a boy and therefore this vanilla she is. papa does not understand how to deal with this, as if there was this feeling. mom is far from being a vanilla person; in general, she was like dad loved mom. dad was soft. dad was kind, dad was attentive, dad did things that i still remember there, but such moments and hmm what well, let's say, there with any holiday. well, what a holiday. we are sleeping now, he woke up very early and ran for flowers. and well, roughly speaking, we woke up with flowers. here it is around the face. well, that is here. well i don't know for me this is a bright holiday on march 8th. it wasn't just him on march 8th. these are birthdays. it's some kind of holidays there mmm. well, he often tried hard. not well, just like that, i don’t remember, but on holidays. yes, he always did this to his mother and not, but to his mother he still showed me in every possible way that the girl was already in her period. when yes,

that is, not quite a child. no, i don’t remember, let’s well assume that the first rejection of your femininity occurred. it was then that in childhood he was completely unconscious, but he led you to, let's say, meet with dad, so that there is more mutual understanding, so that dad feels good. as he expressed, and then you grow up and, accordingly, at the age of 8, a boy is born, your brother, your reaction. how did you associate yourself with these events in general? how did you cope with the fact that there was a new person in the family, she was fun, based on her own position. i hung such responsibility for him as an elder. well, she told me this, and there you are older, you have become older. now everything happened to me when he appeared, it was carried away very much by my brother. she

kissed him straight ass infection there, yes, and right all the time it's in my opinion, again, how is dad with him? well, the youngest son there i am older, but he is a man. a person is a different upbringing is different. did not have. this is his mother , right here, right, he’s right under his mother’s skirt, right, he looks like that, the films are there, yes, but, as it were, dad to him like well, like a boy. i don't know how to write it like i didn't fuss or lisp, not there somehow no well, i don't know how to get the word he and dad had some activities that you and dad didn't have for fishing and hunting in the garage. no, i'll explain now, bro, i don't remember just at what age? but he

went to the kindergarten, he was taken to the kindergarten to his grandmother, and i don’t remember. for some reason, i had a little one there, yes, and somehow i didn’t ask further later, it seems, as a matter of health, the climate is different there and my brother was sent to my grandmother. that is, i grew up with my parents and desirable ones all the time. and then they took him there, and my parents went there in tambov, i’ll tell you now, when he was 12 or 13 years old, about the same as 14 years old or adults you no longer lived. yes, i was 21 years old. i am 20 yes 20-21 almost almost. so i've already begun to live separately , yeah. here, but as if my father did not have this time. here, well, with uh, they grew further. so you become a girl and you are fourteen there. well, how did you feel about yourself? how did you feel in this world kid? ah here is, i have perception was always only behavior such. here is our year , somehow something. i don’t know it there, well, the behavior is more like boys, but they are

not well, why do you think? i don't know how correct this is? well, dad perceived me like that, but dad accepted me like that, well, accordingly, probably, other men or other people there, probably, they should have perceived it, looked at other girls who behaved differently, you treated them. here they are, i don’t know , they were painted as if, but there were such as noble girls. uh, this is a very interesting point, because i've always looked after myself. even though i felt. that is , i had such a perception, such communication was always there, right? but if i took care of myself, i put on make-up, i don’t know there, there, well, styling hairstyles, everything is there. that is , i always leave behind myself. i always had it, but for vanilla. such girls. they become somehow for you, uh, images dangerous or unacceptable. well, there were other girls who were different. so why

did you put them on? what to say? some here, if it's just that vanilla, they have stupid stupid ones. yes? uh-huh yes, yes, and, accordingly, it is very important not to become dumb, will not become stupid. maybe, uh-huh, maybe yes, well, i didn't like it. naturally, as it were. well, i'm not like that, i won't be like that, but in any case, at some point, uh, physiological processes began. when you realize that you have become a girl, this is the moment when you first had, and these days are so-called, how did you perceive it and who was next to you, and you knew what was happening or you lay down to die from blood loss. it was a little different. we lived in a small village, we went for a walk, and friends came to visit us there. a like, well, my mother's friend is her daughter. so the four of us went for a walk in the center, let's call it the village in the center. here, and hmm, and when was it

some kind of warm summer day, or what? well, in general, it's warm, sunshine, in my opinion, this is we are returning. i don't remember much about this moment at home. i told my mother that something was not right, well, somehow, here we are going home, but this one himself did not talk about such topics. that is, as i myself educated myself in these plans for the soul, he never had any conversations with his mother. hmm, so i came home. i have such. well, it's kind of a shock, yes. mom is shown such that you, well, that is, here, well, as usual, well, something are you worried about what's wrong? well, now that's all. here , go yourself. understand. yes, the meaning turns out to be some kind of individuation, but your mother did not commit the fact that you become a girl. even though she's the one who does it. well, yes, i remembered this transition

