[000:00:00;00] i read, i really did, i just saw the parallels, they’re really very strong, you mean chichikov, who travels through russia and sees different characters, but that’s where it also talks about how a person travels, and i initially, when i read dead souls, i initially thought that chichikov was the god of death, but in the samotan day we had, you see, young people, and even a character, let’s say, in dead souls there is such a character in zhaglo in gekolfi... there is an episode there , where they killed the old boxing man, i, unfortunately, right now, here i am if maybe, it’s just a sketch of an american town, this box is being killed by some confident, simple man with a gun, and some girl is running there, here’s a confident man with a gun, he reminds me very much of just the same jaglonut chelina, oh

which, by the way, was also said in the fiin, here is mine... without a head, that is, this is the strength of spirit, this is how he is a crowd, just one person against, men, he says, there is no man among you, there is no man among you leader, you are a crowd, but you don't have someone who accepts, i i think, well, it’s so very american, i would say, i would say that this is a direct cultural manifesto such that anyone in american culture can shoot, shoot anyone who enters their territory, this is a very important point, and why huck is such a cool guy, really cool, we understand that he is, firstly, a good person, and secondly, he knows a lot, he knows how to live, he knows how to set priorities, why does he listen to tom sawyer, this home boy, here he, tom, is the absolute leader, he takes care of everyone subordinates why this happens, it’s very funny, because the guy

who told life, who knows all this, how it all works, how it all happens, is still led by this social trick, by the status of a volume, by the status of a person, who, well, he’s kind of taller than me, he’s kind of smarter, probably, like yes, well, you have to listen to him, you have to respect him, respect, well, by the way, huck also reads some books, even if he’s in a completely delusional combination, but he throws around some names, there, king henry, mary antoinette, that is, he somehow imagines the story, after all, he was driven to school. here’s another rather funny parallel, quite interesting, in the first book tom tells huck some things, what he says, and what is it, in my opinion, a monologue or something else, then he explains to him what it is what do these words mean, because ghek is not well-read and he doesn’t even know the alphabet , he can’t read anything, but in the second book, on the contrary, jim asks ghek what these or those words mean, what they mean

strong books, the writer did not notice that. i would say that this is rather the evolution of huck, you can see here, because huck received, in the period from the first to the second book, he received an education, and it was vidava douglos who drove him to school, yes, yes, yes, and this it can be seen that huck is very capable of learning, and he learns very quickly, so it’s very cool that from an uneducated person, he, on the contrary, turns into a person who teaches uneducated people, by the way, it’s not even a fact that the author i put it in the text because last year, the wonderful poet dmitry vodennikov expressed the idea that it is from the writer’s mistakes that the true magic of the text is sometimes born, perhaps this is class, this is a very cool observation, the owners are genius, i agree, okay, guys, thank you very much for the interesting

conversation, this was a must-read podcast, we discussed it, it was very interesting , we talked about tom soyre and huckelfin, the famous novels of mark twain, it was very interesting, thank you, mutually, it was great, hello, dear tv viewers, you watch the podcast triggers, with you its leading psychologist tatyana krasnovskaya. and psychologist and psychotherapist sergei nasebyan are visiting us today maria, hello, maria, hello, tell me, what did you come to us with? and i’m currently 35 years old, i live with my mother, and uh, i’ve never had a serious relationship, and i’ve never been married, i don’t have children either, in the future i would plan to start my own family, i would like to, but i i don’t want to leave my mother alone, my mother is 68

years old, she is alone. pensioner, she sits all the time at home, alone, somehow she has no friends, no girlfriends, not even pets, nothing, and i really don’t want to leave her alone, it seems to me that this is somehow cruel, i’m a very... nice person, very kind , it’s hard for me to decide whether i should build my happiness, my family, or continue to live with my mother, but then i kind of sacrifice my future, my possibly family happiness, in general, you are a good daughter, in some ways, maybe, maybe, i don’t know, not 100%, but you came to us so that in what way we could help you, what do you think, i’m at a dead end in this situation, i don’t know how it is... it definitely exists and one is worth the other in the sense that you pay for the other with one thing, that’s a fact, but i asked a slightly different question, so you sat, watched, probably saw a podcast, yes, and you thought

