out of the vote but about he says he'll only accept a full cancellation. we're getting reports out of indonesia that at least twenty three people have been killed pan pardon me in an explosion at a fireworks factory. the incident happened at an industrial complex in the city of tehran just twenty five kilometers west of the capital jakarta a local official says all the victims were factory workers course is being investigated. at least four people have been killed in a train crash in southern finland the train collided with an army truck during a military exercise near the town of ross borg three of the dead are reported to be soldiers the fourth a passenger was on board the train eight people are being looked after in hospital the kenyan president or a kenyatta has cast his ballot in the controversial election rerun but the votes being overshadowed by protests and an opposition boycott the supreme court an old the first poll held in august because of irregularities the ceremony of the late thai king pin upon has now begun its the main part of

a five day funeral service the catalan parliament will meet today to discuss its response to madrid's plans to take control of the region politicians will discuss how to tackle the possibility that the central government will impose direct rule on friday those are your headlines the news continues with the news hour after faultlines here on out of syria also you said. it was an audacious bid to capture a city in the southern philippines and turn it into a province of myself. with the smoking room is the new battlefront one on one east investigates at this time on al jazeera. you. are one. close your eyes for slow climb up on the floor ok says thank you thank you

all for your parents yes both your parents are not responsive is that what you're telling me yes ok we will have a medic and ralph with you very shortly you know their breathing no no you don't know if they're breathing or they are not for you. know they're not hearing things . ok neither are breathing. this thing is he doing it's like a big blanket. everything just builds perfect like your body don't hurt you just feel like a new person you don't think about the negative you don't think about nothing that says nothing matters and when i'm playing i am going on. my mom's on a long line and it'll be your manager choking on the ending in his mind are they

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america is going through the worst drug crisis in its history and it's tearing families apart. a generation of children is being neglected abandoned orphaned by parents addicted to opioids. someone i knew in your destiny to heroin. and then before i knew it was like it was the where if i didn't have it i felt like i was going to die. heroin is stronger than any human tie. it is stronger than any. compelling argument. it is stronger than. a religious police it is the devil incarnate. it is evil it's the black plague it's like

a zombie apocalypse it's death it's kind of like you're possessed or son like you don't even care anymore. to tell the story we came to chillicothe to a town in ohio. the state has one of the highest drug overdose rates in the country . it seems like almost everyone here knows someone who struggle with drugs. amanda howard's addiction started with a prescription to percocet for back pain. and she later switched to her only because it was cheaper and easier to get. when you were on heroin and just had brody what was it really like ok like i would await your all day make my money and instead of going to whole i would go get my fix then go home and he'd already be in bed though i just wasn't there for him like i didn't give him. the extra he

needed i didn't spend much time playing with him which he was really really young. but. it makes me sad you know every milestone like these to me make because they don't like me and i missed out on so much of him . you don't know reality your reality is gone. eventually the cycle kills you if you don't get out i'm lucky you know because i seen that wake up call i got out i know it's there many people have died he didn't get that call. so i had you know i'm just sitting in the passenger seat my husband comes out of the store and i am completely collapse over he goes to pull me out of the car on purple one light blue like i had a deed he had to do c.p.r. and everything someone called the emergency squad and i don't really remember you

know because i was like gone. when you go back to that gas station was your son in your mind yes actually breaks my heart as he was in the back seat when that happened. i was thrilled to be protecting him and i died in front of them. what would have happened with the brody has you not made it out that gas station that he would have a mom. and what would my legacy to my son be like how bad would it be to be a kid and someone to say your mom died like fire for days and then your kid's going to think well i'm almost in a lot of me. you know i know mom would be murdered but you think my mom i don't see people. like her

i don't know what's going on and i think it might be heard something drug overdoses are now the leading cause of death for americans under fifty. thank god i don't hear anything to you do you think if you've. got one or you know. they're calling a possible double overdose people here like in the truck crisis to a war with police in the mts on the front lines. in the last few years they've responded to more overdose calls than ever it's like a tsunami is it. but we don't we just keep going and. the people that serve you know in restaurants the people that work on your car the people in the air landscaping those people are attics. maybe the first time was a choice the second time may have been a toys but after that the demon has possessed them.

the way. they were thinking ok let me see your. seat alter anything whatever you think you know that you're ok i just let. it. go. more than one hundred thousand people have died from truck overdoses in the last two years and love. scenes like this are happening in homes across the country. and when kids are there you can only imagine how the process of.

