i didn't have time to encrypt. stopping complicated sending me a replacement is dangerous. i handed over all the materials to the skarbik. it is necessary to urgently hand over to the old man everything that concerns spain. you see, this is only one of my shadows. and for some time now i have been accompanied by another. it’s getting harder and harder for me to run away from her, all the time i hear stomping behind my back. chase feel like i'm breathing tyk. and you need to leave urgently tomorrow for switzerland, leave the transmitter behind you, sort out the lake nearby. and as my meeting with the sleigh. on wednesday, i already went instead of you. why did you risk perhaps the highest law of conspiracy lies precisely in the skillful violation of it. i won't be able to see you anymore. no, aren't you

leaving? god forbid they disappear. all our work someone will have to start all over again. what tone? i still hope to hear this aria in your performance. i have known for a long time that i am not ingrid for you, but only. i envied your loved ones when i sent them encrypted greetings and kisses. stay single.

and yet it was loneliness together for four days. i urged you to do your patriotic duty and there is no need to give grounds to the senior prosecutor to ask for leniency for you. your daughter has given consent complete the task. she herself will give the austrian everything that is required. no, no. meeting i will send a letter of mine to them. mailbox we 'll meet in the first quarter. and let go tomorrow

your daughter will be at home. and on what occasion today is the birthday of our beloved daughter. have you forgotten that today is two years of your work? thank you very much chef. in general, i’m in a great mood today, lionella himself, praised my figures aerobatics. but if they knew what figures i succeeded on the stock exchange today. i wish you always good mood.

the hat is very good. finally, mom and i didn't know what to think. thank god he returned from swimming. 11 days since they left me alone. maybe i rushed to send the ginger. in any case, take risks. i can only myself.

mom mom your interests do not make a fuss. your package

. this is someone else's package. they planted it on me. this is your package. you came specifically for him. this is a provocation car be careful. so you can wrinkle your hat. not forget the seniors. that i am an austrian subject? she'll come back we'll come back, your dangerous state criminal senorita. has the right to pronounce sentence before the court, even if he is the controller of the tram depot, a gray suit with tenerine stripes, he willingly talks about the rights of forgetting his patriotic duties.

the flight helmet of one blue line was pinched by the door because she refused to point out our enemies. theater binoculars and put the signature of the policeman. please, everyone wait. where are you watched? see. please i'm free now,

no. then you'll have to search. remove your hands from them, stains themselves may remain. bay, whatever you say, you and i will be a completely original sports model. i would like to call her, 37. sounds good for my questions. and i answer.

and they call you a doctor of jurisprudence. only four mistakes, here is my business card in front of you. what are you hiding in the bank? see for yourself, and where are the keys to the safe, the keys, most likely, the keys fell out of your pocket when your

the agents of the group pushed me into the car. once again , you want to break the law. i think i was born on sunday. i'll make you change your fake business card. you will remember me. leave him. they will talk to you differently. i will complain to the austrian embassy.

he demanded an austrian consul. i am very sorry. mr. skarbak, you let me down, i

had to leave vienna today some doubts at the consulate. what doubts? unfortunately, our office can't help you? excuse the criminal police, what can i do the last time you went to germany in august, who issued you a visa at the consulate, i was myself. ride the policeman with me for another minute. you didn't catch me. i told you to go here. they were kept by the police for more than 3 hours. in your hands why are you looking at me like that, i'll ask pan to take off his

hat. you won't mind picking up the phone. no thanks, this is not the same pan, i gave the passport to a completely different to a person. he was setting right here and talking about what you're talking about on the phone, i think about the races, of course, he invited someone to the hippodrome. he is no longer alive . by the way, how much does a visa cost 12 shillings? he took 48 from me. he probably really needed the money, there were debts, let's not judge the dead man. give me your passport. i'll go down to class now. i'll see my colleagues in a few days.

please havana thank you, don't wait, i'll arrange everything and bring your passport to your hotel. or maybe it's better to go straight to the station, if you are not make it difficult, buy us tickets. excuse me for being impatient. we are not on an equal footing. i cannot shake hands with you, i can forgive an illiterate carabinieri, but not a doctor of roman law. do you know what the russians call a safecracker? bear tamer for russians, this is witty.

i cut out the lock of your safe for 3 days with an autogen. you see how the unhealthy curiosity raised you to the italian secrets. in your safe what assumed it was empty? i do not need. go please . russian plane top secret russian you can also borrow something for my sports model. such an experienced person kept russian drawings at home. if i worked in

russia, i would not keep russian drawings, this is nonsense. an italian fighter jet that your accomplice gave you. i already told you that i don't have any accomplices. and i do not intend to answer for the things that were planted on me during my arrest or found during a search in my absence. in general, any of your version is not yet evidence. for example, in paris in the louvre. i am i saw a statue of venus de milo, there is a version according to which venus once supported the veil with one hand, and held it with the other hand. this is just a

version. i really do. are you sure you feel calling for help? venus bezrukov, please , the lira exchange rate has fallen again. the money taken from you during the search will be corporals will take you to rome. there we will continue our conversation for a while. i have always loved this city with its sights. well, it is unlikely that the prison earlier started can be called a landmark of the time. thank you.

