he hated me. if only hated me and the first six months of shooting here still hated me i mean because i was standing for something i totally disagree with and i was disgusted by everything i said. because of a need to show me sort of him and she sort of the didn't want to live with me one woman finds. consonance for the show's title for she makes you know it's all. so much. just more fun all those norcia. political. solution on from our salute to sort of we just you know but they must have done things doesn't mean that i didn't view this question did the synopsis and these in japan and then. in the moment even have edges in that the also for the house because if not i'm just on a confronted. i'm a journalist and i feel mage and i just needed that side that i'm the man on the disc you must be seen as the figures act i'm always had some thought you know what

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don't fit what they've seen it a lot in this kind of the it's about givens of the new guys thing bunch just that i and. sixty's are not the type to finish that it's a kind of a new telling you this in a blend them. the thoughts of the i want to go that's the dismissed in this but we had to bendish to that ideology that says i'm a bit infamous for your metaphor about me that the god in the skin but it wasn't just a moment we flashed and i was the i've listed all three fun for me said mr. stuck out a text would watch out for us and in the soft i'd say that if he wanted most i think you should also start on the number going to be to go down it's. a fun. and leave a buzz about human perspective in the moment. my family would only disempowerment my dish best to leave

a fire in the. clipboard that's because. and i see in a on the concert and the definition of this book and if i'm in a book. and people shoot a baseball team depiction homestudy things but the other as it is a bit old home i'm just trying to but it lets. you talk to gus and that is that the model is what. ingo started an exit program in germany to help people leave the far right movement. it's nearly twenty five years since he left the movements i wonder how long it took him to get over it and make peace with himself. it's very obvious every day is a struggle. i think it's not enough though to us there live in london most of. it's not johnson i was hoping for. with my past want me for the rest of my life.

i still feel ashamed that i spent almost two years of my life in a right to be angry. how could i believe that we were superior. how could i beat up other women. i wanted to hurt people anyway i can't. deep down i wonder if there's something evil in me. was. there meant to be admired to germany or nothing. they were taller more violent and better organized than in scandinavia.

mandela was the leader of a paramilitary neo nazi group his nickname was the pistol. yes left the movement and his living in hiding. and grew up in east germany. when he was thirteen he joined a neo nazi group. deemed distorted by those on board an all of its stores. shopped in. the truth doesn't squish dishes and. pots but it's all of your. money man was convicted of extortion assault and arson. he was still

a convinced new year nazi but in prison something fairy unexpected happened. accused. of all. this or into dolphin. dolphin. decision. and. went. on to talk. but if being a comment on school is. just what seemed. at eating. i mention if i was. contacted next to germany and got help to leave the movement in two thousand and six. it help me my it's time to do it so it's

a given that has to see in an email it's. dusty i'm busted hits he have a confession a few businesses. assault a fetish albus. or. dusty most shits feel a lot of us would fall into feudal von vault and still move on find. i was bullied in school. and i remember feeling invisible. i scaped into books and television. and i was fascinated with true crime stories like the jack-o. and watching punks and skinheads fight on t.v. . kinds of outsiders to track to me. one moment i wanted to be not so the next moment i wanted to be an anti-fascist.

i thought nobody liked me. and when someone said the neo nazis were a bunch of losers i thought maybe that's where i belong. when i was sixteen i switched sides betrayed the left wing and joined the far right movement. it's hard to find women who want to talk about their experience in the far right movement. i wonder if it's somehow considered more shameful for a woman. to suddenly i find. who surprisingly open the bottle cost. i was involved in the violent far right for almost eight years. we believed that as white people

we were better than everyone else we truly believe that the. there is a conspiracy that exists against the white race from the time i woke up in the morning till the time i went to bed at night it was all about what am i doing to protect myself and sure that you know were not wiped out. it was a very fear driven life. if you're just joining us about a clock that occurred in the federal building in the city. the way. my immediate first thoughts were he's like me you know i wonder do i know him is he somebody you know i've i've come across and i started to wonder to myself is this what i'm willing to do.

there was a daycare center in the building there was one image that has always particularly stuck with me all of these years and it's the image of a fireman carrying a baby and you can't tell if it's alive or dead covered in soot was. when they realized that i was trying to withdraw they sent some some subtle messages about. what was not going to be permitted to happen and. that those messages included walking outside one morning and finding the front of my building covered with bullet holes. so instead of walking away i became an even better racist and

a better skinhead to try to prove myself. i went to prison for my part in an armed robbery it was a hate crime. there were women in the prison from around the world different ethnicities different religions and instead of being show anger and hatred from all of them there were some specifically some women of color who treated me with kindness and compassion when i never would have treated them the same way there was a really big article in the newspapers about my case and one of the women found the article found the paper early in the morning with the article in it and hid it so the other women wouldn't see it and this was a woman of color who had no reason to protect me they re humanized me.

they helped me to see that i was a human being with potential. for the first time i feel like i've met someone who understands i want to ask you something. do you think god's army want them to come through. yes given the right circumstances yes. i'm so convinced and i feel like something bust inside me. like i left go of something. the far right movement wasn't what i had expected. most of the time we sat around

waiting for something to happen. everybody was paranoid and spreading rumors about who might be agents or police informant. nobody trusted me. i had no one to talk to. i felt stuck in a movement full of hate and i saw no future. thoughts when i called professor to libya to go a specialist in far right extremism. i had seen him on t.v. . he talked about this in a different way. not like the police the social workers that. i called him and asked if we could meet. today to do is the director of center for extremism results to university have.

to. have articles to put on it or to think that we've been there is to go to. civilians and i want to. skip this critique out to get all that i love. to get i. just want some in the office but i also. do a lot of. gifts. so you. know if. that. it's any. help there for them with. that then. what do you. do when they build that social to that. to do this for the. president of the or doesn't or.

a nationalist we do here thought on orders or i can't believe. the anything. else to say you get the best spendings make. their duty to give and then they admit they were told to say she had different demands list or. who could not talk a little. detail of her store. also she enjoyed what he had something to do or beat me up on those so they can have. the next question comes from self just. he that the media or some. expected my movie star to talk or perfect a star makes it and i go all the aspects of the. financial district that. comes

from all of. their social daughter on the t.v. but it's to michelle think about a. little dislike me there's a been. six months after i meant to i called a friend and asked for help to leave the movement and while all my comrades were away for a nazi gig in sweden i moved all my belongings into. a friend from the radical left wing movement. i first met cute when i was fifteen at the anti fascist protest in loon. she had every reason to hate to be when i switch sides and join the far right movement. but still when i needed help to leave i called. his grandmother thanked and i think that.

donating to my well. i think. there's something not so fresh. in that since they were. a true would. think. i was curious and i. they congleton all. beasts the commonwealth of dog and there's all that and i believe it's made of it out there and when they think it's not that by the whole doesn't it isn't that i'm all this call to think about all these devotionals please give us your thoughts. now here's part of all the world to take their lives on involves me would i saw you

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