such a situation that arose, here in your large family. we didn't hide. we are just those who were interested, he knew. yeah those who were not interested, of course. we didn’t go and

, well, we didn’t shout to every corner that we have such a situation and mother. we have a child with us. uh-huh and that's why, in fact, such a decision was made. it was an exclusively financial issue that could not be resolved in any other way. this problem was mom's suggestion, look how you like it. in general, it occurred to me, to offer myself as, so to speak, a surrogate mother for my own grandson or granddaughter, then it was unknown, looking at how they want children. and you know, for what i have health and i bore my children without problems. i thought that i could you know, there are very different impressions. so to say about the age we have, it seems to me there is some kind. well, i don’t know, there is an unspoken threshold, after which the idea is fixed in our society, well, where to give birth? as they say, well, it's too late. and you were so-so sure, you were 54 years old at that moment, the replanting was another 53, you gave birth already 54,

where did you get the confidence from? well, i don’t know, probably, there was uncertainty vera vera yes, that everything will work out yul and how long you tried, so to speak, to carry out your attempts to become a mother, well 3 years, but let's say very intensively, yes. and the idea of ​​adoption in your family, so to speak, was it discussed or not? it was discussed when we went through the school of adoptive parents. we collected documents. so far, we've uh, agreed that we're going to adopt anyway. uh-huh that is, now kirill will just grow up and, well, at two years old, when he will be, we will already look for and collect back documents for the adoption of a girl already. why didn't you resist then? let's say mom's proposal, all the same? you too you thought nothing will work, or what? here mom at 53 you agreed when mom said let's try this to make mom fall behind or what? or

, uh, no matter how much i didn’t have vera at first when he was the first one, he was replanted, well, i think they’ll put my mother in jail, how would mom if it’s good there, then well, let it be good, it would all end again. and if it doesn’t work out, maybe mom, as it were, would decrease, that, well, how would she stop offering, she’ll stop having such an idea, but you didn’t scare yourself that mom still had it be healthy, the biggest fear is that mom will not withstand the body. yes, that's it, that's why i refused, that's why i was not very much for this idea, but then, when the embryo had already taken root, there was already a very big fear for eight months for the health of the mother and for the health of the baby. well, they survived. did n't you have fear? for some reason, i never even

thought that something bad could happen to me. no, there was absolutely no fear. i was afraid for the child, so that everything would be fine, so that he would develop correctly in his time, the only the person was afraid. here, so that everything is fine, and i take an analysis every month every week, and every month there are others. well, i went for an ultrasound every month. yes, she did an ultrasound. yeah, everything was fine for a week. i again began to worry again, then i waited another two weeks and again went for an ultrasound or something, so that only as soon as they tell me? well, everything is fine here, everything is fine. it was easy for me again. yeah, mentally it was hard. but you know, in principle, it seems to me, there is the topic of surrogate motherhood. she, well, not so long ago generally entered, so to speak, into the discussion in our society and there is another such stereotype that, well, people resort to it, but there i don’t know broad views. rich people, perhaps, who

cannot solve their problems there otherwise; in general, there are still many prejudices. and hmm, it's just like that among the people in your small towns. here they were not afraid that e information that you are carrying, so to speak, a grandson. well , it will somehow be subjected to some kind of moral. how do you like some pressure. you will to expose something? of course, i was ashamed of my state of my pregnancy. i was shying. well, what do people think i am for myself, and if, well, someone met, i immediately explained that it was for my daughter. this is not for myself. this is not my stomach, as it were, yes, but this is actually my daughter's life. but in principle, as i know, we now have some restrictions that a surrogate mammoth can become so an outsider up to 35 years old, for your sake they made some kind of exception. well, when the conversation turned to what i want yulia agreed, i i called the center and the director. hey, head doctor. she

explained to me that 35 years is the ceiling. but i asked i never got sick. i had no problems as a woman. maybe let's try, then, she said, well, as an exception, we can, if you allow, the second i started drinking hormonal, what provoked? uh, endometrial hyperplasia and a little. of course, i had two more minor surgeries. yeah. then they gave me the first injection in october, when the medicines started, when they started these are all the preparations. there was no desire to say so, well, or there suddenly thought that oh, something i seem to have overestimated my strength. no, i didn't doubt it. let's listen now, just yours. now let's hear, just your

