and due to the fact that we are at home, that she has that i had such a situation, as if we never once had the thought of returning or what? so you decided that you will survive at any cost? well, it just seemed to me at that moment that it’s even better here than there, even at the entrance it’s better here than there, sochi my mother and i. no, it looks like you did it. why do almost all success stories sound like this? read memoirs of successful people. i came to america with one dollar in my pocket. i came to moscow with a knapsack with things. i arrived there and spent the night on the street, and i came and worked would be wearing rubbish from the restaurant, that is, almost any success story of a person who would take not a prince.

harry is there some one who was just waiting in the wings or an inheritance, but such a person who rose by himself on his own. each of them will have such a story. but for some reason you put this story in a box with a tragedy. but there is no tragedy. well, i mean, you can look at it however you like. i myself began to periodically think that conditionally my brain got used to the fact that it is necessary to constantly suffer, even sometimes my husband tells me why you are so negative. well, a negative person always sees the bad. it will not be very interesting to be friends if you are all the time dramatic in describing your life in this way. sergey is with you a psychologist, a psychotherapist and tatyana krasnovskaya, a family psychologist, and today we are talking about what

triggers prevent her from being happy. let's see what you did. if we look at this perspective on your life. you arrived in moscow and spent the night for two weeks at the entrance. what is your overall result now? now, of course, it’s a sin to complain, everything is fine. is there a husband? my work is still such that i do not work for hire. for myself, yes, a specialist who works on his own. yes, i build my own financial schedule through me. how was your mother's fate?

mom died in the eleventh year, it's good that they said, we died well, no, well, it's good, because your dad left with your mom, a man came with you, if you also told me that you and your mom died that day, i would be totally surprised. i am like that too i think. i even think that the previous two cases are too much. after all, how your mother died separately from you. but your daughter is dead. you are no longer a daughter. probably, well, since there is no mother, it means that there is no daughter of the role of a role model daughter no, well, yes, with the death of every person in our life. well, a part of us is dying. yes, i didn't think about that. you agree your father. why are we now like the program? i'd say we found your father. and now he will come up, what

then but i'm no longer interested. why did the time go by, probably, what did the time go by for in order to be a daughter in order to need, probably need. it seems to me, yes, maybe this is the problem, that when you build relationships with people. you are talking to them unconsciously non-verbally declaring that you will be my friend. i will need you. does need breed friendship? it always seemed to me that i was not trying to impose myself. that's just the same for me, on the contrary , there is a process of not being intrusive, and after a while it's just there. i stop talking to the person. that is, even curiosity would not give you the opportunity now talk to your father. well i don't know what this should be the situation. i'm talking about the fact that

your father is here and he will come to you now, that a person will be with you, but half of your blood is his blood. and what, after all, is it your decision to perceive him as a stranger or to suddenly make him close? it's your choice, yes, i understand, but just, if i'm presenting now. what, here he is, for example, but he is a stranger to me, you know, the fact is that you deny not only his paternity. you deny exactly half of yourself. maybe, that is why you are called by the wrong name. as you were called, it is abbreviated, you just cut off exactly half of the name. yes , i understand this as a full name. it is hard to say.

it's hard to say, it cuts a lot. rumor constantly to someone. well, its no one but you. what happens if you do this? but i don't like her. it just seems, not my simple and all. but at the same time, when you described friends to me in childhood, describing your girlfriends through the sisterly relationship, you gave me reason to believe that you are looking for blood connections. and your loneliness just lies in the fact that you seem to be alone by blood. like this hypothetical sister. this is the same half. this is the same half of the name, the same half of you,

which, because it is a blood relative, will be next to you. you are like a crescent moon, samarkand you understand that one part of you is manifested, and the second is in the shadow. the question is what overshadows, in short. overshadows your grievances and your pain, which is not yours, you do not know the story, for what truth did your father leave you? we don't know what kind of wife she was your mother, we don't know what kind of relationship they had. we don't know how you were born. well in sense we guess physiological results of what? you do not know this whole story, but you take this whole story, and as if shift it to the dark side. i stop suffering to begin to pronounce the name, patronymic. after all, i

only recently thought that i accepted reconciled. but right now i can't. try to do this without resigning yourself, without accepting through this block that is inside. it is unlikely that you will have the same hysteria in the mfc the truth is let's because honestly. let's horror what will happen if you do this? don't

turn. imagine that you now see yourself at age 4 to your right. look and imagine that there is a little girl of 4 years old standing there, and i will ask you a simple question. but you will answer as soon as you hear the question. look at this girl. directly. imagine remember with pigtails with bows or combed ones who have just woken up or maybe on the street.