when will we be there? are you in a hurry? yes, i'm afraid be late. 8 hours my mistake betrayal pass this is me playing revolution. the prodigal son decided to return to the family of a millionaire. maurizio can armenia me carefully blurted out. and this is your beer. somewhere in the harbor tartary with a bottle of

grappa. why was he so alarmed? he will never forgive his daughter for the death of his sons. you're for janina. bring on one man. you have to pay. you know i'm not to blame for anything. i was waiting for you last sunday. the notice came only on monday. on

sunday at home we had a search of such a conversation arranged. we are also arrested, chef, turned the eureka upside down, but every day i pray that this misunderstanding with you, senor cartner, will be quickly cleared up only for your sake. when i found out that you were grabbed by black shirts, you are being tortured, who told you that? what dress before leaving? follow showed me him about it was blood blood. you what did they want?

for me to hand over that package. and you did it, my daughter. i wanted to save you, so you are asking me to convey to the director, my protest in prison in handcuffs to the court. i won't go the dock of your tribunal is set in an iron cage. i am like a lawyer. i advise you to obey the law in an italian court. even minors go handcuffed. i'll put them

on i won't take a single step you hear. we are not put on political handcuffs in austria. i'll make a scandal and the carabinieri won't take me to court, but will carry me. well, i'll report on the territory. i think it's useless. good afternoon law said

we all met together. i have already said and i repeat that with no one you call me accomplices. i'm not familiar. dima barantine, when are you? any of this person. i can't say for sure. may have seen. or maybe you haven't seen it. one minute no, i didn't see it. now you are in denial. and why did you sign the protocol of interrogation? but is the seigneur a prosecutor? it is not known that the investigation in a special tribunal is based on special methods of influence? yes, let me

die without confession. if that ain't true, if that shorty told me to confess it was my signature on the treasury bills, i'm in that too i would confess. sit down and find out. i still wear the jacket on which you once rearranged the buttons. since then, no wrinkles, and where did yours go? i swear to god, and now in a turkish bakery, well, in the corner of marshall's and deer, rosalinsky such buns, as there are none, even in vienna, clean it and iron it. how do you do home knitting? cha

left me a note. i condemned myself. how is mother? alone without you what if i can help you? i almost forgot, by car came a postcard very pleased with my journey. hope to be at baptism at home.

thanks janina. you brought? good news from a friend? how is your fiancé? and do not answer his letters, we have ceased to understand each other. i will remain an old maid if a beautiful girl says she will remain an old maid. so i'm sure she 'll get married. the date is over if you are, save me.

lie down, you bastard, where the hell are you. what are you, bored you to bring half a day to look for urgently.

i probably minus the finds, but tatyana got it through the center of the airfield anyway. move from here, they fly to madrid, you need to burn the plane. this is my hadji's order and the request of the inhabitants of madrid majesty , under the chairmanship of his excellency

corps again general and grant of sadness alexandra saporite heard the circumstances of the case and the debate of the parties dried up the prosecutor for the defense of the accused, having the first last words and established in 1934 a foreigner nationality name, which is not precisely rendered arrived in italy settled in milan they call themselves austrians. in a conor cartner on a native. it was not possible to find out which country he is and in favor of which state he worked for especially tribunal when evaluating satin, it doesn't matter enough facts. for a long time, kondra kärtner developed activities to the detriment of fascist italy, her allies of germany, he managed to attract valuable specialists to the criminal cooperation, who were in the service of industrial enterprises supplying the italian german armed forces, based on the highest set out by the special tribunal for the protection of fascism

, the forces available, and sentenced on the basis of the facts. and theo barancini in five years in prison imprisonment in connection with the royal secret amnesty, the term of imprisonment is reduced to 3 years. defendant konrat kerner to twelve years in prison tell

what district you're from political what's new at the behest of a group of communists? i met a nikonist our great friend.

i don't know how to knock, telegraphs. i don't know if you can tell.

run. i have a bullet in my gut.

