somewhere the same person who controls emotions even worse than you have such a story. yes but still, i would advise you to apply, if for help to specialists, then, conditionally, according to the increase in the severity of the impact. yes, it's better to see a psychiatrist first. we went right away and the psychiatrist immediately prescribed pills. here is the degree of influence. yes, but if you went to a cognitive psychologist, for example, and he would help you with yours, but these beliefs that you must be respected, that if you are not respected, it's bad that you should correspond to her fantasies about herself, because she reacts, to which here are the situations that polina told us, yes, you don’t respect me. yes, you don’t take me here for an important unit of society, it doesn’t matter at the pier or in the dorm refrigerator. who among us , damn it, do you think constantly requires respect? anyone who does not have it

feels wounded, as it were, he collects permanent signs of respect. and even more he tries to find signs of disrespect. that's why my philosophy about it, with which i am here i came to love myself from the beginning and stop. that's how, well, you're on the right track to gather people. what is self love then? i respect myself, i adequately assess reality. if somewhere my rights are infringed, i don’t feed on fantasies that i’m the main thing on my head, my crown no longer stands, as we know, yes, here, uh, you can see working with a psychologist, and love, for example, dostoevsky as he defined the word love, he said, we love a person when we accept him the way god created him. yes, god created you which. yeah, for starters, accept yourself like that. yes

, irritability is the quality with which we are born? this is not, this is a formed quality, but he gave you such parents such a life for the situation. well, god's fate is there, as you wish, let's live the universe as you like to call yourself now, so, but you were given this, accept it. and then just change, because the beginning of polina must realize that i am like that , i react. i'm bad, because i'm like that and yes, it can interfere with me sometime, but once it helped me. trust me who's what life was achieved by a girl from kira-chupetsk, who now lives and works in moscow. and most of the budget. yes, you didn’t achieve it either, your aggressiveness served you in this significant service, and you decided to completely reshape yourself right away. well, how is it? damn, but

with men, how can you behave like that with boys too? such that is, there you know that i'm a man? no. we are always trying some parallel theme. e, which is not directly psychic, you see nothing parallel, you are completely human and everything is intertwined with you there men. i am a dependent victim there, i did not dare to open my mouth. and now , since i work while there is no man in my life, that is, the previous experience with the young man was not very good. yes, it’s just important for us to understand that there is not a very young man there, right? old man, yeah. wow, you're married rich with a big and big car. yes michael

sees you through it, of course, because of the embarrassment. we are not enthusiastic, that is, there was some kind of age man. not free. yes, you had a mistress. well, he just chose between me and he still chose. yes, they were just my wife, it was also necessary not to have a wife. yes, she tells you so, and you felt yourself in this relationship, the victim. yes , in principle, in life i felt like a victim until recently. in general, i felt that life offended me did not wait, and something is a defensive reaction. we see it, right? the only thing is that she is somewhere she is directly very strongly expressed, and in relationships, on the contrary. yes, therefore, of course, if you align a little here. and in a relationship it will be better there you can also have some of your own words and make statements. of course, of course, listen, when did you draw a piece of paper like this,

and for yourself a plate on a piece of paper in two parts? for example, i would write that you have not given in your life. and why did i give you excess no, i didn’t draw, because now i am grateful for everything. and what happened is five pieces. here's something that's bothering me. mikhail polina will now believe, yes, because there is no gratitude for everything. it has been read again. we've seen enough of the internet gur and such a cool one to be grateful for everything, but it shouldn't be. well, you're alive. object you can be up for something ungrateful, and you can experience something in your life, something with you, that you became a friend for everything after you felt that life gave you today, that is, it was bad, very bad. there was some kind of crisis, of course. tell us what was close. well, when these relationships ended, and the whole life collapsed, and what exactly? no it was. it was before, damn it, tell me, what will collapse? that in general dreams are all goals in general a dream. what was it that you

marry this man, perhaps i will merge with him 100%, never at all let him go and he promised you that, right? or he made it clear, most likely, he swore blood that he would not return to her again and left. and how he left you, he said it directly or simply disappeared. he just said, yes, to the police, yes, the relationship is over. i later said, that's it, i'm ready to be the tenth twenty-fifth, please, just don't leave me. throw it away, you also depended financially. and such and material is dependent. yes , and when he left you, he also stopped his material obligations. well, there wasn’t such that i directly completely depended on him financially, but i always knew that if i didn’t earn money somewhere, i could apply. that is, it all happened in moscow, and he was already in moscow. and did you move here to him or not? yes, i went to study, in general, i left everything old with absolutely nothing, and then somehow you just felt that you were absolutely thrown out, died

