and we'd get a ambushed and they'd be shoot medicine and stuff i would use my rifle to big noise just. as scare off but i did what i heard him mostly sit stand not men do defects p.t.s.d. and depression and don't want to be have your tongue about that's what i think it's common to all of us. this is my son jack. to seek to be. seen. never play came form from.

he'd name oh. i'm comes on and. is right. and his. life. was known leaned to me in the boat. i took care of a man when a truck rolled over the mountain and crushed him williams airworthy it was full of blood and i clawed it out with my hands and it just filled back. and then bubbles broke and there was nothing i could do he was

dead. going through that. tore me to pieces. give. you the story you. love. that phone. or. rather to. see you know. the very. end in order to function in combat and you know this a rational response would be to get the hell there but we cannot be rational so we

have to set aside our rational human response and then having cut all those feelings all off you know your sense to it because if you don't you just start screaming that one day and the middle of it and you won't stop i went out to a track in 2009 and we got bombed every thursday they went lop off rock allow rock rock around some more rounds whatever happened one night one of those rounds hit $34.00 guys and. i think one of them survived i really remember because kind of burnt my memory with math and everything turned forget about it but. we lost 33 guys 3 m.p.'s. he talked about numbness and i got back i had no fear period and i was afraid of anything i

want to do that in the middle of the night and i care trying to get some weed to you know to calm me down and held it none of this equate with with the use using and with. not having a whole that dime a big boy. i could've made it well if i use the unemployment because i got employment for 2 years i would use it right instead of using it to suicide my my fears my you know my my feelings very much. i could have went somewhere but i didn't i just explained it that i've been here almost 90 days now the 23rd of this month the 19th what i'll be asking for an extension because i can i can't trust myself to go out there i go for the holidays i need to go through that go through the holiday here in the r.c.

and. i just thank god for each one of my bets with regards to whether you're an army navy coast guard they're not marines that ask you up look right here. when i actually came here and i mean yeah that person scary situation and the diversity here is you know we have straight we have gay we have transgender and i'm actually a gay veteran and also came out with. my hiv status i'm a chubby positive and. you know the day acceptance from the group was very much overwhelming and. they opened up arms and you know they offered words of encouragement that

was actually remarkable. and we become so rich that we could gain any. career care or love. in their day that is. that is true. you know every veteran out there is one of my brothers and sisters. i want to be there for him you know it's all my my my vets all the time said look you know i'm i'm not a social worker by nature. a room. it sounds harsh but by and large i don't really care about the average person out there. but i do this because i love my vets on.

the. planet. earth. oh wait you're. the program is designed it's a 30 bed transitional program for homeless vets and so yes they all had to been

homeless and all that friends like you are going their goal is self sufficient income so we help them apply for benefits we help them go back to school or get employment. morning or you. interventions difference to their needs are different and so we're able to treat them to the root issues whether it's addiction whether it's mental health. or you're either. going to have red. meat. so little that you think may be hung over. to them or you. used to fire through and worm farm are the reason i would get sleep in. sydney i really just want to be from. the world of life for the marines.

just as an excuse is. so we're learning how to just. so we can maybe a relationship with your. children its worth. that's simpler it doesn't turn destructive. like that morning to you and every morning. sorry are you without it your guy right now when he 1st came in here he was. i thought he needed medication bag because you get out he would if he was having a real bad time and counselor was in session with somebody so i can get the cows are out of the office i thought roger was going to get in his truck and leave. that you know yeah yeah well you know believe or not i did and it went to 2 weeks of 2 and 2 weeks and he was calm down it was amazing it was. not going to

swab the floor the navy guys would be good to get. their call swamis. so one thing i like to highlight not particularly with the new veterans coming into these programs is that it is a program so you don't run shelters you know this isn't a mission. it's a man's supportive housing program. everybody takes turns doing chores and somebody has been living on the street for 15 years cleaning the kitchen might be totally alien experience for them but it's something that they all have to do you know get their own part to teach that.

i don't i don't know how to say it but there's just i love this place you know how i wish everybody could experience this. this is my car and my wife lived in this car. it's not a good place to live but i guess it beats the street you know let me show you where i was living. it was basically. sit like this and put the seat. where is it right here all the way back and this is this is the position we slept in you know i'd have sleeping bag pulled up over me and my pillow behind my head but as you could see i'm not burkle or horizontal.