just like that, well, that is, how would you figure it out yourself , it is highly likely that your mother didn’t really know how to women, most likely, uh-huh, i just know my grandmother, that is, too. in general, this is the controller, but she worked for the fsb at one time. hmm, she sat on reading the letters and checked. in general, all this is necessary on the noses of everyone there. such are the cases, and, as it were, a grandmother is very tough, very callous. how much she loved to control everything and everyone. well, in general, mom grew up in such circumstances, it turns out that this initiation did not happen and mom did not immerse you in this process, but then anyway, you grow up and then the boys start, but, accordingly, all sorts of gambling, marriage of a sexual nature, and so on, yes, that is, you understand that here, too , accordingly, you kind of have to make some kind of decision. you were frightened

, you knew where your life was leading you or, in principle, i remember my first experience, and it was like, well, everything, smoothly flowing all of ours consciously. yes, what is it, but it was. it was n't a relationship. it was at that moment that the relationship began, then quite such long-term ones began. it happened, you know, when everything is already around. uh huh i haven't yet. something like this. well, okay, somehow even somewhere ashamed, probably . well, this belatedness was also associated, as if with some kind of no, even underdeveloped femininity, that is , immaturity, yes, that's how you perceived it. it is difficult to complex that i shared this event with my dad. uh-huh reacted calmly, but he only said. well,

this one sighed a little, but with such an understanding like this. he says, well, it was your choice there, yes, as it were, well, i would like, as he had such a phrase, but i would like it to be back and forth in marriage. in in general, as it is supposed to be there, yes to my mother i was afraid to say this, my father said about it, my mother's reaction was everything, as usual. and how? well, in general, everything on this has become some kind of your sacred secret, that now you are a woman with you. are you like all of you now? well, probably partly. yes, i can assume that you have changed, and not to say that i was directly pleased with all this, that it was something like that, right? well, probably somehow it will still be better not what everyone describes. everything is far from the picture. uh-huh, i think that somehow yes changed and how your

relationship developed further. and i just got in a relationship. after that, somewhere i don't remember, after what time? well, somewhere in six months, probably, well, i'll start. yes, there the feeling became more somehow yes, and, accordingly, then i had a relationship in which we had a relationship, we lived together then, ah, 5 years. in these relations, did you play some kind of female part , or did you immediately start playing the male part there, it wouldn’t work out much, probably, it’s still some kind of female part to play there was a party. uh, because man. m. how to say it? i can probably say stronger, probably, or i was dependent on him there. yes , i fell in love sickeningly there, but i felt at that moment i feel, i’m into him, he’s into me, as it were, but at first everything is so beautifully good there, then somehow it went a little more complicated, that’s all. such felt laid down by the whole some. well, in general, yes, it depends, well, it’s an addiction , that is, there was some kind of after all, i’m another

collision with the fact that if you are a woman, then you are accordingly in danger, because if you play this female party, then, accordingly, a hostage of a man on whom you depend. there has been a depreciation of a depreciation of a woman's depreciation. yes, as a person, as a person, as a woman walked, after a while. he was right, and it was not practically uncovered. well, that is, everyone knew, many knew. well, you continued to stay in that relationship. here i am talking about this, that it was dependent, most likely, as if the hostage of the female position here lay in wait for failure, yes. there

was suppression going on here. that's how a person wanted to bend me under him, so that i would do. that's right, exactly everything that he wants, and he will do what he wants. well, he wants like this, well, in fact. we just now discovered several stages, at each of which you were faced with the fact that being a woman. well, such as the story itself is not winning, in general, somehow, in general, it is adjusted to men according to their request, and being a woman often means simply serving the interests of a man, somehow i don’t agree with this. it's just culturally the way it looks now. i don't i say that this is correct, but often women, as it were, find themselves in positions in which they have to serve the interests of a man . they just lie on the couch, but still continue to beckon themselves to the master of the world of prey.