, too, that your grandmother died. it was a big foothold. she nurtured me like no one else in this life. i thought you were losing the luggage that has been with you since childhood and losing here a freshly acquired, so to speak suitcase, which you took into account very much, i am losing support under my feet. i understand that i don’t have any reliance on myself, and i need to look for it, so your emotions are all yours, so to speak, laid down by these here, er, emotional features of some laxity. it is aggravated, yes, and i’ll just clean you up now, you live for your own, yes, when is your phrase that you don’t have reliance on yourself? it already exists now, then it doesn’t exist, it didn’t exist then, when it stayed and learned for you. who taught studied at the institute and acted on her own, when your phrase is that you then did not have self-reliance, and this is true or false. true, how true, you taught yourself, studied on your own, came on your own, although

your parents did not let you go. she entered the budget. she herself made her way here, which means in moscow, including looking for an elderly lover herself and entered. okay, compared to you, it will look like me , okay, i'll see it now. yes, uh, so she did it all herself, but relying on herself you didn't have. it was a reliance on ambitions, my ambitions, so you have a reliance on yourself. was what happened? and you were comfortable, and well , she was, maybe less than you wanted, but she was, you see, when you deny your achievements. you are like a series of this support, what is your mistake? remember what you said, like christ for the phrase? that is, in your fantasies about your life again , you have a world in which it is good and calm, like a mother and grandmother. yes, but we are adults. yes hello adult life is more than that

the world, in fact, was not, because partially. it was your reliance on you . partially, now you have less of them. supporting other people uh-huh but that doesn't mean you don't have that understanding at all. take this , tell me. now i rely on myself, i rely on myself. but we dismantled polina right to the bone, but now i want us to be on the line and all the others, whose people also have such situations when there is an outburst of anger, some kind of irritability, when there is a feeling of injustice or disrespect. you never know some triggers work. here you open your mouth. and it seems that you start to say things that are fair, but at first it’s just loud, then you are carried. are there any tricks that can be used in this situation, but besides counting to 10 there, and either a person can apply, or can no longer. let's try. means every time there is

some kind of out-of-control behavior. yes, but it is important to understand that this is just like with alcoholics. they too have uncontrolled behavior. and yes, it goes there. here you have this angry binge such anger yes you control lose and leave. no, they lose control and go into drinking. so, when they come out of this, they begin to feel a powerful sense of guilt and shame. and you also have a powerful sense of guilt and shame for your angry outbursts. and this guilt and shame that you feel as a result overstrains your nervous system and then against this background, against the background of this overstrain, any clue there causes you to again flash to it, and so this vicious circle breaks. on a sense of guilt and shame, that is, here that's when well, well, well, yelled at someone. well, it happened. well, there were habalki, actually this part of your character. it's ok. yes, that's what you have to say. i want to be different, but as long as i'm

like that, i won't scold myself for it. i love myself like this. and now, when you learn to love yourself as a habalist, it will be much easier for you to control it. in the meantime, you hate yourself for it. your nervous system is in tension and control your aggressiveness. they tell you, it's more difficult, well , after all. now she already feels that she has rolled up. well what do we do when we we admit that we have it we can lock ourselves in the bath in advance and just roar here we suffered here we suffered we suffered we broke through. it's safe there. well, what would you do to roar in a safe place, right? ah, you have to remember that you are, in short, i understand, pauline you really can't accept yourself the way you are. and you, of course

, want to be different, you want to be so cool , balanced, always nice, but now it's not you, but you and mikhail, you tried to play yourself the other for half an hour, but in the end. we they saw through you, they hid it, they admitted that anyway you are also nothing and even like a havalier. you, too , did not condemn anything at all. i personally think. this is generally an advantage. use it i don’t consider it an advantage, but i believe that you are on the right track , because you have already demonstrated such strength to us all your life, because, of course, wiped kalach well, you say, yes, grated kalach beaten for a carrot suffered? why did she remember this carrot situation earlier? this is a podcast of the psyche. and how are you? see we are here we practice surgery. well, such a psychological one with a clinical psychologist for candidates of psychological sciences mikhail force. well, i'm a journalist. how can i help

him and our heroes. now polina, who does not want a sinful stick and believe that she will not. thank you very much, yes? i really don’t accept myself again, only here from one extreme to another. hi all. this is a podcast 20 years later, the presenter konstantin mikhailov is with you . hello and also performer of her own works, poet and composer. known as yuta but she is anna osipova, i really didn’t know that the news was beaten and that’s it. survived two letters

