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write your style. or movement. there was a point in that you know when i was hiding from my friends that. i told myself if i don't make it out that i had to save all that it's a say in this video. and believe will be catastrophic day in broward county history it's devastating there are folks that have lost their lives i don't know the number right now it's a fluid scene right now we have multiple swat teams clearing all the buildings. i'm speechless i don't know i don't know it said.

he. wrote. a letter to see. most of the good students we stand together where he got his one word for this cause you know we're here as family we're here is friends. if you stand by saying we need to pass common sense gun legislation you have chosen and none of the millions of people marching in this country today will stop until they see those against us out of office because we choose law.

since the time that i came out here. it has been six minutes and twenty seconds the shooter has ceased shooting and will soon abandon his rifle blend in with the students as they escape and walk free for an hour before arrest fight for your lives before it's someone else's cha. cha i the. one i want to freshman year i didn't want. point that and how many friends and it wasn't until the last year freshman year that i felt at home that i felt like i actually had friends and mean it was because i picked up my camera and i brought it to school i decided to make of like that there you know it's good you tube today

we're going to be doing a q. and a i axed you guys to ask me questions and. let me research now i realize that my camera was my comfort zone it was a place for me to lay on my worries and preoccupations and just like go of everything that's when i realized that to me blogging is a way of taking care of myself. this past month i saw i saw dead body you know i went to multiple funerals and i just had to learn how to deal with that sadness it's been rough i don't like to show my wishes on camera especially i don't . it's been rough but we we don't we students are getting through it we're strong because filmmaking has this power to just influence other people i decided to video

based project called stories untold so stories untold reposed different videos and we mainly cover people that have experience gun violence and we've had the opportunity to travel across the country and meet so many different people this is christy she's a color months survivor this is omar though god he was a first responder at the polls shooting i was involved in one of the worse part of the us tragedies that occur you know right before your endo was a massacre where it was for those people courage bodies where you can probably drive or a lot of us suffer trauma that we want to express but we just don't have the outlet to to go. if you had a teacher with who was adept at firearms they could very well end the attack very quickly so we'll be doing the background checks will be doing

a lot of different things but we'll certainly be looking at ideas like that. we've got to make sure we have an increased law enforcement presence on in all of our schools every school so my repos would have a significant long presence in every school our top of that as our school and schools that are larger would have a bigger law enforcement presence. when i was in elementary school or middle school i remember school was a school it's a place where i could walk around where i could feel at home where i could just be me i guess now a school starting to feel more like a prison there's so many security guards so many policemen in. the united states has been at least for the last fifty or sixty years the global power and a leading global power so it has to have

a particular kind of brand of of conflict management and this is it it's it's militarized but i'd never accept that argument about militarization as simply the reason to explain why americans like done so much i think there's also a relationship to not ever having to explain oneself i think that's a part of american culture. but it's also really a part of american identity which is never to apologize. she could walk what she's lazing. i go. but. i raised two girls and single dad and i watched it with my own to our kids grow up to. you know it's hard enough now with what's going on in.

my opinion democrats have been all for guns for many many years trying to do something about guns but it's in our d.n.a. and in americans they can't get it out it's impossible it's like a bad it's a stage a lot of bad stain but it's like a stain it's never going to go away we're always going to have no. thank you. it was. someone did the right. sentence as she teaches them already we did train him here at least five or six teachers carry guns i want to carry with you make. me sitting in war you know you have anybody to tell.

exactly what they're. telling us is down the street from my school and now we have one fire drill every month same with code red every month in code yellow every month once you go on code red you turn off the lights bring down the shade and you go high like to where like if they look in the window they can't see like one of the walls but we had one on call back on valentine's day and then i texted my sister saying i'm on code red and she's like yeah there's a shooting at douglas and that's when i told my friends and they started freaking out because their siblings got there it's very close and they're very touchy when it comes to that subject of guns because i say you know i support them but they have to be used the right way you can't you can't use them to threaten somebody

with or bring them to school to show your friends you know it's not it's not it's not a toy there's so many veterans that are coming back that you know that are very there are guards they become police officers give them a job just because if he was served our country and here i've been a part of his body blown off or shot off amputated or something he'd be a perfect candidate sit in that school inside there in the give give him a gun. and he will stop a threat before we have good parents in p.t.s.d. you know. after what they've gone through general that stuff covers a lot of areas and now we have to pay attention to ten. that's also police officers go through that then everybody so there's there's ways to

to to keep an eye on these people i feel and i'm sure if they if they let a police officer carry a firearm. they could let somebody go in there a lot of more police officers or ex-military. after a traumatic event we know that one thing that facilitates healthy coping is children feeling like they're safe and so you know i think that the idea is well meaning but on the flip side it may also inadvertently send a message that school actually isn't safe. i think for children who've experienced trauma that could be a big trigger for that and be more stressful than it's necessary.

