in general, this is very bad. and how does it work. actually, i'm already quite an adult and you can tell about yourself. himself sometimes good company in a good under a good mood. glory indulges us with songs here. well, this is extremely rare. well, since you are silent and since i, as a front cop, have to say everything, yes, then, but hmm my own guitar school yes and uh, slava is a psychologist, and therefore he is his beautiful bass of rehearsed client students, if you treat people in this rather complicated such internet age. yes, i'm a consultant. and what is for example, this is the voice of the lady, smolyaninovich can also be a drug against. eh , it’s not like that in stress and that’s how you listen to evgeny valerievich well, well, straight, i’ll tell you that grace

was born in the fact that i never wanted to be an actress, singer, ever. i wanted to heal people. yes, i have the miami method and do voice therapy. perhaps someone. now. it will be therapeutic. after all, maybe the tv does not transmit these natural frequencies well. i don't know how the tv transmits. here you can guess. i think that if there is a person, and the perception of this, then everything else. uh, the person himself will understand, perceive and it will affect him as part of the anthropology podcast on the first

do not leave with me.

and don't leave the body, stay with me. i have loved you for so long, i howl and burn you and i'm tired of you, i'm afraid i'll burn you there. don't leave, stay with me, passion burns in my chest of delight. love, we are waiting with you.

don't go, don't go don't go, don't go yes, but you're just an anguish. and here's another interesting thing, that's what you felt, but

some archaism of your hobby. here folk song after all, when you wrote your own, well, after all, you must have been on a par with the times, and all these songs are 200 years old, firstly, directly, well, stay with me, yes, a one, yes, but there are thousands of folk songs and more, and moreover, no one knows exactly the time of origin. ah, and they can be said so out of time, what is such a young, beautiful hairy. grandmothers signed up prematurely when they chose a folk song as an ampl and a romance for grandmother in some respect, and it will follow. and i will follow my beloved andrey tarkovsky, whom i loved very much literally as a child, andrey rublev fell in love. a ruble nostalgia. e, solaris everything is generally

a starter. everything was important to me. it was important to me. here is the swaying of the grass. it's all aesthetics all mirror. all everything, it. maybe not so, it was deeply clear to me then, but it beckoned me very much and uh, when i met olga sergeeva , by the way, a folk singer who is from the pskov region, uh, the south of the pskov region and her voice sounded in the picture of tarkovsky for a century. he took her the voice of her song, and she sang is it a professional singer or is it a resident that you say, but she, but the word is identical, but you know, she is beyond these grandmothers. uh, other grandmothers are grandmothers and let's put it this way. the archive is a whole archive, there is a whole repertoire. olga fedoseevna sergeeva is a performer. this is the beauty of performance. this is a unique voice, which

is impossible. well, even in no way it was impossible not to duplicate either uh, or to be a monkey and so i went on the trail, because when it all merged, tarkovsky, olga sergeeva, i realized that i was probably on the way. well, in general, somehow my life also took shape. i also sang in films and uh, and acted a little, and so somehow it seemed to me that i was on the right track. let's sing one more song, i'll think about it, otherwise i'm going to go, i have to be in time. uh, since i started talking about tarkovsky, uh, well, i don’t have the opportunity to reach out to tarkovsky, but through a poem by his father arseniy tarkovsky. i don't seem to care about that. and here is your music yes, my yes, already lies at the back of the road.

white white never milk

grass never happy than then? it is impossible to turn back and it is impossible to tell. i remember eyes.

was not happy then.

so so your voice sounds as if right next to you there is some kind of natural compression in this whole singing apparatus, exactly exactly that's how you listen to krivitskaya. on these huge tubes you know grams. something similar is experienced by a person next to you, when he hears you , it seems that this is not even a person singing, and some of them are so physical. uh, sonic essence, it came to life and lived, right? well, this is, of course, fantastic giftedness. thank you. how are you to blame? all these titles are awards

to the conservatory departments, well, i'm not to blame for this and probably, unkindness, i don't think at all that one shouldn't strive. but it seems to me that there is no modesty in this. as such, it seems to me that this is a wrong principle, when you sit and wait and everything will be brought to you and everything will be done to you nothing like a person. it seems to me that he should adequately relate to his talent. i don't. this is me speaking my own bad experience, which i don't want. i believe that a person who feels his talent , feels his skill, feels what he can do, he must somehow position himself in this way. well, i'm being modest all the time. eh, that's indiscreet. you know this, this is some kind of unconsciousness, or what? here's what i've never missed. and