left yuta i understood you. i just realized that today you are remembering the year 2006, and with the city 312. we will definitely figure it out today , ah. yes, and youtube we also know a very wide one. and what is characteristic somehow does not reduce joy. utah practically. mm, for the entire series, soldiers wrote on the soundtrack, with the exception of the title track, which women wrote there with a group the end of the film , the rest of the music is yours, and now together it’s not my students, tourists, but the laurel method of the season, the frenzied composer. it’s real in everyone, i just take it and compose, compose no. you know the most surprising thing for me personally, when they come up to me. they say, listen to a cool song, and whose words i say are my illusion? okay, this surprises me. and you are so cool to them, but cool. come

on, cool is good, but on the internet they write that happy together is also yours happy together this, including my husband , oleg osipov, who made the tv series soldiers and did not write music, it turns out okay, well, yes, oops yes internet yes, but in 2006 this series also appeared. now together it turned out, in general, the cult series was absolutely at that time. yes, of course, like the soldiers, by the way, is also a cult series. well, the cult film, of course, is the day watch of the beginning of 2005-2006, the premiere was right on new year's eve, so i kind of remembered it. and on an example, and we weren’t just there, we were giving a program with the team, in my opinion, half an hour before the audience enters the hall, and i will tell you this, it was a harsh performance for me personally.

and because i, uh, will stay while shooting the video, and we did before shooting a frame from the day watch, which were then added, we did before shooting at the factory in december, and with the open sky , you know, when the workshops are abandoned and the sky is open, only all sorts of beams, iron ceilings, it was snowing, and it was 17-20 degrees below zero. and if you remember the clip itself, we are there in a shirt, i have a shirt of ticks, and i caught bilateral bronchial pneumonia and had to work. if the temperature of 38-39 worked, because hellish conditions created such conditions for you, then there was already a serious hmm for the art-hour production company under the leadership of fyodor bondarchuk and andrey everything is very serious. everything is fine. they would have made heat cannons, there they are all gas , which, let’s say, not for a very long time in the frame, and between shots we

sat in the warm and busik, roughly speaking, we were warming ourselves, and it seemed to us that everything would pass. very calm. it was then that i realized that nevertheless hooked, of course, it is only later with experience that you understand, to be honest, we used to treat ourselves completely differently. here are the first years of performance - this is just the beginning of 2005-206. i remember, for example, in the month of june. we had 26 flights 52 round trips a month and it was such that sometimes there were two concerts a day. and if you are well acquainted with the result with the repertoire of the city 312. we have very e band songs here are low additions to screams every. you hit various sore ligaments, and so on, it was hard sleep, there was practically no, and we thought ugh well, we are like we are young green, everything is fine, and then there was a concert in kemerovo that's what i

remember now, this is the only time, when the concert in moscow was canceled because i couldn’t fly from kemerovo to moscow to perform in moscow and then you had to fly to tomsk, it ’s not far from kemerovo, you understood something and it turned out that i fainted after the concert near the hotel room . and me they gave me just 2 days to stay in kemerovo canceled the concert in moscow and only then the organizers of the kemerovo concert in cars in jeeps. they themselves took me to tomsk. that is, i’m this one concert. for all the time the city has been operating, 312 to this day, by the way, was canceled because of my health, and then we decided that we should take breaks between concerts, because otherwise we are just physically mothers i already had an adult child with you. we filmed in moscow when we arrived, my child was already in the fifth grade, she did not wait for the mother capital. which just in 2006 was the institution. yes, i somehow did everything

right, that i became pregnant first in 2006, and then it’s cool. so, they gave maternity capital for the second child. and i have a second pregnancy there twins can you imagine i'm sitting and thinking, but i wonder, do i have a double or something or not? no, as expected, but it's great when you have two you walk, and you have three hearts no, it's great. one is unpaid. in general, it was a fun time in 2006. i remember the night watch, in general, i turned everyone turned over. yes we were also very interested in being badly behaved here. yes, you made up your mind, so you are free today now. it’s not me at all, you know, at that moment i didn’t think at all, because childbirth, feeding and the next childbirth turn off a woman’s brain, there’s no need to think there, that is, nature is laid down so that she doesn’t go crazy, just from a

sudden load. yes, the brain works very well now. i don’t work here, i work, i don’t work for creativity, of course, i can’t speak, on the contrary, just the same creative processes start very much, but move in a completely different way. that is, uh, brain activity does not always contribute to creativity and rationality. you were not on maternity leave. well, what am i doing, i lacked loneliness catastrophically, that is, a permanent child, a child, a nurse, a nanny there, yes, and that means i fed him, the last uh, evening feeding, i got behind the wheel, drove out to some neighboring one , chatted and sat a song wrote. no, that is, this is what i miss very much. how is your process first melody man in the head to play or poetry? and then, if i knew how this process happens, i would probably have already received the nobel prize. know-ha developed, do not know it every time like uh anew. that is, it would seem, yes, there i have about 180 songs and when i come to the studio i record