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the boy can be called a proud falcon. but what if the

enemy has a stronger motor and a higher ceiling? how then to be a falcon even if he is bolder than chkalov himself, everything i did to help the guys? reading pass long here is an unfortunate 12 years.

you called me. yes, you have issued award sheets. ivanovich fell on khadzhi mamsurov, posthumously, and on manevich only for two. as for iten? why does prison roma prevent us from evaluating his work, he is behind bars, but still yit behind enemy lines. he was closer to the enemy than any border guard, outposts, not burned. we know better than others. how much did i do and how did he behave in court when they tried to get him recognition, he is still the austrian kommersant for them, they have achieved nothing to present for the award. i need to know the opinion of his workmates, workmates. ask yourself this opinion. and if you do not believe

yourself, then re-read the report of the cipher of the cipher of the cipher, what kind of feedback does the form require? i can only marvel at the firmness of character with which you maintain yours. spinelessness i will write a review about it myself and i will do it immediately. you are free, colonel, dear nadya and tanyusha. i have never written to you so often. letters. truth mentally. to do this, you have to learn the alphabet again, this time prison.

understood. i was understood. i understand. number

27 22 is not allowed to shout at us. you can get a punishment cell, and i'm reprimanded by the guards because of you. drinking water for 12 years, then i will see our beloved clouds. december 12, 1948 4,211 days, not counting today's amnesty by royal grace for the forty- fifth year in our sicily, they say that home calculations do not agree with the market price. and if i 'm on the run for half my term for the forty-second year. if

even earlier i should upset you, but from our prison lily hasn't run away yet. i was transferred to a common cell. sitting here are anti-fascist aircraft factory workers convicted of sabotaging military supplies for franco. what, i don't know, but they treat it with confidence. if this note gets through, then thanks to their help. i learned from them that the fiat caproni and brad factories had recently received a large and urgent order for military aircraft from japan. these vehicles must be adapted for combat. action in severe frosts develop

new fuel composition new lubricant, changed mode engine operation, bombsights protect etin from icing. when was the note sent a week ago? the cellmate passed it on through the bride. there , during prison visits, they are allowed to kiss their relatives, moreover, twice at a meeting and at parting. frost-resistant aircraft, which means they are not going to fight in the south of china or in the philippines, in mongolia, manchuria in our far east, this coincides with our intelligence history. what kind of courage is needed for a scout to continue his work while sitting in prison with the nazis?

it's amazing what can be done to help itien would be nice to change a lawyer he does not trust during the appointment of the milanese lawyers' rut, so you understand, try to replace. bribe whoever you need to organize an escape keep me updated all the time. you will have to cancel a ticket to gurzuf when you go to italy , the sooner the better. i really, really hope for you. occasionally, with the help of a janin, we were able to send parcels of these i'm using medicine money, but

we could not organize the escape. prisoner 27-22 transferred to a hard labor prison on the island of santo stephen on september 7, 1943, an american amphibious assault landed on the island of santo stephen the german garrison surrendered italian guards arrested political prisoners released they were allowed to leave for the mainland. behind 7 years of prisons and hard labor. he was returning to the italian port of gaeta, not knowing that that morning the port had been captured by the forward detachment of the

fifteenth motorized division of the wehrmacht. he managed to change his name. we knew the legend, we did not know his real name for us, he was a prisoner of war from russia. when the soviet army entered austria in old age, he was transferred to a concentration camp. number

five they wanted to drive us all there in order to get rid of the witnesses at once 11,000 people were saved by the underground resistance center one of the leaders of the center was starostin on may 5 the prisoners of the ebensel concentration camp were released starostin was released seriously ill tell me to moscow i will return home soon. remember me. he died on the morning of may 9, 1945, on

victory day, having lived at liberty for only four days. for valor and courage shown in the performance of special tasks of the soviet government before the second world war and in the fight against fascism assign colonel manevich lew yefimovich. title of hero of the soviet union posthumously

he calls himself a kamyshin traveler,

because he was born in the city of kamyshin and has been traveling around the country for 4 years, aiming to visit all 1,113 small towns in russia over the past few years, moving around the country hitchhiking, he visited more than 300 cities in russia along the way giving lectures on travel and how to protect yourself and your loved ones from the buying influence of totalitarian sections. and the story of his wanderings began quite dramatic even for schoolchildren, he ended up in sex. for 11 years he was engaged in missionary preaching, casting new adherents into a totalitarian organization and for the time being did not doubt his convictions. but one day he realized that he was not at all the master of his fate. after several unsuccessful attempts to leave the sect, gave up. the thirst for freedom was stronger. today,

alone with everyone, the man who discovered freedom for himself ivan shiryaev, it’s good that in your travels you brought to the city of moscow and that we can talk with you. how many cities have you visited at the moment already today , 41, the city of russia is about thirty-five percent of the total. and what a strange idea it is to visit the cities of russia, to be honest. i dreamed about it since childhood, i loved to look at the map of russia to travel around her mentally mom is a geography teacher. i think that also had an effect. well somehow especially you travel m-m. so to say, you hitchhike or have already diversified this variation mainly by hitchhiking. i rarely use any other