what does the name type some kind of night lotus mean? like me. i understand the night forehead. well, it's kind of nice too. it's beautiful. zelola funny comes straight. well, this is laughter through tears. i think i can. what do you feel now? for patronymic, and what does it make you? that makes me, but if shame, it means that

you feel that something is wrong with you, having this patronymic. it's not that there's something wrong with me, that it's not sonorous. it’s strange, not ivanova, it’s somehow not like the others like, for example, i don’t know there, if you give russian slavovna stanislavovna here from the first no one can talk, right? and i don’t know how it would sound in uzbek, i just don’t know the uzbek language, well , wasn’t your father’s full name written in the documents, how well, it turns out, hailo, when you succeed. no, this was already

applied a little later. these are the angles within everyday language. it sounded exactly like that. that i am his daughter means daughter? and if it seems to you that it is somehow unsound. yes, indeed, it is not sonorous here, well, as if in this region in france no one will ask you for your patronymic. what matters is what happens inside of you. it just needs to stop cutting off that part of your personal history. well, it turns out to accept dad. well, as it were, but not the one that suddenly enters your life from the one that is already in your blood in your history. and most importantly, it will allow you to change that very

drama and separate your mother's drama from yours. because only when you become exactly manifested individuality without history. you will be able to build relationships openly, you will not need to hide from nothing people. but first you need to allow yourself your patronymic. this is belonging to your family to your father. i will try this is part of your identity and only through identity is born individuality. and the next step is to stop. uh -huh well i think it will be a consequence. well, yes , thank you, thank you very much. thank you thank you so sergey was with you for yourself tatiana krasnovskaya and podcastrigers.

hello dear friends, this is an anthropology podcast on pervy, presenter dmitry professor of the gnessin academy of music one of the most famous and sought-after russian pianists on the whole planet, yuri aleksandrovich razum. hello, we will talk at the piano on the topic of eroticism in classical music. i mean, now you don't know these tavern songs. uh, these uh lovers no no i mean podrochism such a quality work of art that causes

the listener hmm the desire to possess the most beautiful most attractive object of some kind exists in the world, namely the beloved or beloved. if not, this at least to fall into dreaming of your condition precisely about this topic, a very versatile and long-suffering and subtle and difficult to grasp. here is the fact that, no matter how it relates to any pen, no matter how it relates to any program , there is nothing specifically love in this. well , it's absolutely about love and turnover.

chopin's seventh waltz is famous like nothing concrete, but the music is very often not programmatic, but speaks to each listener, and his own experience is another matter, the famous bolero ravel, which was planned precisely as a striptease in a bar. for he wrote this so, well, it just so happened that

he wrote brilliant music, which is good even without striptease, there are works that are specifically aimed at sexuality and eroticism. and there is a more veiled work. instrumental dreams. leaf love. here is the melody. the languor of admiring then the development of a grandiose climax, i'm talking about turnover rather as an aesthetic characteristic that evokes

a romantic feeling in the listener and viewer, firstly, secondly, please. pay attention to you specifically to hmm here is this analogy with how the passion for deliberately rethrow develops. after all, you slow down, where development and hamam usually slow down for a truly child of people, and then suddenly everything comes. explanation of feelings and these yours flew deliciously. uh, worked passages. do not read the correspondence of all those who were really, damn it. today we have everything by sms, thank you. god is loved. so look how timid text messages are the way you started the seventh power. see how quickly it develops. this is all sensual connection, how terrible. this is

how unfortunately these two damages always sound in city apartments on the floor above. well, for some reason these two are very erotic. i move to the next apartment. this

beethoven work is unparalleled in regard to ratism. yura, let's remember the scary horror from the garnet bracelet. remember how he views it? yes yes. well, listen, and the moonlight sonata also, of course, has the most powerful prehistory of beethoven began to give lessons to the young countess juliet guardchard of the italian, uh, and fell in love with her without memory, and he wrote her madly touching letters, that my love, my dear. i'm sorry i left. i