one or another. you already have some experience. you already know how what, what yes, and you can go straight ahead. here, according to some training manual , it’s not a fig. it doesn't work like that. every time with every new song you go through all these circles anew, that is, there are no recipes. to me it seems that you people are creative there let's say for me. it's a riddle how does it come? well , a little crazy to me, by the way, probably, yes, because, probably, you just need to be open. my friend karmen grigoryan is the lead singer of the crematorium group well, cool. well, the father is something that comes to his mind. they are, let's say, so inadequate to the degree of his chizoness, because they disappeared. it seems to me that at some point it just opens, like an intake receiver. et in itself transmission and gives out yes, it comes, uh, a lot of amazing things that you then have to filter your consciousness anyway, because you are not alone, after all. in the end. you go out people. yes, you want, what are you good to them, and

forgive three children behind their backs, who will then ask mom, what is this, why not through some kind of filter? yes, it still needs to be skipped, these filters look and these are kilometer-long drafts. hmm that is, some kind of unprocessed. information is included such as to call something? insight how is it accepted? yes? or something like that, everything is right. the word was invented a long time ago, and such inspiration thing, and she, er, pyotr ilyich tchaikovsky also said that it was useless to wait for inspiration. in short, it's hmm, you need to sit down, of course, you need a muse. come here, come here, and the regulation is on a certain working schedule, that is, every day at 7:00 in the morning. you sat down and said, well, you need it for yourself. that's what the music usually says. i go for a walk and says

she's so long bye. finally, you won’t convince her that you are stubborn and you really want to, and then she will say, well, okay, like a woman, this is a podcast 20 years later on channel one. i'm kostya mikhailov, my guests are charming the girls are and i am the soloist of the group city 312 and utah we are talking about how different the girls were in 2006 - this is exactly the year that we remember today this year, uh, in which there were a lot of both cinema and musical achievements. and in particular, yuta hmm was more involved in her personal life, but at the same time she did not leave creativity, which came to her as a personal life. that is, i simultaneously released an album, in my opinion, the fifth or sixth. i am very grateful i can say at the same time giving birth to albums to a child. do you know how she was there yet? and he is my husband, but he spoke regularly. listen to the music for the movie. i say ok term he says well of course yesterday and i went

to the studio and stuck there until five to 6:00 in the morning. so, when i came in at 6:00 in the morning, he said, where have you been? i say this, he says this, why are you working so late? i say so, i'm for your movie. he says, no, you should be at home there, that's what the husband is, that is, that's the eternal problem. yes, this is the dissonance between the male female worker, uh, subordinate. e, i have there was another composer to have more and says there when you should write music. yes, you should be at home. yes yes svetik e. hmm, wandered around the country. at this moment, that's all, listen , but, by the way, i very clearly noticed. at that time, we didn’t even think about how much we sleep, what we eat, whether we eat at all, whether we sleep at all , and most importantly, that everything worked out. say, well, there is some, and then, apparently, we were removed from the guarantee, at some point, yes, thank god, we just began to look at ourselves a little from the other side, as and not just at

creative. and also on the human physical yes, well, of course, because you understand that you can just burn out in these two three four five years. and when, in principle, you will be at such a wonderful creative age, when you work to work, and you will not have physical strength, and when i felt it myself, i just realized that a should just be carefully. well, cool, 40, sorry to interrupt. that's when you had this fracture, you understand? what? well, it's time to calm down a little. i realized that somewhere around 30, i guess i realized that i am today earn. i realized that this is me already and still some kind of call. but could it be that in this other project it turns out like this aha. and interestingly, i don’t understand, it also turns out minus 2 hours of sleep, because, well, projects. they are, well, you understand, this is not only participation. here now the physical i of you is present. also your constant presence at the moment of preparation for this project, when

you can’t sleep and you understand that tomorrow. you have to do it you have to do it well, because tomorrow you have one chance at this is all. you thought about money then. well, in general, in principle, about money. listen, this was not a question at all. how many of them and for what, because somehow everything is very different. we are very different. we did not have a problem. the problem of money has already been solved, because until 2005 city 312, and rented an apartment for four people a lorry and lived on it happened that for 100 rubles. in a day. it was very difficult to fall off immediately fell off the watch, where to stay songs great access. yes, peter fm , and so out of the access zone, and all 2006 you there they began to receive a bunch of all sorts of mtv there, something like that, in awards continued such, let's say, which are right there. already getting used to everything.