means of transportation besides the traditional hitchhiking. it happens railway stop hydrostop. and even a stop is also possible, of course. much harder here he lands right in front of you. this, of course, is much more difficult and is considered the coolest among hitchhikers when air stop, yes, yes, well, this is also real, i wanted to understand it for free, so to speak, when hitchhiking or here hydrostop or air, stop or still, so to speak, you need something some kind of penny to pay it for free without money, but at the same time not for free a driver who stops on the highway to let travelers down. he, too, is expecting something. uh, it’s mostly communication, in order not to fall asleep at the wheel, especially if it’s driving far uh-huh to pass the time, sometimes, on the contrary, you need free ears for a person who needs to tell something, and here you are

absolutely ready for this role and entertain your interlocutor and be these ears for the interlocutor, of course, this is a fare. well, this is your willingness. in a sense, they were nurtured, as i understand it, by your existence in the sect in which you spent many years. yes, there are a lot of useful skills in terms of communicating with people. i got it in sex that comes in handy in life, but all those got it for some purpose. you needed to be a preacher. it was a prerequisite. uh, staying in a sect. had to spread these beliefs to involve new students. so it's so to say, here they got a great skill and became more adept in this matter. in general, hmm, so to speak, not only are you not afraid to talk about your stay in a sect, but even in a sense, you are now doing

this . , but it seems to you that this is some kind of important mission to inform people about what hmm totalitarian sects of this kind are many people are interested in this topic. and having such an experience. uh, which is not every person. i try to share it, please. and how could it happen to you that you hit? everyone who is 15 years old? usually children go where on the street there, yes in bad company, relatively speaking, why exactly did the sect become your image, probably the usual standard teenage problems questions. what is the meaning of life to dedicate oneself to? and when i heard from my classmate that she attends religious meetings. uh, i was wondering, there's a bible are reading. they communicate there. they call each other brothers and sisters. and i decided to go out of curiosity. and even out of a desire to mock these believers. and what happened? why they did

n’t make fun of me was most impressed by the way they met me there, i was a fifteen-year-old boy, they surrounded me with care and attention. i felt needed. we were given the opportunity for self-realization. they began to say that i can teach other people to perform in front of them from the stage. and naturally. i got fired up to me will ask for advice. i will become so wise. yes , this attracts many people reacted when, in fact, they were attentive to your life or not. or he leaves and goes somewhere. my parents thought that this was another of my many hobbies, and therefore at first they did not convey the meaning. what were your hobbies before this? i loved pulling out election flyers from other people's mailboxes and pasting them on the walls in my room. instead of wallpaper. i loved to fill all the coupons and order

according to them, everything that we could possibly have been free. i thought the day was over. in vain, if not a single large letter was thrown to me in the mailbox. and there were a lot of similar hobbies, so, well, i went to the meeting, nothing will pass either, as from letters. and when they realized that this did not go away, when i began to apply e in life, then what they taught me in the sect, when i began to refuse to celebrate new year's birthdays and other holidays, when i stopped communicating so closely with my relatives, that is , these changes began visible and natural alerted relatives, but you answered that i answered that this was the only truth. everything else is the devil. it is necessary to go only this way, as it seems to you, it is conscious in this or that section of the action. well, such traditions that arise there are imposed by the

leadership of the sectors. and when you are there , you think that these are your own conclusions. e conclusions are your own choice, but in fact it is imposed from the outside by repeating the same thing every day, they inspire you, that it is necessary to please god in this way, to please god in no other way, including in terms of holidays. there is a conscious purpose in this to say that these holidays are not good for severing relationships with loved ones as much as possible. i think so, and it has a very fast and effective effect. obviously the first few years. you say, this is the feeling, so to speak, in inspiration and so on, and well, the year has passed well. well two there was no doubt. you only strengthened in your feeling that this is the very right path that you have chosen to doubt and critical thinking is not allowed and even forbidden is not encouraged in any way, of course, some

doubts arose. well, there was simply no time to develop them to think about it. uh, you get on the rails of this life and already out of the rut. you can’t go out the day literally by the hour, scheduled week after week and there is no time to think. when you hmm were still in school, because when this story happened to you, you did not experience any ridicule. for example, those who found out about what you did not hide, so to speak, that there were a lot of ridicule there, but it was not difficult to endure it all. why uh don't know, i tried to preach to all odnoklassniki hmm students. uh, tried to spread those beliefs. and hmm maybe in the form of what i've been doing along the way. uh, they didn't laugh so much, uh, but before you became a cultist, before these 15 years. what was your relationship like, so