, oh, i’ll go and tell my story , that’s how you think it should change after this , listen to another person’s opinion, that is, about what, maybe, i don’t know, options or what it is... connected, that is understand something for yourself, based on this , decide what to do, okay, you discussed this story with some friends, colleagues, relatives, no, that is, this is the first time you are actually discussing this with someone, yes, well, i’m trying to look for something on the internet myself, maybe someone has similar problems, when you find something similar, it seems that i’m not the only one with such a problem, you’re definitely not the only one, the thing is that when you talk about the fact that you don’t have an attitude. i want to say you are lying, but i can be a little more delicate and say you are disingenuous, when you say that your mother has no pets and no one, you are also really lying

for one simple reason: you have a relationship, this relationship with your mother, and your mother has a pet, this is you, that is, in fact, everything is very good, it is obvious that this suits both you and her, why suddenly you are in some kind of then the moment... it stopped suiting me, the power of age - the fact that i’m 35, well , it still seems that my whole life is ahead of me, the older you get, the more it seems that life is already behind you, you should either start a family now, why did you think, maria, that your previous 35 years are not as important as the next 35 years, with age somehow more as you become more experienced, i understand what could have happened if i had started building some kind of relationship earlier. someone who is not serious could have made some mistakes, but now with age i can approach this more consciously, as if you have become more experienced, well, not in relationships, more experienced in life in general, it would be better if i started to understand people, it seems to me that now i am already

who is bad, who is good, i understand better and i won’t do anything stupid when entering into a relationship, as a cynic i will translate what you say into human language into the human sense so that it is understandable to everyone who is watching us now and listening. and perhaps you will understand. you, in fact, answering my question, uh, are giving me, well, us material for further questions, for further work. now it’s very important, you said that it’s as if your mother has fulfilled her function of protecting you from the outside world? well, i don’t know what kind of protection, what kind of protection exactly there was from my mother , it seems to me that i have always been an independent child, and it seems to me that... when the parents are already elderly, they demand more to be protected, that is, by their mother already worked this one out function, then you suddenly started thinking about what would happen next, well, i

was thinking more about age, what i understand, but it ’s not just like that, you could have come at 45, that ’s why i note that and for some reason it seemed to you that 35, and then, for example , this is more important than 30, and what about... 40 you would like to have a family already, although i’m almost sure that you’re probably at 20 we thought that at 30 we should have had a family, and also that i don’t have children, i want a child, and of course, the age of motherhood cannot be there are more over 50 and so on, that is, this is approximately now the age when this is a chance , perhaps, to create children, but why do you need a family other than having a child, it seems to me, maybe i think for selfish reasons, because i it seems to me that she is very unloved and it seems to me that my husband and children are the ones who can give me what i lack so much, this is love, some kind of respect, so i can fill out this post , lack of love, doesn’t your mother

love you, i don’t know, well, i mean it’s difficult for me to answer this question, because well, i don’t focus on words, the words i love you, she never told me, but even if she did, it might be formal, i focus more on some actions, i don’t know , i can’t understand, i can even answer this question for myself, i would also be interested, maybe she loves me or not, but i don’t know what actions you are guided by? i’m even oriented in everyday life, well, let’s say while i’m sleeping, she won’t turn on the tv loudly, she probably it means he cares about me so as not to disturb my sleep, let’s say, i don’t know, maybe this is an indicator of love, care, or maybe, maybe respect, it could be both, but look how interesting it is, you know, when person to the question, for example, do you love your husband, wife, or do you feel love from the outside?

