so not out of anger but it of celebration. the twenty eighteen nobel peace prize has been awarded two years e.d. women's rights not to this not the amir and the congolese doctor dentist mccuaig morag campaigns for the victims of sexual violence mccuaig it runs a hospital in the democratic republic of congo dedicated to helping the victims of gang rape. the president of interpol has been reported missing after traveling to his home country of china no one's been able to get in touch with monk way since late last month the french police on the investigating the disappearance of french official says he arrived in china but went missing soon after it's been a week since the in the mission island of soloway zee was struck by a magnitude seven point five earthquake triggered a tsunami official death toll now stands at almost sixteen hundred and bodies are still being pulled from the daybreak military planes for about twenty countries are flying in with much needed aid and supplies united nations as pledged fifty million

dollars to the relief effort and the people of venezuela are once again out on the streets protesting pro and anti-government rallies many people are angry about the lack of food running water electricity and medicines tens of thousands of venezuelans have already fled to neighboring countries but those with the headlines the news continues here are just iraq after part two of shelter state of that's washing by fidel. here little platform where i stand. with my boyfriend my couple other neighbors so to say. this is our tank that group is a profit. and when they i know about being homeless man situation i remember today is going to work when the robbery happened. sheriff's office ended up coming down here looking for they sale and sort of thing came down here one of our asses come

out basically told us they have a week to move so. it's quite common here in the homeless community. when the veterans are definitely the most underserved population. we could put a man that's homeless right now fuel problem for we have a young female for that has no place to go and has to hide for us to hide photography for. this is actually a new ten off of our and my last paycheck the first one when i was over the next corner and a half after the first rank because they'd had holes and what not read were so all of our betting everything wes and decide and i was lying down on my socks my toes his wrinkly minutes of him yeah.

these are my girls. they were both rescues. clearly like my heart tends to be bigger than i can handle. blade logistically you know. i have had her students which is five weeks old and the v.a. certified her as a therapy dog for me she actually just being my baby. turned into like a p.t.s. response to all so when i'm feeling like really edgy and i defensive sure really post up close to me and make sure that nobody likes. a really just give

me a she i think she knows that nobody's gonna hurt me she just knows that like there's times i can't handle it was proximity to other people. i was a navy diver. so my i did primarily as submarine rescue and i worked on actually had a really cool job in the navy. but undiagnosed mental illness was a major part of why ended up homeless. these girls back in here. a minute ok. you can totally when you can get in there. i've got my d.n.a. so you know it's your drugs you know at the ready and never missed a dose of my medication since i've been given it and i just really like. ok i mean i can i can write lists now and like realistically see a list through in

a day. call people back. whether i'm going to make an appointment or not. it's sucks it's terrible it's no you know nobody should have to live like this but at the same time i have i do have a roof over my head and four walls and organic heaters you know what i mean i will never go cold. and on never not get my hugs for a day i'm clear about the fact my hands out and my hat's off and i need some help. you know and when i'm in a position to like reach out and help somebody else but your ass i'm going to be there like as soon as that opportunity shows up when my son will have. made.

me. part of the pathology of trauma in a veteran is them wanting to i sleep from society from each other and we just want to be left alone. and that's our biggest challenge i think we fight desperately to get them out of their comfort zones and get them back together and get them to sit in a table to make friends you know to do things that people in normal society do you . contact is curative. being with other

people. was what heals us. to dinner and. their drug. trade that. all right so one of yours is ready to move on week knowledge that accomplishment it would be giving up of this coin rheims very special point on one side says that's a recovery because that's what you guys all are and the other side says i came with hope and worked and learned i have a new life a life that i earned this corn is going to be for didn't smell her. goodness.

and all for a while. a loving minute you felt me with my spiritual growth so it you know that you're my hero. when you are. that. good luck. dance ah. oh very simplified place of that song by that very good record. good brother if lucy. does this could be hard for me to see it really because i couldn't be talked. about myself. pure desperation to all these kinds here we're going to miss you thank you. if you assume we truly goes down it's just you know i'm an issue so much you've done so much for me hope me in every where you really have open no that

