america games, so i don't know why people are against it, especially as we're still playing games in the brazilian domestic championships and the liberator doris cup. the games will be played in empty stadiums, but several players and managers who already express their concerns with it a while will be a little but surely the situation in brazil is the same or worse than it is here, which makes the decision to play the difficult to understand this doesn't mean however, that we won't go and play out of best. but 1st, the focus is on the world cup and the resumption of qualifying games. each country place 2 matches before the copper america kicks off. brazil and argentina, as they often do, sit at the top of the table while venezuela, peru, and bolivia occupy their custom, replaces the bottom for in south america is more than just a distraction, an idle leisure pursuit. it's wrapped up with politics and finance. the menu would say life itself. so even more of the corona virus pandemic continue to wreak havoc

across the continent. the gay remains a fundamental part of the debate. daniel shaw, the roses era when cyrus ah, this is all deserving 0 top stories. police in hong kong have arrested to pro democracy activists, including the organize of the annual vigil for the victims of china's gentlemen square, crack down and $989.00 thousands of police expected on the streets to prevent people from gathering to monk. the anniversary sarah clark has moved from hong kong . we been told that she had been detained on suspicion of public diving. what is deemed an illegal assembly on june for she had said that she would attend victoria, which is weird. i hold. i'll be so massive vigil, year after year. but this year of course has been banned the 2nd time. now at the

time, you know, with the rest of the difficulty, we were meant to be interviewing her right now. i live in, i am a hong kong time, but we received a message that should be detained inferential by about to police. now, a bit of background about her. she's the pro democracy leader. she's also the boss chair of the hong kong a lot. and that the group that organizes this annual visual, she's also about the france has been a joint operations with molly and forces to pressure the middle. she genta into restoring the civilian government. i see me going to was declared president on friday after ordering the arrest of civilian leaders as already can take a prime minister benjamin netanyahu house called on right wing allies to abandon the coalition that could remove him from power. a policies have made a deal to form a governments, but it still needs to be pumped in parliament. the headline news continues, hey, on al jazeera, off to fort line, stay with us. the be compelling story without

uttering a single word, liam, conventionality of life. witness through the lens of the human eye. on out there, there are this is likely to be the most frightening experience of your life. the more we plan and prepare, the more we practice in all these plans, the more automatic response will be mis shootings have become a grim part of american life. there were more than $62020.00 alone. all of which had 4 or more victims who were shot or killed the highly to reality that when it comes to gun violence, no place is safe. most movie theaters, places of worship. even schools in the shootings continue to happen.

this is where our curie curse every day with me. sure little baby earned. and that's how i cure him with me all the time. is crazy. it sounds really does give me peace. doesn't address that. i have them with me all the time. even though he's in their little piece of him in there, it makes me feel good that i still carry my son. in this episode of bolt lines, we explore the long lasting trauma nash shootings on a generation of survivors and victims families. and the new normal that day in the country continue to reconcile the santa fe small city south of houston, texas on may 18th,

2018. there was a mass shooting that the high school here. the worst thing you have to worry about is a literally get run over bar cow. and here i am rushing to the school because my son got shot, had several people down. anyway. me, megan me. i started running in a seed like cups running. i don't really remember much so far the me spell it out of the sound of the mom's cry in the scene, people for united with their kids and i was just waiting for. chris really never came cracking your development the latest mass shooting

in the us. your anatomy next me. it was one of more than $300.00 mess. shooting said here. in the suspect carried out, the attack would have gone both take from his father and you're planning to look inside the mine. the 17 year old gunman, a student at the school, killed 10 people. among them was a football team make chris rosie stones. she was such a sentimental kid and he was not shot to cry. he was a mama's boy, 100 percent mama, boy my mother. we met rosie and chris is older, sisters, angelica and mercedes, 8 months after the shooting. when i took him to prom because junior prom the