husband, wife, mother, it doesn’t matter, he begins to philosophize, that’s how you now start to somehow give some examples, and you confuse yourself in these reasonings, for me, and this is always a signal of an answer, no, no i feel because when a person, for example, i ask you, do you like pilaf, oh yes, you like watermelon, watch how you find the answers, however, i won’t ask you, of course, if watermelon likes you, when you you eat it, but look how you do, you find the answers in a completely different place, pay attention, looking inside yourself, uh-huh, here i ask if your mother loves you, there, yes, but you begin to go into reasoning, that is, not it’s not where to look for the answer, where it really is, i understand, because it’s very difficult to tell myself that i don’t feel mom’s love, or i miss it, but i don’t feel it, uh-huh, well, that was honest, and you ’ve been living with your mom for 35 years, and you’re not sure if she loves you, you don’t feel that she loves you, how you with this? well, i seemed to have come to terms, probably over 35 years

, i had periods such that i experienced this, i thought that there might be some reason in me or a reason in me, that my mother was like this, i wanted my mother to be happy that everything was fine with my mother, and i was looking for some reasons in myself, then i somehow i calmed down, i realized that she’s probably just that kind of person, and it doesn’t concern me in any way, that’s just who she is, you just have to...’ accept it and move on with your life, if i ask you what it’s like to be you, how will you answer? tense, i’m such a very tense, reserved person, responsible, that is, what feelings make up your day, i don’t know , during the day, if it’s a weekday, it’s more like some kind of fatigue from work, from all the worries, you definitely admit one thing, and they themselves said that you are always tense, well, for me hard to relax, great, come on.

let's just try to rewind from this, it's tense, it's like tense up now even more than you're tense, more, yeah, what kind of emotion stands before this tension that makes you tense, well , this is probably what you need all the time to be on alert so that everything is in order, and the emotion, well, fear, is excellent, maria answered your question here , yes, thank you, look how interesting, and forgive me, maybe i’m talking about you in the third person now, how interesting, masha formulates a thought yes, that is, masha does everything to phenomenally avoid touching feelings, but there is a very great benefit from the fact that you feel the body so well, even through tension, because the body will give you a huge number of clues, i hope today we will be able to help you in this sense, how you can use your body to cope with the tasks that you set for yourself. fear, let's get back to

it, what are you afraid of, not just straight, it's just some kind of fear, it's more like something will go wrong, that i won’t be able to do something, that i won’t do something, these are thoughts, these are thoughts, not feelings, feelings, there is no feeling that something will go wrong, it’s even difficult for me, like some kind of feelings at this moment, i know, i even have a fantasy, why is it so difficult for you, but i would still like you to unpack yourself, that with feelings, maybe not very well, yes, i a very practical person, feelings, of course, this is not my territory, not yours and your mother’s, this again is probably not a feeling that i am some kind of person, maybe to be different if i don’t do something, this is a thought, look, all these or a feeling of not being loved, if i do something wrong to those around me, this is also the fear that they won’t love me if i i’ll do something wrong, look, it’s still fear, i call it fear and it may sound

very negative for you, yes, to some extent, and i understand perfectly well that you wouldn’t want to feel fear from your mother, anxiety, well , in the sense of the danger that may come from her, because this is her mother, how can she be afraid or how can you suspect her of wanting to do something bad , i don’t know, i’m not afraid of her, i have no fear, of course you’re not afraid anymore and 68, you’re 35, you can kill her if you come physically. you just agreed with yourself not to feel it, no on purpose, maria, please tell us a little about your family, dad, mom, i don’t know my dad, so, that is, he left when my mother was pregnant with me, yeah, but we lived with my grandmother before, that is, grandmother, mother and me , the three of us, grandmother has been gone for about 10 years, and why did your parents split up, my grandmother was against their relationship, that is, let’s say, she separated them, but did you and your mother