care when it can affect the cycle of life even before a baby is out of the home. this hospital there's a program for pregnant women who are addicted to opiates. the women are given subutex isn't that a coping with safer for babies but they can still be born addicted to it. how common is it here to have a woman who is pregnant and use it here when. a lot of the women that have been that have come through my group have been heroin users you know. i would say over half of them are here one users. a lot of the girls that i have in this group mothers and fathers also used some of them are still using and then society is like

really focused on them because you're pregnant but they don't consider that this woman has been using probably since she was fourteen years old and she's twenty four she's been using for ten years and now she's pregnant and quit using. it's not that simple. you know that not every baby withdrawals more hope in the most the babies but the reality. he is. fifty five to sixty percent of infants whose mother is on this medicine do withdraw so more do withdrawal than don't some of the signs can be that they'd be crying a lot they can be shaking they can have a temperature you know like when you guys have went through withdrawal your muscle start hurting you know and you'll rub your muscles because they're hurting so bad where you know obviously a baby can't rub their muscles so what babies usually do is they if

a lot of times they'll take their arms you know dig them back into the crib like this and then they'll get like a red or sore spot on their arms or elbows or they or they will take their heels and they will dig their heels down into their cribs and then on the back of their heel right here they'll do it like a rock. just kind of wondering because i'm so are i have kids i have five kids and i know how hard the first few weeks the first few months are of having a baby at home and now it's that and dealing with this and i just wonder so you're scared of that kind of what is that like you're going through that i'm nervous like my going to have energy to get out of bed at my going to be able to get the baby when he's crying like and i going to have the willpower to want to do this makes her really emotional to think. why explain that to me but what he feels . like i feel sick didn't care for him to commitments when. i

speak to my grandmother to see if you can. hold me for. i would be three times off of here you know d. three times in the last year yes and then i go right back to the same people that sold me the dope doesn't know about died one and you're living it high again is there a moment that you look back on and you remember that you chose her way over your kids. many a time. to where i would lie to my son time on my way up money for you if there were a v. at the. so you know there's so many times that i have a. three year old daughter and i have it on her right there beside me the day post that's not good like this she sees what is going. you know you're making a choice you're choosing her went over the wall for your kids what is it internally

this that what's the voice in your mind telling you what do you live when i'm sick i don't care if i have to get through jesus the devil hell or highwater i'm going to get to that drug can't no matter what my child said here scream ones i'm going to get to that drug and then i'll deal with it as soon as i get it in me and i feel better when you when i'm so cold chills he is there for your skin to even to touch one of those like if i would take a shower and try to comb my hair and my hair would hurt like this i think yeah like everything on my body. i can sit here and i can admit i chose methamphetamine over my children my flesh and blood and then i believe it was the hardest thing i've ever done you know i had to admit to myself that i did that right here where you use the map and there are one where you would dictate to bo

yes. i remember her coming to bother me she wouldn't stop she wondered what her hand green tea was doing high school member fighting with her and her brother both scream and i'm not going to use any one might be going to and they say i did. because i'm an addict and all g. after so long i love well hell this is somebody else to get high with because i was selfish. you know i still blame myself for her today the things she does. it's concerning it's frightening it's sad not only for the people who are had exhibit trapped in that. but for their children for their parents for their

brothers and sisters for their future. the impact on children as a way before somebody overdoses it's the lifestyle that they're exposed to they're in a home where the parent may not be able to fix them they may wear the same clothes to school every week. whether it's their left alone whether they're there pawned off on friends or family might have been there are grandma i don't know. it's grandparents who often step in to fill the void. to be learned to go over raising four granddaughters after both of their parents fell into drugs and the kids were placed in foster care. get frustrated when he. either scared his i don't know how to take care of my grandkids and one bedroom place and doing what their temper

tantrums and they're in there screaming. i would never leave go get a shower or i with my clothes on. yeah for our forty five minutes or until somebody would come and calm me down and talk to me you know and the kids didn't deserve that you know they didn't answer me yelling at them it wasn't their fault. you know everything just happened so fast. just got. alone in my life. and then i get a phone call and i have to be in town to pick up four girls you know home of my own to raise them. but i made it there in fifteen minutes and i got them and i tried. to look you have. years of energy in you two periods. i don't believe i've got fourteen years of parenting my health isn't good but i know i have to do it and that's what keeps me going. take that because