had concerts, he dedicated this e sanata, although there will already be a final storm. already they are there as a harbinger, she treated him, just with respect with gratitude for the fact that he is an amazing gifted person. well, i got carried away by another count. well, in the sense of other composers, while the count, who wrote some kind of vaudeville and eventually married him there, but what is interesting is obethoven, and his relationship somehow he came to her for a lesson. she says to maestro your tie is messily tied. can i bandage you, so i tied it up for a month. and when it seemed that, uh, what is something like a master, and why does he always come in one shirt, he says, i

can’t untie, that knot that was tied in your hand, my love. she says, yes, i'll bandage it, everything is fine. she herself married him there by the hand of some kind, as a result , jumped out to marry another, left with him there she had all sorts of rehearsals, he did not forgive her and when she came to him in a difficult life situation relative to the material for help. he opened the door and he was there. in glory he opened the door and saw and slammed it in front of his nose, but this was beethoven . let's remember pasternak , i live from your card - the eternal attributes of love, i live in your card with the one that laughs, whose hands crunch in the wrists. the one

that breaks her fingers and doesn't want to quit, which they visit and visit and are sad. just remember, everyone probably has some such a small set of those, and hmm , items that were related to the love of each of us, for sure, something remained. well cards - that's right. then again my favorite music starts.

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anthropology podcast on first dear friends. this is the host of this podcast dmitry, along with his favorite viewer, the sounds of the piano under the fingers of the butterfly federation, and then the chrysalis, this thing cycle is already very erotic. this is the same love for life spring, that's what it is more likely, isn't it absolutely correct the sensual attitude. e to life, the seething of life or incredible calmness, but with a reflection on

heaven. eh, this is what, by the way, tchaikovsky has in his barking. i don't remember the epigraph that he gave from pleshcheev's poem there is something we will go ashore. the stars will shine for us. ah, the waves will caress many. and and here is the atmosphere of reverence, a little sadness, but such an infinite light. yes, even lunar even starlight but light. here i will listen.

and then the game is somewhere like a mermaid.

and everything is in the fog. the whole team and return again to this admiration, but already in two voices.

this is an amazing night, amazing nature and love not only next to you or to the one who is next to you, but to the whole universe. here more precisely, the staff of the beautiful museum of tchaikovsky pancake. well, they will tell you how unsuccessful his wife is here, but what is such a failure? why was she a student? it would seem that. well, here, well, lord, where you will find a broader plot. so, it means that a man teaches lovingly, and a young lady, you study so well, she, going to the city. he says, petenka. this is kept in the diaries. i’m still going up the mountain and i’ll go into the music lamp. tell me what it is to buy in order to understand that everyone loves you so much. yes, perhaps dove is

not a wilderness. but, for example, filaret in the background mecca he writes to him. it's already in the letters. i was told that you are unhappy with this woman. hmm, i confess it upsets me, but i would be upset a thousand times more by the news that you are happy with this woman, but he hopes colorful, in my opinion, 2 years old children will explain music to us. debussy taught, and so debussy, the author of moonlight, you won’t find a more erotic work, she had in her teachers. but tchaikovsky was with her as an inaccessible subject. here is one they reach. several times , twice, in my opinion, they ended up in one space. once they walked along two different sides of the street and saw each other, but tchaikovsky did better , i don’t know, he was insanely shy, and another time they ended up in one of the halls there was a ball, and he saw and he knew that

she was there she saw him, well they didn’t fit either, because, apparently, some kind of communication between them had already developed and it could not be broken. yes, even a personal meeting is another matter. at rachmaninov a. he was happy, in love, married, but that's his skill. to admire myrrh to love nature, this, of course, is absolutely incredible power, ingenious strength, love tossing and to a woman, as well, who understood him. i will only play one little melody from our favorite second concert with you. here is how this love develops, how it reaches its culminating point.

and further here. you do not immediately calm down after such a height.

it is interesting that rather the classical works, which just before our eyes and ears are interpreted in this way by the professor of the mind, just resemble that very stage of any love that has not yet passed into physical possession and even touch. but that's exactly what we always remember when we remember the romantic moments of our life, whether it is rather eroticism and very much. we hope that now everything is in our listeners' eyes. well , twitched on the valuyka, something appeared that was in the eighth grade on march 8 and on february 23, when someone hit the gifts. or , for example, the first kiss, but what is the erotic first kiss or