so i wasn't i mean you try to turn over and you just get more uncomfortable and that's why they all called him and you know you drink enough you just pass them out a way to do that and you wake up in the morning so or you know and you do you start your day all over again doing the same thing trinket so you wouldn't have to feel anything when you when you try had to crawl back in this thing and sleep in it the end i think happened in the mcdonald's parking lot and i stopped getting i try to use more drugs and they just wouldn't work and it's like lex something outside of myself said that's enough now it's a veterans' resource center and things have just been going good sense and you know i completed i did everything i needed to do. to do the right thing you know to get help. and now this car is just a reminder of what i'm done with. today like this so good. i'm

going to hang on to what i get. a leg and go. to dinner pretty much you're going to. let me go to school is the big focus will. be there we'll be there when. but when it's so tough for. me to get big fish i'll. just. have you seen circumstances where you can say i've seen circumstances in which the client didn't want to be saved. somebody will decide. her winner or i'll call was much more important at that moment and then

we just hope that we left enough of an impression that at some point they'll be ready for hope in the comeback we can. never turn our back on a veteran and we're not going to do it today hopefully someday they'll all come back. i hope it's time i am a veteran of 2 branches i did 6 years active duty in the me is a separate mission from there i went into the naval reserves. completed i went into the army national guard which i am still hurt currently serving and. at a total of 14 years now for the car they work and play with just sticks i have periods i swear i have a substance abuse problem that i have about all that and get over it which was hard but i've done it now and again and this last time was a lot harder but at least i was able to. bounce back from it all.

and since then we have been trying to find income to help to move forward and. read and here we have the crossed over to it a creek area. to give you a heads up. your whole day as encompassed with doing nothing but surviving that for people to go around to look for housing or to look for jobs it becomes much harder because you're more focused on where am i going to get my next meal. or how am i going to get to these free services or how my going to these 3rd beings. and then to think about where is our next hour. hi jean you look coalesce and your clothes are all dirty and stuff like that you can't better even if you want to change. a lot of great stuff that

make a difference are you going to. carry a little platform where i stay. with my boyfriend and couple other neighbors said ok. visit our tank that group is a profit back and i think there's also a very ventilation to. good ventilation and then there's them our friend vicki is well they're cranking in that they stare down here with us but that's generally where i say wrath of a freeway in the woods so welcome to woods. kidnappings and murders in crimea since russia's full stomach station of the black sea in

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a cliff i have to fight is south of the capital at least 3 fighters were killed in the operation after launched an offensive to capture tripoli in april the u.n. says tens of thousands of civilians have fled the fighting. our humanitarian colleagues tell us that the number of people who have fled their homes due to the fighting in libya's capital tripoli surpassed 90000 according to the u.n. migration agency this week alone saw 8000 people half of them believed to be children displaced aid workers continue to provide assistance to the internally displaced and other vulnerable people impacted by the ongoing hostilities with more than $47000.00 people in tripoli and surrounding areas having received help to date mexico's president has hinted that his country could tighten migration controls to diffuse u.s. president donald trump's threat to impose tariffs on mexican goods trump says he will apply tariffs to all mexican products on june 10th if it doesn't stop migrants crossing the us mexico border

a canadian government inquiry into missing all murdered indigenous women has described them as victims of a genocide the investigation looked into more than 1000 deaths or disappearances since the 1980 s. it's uncovered a disproportionate level of violence faced by indigenous women and says deep rooted colonialism and state in action are to blame a state funeral has been held in the democratic republic of congo for veteran opposition leader etienne tshisekedi he died in belgium 2 years ago but political turmoil had prevented the return of his body his son felix won the presidency after elections last year and liverpool have been crowned kings of european football for the 6th time in their history after beating tottenham hotspur in the champions league final tottenham conceded a penalty after just 20 seconds to put liverpool one nil up at the final in madrid but it was belgium to develop already who sealed victory for the reds with a late goal final score tottenham nil liverpool 2 well those are the headlines and

now it's back to shelter after which they'll be more news.

the platform where i stand. with my boyfriend my couple other neighbors so to say. this is our tank that broke as a profit. and when they i know about that being homeless man situation i remember 2 days ago. when the robbery happened. sheriff's office and that coming down here looking for they sale and sort of thing came down here was that i saw it come out basically told us they have a week to move down at quite common here in the homeless community. women veterans are definitely the most under-served population. we could put

a man that's homeless right now no problem but we have a young female. that has no place to go and has to hide has to hide harbor. or. this is actually a new town off of our and my last paycheck but the 1st one when it was over in this corner and after the 1st rain because it had holes and whatnot we were so all of our betting everything was just soaked and i was lying down in my socks my clothes his wrinkly minutes of them yeah. these are my girls kid you know. they were both rescues.