i guess it's somewhere. it's like, as if compensated and balanced. and these are the people who came to concerts, who listen to me, who love me, who you know, that's when you say this, it seems that she sits like that and boasts. they love me, you know? it's not that i brag, i shout about it, that people love what i do, and this makes me very happy. i'm in that sense, um, a singer for the people. well actually the singer should be for people. and for whom else is he, i know in some sense? uh, you can say, a child of his people, of course, so this is even in general, uh. well, it was arranged from above that it was my voice that was like that, but anyone could have it . it just happened that i am very happy. i always uh, here. uh, i was thinking about she tried to sing. and by the way, if here, uh, maybe someone will listen who remembers vladimir vladimirovich vinogradov if you

knew him, this great sound engineer of ours, with whom i recorded all my records. and when he left. i said that i would no longer write on the wall. i don’t want to write with him with this amazing person. do you know a story about him? well, it's just that i loved him very much, we all loved him, and history is coming out finished the disc to alexander vertinsky classic roses. i have it there is also such a program for the vertinsky battle. here we are leaving the gdrz, it is such a summer day. eh, and suddenly he goes and says, zhenechka, you know, here, and he is huge. such a straight keith , so big, goes and says, you know, after all. i'm not an artist. i go alone, vladimir vladimirovich, what do you mean, we have just finished such work. i think he's saying no, no, no, no, no, no, don't talk me into it. i am not an artist. here are the artists. they, like them , doubt all the time. they are somehow dissatisfied with what they are doing. and i'm happy. he absolutely brilliant man. and in fact

, back records replaced all my viewers for me at the same time. he cried, he laughed. he blushed for his blush, got angry, made up things and talks all the time. what are you doing. you make me beat and don't let me cry. you won't let me. they didn’t let me cry, absolutely unique person. so i had good teachers too. i think that they replaced the conservatory for me. e, 100% replaced e. rather, it has not been replaced. and just expanded, uh, the concept of performing arts. i learned to sing in 22 years old. i voiced the life of a climasadine. and you know this seriously, when such a film process depends on you, and you are still 22 years old. eh, you can say, well, almost a child still can’t do anything and only somehow mastered a folk song more or less and suddenly you are told to do something artistic. and you do it. uh, you know, i had the feeling that i was a child prodigy. here i felt like a child prodigy. probably because

i, uh, was such a kid at the time. in general, i have recently matured to say all this, therefore, after that, no, that you are not. it's clear had several psychological sessions, probably, yes, probably, yes. so, when i realized that this is already a psychologist, then i realized that i can grow up with her childishness helps, applied. uh, where it is necessary in time , they say, it helps and adulthood helps, in general, feelings help. uh, you know, well, i guess it's not a secret. e, when you were a long time ago i performed in one high place and e quite such a serious gentleman came up to me and said e a it was i'll tell you in the ninety-fifth year. he says you know what will be the main deficit in 20-30 years. what feelings are feelings and that's when your feelings will be very

needed. i don't know if that time has come or not. i think so, in general, it has always been in short supply, and it seems to me that all people wanted to feel want to feel, because feelings are real emotions of feelings. this is movement. this is the drive, this is the motivation. this is the will to live. in the end, you know , people like you, we are still not for them. if i put in even a little bit of effort. i am perfectly happy. this is the question of titles, yes evgeny valeryevna say goodbye to people. i think that they will now be inter weak. there is also the internet. the entire internet will be sifted in search of new interesting appearances of your favorite singer, dear friends. thank you for attention. this was an anthropology podcast on the first

hello this podcast triggers and with you. we are tatyana krasnovskaya, psychologist, psychotherapist, psychologist and hello victoria. hello victoria. tell us why you came to us today. a special transition according to my feelings , it is no longer a crisis at the transition a year ago i was faced with the issue of death with theme and me plunged into her trauma. uh, losing mom, and this year. i realized that all these 10 years, until she was gone. well, i froze and died with her. tell a little of your story. well , i have a complete family, my mother is an economist, my father is a military pilot. well, the usual, probably, soviet childhood. well, a little with a cold