i didn't know that i had p.t.s.d. until one of the fire drills and this physics fire drill was i think the fourth one and it has been the wall that was in the same classroom scene see that i was in on february fourteenth and it brought me back completely hearing my teacher's voice having the friend that i was stuck with in the office right next to me made me think should i get up and walk or no or what like what do i do i was in shock i started sweating cold i started breathing heavy and i couldn't control my my nerves that's when i realized that. that's when i realized you know like i'm not ok and to take care of myself to.

i have a lot of guts more than i like to tell a lot of people you know sometimes that's how i'm forty sometimes i'm sixty i don't let them know exactly how many i've got i could have a hundred and twenty but i let them know that i have a good amount i enjoy bringing my maybe my neighbors children my neighbors wives and husbands out to the range so they can see and get more comfortable fight i have seventeen year old little girl since she was about seven years old i would take it to the range and we've been learning about guns and she will have progressed from small bullets now she has her own they are fifteen she has her own shotguns she has her own pistols twenty two's is what she joys these are guns that are in the safe so we can have fun we can enjoy. guns are very important in the united states they are central to how americans think about conflict it's the way they think about mediating conflict in their popular culture and their everyday life and their respect for authority they are

like what we might call fetish objects they're something that people find attractive as a way to substitute for actually trying to deal with conflict and more interpersonal ways. guns are important to me because i want to be able to protect myself protect my family everybody that i love that's my god given right it's written down it's you know these are my rights and i want to be able to use them is my. back. and i'm. part of that empire it's my favorite gun issue because like i just love how. i really don't like

a big recoil my gun so the fact that the barrel so mom makes to require a lot of this move there for me to shoot and it's fun going to go in the child's room. nude launched from because. i think mind as a very educated mirror i do support like values and everything and he says i appreciate the truth and that's what he gives me ron i'm kind of splint no. on that. so the bullet a made these bullets. mahmoud's my grandmother well that show governments are ready to go staunch love like this. when it's like a few weeks ago we had like

a lockdown in my school and we didn't know what was going on we're stuck in a closet for like an hour and a half i text my dad was like look we're on a code red i don't know what's happening and you know from that point all you can do is really like hide in the corner i got a text from my daughter there's a lot done in the school they're saying that somebody is running around shooting i want to go run to my car go come to my house grab my rifles grab my ammo grab my vest grab my helmet and go hit the school i mean i may not be running around the campus with a gun what i want to throw guns to the teachers a say go get my kid get up or should i come in which i cover let's go there was a discussion going around a couple months right after the storm and douglas' shooting happened that teachers should be able to be armed and that idea was. it was i who i like the idea personally but there's a lot of teachers like i said that have these democratic my sits there like no i

don't want to have a gun and then these kids are like the teachers to show us and it's like that is such an idiotic mindset. i think the reality of gun violence and the reality of these high security schools is something that poor kids in more violent communities have been living with for a long time and it's now that it's heading out into other neighborhoods that we're starting to talk about it more but it's something that's been a reality for lots of our kids for quite some time. miami guard and as some people refer to it murder garden it's a beautiful area as you can see like a lot of trees a lot of just

a lot of shootings so a friend of your family members been affected and it just continues just now from us so continues as all of our people go violence continues to happen with no intention. has to be outside almost every day if i may have home we just go out and everybody wanted to play football basketball want to do so not a lot of young kids really go outside unless it's the weekend because bond weekend and pretty much the same for i guess. who here is experienced in violence or police brutality or i have somebody in your family. and you have been a victim oh by the way my husband dockside in the head brandon drive by this guy. and she and i have been there's a lot of his head but he's doing fine now but