to speak, it was with my peers that i was considered a jerk from childhood both at school and in other places. and in general, it was not difficult for me to be different from everyone considered. uh, i, well, i probably was different from other people in some way, to run around during breaks to pull high school girls by pigtails. this is how it usually sounds. i would say, well, for some reason in our class. i was the only one who was somehow used to being treated like that. yeah. before becoming a sectarian. i was a trio. but the sect somehow had a positive effect on my studies. i have already begun to receive fours of pyaterochka more often, because, again, the goal is the same. let's show our evidence life. that i am a servant of god, and it has a good effect on me. you did not begin to receive higher education. all you are not encouraged higher

education. why not that it is forbidden, but it is considered not a spiritual aspiration and on a person who is a sectarian. uh, getting a higher education will somehow look askance, as a person, well, who doubts something and sets worldly goals, not spiritual ones. what do you think, now what is the point of banning higher education a person who knows less will be less doubt and less likely that he will leave the sect some kind of commercial component in this section voluntary donations were encouraged. well, i would not say that this was the main thing, they sectarians take something more valuable from a person than money. soul property. you no longer belong to your loved ones, but completely obey the section and are ready. all your time, all your strength, e, and means, too, to devote higher education to this matter is prohibited. and what is allowed how

to live? mostly members of the sect work. mm janitors cleaners movers in the service sector it's rare to find a person, uh, who has a university degree in any significant position, if he even has a university degree, then most likely he received it before everyone joined. and who did you work for? i worked as a helper at a construction site, i worked as a cleaner of entrances. e so that the work takes only a few hours a week. you understand in your head all the time such thoughts that everything is outside the sect from satan. all in gloomy colors, drawn only within the community, perhaps real happiness, real love is right and true. she did everything in her, since childhood he did not develop relationships with other children. i, well, probably differed in some way

from others. since childhood, everyone who attracted him, the attention with which he was treated there, considered me a jerk. i felt useful useful gave the opportunity for self-realization. certain thoughts and actions were imposed on him daily. you get on the rails of this life and already out of the rut. you can’t go out the day is literally scheduled by the hour week after week and once thought victory the story of a former sectarian. the fact that you did not enter any institute threatened you with the army, and how is the situation with the army, how does not everyone belong to those who were, and it is forbidden to serve in the army yeah before the adoption of the law on alternative civilian service, sectarians were in prison. uh. it didn't scare me. and so, when in 2004 the law came into force, but on alternative service. i was just uh

ready, uh, for the draft and doing alternative service. in the nursing home for 3.5 years as a ward nurse in the documents, it was listed as a nurse, because such a position was not provided for men at that time, so to speak, e continued to go to the meeting anyway. that is, one does not interfere with the other. it was very difficult with an eight hour day with such a busy schedule. but uh, sectarian affairs were more important to me, i quickly washed after work, dressed in a hurry to preach at the meeting. and so the service passed very quickly, partly due to this, the week after the weeks flew by very quickly. really the choice was whether or not i would continue to be a member of the sector, after all, if i had agreed to the army, i would have been expelled from there, and for me at that time it was completely unthinkable. and

what happens to the expelled when an announcement is made in the congregation? let's say shiryaev is no longer our brother. they stop talking to the left. he becomes a vile apostate and all ties with him are interrupted by none of his former friends. uh, acquaintances from the sect will not communicate with him, if i have a family left there, then even relatives will stop communicating. wow, you saw that. oh sure, i saw it, but uh for a convinced sectarian. this, of course, hmm is not a reason to hesitate in something. on the contrary, you condemn the person who is condemned, uh, who is excluded. uh, you judge him and think, this is worse than death. it would be better if he died than sinned. i had such a situation that some friend close to you suffered in this

way or a girlfriend. i stopped to communicate, as and as ordered, otherwise it is impossible, otherwise you will also be condemned. oh well, that is, it turns out that the leading feelings are fear fear fear and guilt guilt, you constantly feel that you are not doing something, you are doing something wrong, that you need to do more and this is very depressing, constantly stress. yeah, every day, that is, there is such an ostentatious external love for each other at the meeting. well , coming home, everyone feels oppressed and exhausted. yes, this is it. i think the worst thing in the sect. uh, this is hypocrisy - you do what is expected of you, and not what you want or what your heart induces, and m-m the sect deprives. e human

freedom freedom virtually all areas life. eh, they dictate to me. what kind of music to listen to? with whom to communicate? yes, who to marry, whether to have a beard, what to wear in everything i must obey strict rules. after all, after the army, you left for another city. why all of a sudden i wanted to change, uh, the environment in my hometown was very difficult to preach. these preachers were well known there. i even counted in our city for one sectarian. there were not many 200 civilians , and i decided to move to another area to preach where this doctrine was not yet heard, and in fact, it was more interesting to engage in this activity, people listened more willingly. well, because you didn't come back now, because quite