including yes, and a woman, accordingly, she somehow owes something all the time in this sense, a man also has a lot of debts and his own cockroaches, but judging by the way you tell, you several times at the moments of initiation transition you like once in this female state, girls girls women, yes, every time you are faced with the fact that this is not a very pleasant position. she seems to be giving back a little. and there is such a hypothesis, tell me if it looks like the truth, that at the moment when your brother left, and he was sent to his grandmother, and you stayed with dad, dad, who was waiting for his son, and he had a lot of expectations about it. yes. and as if there was no destiny left, even then , in order to please dad , in order to be near him, it is necessary, as if to replace not only himself in the role of vanilla, girls, means brother is very similar

to this. well, that is, this is the position, it is more convenient, it is more familiar and it has a result. well, yes, what i said is a tomboy, and we are psychologists sergey on ourselves at tatyana krasnovskaya. our guest is marina with whom we are discussing the nature of femininity today. what is the key fear now to become this woman, because i said that i hate vanilla women, but to support you, but at the same time, it was a kind of trick on my part, which consists in the fact that those images, which you reject in many ways carry a danger to you, which means marina has become a vanilla woman? so let's imagine once marina is a vanilla woman, and what will happen in this world in your world, perhaps the world. who will die, who will be upset? who

will pay? who will be disappointed? come on, think about what no one means at all. well, whoever dies, no one dies from it right. you want to say, weakness will come out , that is, sensuality will go there, probably, that's why i ask what will happen in the world along with the fact that marina alone dies and does not wake up wake up this vanilla. listen, marina is so clinging, it’s very difficult for her to even imagine somehow this marina, probably it’s hard for me to even imagine how it will be somehow different in any case there. yes, this is probably what i strive for, what i want to see for myself, i need to get it out of myself. you're scary somehow even

scary. what's frightening there? well, now, that again they may not accept me like that, so i say who will be disappointed, who will be upset, who will not accept. i don't accept myself it turns out such a yes, of course, the m novel comes in another completely bad there. well, you come to work. completely different. here in some other femininity in some other hypostasis. your employees will stop listening to you no, our colleagues will stop communicating with you. now they will react, they are faced with

marina, who is aggressive, like a tomboy , a strong manifestation there and she can do it herself and in this way also devalues ​​the male experience, as if in retaliation for that first relationship experience. well it's getting rough speaking, i am measured with them, you are trying to become not up to a man, but at least we will survive. why did i tell her that when a boy is born a man is born? because in this world, which is absolutely in our head , the idea is formed that a woman is not quite a person, as if not quite deserving. and everything that is possible , but the mistake is that many women begin to enter into this confrontation, and in an attempt to even out they very often lose just themselves, and we are simply different, that is, men. these are men, women, these are women, and we are just different, and here it is very important

to allow yourself to be a woman, and allow men to be a man, without trying to remake anyone, because any remake is an attempt to castrate your masculinity. this is , in general, your castration. if i were a freudian of the brain of bones i would now say that it is your envy of the penis that is expressed. maybe freddie was also not just a bastard to sew. yes, he understood what was at stake, but at the same time, with all that, it is clear that this is laid right in the very early childhood in games with boys. in awareness the fact that i'm not a boy, and there all this is laid and laid. the same envy, but it is important to learn how to work with this envy. and how can we work with envy, only realizing that you have your life , i have my own life, and when we begin to enjoy our own life, our own body, our own elements of manifestations, and our own perception, then we begin to get just the same our own life.

and here it is very important that they just let it go and let them do nothing on purpose, but let this femininity. i could ask, why is this part, which, of course? yes, you have it, it is femininity. this is vanilla even in the most hypertrophied manifestation. it's still there somewhere. yes, it is important to find some balance, but now that you feel that it is worth discovering, that it is worth raising it? yes, and somehow show more that you get bored. why is this, perhaps, i want to answer. so e my masculine behavior, it blocks my relationship with a man. so, well, that is, they are afraid of me don't suit me, either. well, maybe i'm unpleasant. it’s just that even in such a manifestation it’s somehow too harsh. yes, when we put a man on ourselves, there, and accordingly, we begin to somehow compare ourselves with them. a hmm i want attention like any woman wants attention. i want normal

attention. i didn’t overeat any, so that it wasn’t there, let’s say, yes, so that it would pass by there, right? and i want. yes, i want attention damn, yes, attention is attention. there are questions about your reaction to this attention, perhaps for you, the attention of a man scares. then you a priori you will put on yourself this protection , i didn’t look at it like that. by the way, that's why i said, there will be no bad questions here. i wonder if it already exists? why is it dangerous? why is it dangerous to admit and admit it to yourself? let's imagine such a situation. here you are, there is a man who is interesting to you, and he begins to show his attention to you , his concern, why is it dangerous that a wedding is taking place, any other male taxi driver is a seller, there, i don’t know, a loader director. uh, oligarch, whatever. here's a man, they're all