i don't do it who's going to go back foster care. or they're going to be living in a home full of druggies and alcoholics. i don't want to let go she should tell me to my babies. i take care of them like you have and i know that your baby but you're still a child so here to take care of your babies. you know. that that would have destroyed her to have lost them three kids. years old looking at what she's losing yes yesterday as she said take care of the girls that she was two years old erica did with baby after baby after baby and she just took the road on its mommy when everybody was drunk and then uses the. and she still beat her about it was over because she still wants to be mommy and i try to get her to be

a child. you know like what would she do when she was being mommy. the youngest who was in diapers she would diaper her bathe her she still sometimes i have to come home and she'll be in there reading about water and trying to get a bounce and if i can't make it do some she'll tell i'm making and what does it mean to have appeared from. their kids alarms yeah they missed out on basketball games the little things that you don't get to do twice they're gone. for you just like this in this picture where was you doing. with. your kid because graduation the. kid. mom and dad didn't get to go to all this a march her become somebody gets what just would take her first steps. to get to see this one graduate from stuff you know. not this last time

so they that they miss not a lot they're not going to see your bowl games in your grade so in your report cards when you bring home an age site might have it all they don't know you are. yeah but i'm just saying you know i have. if they're not there all the time to do these things with you grandma was the one that does that with us. and when they say cry and i have to tell them it's ok because grandma is here and i'm going nowhere. and trying to give them some stability and some security. to hang on until. i tell my long time life's unfair you've got to make it what it is and what you want and i don't want these kids to think the world names and because nobody owes anybody nothing. make your life what it is living here.

and nothing's nothing's fair. living. inside the world the way it is today can't. you can't. they're getting love from their grandparents and stuff that's not the same as the mother father and i. just doesn't. whenever their parents aren't active in their care there is a hole in their life. why did they abandon me. why didn't they love me enough to take care of me. why didn't they love me enough to stop them what they were doing. why was my worth. that deserve recurrent. their entire life.

my dad was in the pills and opiates he died of a combination of opiates and prescription drugs so he passed away of accidental drug overdose my mom was into heroin says my mom and dad on their wedding day about nineteen or twenty and my dad from the day that he married her to the day that he died looked exactly the same he never changed if you know if there are using drugs or yeah they were there were you know. i was put into a foster home for a little bit when i was young and i ended up packing to go with my grandmother how did you find out when you were a little kid that something was

a right with your parents well i always figured that it was cigarettes because nobody is going to tell a six year old your parents were on drugs in sixth grade my mom took me outside and she was like alexis you know sixth grade and still believe in santa claus he's not real and i remember just like staring at her like what and she was like he's not real and all the lies my mother had been telling me up until that point kind of fell apart for me santa claus was kind of like a metaphor for like the drugs because it was on that same day where i realized there was something more and then the cigarettes it was like a loss of innocence for me do you have much of a relationship with her do. not really we we were having a really good relationship for a while and she had just gotten out of prison but then she got back with her old

boyfriend and i know that the old boyfriend leads to getting back into her old life so i own i don't want to be a part of it. i have gotten used to saying about my mother as great as your grandma has been to she fill that hole in your heart that's the shape of your mom you know . you don't get if my parents weren't ever on drugs say when have i ever met that's just how far back that our news goes i mean my parents started out on weird and they ended up heroin and opiates and it's i mean i want to been born if it wouldn't have been for. the choices that were made and sometimes i wish that i hadn't just for the. the life i might have given him here. with me.

and my parents were never on drugs. and i just wish they were done drugs but you're on your very existence is tied up in not meeting collision drugs so how do you reconcile that i mean their lives are even more precious than my own i think when a life is taken away from drugs it's just not fair and even though i treasure the life i have i just sometimes think that i sometimes just. i wish that it could have been but for the. nine one one. three. not awake right now this chill of coffee in the rest of the nation struggle to

contain the damage. there's no doubt that the next generation is being shaped by. a question which will take years to resolve just how. the norm back in the day. a mom my dad and two dogs two kids. maybe a parent maybe a grandmother maybe an uncle or maybe a foster home maybe just. me with nothing set in stone nobody really looks at their head and can say you're going to have a wonderful life when you're older again. because they're not sure anymore.

you're gone through all the. more concrete a lot of it is. raging. open the door to this is just hate it was there. he opened the door to turn it into a physical reality that the answer lies in the. old line six eight in trucks america at this time i was just there. business update brought to you by always going places together.

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