tragic circumstances happened to your family with your dad, yes, after the death of your father. i was forced to take care of my babu cross. his mother and in connection with this he returned to kamyshin, uh, not just passed away, but he committed suicide, what happened, it's hard to say what actually happened, but to some extent i feel guilty, because my father wanted to see me differently, my future wanted to see others. he wanted me to get a higher education, find a good job, provide for myself and become a successful person, eh, but i chose the other way and it bothered him. perhaps this influenced his decision to die. he did not try to somehow contact you before his death and somehow talk to you. ah. it didn't quite work out. usually i came home on vacation, i came only for a week

to see my relatives to meet everyone. and in the first the same evening, when i arrived home, my father hanged himself, right in the apartment, it turns out that it was done so that you would know it. apparently yes, maybe he planned it in advance and decided to do it after waiting for me. this, of course, was a strong blow for me, until now the thought of this haunts me, but uh, having returned to kamyshin, i continued to engage in sectarian activities, uh, and devoted myself to this event, this event did not arouse your desire. so to say, to be closer to your family and yet. er, well, appreciate something else. well brothers and sisters brothers and sisters, but here is the closest blood, on the contrary, uh, at that moment we moved away with relatives not with my mother, but with my father’s relatives, because they

allegedly accused me of my father’s suicide. i uh tried to persuade him to register an apartment for me or something like that, supposedly. i drove him to suicide. well, they had some similar thoughts. here but with my mother, maybe, not only because of the sect, we were distant. and also because they lived in different cities. and you married married a girl too, who was, so to speak within the framework of this sect. it was because you fell in love with me, or because that's how marriage is supposed to be. i didn't mean to, at all in sex . hmm, marriage is not encouraged. yeah, not that it's forbidden, but the philosophy is so simple, if you can, don't get married, be free to do sectarian deeds. if married, try not to have children, so that nothing distracts from the ministry. god , god, what if, god forbid, one

child was born, well, try not to have a second one. fuh well listen and and it's not well, so. you were familiar with this ideology did not seem to you what it is? well, it's weird. no. i, after all, i lived only by this, i only wanted to promote these goals, and before i ask you a question, on which you probably answered more than once, maybe, like a preacher, but it is said to be fruitful and multiply no , uh yes, yes, but the answer is now the last days of this evil system of things to give birth to children in this evil world is not prudent better to multiply spiritually, helping new disciples to approach god so that they survive. uh, those events that will happen in future and before getting married. i made sure that my wife, like me, does not want to have children. and only then we went to the registry office. well, if you can not get married, you could not marry, you fell in love. here it is necessary. what

a mistake. and your chosen one, she, uh, also, so to speak, has been in this section since childhood. yes, my ex-wife. a has been in sex since childhood. and she continues to be there to this day. that is, you are a vile apostate, and she didn’t understand there that the sect deprived him of his freedom, they dictate to me. what music listen? with whom to communicate, whom to marry, whether to have a beard, what to wear in everything the most terrible thing in sex , he considers hypocrisy - you do what you are expected to do, and not what you want or what your heart induces. he feels guilty towards his father. he wanted to see me differently, he wanted to see my future differently, and he wanted me to get a higher education and find a good job. the story of a former sectarian provided for himself became a successful person.

11 years you tried within the framework of this sect and why exactly after you married with some the worm of doubts began to sharpen in you the worm of doubts was always there, but i didn’t give it an outlet, critical thinking is forbidden to read some third- party literature, what the former sectarians write, what the great vedas researchers write, it’s impossible, but here it’s still how modest. i lived. uh, worked as a janitor in the porches of money. i barely had enough to make ends meet, i had neither a computer nor the internet and, accordingly, it was not possible to find this information somewhere in order to use my doubts to wedding. we were given a laptop and that's where it all started. then you could not restrain yourself and climbed into the

forbidden, secret from your wife, secret from your friends. i began to get acquainted with such information, what former members of this sect write, what other people write. observers, you must have accumulated some, so to speak, a critical mass of your own inconsistencies that you wanted to double-check in other sources. what exactly by that time, there were a lot of such questions. uh, for example, about estimated dates for the end of the world. in this sect , a certain date was appointed several times when the end of the world should be expected, and people in those days prepared for this date, sold their property , devoted themselves entirely to preaching, and then the bang date came no end of the world further. yes, there