are equally taken into account. there is the first experience, most likely the relationship of these before, which would be the first, well, the first long one. well , this is an abuse, they do not consider you a person. what do i want to do? this is even somewhere raising a hand, yes, physically impacting. well, it's scary, but i don't know, it seems to me that i've already somehow learned. how to defend the border with me so you can not do. look, you can talk to you as you like, if i have enough strength and i will beat you and offend you. whatever i'll do the question is another to you now important in order for this femininity to be found, as you are looking for. you are not looking where you lost, where it is light. and if you want her to be found, then the question is that you should be attentive to the attention that is shown, but at the same time, you do not need

to marry them to sleep. build relationships with them, but simply allow this attention to be and in this attention it will begin to open up. just the same, your femininity does not need to be answered in any way, you must accept it, because there is an idea, as if that as soon as it attention is shown in relation. to you. you need to quickly, quickly put up this protective barrier, because with this barrier , as if there is actually an empty space there and very quickly ah, this dangerous person, yes , get closer to you, and then you don’t know how to be there see it further. even now there was a feeling, as if there , hmm, this barrier is being placed, and as if i owe something. if you show attention, then i seem to have to give something in return. something that's right, i must, well, nothing you should, that's why i say, learn to just take this attention and be in it and that's it. i understood. yes, i did not look here. with what i leave

with understanding, with the understanding that i, first of all, we found these moments. honestly , i didn’t even realize somehow, i didn’t understand that it’s very valuable for me that we call these moments of my initiation. so i also saw them, that they were very important on well, as on my formation, as a woman it’s cool. and, accordingly, that i do not owe anything to anyone in fact. and just this moment when hmm well, i mean that i'm not where i need to be, i realized. i came here with this, but now there is still a moment that m-m. just accept, just enjoy, just be. well, simply yes , femininity will simply be revealed there. you don't have to do anything yourself. this is not a forced procedure. yes found that you just have to be it seems. yes, it just sounds like a word there. yes, it's not always clear how to do it. that is, how it manifests itself, in fact, and i have, but an understanding. how to do it? he yes, i can

just write this state, as i understand it, how i feel it, how to just be, when you are in the moment, and you don’t have extraneous thoughts in your head. you're not in the future thinking about what i need to do. you are not in the past. the pace is digesting some situation. my aunt lyusya stepped on my foot 2 hours ago, how painful it was, what kind of bastard is she? excuse me. yes, but you are here. you see some manifestations of a person. and well, you know the state of some kind of silence. here i know inner silence, and you are in observation. well you spoke very beautifully about the future, about the past, about the future. this is when the surrounding men show attention to you. but you don’t make plans to give your grandchildren the past, respectively, you don’t return , the future is to remove this position , i have to do it there, and i’ve already built everything there, yes, but i can’t drag the past. here is the baggage from the past. this is the past men to compare to

our present with those. why, just eat just eat a person, how to let him be. that's how it was remove this one importance. this is the importance of attention approaching you because you , unlike the baby of the girl who had this initiation. you are an adult woman who is actually able to withstand this borderline and let you in and approach you as much as you feel comfortable with. you control the distance the game is so even it is a pleasant, correct good game. and just in this, there is even femininity, yes, the class is super. great. thank you marin for such a really deep conversation, in general. thank you very much, well it was podcasteregers with you, we were sergey on ourselves tatyana krasnovskaya, a psychologist and psychotherapists, and marina was our guest with whom we talked about nature and its femininity.

this podcast is witty and with you. i am svetlana dragan. today we will talk about the phenomena of march about astrological phenomena, let's talk a little about essential oils. and, of course, let's not forget about chirognomy, the science of hands. i would like to tell you about what will happen in march. it doesn't often happen that the planets change their positions, which very seriously affects all events, both purely human and natural, and so on, so we will talk about the most basic three important events that will be accompanied by global changes in everything. and the first thing i would like to say is about the planet saturn.

this planet is very difficult. she has been in the zone of the sign of aquarius for a long time and is now in the region of march 7th. she turns into a fish. and what does this mean, in general, we can observe very interesting phenomena in the world. how, for example, where there was dry land, can appear water, and where there was water , land can appear, that is, these geological changes. we will be watching. this does not mean that it will all happen at one moment, on march 7th. of course not, but we will see in two and a half years. how our earth is changing how our mood is changing. how our understanding and attitude changes, and of course, and this will greatly change our relationship to the internal state of the psychological state. focusing on what we understand about ourselves, but before all this

happens, of course, this will first of all affect people who were born. well, somewhere around the twentieth of february and further until february 28. why is that, because the planet is moving slowly it will enter the first degree of pisces and will move approaching, uh, the suns of those people whose birthday just falls on this period of time, and this is not easy, because the planet saturn is a planet high clear organization and people who were born at this time have in their map. there the sun is when saturn becomes the sun. it requires a person to be specific confidence in his own self understanding where he is going and hurry. he does not like. there are people who well are more relaxed. there are people who are focused on work.