a couple years ago it was really like a traumatic experience for him. so how do you guys know what you say it was a drag they did with tarik now he was in that entire year he was playing basketball at the park it was just a random like spray shooting so out now let's talk about if your best friend had a gun and i was walking down trees you know open it up to the alpha plus i'm here with this gun so let's say you have jeremiah and joe by would you feel more comfortable trying to jump on not to use a gun and i am not example i would try to convince to morden commit a murder because i could lose my life and i no one nobody me how do you feel about being outside how do you feel about going to the parks tell me a little bit of your views and how you feel about just being in the community i don't usually like big life because mostly in parts you feel like you're going to be see play no one's going to do anything but you always have to like be aware of

your surroundings absolutely so you don't let what's going on stop you from living your best life. ok anybody else how you feel as though. i don't really go outside because i know there's a vast. right around seven states i would say i'm a spammer to anybody else. thank you. in my neighborhood in people i hang around with most needy always try to make money positive you go what if something goes wrong have they could fall off the wrong track get into dros drugs in america you can see at a lot of drugs even in inner city schools we don't worry about was going to happen mostly we have insiders and maybe a fight outside of the school that's what we look to as an oh ok now i've got to

survive. right now this was starting point so in the future is going to. be something i want to do entrepreneurship so this is a stepping stone to like. any words younger guy in their way to be i try to be role model to them so they can be role models and they get older to me so that no no more of us. had to go get a shot or have a good in this horrific trauma of being alone to be in a free to do what they want to be. everything. they were. after the shooting all of us students came together because we wanted change but i think we all realize that politics are slower. than we imagined

but we're trying to as much as possible or so are we just heard in the senate in congress or just in the government and soldiers were in tallahassee florida at the moment the house of representatives stopped overwhelming and we are fighting for we cease to be because we don't want to see a new dispute to get heard. for a long time i think that you have not been able to affect change in the united states and when and where they have tried they have been thwarted by adult culture or by market oriented culture. i and i think until you see a transition of power between the generations it will be very difficult for young people to affect much change. i've tried to be careful with what i say sometimes and i know that there's

a lot of people that probably won't like me and that there's are going to be haters they point out that our shooting was as fake as the sandy oaks and the only dumb bodies you have it's just a lot of stupid comments that i really personally don't pay attention to there's comments here that are calling me out for being a crisis i there and these are companies that i honestly don't pay attention to in good care less they could express their opinion anywhere they want to i am just going to be moving forward and posting my content because that's what matters and that's what brings me happiness and i completely changed i feel like i became an adult and that i realized what life was like how cruel everything truly is in the intentions of some people are just beyond my imagination and then when it's like two seventeen people are there and what it's like to go to their funerals and just

that sadness that no one can take away either and what it's like to tell your mom i love you what you thought what was going to be the last time. despite the trauma we lived on february fourteenth there are a lot of good things that came afterwards and to this day i say that and the seventeen angels are passed away that they are looking over us because they truly are blessed my life and their lives and many others and we aren't benteke hating our day for them and to them because they they are the reason why we are pushing forward and why we are motivated to keep on with. anti fascist anti establishment and pro violence despite the recent official disbanding of its militarized wing a basque separatist movement just found alive and well on the terraces of

a bill dal stadium. a place where political revolutionaries share a platform an ideology with violent football hooligans. and read all death on al-jazeera. being located outside that western centrex fair of influence were able to bring a different perspective to global events when you peel away all of the lists a cove a minute tree in the financial dog and you see the people in those words and those policies are affecting see the emotion on the face of the situation they're living in that's when all the us can identify with the story. there's nowhere to hide isn't the easiest way to solve this to allow u.n. observers who you invited into the country earlier this year to finish the job i haven't said it's a right wing conspiracy or anybody's conspiracy. think we're going to see some kind

of sea change in the u.s. relationship with saudi arabia we have an obligation there's a journalistic integrity and there is that in this case it was betrayed told only up from its own. going off to saudi crown prince mohammed bin sound man u.s. senate has introduced a resolution to hold him accountable for the death of jamal. hello i'm the star and this is al jazeera live from doha also coming up china demands the release of the chief financial officer of telecoms giant huawei after she was arrested in canada.