personal doctor, yulia mikhailovna, what she told us. when elena leonidovna appeared and , let's say, put forward her candidacy for the role of a surrogate mother, of course, this was treated with skepticism and reluctance. it can be said that a was considered for her candidacy, because her age pregnancy is such a kind of test for a state of health, even if a person is healthy, but without pregnancy, then during pregnancy various complications can occur, the body can fail, and at the age of 50 years and above, of course, these risks are very high, given that she was her age at the time of getting pregnant. you are already 53 years old, even if she is absolutely healthy according to the results of the examination. there are still cardiovascular risks, that is, problems can arise during pregnancy of cardio-vascular system. an

exception was made here, because hmm, probably, see or they. why was this done? well, if she was frightened, even for a minute she expressed some doubt that but what if something would be bad with me there, or what? i would immediately refuse, we took a kind of risk, so to speak, took responsibility for this particular patient, because in an exceptional case, they had no other choice. teach they could n't afford commercial surrogate motherhood. we went for it, but that's how they will come to us. tomorrow. let them say, i want, i want, i want. no, of course we won't. yul, well, here we are all talking about you in the sense of how you reacted to this, and how your husband reacted to this, when you said, you know, my mother wants to give birth to a child for us, she wanted

children so much that he said , if she can, if she really wants to, then let her try, if god wills, so it will be, and your spouse is newly-minted, who not so long ago you are married and happily married. but in general, he always supported this idea, as it were. i had to thin my blood there. he rode and collected 20-30 liters of birch sap, brought it and froze it. well, so that the blood would not thicken, it was necessary so for health, then here it is, it was he who helped a lot during pregnancy, how could he morally that some kind of folk remedies that could help mom hmm carrying a pregnancy. he did all this business. all that he could, he did everything that was there in silence, frozen

more often, where he hid from the same heat. when will it score heart more often when will life return with spring? what where when the spring series of games tomorrow after the program time 54 elena endured and gave birth to her own grandson. look at how they want children and you know why i bore my children without any problems. i thought that i could before becoming a surrogate mother. barely did not have to prepare for a long time and a little bit. of course, for two more operations, yulia's husband did not mind that their child

would be born in such an unusual way , he wanted children so much that he said, if she can, if she really wants to, then let her try alone with everyone elena snegur and her daughter yulia sokolova and len, i know that there is also a brother yulia e your son and he has some health problems with joints. you told us e to e of the program that if i could donate my joints there, if only my son was doing well. i would give. this is some kind of, uh, maternal sacrifice. i would say some, in which that's all that is possible right up to enduring grandchildren. come on, give the joint ready too. understandably, that there is such. well, what a common phrase that a mother is ready to give away her child in her life. and this is true, it is, as it were, a maternal

incident, and the strongest, but still, this is not overkill, and to such an extent will be ready to sacrifice everything for the sake of their children, i don’t know. i think, probably, any mother would go for it. that is, you feel your duty. yes, i owe, if i can, i owe everything i can. and how did you meet your husband, how did we meet, but we met a long time ago 4 so in seventy-four year. it's been 42 years already. yes, we studied together at school odnoklassniki and then i left in the tenth grade, from this city i went to my grandmother in another city to live in birsk and in the tenth. i no longer studied with my class and at yulia's graduation when his

daughter also studied with yulia in parallel classes. and then on social media. when he registered, we also began to correspond with him. and he admitted to me that he kind of had a crush in childhood. we even wanted him with a classmate with my one woman wanted to suck instead of themselves were free, too, i was not yet free. ah, they weren't free yet. so we wanted to introduce him, but he refused. he wrote to me. no, i'll be waiting for you then so i thought about staying with my husband, with whom the desire is very, of course, by that time it's good and it turns out. as a matter of fact, you know that you refute the saying that life is just