saturday before, most kids don't want their mom and dad there. she wanted me there. that's just to chris was and i taught my kids, the family was everything for christmas sister, we living happy memories has helped them cope. in the months afterward, our uncle saw that the 3 amigos. he was only one who committed to goofy face. yeah . but the trauma losing, chris changed their lives and ways. they're still coming to terms with have your good days where you don't cry as much. you don't want to just stay at home all day. then you have your really bad days where you really just want to talk to them either what price you want to hear his voice. i know chris would have wanted me to put my life on hold

and i hadn't been every day. i think about him that phone call. i think about a constantly like one phone call, change my life forever like that. second. and i think about every moment what chris has been killed, terrible bill. it should ever have to think of their kid or their brother or sister like that. it's been particularly hard for rosie. she told us she hasn't been able to sleep for more than 3 hours at a time, so it's her son was killed. there's not a place in my home. you can think of him in that school. it makes it hard to go home. so what i do is i spend a couple of hours every single day at my house. i haven't tried to stay the night there yet. 8 months on you haven't spent the night back in that house. i can't

i really can't just a lot of memory to. it's hard for her to do it. like little things from taking up the trash like chris took out the trash. chris felt the dogs like it's just hard. mm. rosie instead binds piece in an unlikely place where the shooting happened right here. see that door? that's the art room where my son was and that's the door that was locked. i literally go in there and i sit in chris's spine, and i'll sit there for me about 3045 minutes. nobody talks to me or nothing. i don't say nothing. i just sit there. and when i leave, i feel a little better because that's when chris took his last breath.

you know, i was there when he took his 1st one and i wanted to be where he took the last one . me. his haunted by how christmas jack could have been avoided. like many others in santa fe, which sits in the heart of texas. don't country. her focus has been on improving school safety measures not don't control. i don't blame the gun. it wasn't a gun that walked in there bite so been killed. my son, parents need to be held responsible. gun owners need to be held responsible. after christ rosie and her daughter's got licenses to carry concealed handguns. she believes they can protect her and her family. i do feel like it's a safe tool. i don't like that now our students that way i don't like that that our kids feel like they have to have some kind of weapon in order to make it in this world. but that's the reality that we live in.

ah, that reality means that his parents tend their kids to school. there now thinking of ways to keep them safe there. and there's a growing industry to help them lock down. drill right now. this was your classroom, this is the only door in and out. where would your teacher have you go and go. there no, go, go. just go. this is a class for kids as young as 8 years old. called school safe. it's $188.00 tactical, a private company in omaha, nebraska. it's meant to supplement the lockdown trails, which are now conducted in 9 out of 10 public schools across the country. what are these representing to us that we have? what is your teacher tell you to do? you stay quiet until the bad guy leaves or we run out of the room. what if the gun shooter comes in your classroom?

if somebody came in that door right now and pointed a gun in this direction, do we know that desk is going to help out? no. so what would we, what would we do? so much point done in this direction, over the course of 2 and a half hours. the kids learn different self defense strategies based on the run hide fight model. we're going to run away from the bad guy. are you guys ready? are you going to do with the instructor as a retired police sergeant and believes that kids the more preparation than they're currently getting in most schools to evade and even bite off and attacker go run one of the area. we're not trying turn him into a swat commander or anything like that is just to give him some information and give him some strategies. so if something were to happen in their little part of

the world, they would have an idea of what to do. i'm just going to come in with my hands open like this, like a catcher, and i'm just gonna come in and grab this here and hang on tight. right? somebody coming in here. what does it say about our effort to educate our children that they are in their minds preparing to potentially be killed in their own school? as unlikely as it is? it doesn't feel that we are kids. we don't know how it's going to affect an entire generation. we have noise. john cox is a reporter for the washington post, who's investigated the impact of gum violence on children, including the psychological, told of locked down trials at schools. someone has to get the gun. i'm shooting people right now. miss shootings and schools remain room. there we go. in the likelihood of a child doing a more and as low after each mass shooting, right. the demand for schools and kids to be prepared goes up. so we know that lock