of make sure you guys you know i was in jail it be a guy be a late picks me up in jail banks me right here ike i hear words. shower shoes on. family have straying orders against me. i came here with so much shame and this place picked me up and you guys did too. you know i took a lot of work and i mean you guys looking forward to get out of here you know and have a go to talk to me i think i want to talk to me and i want to feel good about myself to get my family back. god bless you all and thank you thank. you thank you and i'd be remiss trudy i love you too you've been like you've been a great friend to me we hit it off right off the bat i forgot i forgot i'm sorry i missed you we hear that right off the bat. yeah. sure you're right

person. it is you. are very upset. with the. far. right. rigid. this. given. moment yesterday when i left the story completely had no idea who it was didn't know where my car was had a full blown panic attack and just going through those where in one minute i'm in reality the next minute i'm not quite painful. in this process is you know brought

up all this stuff i've stuff for twenty years yeah. i don't buy it is this my good friend jenny hi how do you do. they say this is j g more nice to meet you. i went into the coast guard to go help others when i was seventeen and a month before i went to maps they weighed me and told me i was five pounds overweight i was one hundred seventy lb body builder with six percent body fat so i quit eating in basic training so through my time in. my anorexia took over my life at that point i was one hundred twelve pounds. so i finally was able to get into rehab in rehab my first week i was then cornered several times by a counselor and the last time he raped me so my history

in the military was difficult for something i wanted to do something i so wanted to do i had to get out to save my life women with m.s.t. military sexual trauma if any female says i've been raped or i've been sexually assaulted or i have been brutally badgered they had nothing happens it's sort of falls on deaf ears and you get kicked out and you get nothing and it happens time and time again. i also myself was raped three times different times in the military and it definitely is it's horrible and it happens to women quite often very much often that was twenty years ago when i finally broke this last may. i had been stockpiling pills and i'd already been drinking a lot and taken

a lot is innings the day. so it took about eighty norco's percocet then expert panel and then some into a knowledge of medication and drink of whiskey. and i was ready and i said i'm going to bed. i thought i would be done i looked it up on the internet that combination should kill anybody. my next thought was my friend jenny. shaking me awake screaming at me. saying if you're dead i'm going to kill you which today. it's not so much i was so mad to be alive and the only thought i could think of was i can't believe i'm here i can't believe i'm still here. i convinced her i was just sick she went to go get another friend to help watch me overnight while they were gone i

took a half a bottle of tylenol pm. the next day. when i woke up again i was like you've got to be kidding me but by that. that it now you know i'm really glad of suicide i'm. well you know you're inspiring i'll say that my goodness to two of you to have come out of the other side of what you have been through and what you have attempted is amazing thank you you are made of are going to think you are not. and. i would like to just share some things with you i would like to do you.

have short term memory no two i have never had. carriers. but. wrote this song in my to haiti to be patient and a little pain and asheville north carolina. nurse i was least in charge who's in charge of me i don't want to use the charge i . was just a wonderful person. and sylvia has some strong gratitude. rudy.

so the first time i came back down here after the hospital just being able to see the trees again and the ocean and feel grateful for being here and having survived . was just kind of. breath taking. in the hospital i had a social worker tell me that we're all spiritual beings having a human existence we have tough times we have good times that's the whole balance of why we're here and that has really helped me because i'm doing good today but you never know i get triggered things happen but if i can breathe through walk down here or remember this spot in my mind i know it'll cause.

they see that. a veteran commits suicide over sixty one that's here in the united states and unfortunately i think the numbers so wall to drinking the drug and the overdosing the risky behavior. sure that sure that number number is at least double that in terms of. all these other causes. reverted it least in the last month twenty four suicides seem to training that and the mandate my case managers get and then. and we've probably lost three in the last two months and who knows how many more that we've engaged with that we just haven't heard of at this juncture you know it's. it's horrible.

you know we have. we have a lot of successes to clients that come into the program they work really hard. and they leave us. i don't see normal but they leave us you know better productive members of the community they are happy they're healthy yeah the first week go out to get by truck it brick it leave every day. we stuck it up. you know fellow residents to you know the big. it works with the group the group there are three really were. it was it. works well because raul veterans trying to get work. and the staff here first or there's a this twenty four hour duty stuff and the guy at night has helped me gratefully i had a couple of crazy flashbacks and i got to come down todd to the guy we talked for

a few minutes walk around outside and i didn't have to go but to my old bobby age i've got to work out in a safe environment to go back to sleep and say no you know the sheriffs are arresting me. to spain get. more and bigger the more good things that come are. sold for marines get more. polite than your.