ever talk about this? no, it’s somehow not customary for us to have such direct spiritual communication ; in our family it’s like there’s no such thing, for some reason. well, in the sense that there is simply no dad and no dad, you just grow up, you see that there is no dad, that’s how the stories say why , that is, that his grandmother kicked him out, my grandmother kicked him out, i don’t know anything else, but i somehow this person, it’s very difficult for me, for some reason, in the family, asking some questions, i’m a very correct person, and somehow i have to get into something personal, for me this is something called correctness, well , because somehow there are no personal things for each other problems are not told in the family. and it seems as if, if i start asking some questions, as if i’m prying into a person ’s soul, maybe if the person doesn’t tell him, it means he probably doesn’t want to, that’s why you live like this, yes, it’s nice, like a neighbor, that is, you are three generations of family, women, three generations women, you all lived together, yes, the grandmother was also without her husband, she was left

, that is, i don’t know yet, that is, my grandfather personally, i don’t know him, you are three generations of women living in one house, yeah, yes, so, how did you live, as if a mother and her mother, that is, with my grandmother, were in conflict all the time, they always had some kind of fights, well, there was, as they say, there was no separation, there was no emotional one, they had everything there were some conflicts at the time, what did you do at that moment when mom and mom were fighting? i don't have that the understanding is right, wrong, well, they are in conflict and there is most likely no fear when this happens every day , of course, what were you experiencing at that moment, that’s how... yes, there were conflicts between them, i don’t even know what i was directly worried, although of course i wanted these conflicts not to exist, i don’t know, there might even be some kind of resentment that why they couldn’t live together normally, how often you became the cause of their conflict, i don’t know, what was the reason for their conflicts, not that

it was me, that is, they were in everyday life they didn’t get along in character, let’s say grandma or mom wants something else, but they want something else in butu, yeah. why didn’t you leave your grandmother, why did you all live together? but i don’t know, that is, she was a very grandmother, well, angry, that is, so harsh, yes, a person, her grandmother had a difficult childhood, so he was very like that, she was a difficult person, and well, my mother was in a fit of these fights, scandals, she wanted to, i don’t know, give up everything, go somewhere, she went out into the street with me and a few hours ago it didn’t matter she was returning, she thought, i found a letter of correspondence between her and men, as before there were no telephones yet, she corresponded with letters, that is, she tried to find somewhere to get away from her grandmother, because she was such a difficult person, she wanted from she wanted to go somewhere to find a man, she just wanted to have somewhere to go, uh-huh, so

it didn’t end in anything, she didn’t find, no, somehow it didn’t end in anything, that is, it turns out that your mother has on your there was no relationship in your eyes either, your grandmother didn’t have it in yours eyes? it wasn’t either, it wasn’t, that is, your mother served your grandmother, now you are serving your mother, uh-huh, uh-huh, and when you found these letters, uh, you read them, what happened to you, i was very scared at that time moment, because i understood that these were absolutely strangers, absolutely strangers, adults, and that my mother could go to some absolutely stranger , whom she knew only through correspondence and with me, with a small child, which is not... there will be some man, suddenly he i don’t know if he’ll hit me or something else, i was scared, that is, a man is some kind of dangerous story, and relationships with men, well, not always, but especially if it’s like this, just to go somewhere, not you know a completely person, that is, if i knew a person, if he were somewhere among our environment, i would already know that this person

is normal, he can be trusted, he is kind, i would not have such fear, but simply some kind of correspondence person whom i don’t know. follow your logic, so to speak, then living with a grandmother who constantly shares with her mother, living with a mother who constantly fights with her mother is safer than living with another person, yes, because here you already know what is here, there is no fame, but there is such the unknown, which is straight up, just the unknown , well, apparently your mother didn’t find a man, including because she also thought so, i don’t know, maybe, well, of course you can ask her if? maybe she got used to it or something, or i don’t know, she didn’t want to, she was young. our the task is not just to show the tradition,