mother, who forbade her creativity there, she doesn’t show carp on litter, i don’t know , she doesn’t dance, she stomps, but hmm, the child is a family. yes, i'm alone. and dad is on flights and of course, dad flew in, dad is beloved, and grandmother came across someone more like mom or dad. here they gave me at 12 years old. my mother had an accident and, in fact, my childhood ended, because how could they marry me without me, i need to take care of walking again, a serious injury. well, yes, yes, there she was in a coma and paralyzed. and in general, dad then also began to drink quietly. so i have two children

appeared suddenly now to my mother. yes, that's how it happened, you had to ah-and fully serve mom. mom didn't go, yes, mixed up with me. household quiet man here, well, cooking, cleaning, of course, there is a duck, that's all. still gotta go to school some sort of social life. here further, well , she recovered, as if quickly, to be honest, i don’t remember, well, about two years. it somehow recovered, then some period. well , everything lived as usual, and she had an insular life . that is, it turns out, my growing up

has always collided. i am traumatized. here, well , also death, then illness. somehow , later on, i discovered that my internally yes , growing up is equal, well, the way out into the society is in communication, and i immediately faced the disease with the fear of death all the time. how did it show up for you? how did this link work? well here, because the last five or six years there, i kept looking for myself there and well, nothing works out for me. why do i have no strength, but i'm so cool charged, he knows, i can do it. here and hmm well, it doesn’t come out, it doesn’t come out. and this is a bunch i have developed that as soon as i go somewhere i face the fear of death. and i don’t need anything now, it’s as if it’s becoming dangerous for you. this is going outside.

yes, because there and so on. well, i'm someone there death to study again. this is some kind of thresh, everything is bad. everything is terrible there. that's then what should you do if well , stay in a childish position, when i got married 10 years ago in the twelfth year , i did everything as much as possible in order to push the responsibility onto my husband. bringing it all. hmm, you have to be with your husband. there i put my paws there, feminine, like, well, i realized that you are a utopian story. so, well, i did it. well, there my husband earns everything , keeps everything, and i was looking for myself, that's all these 10 years. well, i mean, uh, got eyelash extensions. yeah , and there until the sixteenth year. i was earning.

everything was trained normally, and then it burned out we moved to another city in the crimea ended up for a couple of years. i exhaled there, we got over, when and in moscow, it all started. well , firstly, moscow means. come on come on and here i am, come on, i was looking for courses there at a training for personal growth, where i was who i was a landscape designer and in i don’t know a florist and macrame, i wove and somehow counted all sms professions, well, i tried 10 pieces yourself in different directions. and finally three years ago. i went to study, after all, interesting psychologists are oriented therapist. and actually began to slowly come to life. now you have practice. well, i practice. well, not so that the queue will show me directly, but i would like there to be

a queue. yes, this is a bit of an existential crisis, as they say. and he is, he is. you understand that if you pass it, then this queue will appear or you need to pass it in order to be a more effective therapist. what is the essence of this crisis, it is especially reluctant for non-clients to go to a dying therapist. and this is my inner state. well, i imagine that i somehow live there, i don't know the mourning process. uh, well, i already think i have already lived, because there is love for love for the mother. yes there got to don't know gratitude to everything for all these 10 years process. and so now it seems, well, already where i would like to go to move. well, no, so that it’s direct, well, the feeling

of energy of this impulse is so charged, that is, you continue some kind of fading in this fading, or something, habits, or, well, the psyche needs some more processes to go through, i don’t know do you have children daughter 8 years, and i’m still oh, some processes went on there somewhere in august, before me, the chains all formed, that i didn’t go through the process there, and since august, everything’s been right there, somehow i’m there and lying down and i felt bad and there estradala suffered and all suffered, then i say, yes, thanksgiving has come. in general, and september. i also went to get a divorce, filed all the stories, and this is a conscious choice, because for the last four years i was going to do all this, too. and then i realized that, well, it’s like, well. don't be

closed from a man with this and with mine there story with mom. and here's what to do next. i don't know what his mother is. well, thank you, psychotherapy, trying to be lovingly supportive. oddly enough , i feel like a good mom. well, actually it's not enough. this is cool. if you feel this way, well, that's cool, because there are my mother's girlfriends, who, of course, don't feel this way, and now you live together no , not yet, not together, a dramatic experience, not for you , not for your husband, not for your daughter , well