you seem to be working, you continue to do even more scrupulously, probably more responsibly even than the previous material, but nevertheless , people get used to it and put such a die on you, that well, you can’t get any worse than writing a beautiful song, well done a at this time, a million songs are still coming out. and that's how the new album, for example, cities 312, we presented it in june already so we are loved. at we have a permanent army of our listeners who, thank you god, have been providing us with work all the years, but nevertheless , this excitement that was in 2005-2006 and starting from these years ending somewhere in 2010. well, by and large, there there were also records awards there for, roughly speaking, the largest number, for example, of discs sold. and among, for example, but for test groups, well, for example, so there were, of course , music channels in the premium, something else , and we naturally. that's all. that's why i said that they thought about money then least of all, because they already were.

they were already there, we didn’t need to think about them, we thought that we weren’t we should show that we weren’t one-day-old, we can do it all the time to surprise us to write, if we compare from that year to today near the city 312, we are sitting each other like that . it is everyone who praises himself, yes, such praise. oh, if well, who, if they cheated me too, believe me, i'll give you a drink too, wait. i am there for it, but for now you do it. it's just that since then the city has got 312 plus mine. how let's say. so a separate branch, because sometimes, and there the same igor matvienko , for example, says, svetlana, we have a film viking coming out there, could you, for example, have a drink with us. uh, i'll strangle prince vladimir, for example . this is very interesting to me. i understand that this is no longer a project from the city, that is, 12 is my separate story, but nevertheless, if we talk together, taking the city from 12 of mine to cube , we already have b songs, one way or another related to films, 22. well, that is, these are either soundtracks,

or based on, or as advertising, for example, as it was, but with the film alien vs. predator from 20 fox where the song itself is not in the film. here with these families. but these, and here, but rick is a toon, but at the same time, and the advertising that was on, well, let's say, positioning more people to watch this movie, and it was in theaters. it was built specifically for the song no peace on earth, which we sang together with the gdr group, that is, there were more such, and not direct soundtracks, and the trailers were built on our songs. that's so cool, yes russian we are russian. and how can you prove our girl can your father show you the bags or can you boil dumplings in a teapot? or maybe, and what other people do you know who

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repairs. in just an hour tinkov back in 2006 where you just shot it was just your year it's straight. well, it's unrealistic that you were everywhere and, of course, the watch is the brightest event of 2006, which cannot be ignored - this is such a good movie and after all this, they are not similar. yes, after everything that happened in the eighties in the nineties, this terrible music in these

movies, when, for example, they imprisoned, apparently composer. well, i don’t know what to call the person who was responsible for the music in this movie theater, and there he was responsible for the music, at that time he was in this movie, for example, especially if it was some kind of detective, it was like that and you watching a movie. you think i don't want to watch anymore. this is a movie, because it’s a ding-ding kurlyk kurlyk, that is , they didn’t approach the music at all, it wasn’t in the cinema, but still it was a good time. here, remember. and i have any good time, what then, what now, that's how i treated creativity, how? the main task is the most important thing, without which i cannot live , and i will treat it that way. i'm so happy, honestly, i have a wonderful profession. it is the same as, for example, the profession of a doctor, because the doctor treats er, the physical has found a side. yes,

the physiology of our body. and we have the opportunity, for example, to heal souls. of course, i may have taken too much of this. it is given by teacher teacher. we are given it. in principle, it seems to me that if in every profession, if you think about it and understand that we must feed each other to feed something. very good, kind wonderful, then believe the good, but the east has the opportunity to increase. in this regard, it is much more productive than evil. where are you taking it? i probably, and the first is from the memory of my parents , relatives close to my ancestors, and ah, the second, god rewarded me with so many good people around me that i can’t lose faith in good people. i'm honest, i'm probably not that glowing, i myself am drawn to them you see, that is, if i see that a person doesn’t like it, here he sits, with a skirt, i wanted to say with yuta, as we had, yes, for example, and we are actually the first meeting with her. we didn’t even

talk, but we saw we just grappled, because we got to know each other after the fact. we're just dating, that's all, yes it was. hello yes you are, you are my man, and you are my man, yes for many years. basically, we continue so far. by the way, yes, yes, yes, i'm always glad, for example, you see, i have something good going on inside me. notes i noticed that this one is the best. this is in general a product, but of the endless efforts of man. that is, while you are working on a good thing, it is there as soon as you let go. this process all the bad things happen on their own, but i wouldn't understand. it’s just a place, uh, how is this whole place never empty and not holy either, if you have uh, right here, but empty, uh-huh, it ’s not filled with good or something like that, then believe me, it will always find something to settle there.