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figures do you have there, if your mother looks, plus or minus, the same as you, i can imagine what your evenings look like, you are sitting under a lampshade, preferably in shadows, so that god forbid you don’t fall into this bright spot on the table, because suddenly my mother sees that i have a manicure and she will be offended that she doesn’t have one, maybe i already understand. i already understood this, if i love some new thing, she may, yes, that she doesn’t have this thing , as i guessed, what do you think, as i guessed, i ’ve been trying to show you for 20 minutes one simple thing, that nothing apart from fear, you don’t feel it, it’s just that it has become so normal for you that without fear you’re not so much fearless as, well, the space where there is no fear, you perceive it as more dangerous. than a place where there is a specific fear, a very understandable fear, because here the rules are clear, here the rails on which you

and your mother ride back and forth are clear, every day is like the previous one, every next one will be like... this thank god that you came here, this goes far beyond the boundaries of your usual realities, when i shout at you, what do you feel, what do you expect from me to change, what exactly do i feel, because you changed your face twice when i raised my tone, i you’ve already said everything, i want you to learn to say it to yourself, i’m not a conflicted person, even if you raise your voice at me, rather, what’s happening to you? before you pulled away, there was another emotion, at first you had a feeling, you just started to feel something, perhaps you were a little offended, perhaps you were, you might even want to get angry somewhere, yes, but then you once included a little girl who you can shout at, who you can lead, yeah, because she’s not there, she porcelain, i’m just usually this aggressive, i usually pull away and i’m not an aggressive

person, that is, i don’t respond to aggression with aggression. your usual mechanism, your strategy, to freeze, you narrow down to the level of a small cell, freeze and turn off all feelings, but tense, as usual, of course, because god forbid you feel something, god forbid at least some the feeling will come out, and there you don’t know what to expect from yourself, and he doesn’t know from himself what to expect from his mother, because you can’t upset your mother, really, yes, i don't want to upset her. in no way, of course, you can’t let your mother down, god forbid you betray her, and your marriage will be a betrayal of your mother, yes, then there are two options, or you just wait for the time to do all its work for you, she will die, well, it’s possible you will have 10 years left to live, i’m afraid that she won’t survive my leaving the family, it’s very possible that you will hasten her death and that, well, this is hard,

then wait, we really have better medicine now. better, so she will live a long time, and you, in general, will live a long time, there life will just be so-so, but you can wait, of course it won’t survive , because it’s because of you, to a large extent because of you, i think how it behaves, at least that explains it, most likely didn’t live, she froze and you froze with her, you’ll most likely do this now, you’ll come off the air, think, my god, what was it, it wasn’t me, it was someone else there, you’ll go under my own lampshade and this will continue, i want my mother to be happy, so that she can have her own life, but she probably won’t wants her to be happy and so that i can leave her, mom is happy when you are around, mom is happy when you are her pet, that’s how happy mom is now, do you agree to leave her, well, i wouldn’t say that

she is now just a happy person, that is, it seems to me that she is the person who ... also seems to really need a psychologist, but she will never go to a psychologist, but the fact that she is not, not a happy person, that’s how you lived, three unhappy women, then there were two unhappy women, then there will be one, because most likely you will end this generation for yourself, because you most likely, as tatyana correctly says, will not change anything, because you will happily return to your usual aquarium, serpentari, i would even say, you know, you will return and you will be there, well, not to say... everything would be great, but it will definitely be calm there, at least in that aquarium, you can be sure that you know what can happen, you will cope with what may happen, and the degree of your tension is quite bearable, because what if she became unbearable, you would have broken it all off a long time ago, but please tell me, you said that you never

had a serious relationship like you, yes, but were there frivolous ones? well, there were no relationships, that is, if only dates with men, but there were never relationships, well, in the sense of long-term ones, yes, that is, you came on the first date, you came on the second date, or are you talking about several sexual relationships dating, no, this is a more platonic absolutely relationship, well, just how to communicate rather, uh-huh, well, after all, it was a conversation over a period of time, was it like that? either one date, or several dates, okay, here... let's remember your prince, with whom you had at least five dates, well, was it like that? a prince, not like a prince, well, that is, it was just a person who invited me on a date, yes, you went on a date, you went to restaurants, maybe kissed there, i don’t know, on the street, yes, so, here, this one man, here he was, yes, that's