, some kind of follow-up, as if well, logical, well , i won’t say that we have fun and rejoice there the symbolism of this process for you divorce. what does this mean? well, covered up. the shell and get out of the egg. yes, it looks like yes, what well, it’s like i’m starting to choose to survive to live my own life not according to how i have such a metaphor that it’s like i was sitting in a net for 10 years under a tombstone, nailed down. yes , it looks like it. i have an assumption, but i will voice it a little later. and tell me, here you are pecking through this shell, uh, in the hope of getting out of there. how do you think, how do you feel? are you ready for this life on

at the moment, i already feel that there is strength, because thoughts have finally appeared there. so you need to think of something in order to leave, because, well, a man. why keep him there? can your personal life go? and yes, how should i move on. and what do you need in order to look as if you are now making your way through this gravestone, what do you need in order to be there and stay at the top. well right now my finances are unstable. well, i understand too. why yes, there is a childish position as much as possible i was beating myself, that i promised myself that i would never go. that's well, hiring, of course, there 's nothing to block. and well

, something needs to act somewhere, our viewers will not be very clear about your expression. i found in a child's position. i understand you uh-huh well, if we talk like two psychologists, it will be of no interest to everyone else, therefore, yes, and there were some, i really don’t like to talk like a psychologist. let 's try to talk like people, i was in this maximum childish position. in general, a position. she's just for you infantism. in what he expressed i do not earn myself, i do not provide, because the child has the right not to do this. for a long time that you have the right, for example, not to earn. well, here is my inner desire there, in the name of my mother, to get sick there as well , to feel just as bad. well, to die , in fact, the same age, she had an accident in which he is now no, she

got into her earlier at 31. i'm 30. well, i was very worried. by the way, when i was 31, i think now something will happen to me, but no, it's fine. well, then there is a connection with my mother after all was strong enough, of course, this fading, as if it were such an analogy, yes, i can with my mother. you were 12, when mom this happened, mom stayed real estate, dad took you to drink, respectively , were left alone in all this. as you say , it ended since childhood. and here is the very moment when the family, as a structure that should provide support, died and stopped providing support, and in fact, of course, we can say that at the age of 12 we were not ready for this, as, probably, no one was

i. are you deeply convinced that girls at 12 already ready. your facial expressions, antics pose tell me that a teenager is sitting in front of me. well, perhaps i will agree, because, well, the weak is not seven, not 10 is good, really. in general, yes, at 12 you can already do a lot of things, however, let's go back there. and so try to imagine remembering, it’s unlikely to succeed, but try to imagine the day when you find out that your mother had an accident, what happened an hour before well, conditionally, yes, an hour before and what ceased to exist after that, here you are 12 and your life is something filled. maybe a game, yes , studying with peers, some kind of joy , hopes. and suddenly you will know, remember

this. i remember, but how did you find out about this ? it was the first of april on the night of some kind? he went to the hospital there. and the next day. my grandmother's mother's mother is flying in. all this is dragging me to this hospital, still poking me. look, i feel like a mother. why does she do this? well, like well, there to have fun. you can’t now look, what have you brought your mother to or what? there after a couple of days there

. yes? naturally, i am a schoolboy change, and she saw. what are you doing sick you're having fun here. something has changed there. well, yes, there must be some. and what are you, in fact, what did you experience then? that is, they explained to you how to behave, too , there was some kind of fading, that now you can’t live in your life. and what did it cause? what feelings? well, fear fright sad, you took

on this guilt that your grandmother gave you. well, just for this case, no no i mean, were you guilty because you understand? are you with your father? no you are alone in this situations. no, exactly. it was your grandmother who faced the question. you love someone more and suddenly a situation occurs, after which you and your dad are healthy on the same side. uh-huh and the sick, not bedridden mother bedridden mother on the other side. uh-huh how the configuration of your relations in the world has changed. he also began to move away, because he himself did not know how to live all this, i feel emotions. well, of course, i was dragging a little something to work somewhere. well, for some reason, i then decided that dad would betray me too. and in general i have no one for you contact me at all and then, that he is with

you, i will assume that you will say this is similar to what you experienced or not. and it seems to me that there was a lot of anger suppressed once something is so unfair. so i should not be a child, like all other children. why is this all happening to me? why should i not asking me. you have put me in a position where i have to perform functions that i cannot cope with. well, then, from the age of 12, i began to lose my front teeth, of course. it's just that i keep deleting them. well and me there, well, at the moment there are only 13 of them for a girl of 12 years old, of course.