downs can be incredibly frightening, but should we not have the kid do the drill and then the day comes and they have no idea what to do. that's probably not a trade that parents or teachers would make the better the reality until we as a country makes a really significant changes to prevent the students were current in the 1st place when we talked about running, hiring, fighting. we haven't talked about giving aid, right? this is just a brief little thing about bleeding control, and it will work on kids, your age, tie one, not loom put the pencils in there. watching your presentation and some scary stuff to talk to kids about it when we get shot in the me and bleeding out in the mall. what do you think about that to just talk about the idea? i believe our kids know about this kind of stuff. all right, and i don't believe in a lot of respects that we give our kids credit enough for being able to handle what

it is that needs to be talked about. and because of that, that's why we're very blunt. we're just very straightforward. them. it's going to hurt. there's no other way about it. do that. anything in that presentation with a scary or was it? i was shaking. wow, really because i was scared if it happened in real life. you know that you've done the training. so i felt more confident about it for tuition familiar with luck, down trails and connected my social media the thought of the shooting at school, but it seemed far away. it happened here in february 2018. it marjorie still meant douglas high school and parkland florida becoming used a legally bought semi automatic rifle to kill 17 people. it was valentine's day.

and for some students it wasn't unexpected. i had already plan like what i would do is a shooting. what happened because i was surprised that it happened at all a few years ago when the shooting happened that the, for a lot of the airport they said to always look dead if there's something you go under somebody that has passed. so i had always told myself, i can't go out the window and that's what i would do. so i didn't leave eastman had just finished a presentation on hate groups. when the government began firing into the classroom, she took cover under her presentation partner nicholas, who had been shot and killed. as soon as he saw, i just followed his every body movement and went underneath him and laid there. at that moment i just be talking to god and tell him i don't want to feel i just wanted to fast remember laying there and looking at the floor waiting for footsteps . so i knew and hold my breath cuz i didn't want the shooter to see me breathing

and alive. i went to like, i was dead. and i'd say about 20 seconds. he moved on to the next class. i sat up just that and shocked me. the child that i give birth to almost died, that that is drama in gunshots over the phone. she said, i love you. i told her i said a lawyer get off the phone and pay attention and couldn't breathe. i assume she was want to be killed. how could you escape in a small classroom with a guy with a aka 50? how could you how did you find out the way it was safe? actually i was texting her. that's all i know. my baby was alive because i thought of bubble. she's texas to see, i'm ok, and that's how i know the visual for the one year anniversary of the parkland

massacre. it's a familiar scene. one repeated across the country in the aftermath diminished, shootings and it's become so predictable. there's the shooting and politicians announce that there are the visuals always and there's memorials and there's intense coverage and then it fades. if you're a member of the media, you just move on and move on to move on and move on because they just don't stop. after the news moves on, survivors and their families are left to pick up the pieces and imagine in your heart that you would want to say on this 1st anniversary, remembrance be strong live stream from one another. what was it like watching a 6 year old tried to process the trauma that she experienced. it was difficult.

she slept in my room for 2 weeks and you know, she had nightmares and it was very traumatic for her. you know, i was providing for me as well, but i have to put on that brief mommy face and be there for the, for me or my guilt is still something that i struggle with knowing that i'm here. but he's not knowing that parents aren't upset with me and are happy that i'm alive makes me feel better. but i feel like sometimes i'm alive at his expense because he of course, saved my life in the park when shooting reinvigorated, the national conversation on gun violence and kick started a movement led by young people including a late midnight last night working on her testimony. so please

give her love when you fear encourage her. she's worked really hard on this year. 2018. she spoke with the 1st congressional hearing and goodbye. listen 8 years. many like me. we're fortunate enough to walk away with our lives, but we will never be free from the terror. some will carry visible scars, but all of us were scarred emotionally for the rest of our lives. i was in my 4th lease active person, has given her a sense of purpose in a way to cope. he was just 18 with his whole life ahead of him. but her mom worried that she still has a long recovery ahead of her heavy burden of gun violence. we know this as a fact adiana today i tell her said when expectancy, when the camera and the lights and the action is gone, you're going to be in a dark place by yourself. and when the phone calls that come in to come speak to this event, you have to process what happened to you and seek help. often you'll see that right,