clearly like my heart tends to be bigger than i can handle. would logistically you know. i have a diverse students which moves 5 weeks old and the v.a. certified her as a therapy dog for me she actually just being my. baby. turned it into like a peach yes response to all of sudden i'm feeling like really edgy. defensive should really only post up close to me and make sure that nobody likes. a really just give me a she think she knows that nobody's gonna hurt me she just knows that like there's times i can't handle it was proximity to other people. i was a navy diver. so. i did primarily as

submarine rescue and i worked on actually had a really cool job in the navy. undiagnosed mental illness was a major part of why ended up homeless. these girls back in here. a minute ok. you can totally mean you can get in there. i've got my the psychiatric drugs that you know at the ready and i haven't missed a dose of my medication since i've been given it and i just really like. a i mean i can write lists now and like realistically c.l.'s through in a day. call people back. whether i'm going to make an appointment or not. it sucks it's terrible it's no you know nobody should have to live like this

but at the same time i have i do have a roof over my head and 4 walls busy and organic heaters you know what i mean i will never go cold. and on never not get my hugs for a day i'm clear about the fact my hands out and my hat's off and i need some help. it you know and when i'm in a position to like reach out and help somebody else that your ass i'm going to be there like as soon as that opportunity shows up when my son will have. me.

for the pathology of trauma and if that are in is them wanting to i sleep from society from each other and we just want to be left alone. and that's are our biggest challenge i think we fight desperately to get them out of their comfort zones and get them back together and get them to sit in the tables to make friends you know to do things that people in normal society you. contacted security. being with other people. was what heals. to them and. their growth. rate that. art so one of yours is ready to move on week

knowledge that accomplishment it would be giving up of this coin runs a very special point on one side says that's a recovery because that's what you guys all are now on the other side says i came with hope worked and learned i have a new life. a life that i earned this corn is going to be for didn't smell her. tennis and only for a while a loving man you felt me with my spiritual growth. did you know that you're my hero. you are. good luck.

yes ah. oh very simplified place of that thought by their very good record. brother who's seen it. deduces can it be hard for me to see it really because i can really talk to you about my stuff. your desperation to all these kinds here we're going to miss you thank you. i feel the same way trudy goes down it's just you know i'm an issue so much you've done so much for me hope me in every where you really have hope you know that of make sure you guys you know i was in jail it be a guy be a late picks me right out the g.l. banks you're right here ike i hear words. shower shoes on. family have strained orders against me. i came here with so much shame

and this place picked me up and you guys did too. you know i forgot about working i mean you guys looking forward to get out of here you know and have a good autonomy i think i want that autonomy and i want to feel good about myself to get my family back. god bless you all and thank you. and i'd be remiss trudy i love you too you've been like you better great friend to me we hit it off right off the bat i forgot i forgot i'm sorry i missed you we get right up bad. yeah we sure you're right person. did you. hear me say. the. far. better. way to. this.

given. moment yesterday when i left the story completely had no idea who it was didn't know what my car was had a full blown panic attack just going through those where in one minute i'm in reality the next minute i'm not quite painful. in this process is you know brought up all the stuff i've stuff for 20 years yeah. i don't i just miss my good friend jenny hi. dave dave this is jay jay mohr nice to meet you. i went into the

coast guard to go help others when i was 17 and a month before i went to maps they weighed me and told me i was 5 pounds overweight i was 170 lb body builder with 6 percent body fat so i quit eating in basic training so through my time in. my anorexia took over my life at that point i was 112 pounds. so i finally was able to get into rehab in rehab my 1st week i was then cornered several times by a counselor and the last time he raped me so my history in the military was difficult one for something i wanted to do something i so wanted to do i had to get out to save my life women with m.s.t. military sexual trauma if any female says i've been raped or i've been sexually

assaulted or i have been brutally badgered they had nothing happens it's sort of falls on deaf ears and you get kicked out and you get nothing and it happens time and time again. i also myself was raped 3 times different times in the military and it definitely is it's horrible and it happens to women quite often very much often that was 20 years ago when i finally broke this last may. i had been stockpiling pills and i'd already been drinking a lot and taken a lot is innings through the day. so it took about 80 norco's percocet then expert panel and then some into an argument like you shouldn't drink of whiskey. and i was ready and i said i'm going to bed.