how it would be an opportunity to build relationship, it didn’t even lead us to anything, well, of course, it’s a bit complicated by nature, yeah, he even stopped these dates, yeah, it’s understandable, but it turns out that you have never let into your life a person who would come to what is called seriously for a long time, not that i didn’t let him in, he didn’t exist, that is, there wasn’t such a thing that someone directly wanted to knock on my life, or my heart, but i didn’t let him in, that is, that too, someone must come and you are like rapunzel, which means you are in the fortress, and he must come, conquer, well, i mean a person who would like me, who would want to communicate with me, go on a date, there are social networks, you are a social person, you work, yes, but who do you work? okay, so you communicate with people, you travel on public transport, yes, that is, there are men, men somehow still exist in this world, well

, i don’t trust such acquaintances as social networks and meeting people on the street, i don’t understand how to get to know you, if through some kind of interest somewhere, where am i i’m there, let’s say for a longer time, but i’m at work, or if i go somewhere, i may have some interests of my own, well , i’m hanging out with friends, let’s say, but that is, i have friends, yes, friends, acquaintances, i have a girlfriend, so, yeah, well, you go somewhere there, some men meet there, they are also new, what is the difference between meeting, for example, in transport, and meeting at an exhibition at an exhibition, or in a restaurant, at an exhibition, then , that someone can like me there by talking to me a little, how can someone like me on the street, only if, outwardly, just like that it’s interesting, but you view all acquaintances and, in general, all contacts with men through the prism that a man must first see you, be charmed, get through all your obstacles, win your heart and take you away, but there i have never

heard about that you might like a man, i’m a very amorous person, i’ll like every second person, that yes, i’m very amorous, why don’t you open up, well, i don’t...’ i don’t know whether a person likes me or not, i’m i can’t impose myself, say, ask someone out there for a date, maybe i can tell him it’s not interesting, you understand that you actually build relationships with these men the same as with your mother, when it’s scary just , as you said, to get into your soul, that is, you are afraid, or even offend that maybe i realize , that i like someone and somehow offend you, you are all deceiving me, this is virtuoso skill, look at it from this side, like the truth with which you are tatyana. offers and perhaps you will see that you are true, you build relationships with

all people, ah, according to the principle so as not to disturb, you learned not to disturb your mother, and diligently do not disturb others, there is something in this, yes, what not to disturb, this is, let’s say, they taught me this, so as not to disturb anyone, to be quieter, so as not to disturb the neighbors, well, that’s it i have this because otherwise, what will happen if you interfere? others will be upset, who am i bothering, they will be uncomfortable, what then, what will they do, they will be uncomfortable, they won’t like what they will do, mash, well, maybe they won’t do anything, but inside it will make them feel uncomfortable, you’re afraid just what will happen to them uncomfortable, to do bad to other people, what should i do if you do bad to me , as i should, what kind of my reaction are you afraid of, how will you know that i feel bad, that i will upset you, interfere with you in some way? you will know that this is so , you must have some kind of feedback signal, just biofeedback, how you will know that you have upset me, i will never know, but i will think that you will be uncomfortable, like your mother

showed you that you upset her when you were little, when you were little, here you are make noise, disturb the neighbors, what will happen, i constantly upset my mother, i blame myself for this, i just left the house, that is, she left me. in the yard and said be in the yard, i’ll make something there to eat and call you, and i was leaving, i could have gone to another area , gone somewhere, during this time i had gone by bus, she was looking for me all the time, she was in tears all the time, crying , ran around looking for me, and i really blame myself for this, that i blame myself so now, what was happening then, then i didn’t understand it, i don’t feel how you understood what you did something is wrong, no way, i didn’t understand why she was upset because of this , nothing terrible happened, how upset she gets, she cries, scolds you, well , she doesn’t scold you, she just cries hysterically and says that this is because of you, and you don’t understand what it is, and i don’t understand why he was so upset because i just went for a walk, well, i mean, i’m just walking,