were many disappointed, but you, of course, you wait, you wait, the end of the world, it will never come. yes, and the strongest impression on me was made by two books that were written by a former member of the governing council of this sect. this is generally unheard of due to their story is a situation where one of the most important leaders, who was there since childhood, spent 60 years there, did just that. suddenly, bam was disappointed and wrote two books on this topic and i had a look at the situation in the sect from the bottom up. and what he describes from top to bottom. that's right, thanks to his books. i have many puzzles in my head, they saw that this is a use. yes, sectarians. uh, they firmly believe that these leaders receive interpretations of the scriptures almost directly from god, uh, some kind of guidance and already sent in the form of letters to the congregation. and this former leader hmm wrote how

these meetings actually take place, when half-asleep grandfathers, and there already such comrades fall asleep at the meetings. we must vote. here they are pushing him, he will not understand what it is all about, what to vote for? e what in general? this is a simple human organization, and not god's, as i thought? well, why did you study all this in secret from your wife, because the wife is a close person at that time. i wasn't ready to share my doubts with anyone even with my wife, besides, i was afraid that the elders would find out about this from my wife, and then and then i might lose my position there with some honorary duties. and well, and in general should have snitched, what is called? sorry for such a stupid word, but nonetheless. it would be right according to sectarian laws if she snitched and this is the worst thing. but this is the norm, it is perceived as god's will, nothing else. and so,

uh, that's why i did it all in secret. in addition, at that time i could not somehow formulate an explanation, uh something to confirm their thoughts. what exactly i doubt that does not suit me. and how can i continue to be, if i leave this and, uh, i decided to leave for me the easiest way at that time was to leave my city, so that no one would know about it and start a new life. you didn't just drive your hometown. we even staged suicide. yes indeed. uh, i thought that at that time it was the best option for me, because in fact i was in such a state when i either hanged myself or abyss you staged suicide and went on a journey. at first i went to another city. it was in the winter from kamyshin to rostov-on-don, since no one knew me

there, it was easier to get lost there. i spent the winter in rostov and in the spring, as soon as the snow melted, i went on a trip. did you tell your mother that you are actually alive and well or not? where am i and what's wrong with me it was really cruel, maybe unreasonable, but it was uh 9 months. i was on the federal wanted list as a missing person. though on purpose. i didn't hide, i used my passport. e, i worked at a factory and only in the amur region, and this is about 7,000 km from kamyshin , quite by accident, when checking documents at the traffic police post, it turned out that i was wanted by the federal wanted list. to be honest, almost no one was looking for me. only one friend from the sect, one single person. and i thought that i had a lot of friends. on wait for me

, he told me that shiryaev had disappeared. we are looking for him. that was the only person who suggested some real effort to find me for that he is, of course, very grateful. we still communicate, uh, and he, despite the fact that the renegade e , he, too, will soon become a vile renegade. i hope yes and that was the worst thing for me to lose friends. you had the illusion that you have them. uh, well, at least it seemed to me, and when i was taken off the wanted list, i got in touch on the internet. uh, with all those sect friends. i just got banned on social media. uh, ignore stopped talking. eh, and here i felt that what is this love, what is this brotherly feeling, what is this fanaticism? that, too, besides the books of that leader i read, er, was hmm a powerful

incentive to officially leave the sect, not only leave. that's how i left to formally write a statement. i no longer want to be with you, exclude me from your ranks. you nevertheless made some attempts to adjust. just such ordinary human connections. there, i don’t know, as a result, my mother called, of course, the first thing. i got in touch with my family, when uh was already ready for this. my my mother was very happy about this and did not scold me. and i remember how she shed tears when i congratulated her on her birthday for the first time in many years, after all, for many years. i didn’t celebrate birthdays, they just didn’t, but i didn’t congratulate, and you celebrated your own birthday when you left everyone there, of course. i celebrated my first birthday after leaving the sect in the mosque. believe it or not, an unexpected place. i didn't expect it myself. we

traveled with a friend in the crimea, we met on the internet. he was looking for a fellow traveler and we started travel together by the time he and i started traveling. i had 2 weeks travel experience and he had no experience at all. and he considered me as a comrade, yes, he said a mentor and a teacher, he opened a new world for me. and so, it means that we traveled around the crimea with him, ended up in sudak, it was friday, a sacred day for muslims, suddenly i tell him orthodox. you've never been to a mosque. let's go and see how the mass is doing. we came here well. we met well. before that, i was in the mosque. and they tell us guys that you will put up a tent, somewhere in our mosque there is a special room for guests, and there it is, and it was just my birthday.