so, when saturn comes, he behaves rather harshly towards those who want to relax, relax, who are not very organized. but on the other hand, it can give a lot of some serious effects. yes, that's about a career in relation to self-awareness, even the body. yes, approaching the sun of man. he takes a little energy and very many who were born. it's literally in the twenties. february, they may feel as if the immunity has slightly decreased, as if there is not enough strength, as if there is not enough will, moreover , the internal state will be cool and physically. it may seem that you are cold, it can even affect relationships. and if it seems to you that people treat you somehow not very warmly, that somehow suddenly everything was not as pleasant as it was. no, it's not about the people. it's about a change in your

inner state, so the more focus on your goals, the more understanding. what do you want from life? where are you moving? how you relate to your body, the more positive this ratio will become. yes, it's ascetic. yes? well, if you do yoga, well, if you limit yourself a little in nutrition, well, if you decide what you want to do in this life and will be guided honestly by your state of affairs, then everything will be fine with you. saturn will show you the direction, and this is a vector and it will tell you how to behave correctly. organize. moving further, he will pass by degrees and touch the fate of those who were born on february 21-22, as i said on february 28, then somewhere he will stop at this and will walk in this lane. for a while,

what he goes for he wants in your space is to make room for the most important things. it is very likely that at this time women may feel complications in their relationship with men. but if you understand that saturn is cement. and if you treat the relationship not as a passion, but as something very important for you, essential in life, then he will only strengthen your relationship if you demand some kind of romantic outbursts from your partner. you may not receive this temporarily. but we are not accidental. now we are talking about this. we are talking so that you can use this information as far as men are concerned. here they should pay attention most of all to their physical condition. still, the sun is your strength, vitality, health. here is

the desire to show oneself one's talents , the opportunity to realize one's personality, but saturn is pushing a little, of course, we can face pressure from some people there , here's the bosses. it's different for everyone, because we must not forget. we are talking about general things, but in the map you have an individual map of each person there are very specific indicators, so everyone will experience it in their own way, but some stiffness, maybe a little squeeze. you can feel that, especially men, especially those focused on a career in business, need to remember that such a story can happen. you will need make an inventory in those business requests of all vital issues such, maybe household ones and when you put everything in order. when you systematize the whole process, saturn will tell you, thank you, i am not talking about this by chance. i very often see people with a well- manifested saturn. these are big hard workers.

these are people who see their goal, who go to them and understand that the goal is not that you jump and reach it instantly, that it requires just work, so please be careful that you you still want out of life. and i'll tell you what will happen to those. who was born somewhere around the twentieth of august and beyond? that is, here the situation is somewhat opposite to people who were born at this time, maybe a little more complicated, if in the first case, you yourself choose where you are going? what are you doing? who do you stay with, what do you want, then in the case of august. here the situation will require a little patience from you, because you will be offered circumstances in which you must participate. they will oppose you. well for example, the community in which you

are those people who are next to you. they will demonstrate some, perhaps, rigidity. sometimes, perhaps, saturn likes to take aloofness and delete some unnecessary people from the life. he is very wise. and if suddenly you feel that well, there is no mutual understanding. there is no such kind of spiritual relationship and the person does not strive for you. let him go if he really is. he will turn up and think about everything, he will understand and come, but saturn always turns out to be smarter than we imagine. and after this space is reorganized, new people will come there. maybe not right away, maybe it will take some time, because indeed saturn will walk long enough in these places and clean up everything that you do not need. he will crush you , it will seem to you that there are very few people around you, that there is less warmth around you , less love, but this is not so. this is just

to bring you to a new life, so that your audience that is around you, that is , your environment has changed, i met, a there are many such situations in people, when the passage of saturn removed so many from life, but when time passed, people said, great. it turned out that it was very useful, those who really deserved came. to feel yourself in a new life in a new way, but everything, of course, depends on how patient you are, how much you are able to understand, those who are close to you and do not forget that you are the director, this is your movie and when you are with you something happens, it's not the people to blame. this is going some questions towards you. are you ready to change are you ready to take responsibility, maybe tie your belt tighter in some way, because this may well be