it’s okay, don’t go anymore , that’s why you don’t leave anymore, wow, you ’re really afraid and upset more than anything in the world, but predict how you can upset, you can’t, so just in case you don’t do anything, his leading psychologist tatyana krasnovskaya , psychotherapist sergei nasebyan is with you. our guest today is maria. you understand that you cannot build your life without upsetting your mother. you. a new blouse, your mother is upset that she doesn’t have one, and if you have a man, a family, she will be upset because she doesn’t have this, i think your mother will happily agree for you to get pregnant ivf, there from the holy spirit, or from some unknown men, well, she doesn’t even touch on the topic of children, that is, she never told me how they tell other children about grandchildren, she doesn’t need it, well, that’s right, but it’s better not to change anything, it’s very convenient that everything works out

like a floor lamp. and you are around in the twilight, why do you need children, why does your mother need children, it doesn’t fit into this, it’s just that neither children, nor husbands, nor men, no one fits in, you understand that you cannot build your life without upsetting your mother, yes , this is what’s eating me, you ’re ready to upset mom, you’re ready to leave mom with her feelings and emotions, no, it seems to me that she is not...' mash, whether she will survive this or not, you will only find out by doing it, in general, everything should have been done much earlier, 15 years ago, you just threw away 15 years of your life, you put them on the altar of serving the demon of your mother, not even your mother, as if your mother has, if possible, in such a concept, light, dark?

so you feed the dark side, there is your contribution, not only mother’s power, not only mother’s anxiety, there is some kind of excitement there, there is your contribution, and your responsibility is that you feed the dark side of your mother, just by doing so you feed your dark side, because at some point your love will change to hate, during her physical life or after her departure, it doesn’t matter, you'll just wait for her to die, you 'll just hate it. a person and the memory of him, in order not to do this, that’s why now you need to upset him, that’s what concerns your distrust of social networks, dating in transport, everything else, here here i would recommend you to do a very simple thing, now you’re going home from here, you’ll go by public transport , that’s right, yeah, meet three people, three people on the way home, just come up and say, can i meet you, they’ll think that i’m strange, but you’re strange, they already think so when

you’re just... they will think, this is their problem , your task is just to get to know each other, come up and ask, can i get to know you, someone will say, no, someone will say, are you stupid, or what? someone will say, my name is vanya, petya, i it seems that maria is now in such horror that you will just run away with the chair, do this, this will be the first step towards the changes you dream of, more to come, then you will need to meet people every day, take such small steps , it’s not about mom, it’s about you , this is your...’ task is to start doing what you should have been doing at 12. and your strangeness lies precisely in the fact that at 35 you live in the mind of a 2-year-old teenager. after 12 years, in general, physically and physiologically, you no longer needed your mother, like anyone else a girl, after 12 years old, does not need a mother and a boy there after 14 years old, but you are still creating this painful and sick relationship with her, thereby you will never get out, so if you want to get out of this, do simple things, promise i just want you to do it now.

just meet three people on the way home, it’s not difficult to impose yourself on people, you need to impose yourself, get acquainted , you don’t need to impose yourself, your task is to learn how to meet people, you don’t need to analyze it in any way, you just need to do it, just promise me that you will do it, you don’t know how you will do it, you don’t know at what moment, with whom, just tell me, i ’ll do it, i don’t know, mash, well, if you can’t do it, how are you married? -will you come out ? it’s important to start getting out of this box? you need to learn to walk, you see, it’s as if you haven’t learned this, you need small steps , so i strongly recommend that you do this, i thought about getting acquainted, if you visit some places, go somewhere, some hobbies, if there will be, then there will be men and maybe someone will like me, i ’m also you don’t meet for dates, meet just for communication, even just for a three-minute conversation, but through communication. because naturally, no, first

you need to get to know each other, first you need to get to know each other, and then there will be communication, you