beginning for you at 40 years old. she somehow rushed after 50 in all respects. you are some kind of a brave woman, you are sitting such a modest mouse, but in general courage. this is your wagon. let's listen now. how did you react to your decision? uh, your, your loved ones, your spouse, your girlfriend is close and yours, mom. as a matter of fact, there are also other people who react. what is special about lena is generally a wonderful person. she is quite. i think she was made for family life. i saw responsibility in this person when she informed me of this in her desire to help her daughter. of course i was shocked. 54 years old is a serious age to carry a child. in addition to this,

she still had other worries. her son denis underwent several operations. it was pointless to dissuade her, of course, she shared these emotions. she i she says i understood with my mind. that i should give this child away, this is not my child, but my heart did not let go, because in fact, you know, she even talked to him, she taught him to talk to him when he was still in general, yes, yes in mother's womb in grandmother's mother. she put her hand on her stomach and somehow a little bit somehow. here he was patted, and he reacted to these claps. for it was us, of course, well, in general, it’s not quite

usual that we saw and didn’t see each other with our own eyes. yes, of course, you are risky when you sometimes watch on tv. how many different cases are there? what dies or the mother's child? and this is what i was afraid of. here she is for you, who is the heroine of the victim, who is lena for you ? she was seen lying in it, how to say for the preservation. here he is constantly taking some drugs. that's it. it what for sometimes for health, it's not good at all? mom, in fact, your grandmother, your

mother’s mother, naturally, also experiencing her own maternal instinct in her turn, was worried that, thank god, everything ended well, but it could end and not very good could be. you didn't think about what it is, well, selfish enough. in general, a relationship of willingness, mom, who says. but let me help you, maybe i should have insisted that well now, of course, some hypotheses, because fame god, there is zhi-healthy, perfectly kiryusha was born, mother is in perfect order, beauty. how much kirill is now even 4 months old this is how a woman looks like after giving birth to a child. but he didn't think about that well, maybe somehow i went over somehow with the willingness of my mother. well, mom is ready, but am i ready to risk her health like that. i was not ready, initially i and the decision that we made that yes, my mother will plant in january, when they planted kirill, he succeeded very difficult with

tears in his eyes, but my mother called me, you decided. well, here, i can i feel that i can consult with my husband. my husband speaks. well, what are you, what are you so worried about? i say, well, what if it's scary already. hmm, we'll lose embryos. we can lose our mother there, anything can happen. he well , if mom says so wants an attempt and torture. well, how would he support me. well, not only that he supported, he prompted me to say, yes, but it was still very difficult and i didn’t fully realize and didn’t think that how everything would turn out , the embryos would take root, that my mother would have to give birth. and how did you feel? how is the pregnancy going? i was ready for everything, and therefore for me i almost

now think that i easily brought this pregnancy to me. i didn’t have any toxicosis, there was nothing with my children, and there was nothing with kirusha . the only thing that has been hard for me lately is to walk for a long time. well, if we talk about the moral side, i did, here are the difficulties, so to speak, physiological, which one way or another you overcame with the help of medicine, so to speak, various modern means, but this is hmm how to say, it seems to me, after all , this mechanism is also invested by the lord god, that when we take women not for them, then this connection with the child is restored in a different way. and how is it to understand that this is not my child, that is. it 's like mine, but it's actually my daughter and actually i 'll have to give it away and actually, that's how you talked about, patting your tummy about. i spoke to him right away. so, when it was already more than 20 weeks, when there was already a stir, then, uh,

i woke up and said, kiryushenka well kiryushenka baby, i said at that time, baby, well, i’m getting up, we’ll get up, and somehow he moved like this. i was at ease with him. everything is fine. what to give to yulia. uh, well this is also with his wife and grandson, so love for his daughter. eh, there was no doubt that i was carrying a grandson and i would give it to my daughter so that she would be happy, but when i saw kirill in the hospital, i, of course, had something maternal about me. played right away. i was very worried. how will i part with him, but this is for her, as i still understand that this is for her as a large part, as a son. and secondly, as a grandson, she loves him very much she