the people are ok in the beginning. when they have a chance to talk about. then when people go through transitions in life is when often the trauma really sets in and it changes the trajectory of people's lives through dec ah, now another american community turns in we're looking to each other for support in the wake of the nation leaders. ah, the event is only the beginning my heart for those people because it's not a quick fix. it's never going to be a quick fix. your level in depth of trauma is totally gonna vary based on a number of factors. but they're in for a long road. after columbine, i stopped watching the news. i headed morton was a senior at columbine high school when the shooting happened in 1999. at the time

it shocked the country. it was the worst school attack and us history. now it doesn't even make the list of the top 10 deadliest mass shootings today who works as a high school english teacher and has been through multiple locked down trills. but news and other math shootings can still trigger anxiety attacks. the trauma and what i went through that day will always be a part of me. it's taking me quite a few years to kind of come to terms with that for 9 years. i was really not in denial that the event happened. but in denial that the event impacted me to the extent that it did, i felt last isolated alone. i really started my journey at 10 years, 10 years after the. i have the mashing and a movie theater, and or colorado in 2012. heather co founded the rebels project support group for mass shooting survivors in victims families. it started with people from

a handful of incidence. now it has members from more than a 100 communities impacted by mass shootings. if you guys could introduce yourselves and what community are associated with, i survived the movie theater shooting. we started it because one of the things that we were missing where people who understood and people who we could talk to more deeply and not just about were you there was a scary, did you know the gunman? so we can automatically dive deeper. i will be freaking out. like i'm going to go through this again. i think it was probably because i was reliving it constantly with flash flash back and i was like, i'm gonna go this kid and like i realize it's not hygiene that that i'm going to know. but you know, your brain has recalibrated itself to make your face. and so what your brain does is say, oh, well, when my friend got killed, it was funny. so maybe a 30 day becomes

a trigger because that's what was going on last time. something will happen and it makes so much sense. it's why i couldn't smell pumpkins by law days from starbucks after my shooting without like breaking down or i couldn't eat greek yogurt for years. that's it. that's what trauma i have to. i've met one other person that has a similar one and maybe you guys do too. when i get triggered for a day or 2 afterward, i actually see bodies out of the corner. my me because that's what i saw when i was running out of the school. not like a full bo mike hallucination or anything. it's just like i like. right? so the survivors everyday occurrences can take them back to the day they wish they could forget me. just to, to take

a 2nd breath came in canada, victory because he got through one more center and and he didn't freak out. he said to me, it ask questions. when you guys talk about the kind of triggering, how long do you think your brain might be rewired? that way? forever changed. you have to undo it, and it takes a lot of work. it's really hard. like, yeah, i started the r 3 times very large and i wrote down every trigger that i ever had. and i had to cones, 2 pages of art through every single trigger. i'm working with final 2 balloons. these triggers are exacerbated by news of other mess, shootings which these days can be hard to escape me,

but the survivors say the staying connected with one another makes all the difference. we tend to think try as a tuesday and something you're never going to get over. but if you take it small steps at a time, you can get over it and make in the earlier years. it's like a one step forward, 2 steps back type of scenario. now my steps back are shorter. in a way, i almost feel really awful for the people that it's happening to now because they don't get the coverage, the other shootings get and that's really minimising for someone to experience when your shooting is out of the news cycle within a week. what does that feel like as a survivor? that feels like i should be over this society is moving on, but the people who are impacted art and then the struggle sometimes or even works

on your want. i'll take one that's the last time i got from chris asking me to buy him a piece. and i didn't see it till 10 o'clock at night. i ended up buying them in the picture and i was sitting at the table eaten when i went to then i will show it to the box. me quit working as it can do customer service, village people. there's a lot of smiling in families walking in with their kids and or have any more clerical behind the scenes lot the facing want like i used to be in this is my new normal and it's a sad nor more empty normal. you never think your child ever get away from you.

you know, it's different when you have an illness and you prepare for it. but not when you think about your son and the day before and your body was pete. so you to think like the, it's a bond that nobody wants to share. but there's so many of us that have this connection all over the country. and we should be connecting phone, the music we listen to, or it the cars that we like or regular teenage thing. but we're connecting because of gun violence in i

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