look, but here you are traveling, mostly alone, you earn extra money, where you have to. and basically, like this. well, what is called so to speak, uh, there is not intellectual work, far from handymen, and so on. yes , but now, at the moment, i have a very interesting creative and even highly intellectual work. e in krasnodar as a loader. it's very yes, so uh, actually today, nothing satisfies or pleases me. like a journey until i know another for myself, but a path that would bring me so much joy, yes, so i push your boundaries in a way. yes, life in one city is a frame. here you can somehow how to tell me? these destinations, but the scheme in your

journey there are thousands to visit. how many cities around $1,120 will you bet in this scheme and tell yourself you've done it. it is interesting for me to get acquainted with cities with regions. i am doing my best learn about their stories about their features and share with blog readers so that they can also see many people like it. moreover, no one before me, uh, did not set himself such a task. that is, you have a certain vanity. probably, as in every person with the topic. let's talk about your sins of sins. i have a lot of transmission time is not enough, vanity ambition. this also plays a role. but, uh, if only someone before me could do this. i would still

be interested, uh, to visit all the cities of russia ivan and how did you escape the temptations there, for example, to want more money, tastier, to dress more beautifully, to have such gadgets, i’m also surprised at myself, but, probably, this is what comes from childhood, that i was a jerk. i probably stay with them. ah, are you saying that by now you have become an agnostic or an atheist? not? i am not a statheist. i do not deny the existence of god or some higher powers, but i am not ready to take it aside. whatever religion. that is, you still have interest, yes such to him, and you have how it works. and how is it with you after leaving the sect where i was, right? i visited at least 17 different denominations, which are also considered secrets. it was

very interesting. well, just compare from a research point of view. and how they worship god. what do they believe, what do they have, while i was in one sect. i was not allowed to meet others. and it was interesting. uh, this is exactly what i did in rostov when i left kamyshin before the start of the trip. oh yes, sometimes i go to worship services of some denominations i am friends with everyone, i love everyone that concerns your wife. you called your mother. with my wife, we corresponded by e-mail. and she wrote that she no longer wants to communicate with me, as i left and everyone who is ready to divorce, since we do not have children, it was not difficult for you to do it unilaterally. this is a serious loss. yes, i even regret that these ties are severed, maybe to some extent. i continue to love her. but it would be worse, in my opinion. if i had stayed then, or

would have acted differently. you don't try to knock you know, i don’t know how to write to her. i still emails, says, you're wrong. think about it, think about it. we are fighting from these people, whom we happen to be in a certain state of the body. i am writing a message to her from this state of the body. the women are calling. the usual sms is like this, but there are no answers to them, clearly. as for your plans, you, uh, sooner or later, what time do you plan to put jackdaw last, according to my calculations, it will be gone, at least 5 more years. so you're 30 now, so at 35 you'll be free of that. the plan is possible, but taking into account the hard-to-reach and closed cities, perhaps five years and not enough for these cities will take much more, you will be 37 and beyond, which is difficult to think so many years

ahead. i don't know what will happen in 7 years. but i may want to keep traveling and doing some new projects. or maybe , uh, i'll find my soul mate, and i'll sit in some small town in russia. anything can happen. if there are any new projects. there are ideas, for example, to float on all major rivers of our country. or to visit all russian reserves, it would be very interesting for me to have such a feeling ivan forgive me, please, i will stop here that you have some kind of substitution, it’s all the same, like these are all the largest rivers, but somehow everything there is some kind of formal approach in this. not because you know, i don't know, i want to see australia. i don't know marsupials there, because you won't find them anywhere. well, is it some kind of sensual curiosity, or are all the largest rivers. i don’t know what it is connected with, i’m not at all drawn abroad to these marsupials. but

to travel around russia. for me it's interesting. or maybe the fact is that in general you went abroad, you can’t have more money. yes , it is. it probably also plays a role, but so far i have set a specific goal for myself. you see , when there is a specific goal, then hmm, it already somehow spurs on. she uh, gives some kind of hmm specific stimulus uh. it allows e to keep itself within certain limits. so you still need frames, probably, yes, uh, travel has become a definite substitute. e sex. i was looking for this replacement and said, of course, on the contrary, hatch completely from this system that has enslaved you for 11 years. uh life. so rich in such diverse colors, of course, so many things without travel would not have noticed this smooth transition. maybe e. well, see more hmm what, by the way, was

the most, uh, main discovery for me after leaving the sect , that the world is colored, not black and white, as i imagined that people are generally good, uh, endless responsive. eh, here. this was the main discovery of my journey by this. i'll lay down on the road. there came a moment when he had doubts about the correctness of the teachings of the sect, secret from his wife, secret from friends. i began to get acquainted with such information that former members of this sect write. after leaving everyone, he learned the true essence of former friends. i just got banned on social media. uh, ignore stopped talking. eh, and here i felt, what is this love, what is this brotherly feeling, what is this fanaticism? first of all, he tried to build a relationship with my mom remember how she shed tears when i first time in many years.

led it with the birthday of victories.