at the map new, but it was a is at the map now, but it was a little cold and chilly when i got up in the small hours of this morning, and yet you are telling us is going to be glorious sunshine, what is happening? this is early on in the highland, plenty of snow, back on the mountains there, a bit of snow further south and as parts of wales, milder weather is on the way to get there, we have to pay a bit of a price, with strengthening wings —— went to night, outbreaks of rain as well. 5060 miles an hour of winter, across scotland and northern ireland, but with heavy rain at times. ten or ii ireland, but with heavy rain at times. ten or 11 degrees after a brighter day, but south east england it will stay dry. temperatures tomorrow morning are higher than this morning, around five or nine celsius. tomorrow morning, we start with some sunshine in scotland, it will cloud over, the extensive outbreaks of rain as well, and lots of cloud elsewhere. afternoon sunshine in the south, not as much of the day, but we'll see that rain

a bit in the morning, and late afternoon in wales and northern parts of england. everybody will be a windy day tomorrow, with winds of 40 a windy day tomorrow, with winds of a0 miles an hour, but is increasingly mild, with temperatures getting to around 16 or 17 degrees in eastern england and into tuesday. i will have more in half an hour. hello this is bbc news. the headlines... coronavirus restrictions are stepped up in parts of europe, as a third wave of infections kicks in. in the uk, covid boosterjabs may be available as early as september with the over—seventies and front—line health workers first in line. security forces in myanmar are reported to have shot dead at least 20 people protesting against the military coup, after a show of force from the army. "a mob intent on violence". the uk prime minister criticises protesters, who police say threw bricks during a third night of demos in bristol. lockdown eases in wales —

the first uk nation to lift travel restrictions within its borders. now on bbc news... hospitaland home: our lives... in this highly personal bbc news documentary four university southampton hospital staff explain the impact of the last year on their work and home lives. there were some days when you had to verify death after death and it was really hard to detach from it. when you are alone, your thoughts just come back to you and there are no other things of focus on.

it is just you and your thoughts in an empty house by yourself. if i could sum it up in one word, the word that comes to mind would be "guilt". i have had a lot of mum guilt and a lot of professional guilt. it was a very weird experience when the ambulance took me to my own workplace and my own work colleagues were looking after me. but also it was very reassuring knowing that the best possible people would take care of me. the last year, both personallyl and professionally, it has been a completely different year. covid has taught me to be more supportive with each other - and kindness, kindness, kindness _ a year of high stress.

has he opened his eyes for you this morning? every patient that comes through the door, you don't know how they are going to be or how quickly they are going to deteriorate. we love every patient that we have in our care, like if they were our own. i love them like they are my relative. and i care for them how i would want my own to be loved. that is what we do in icu. and sometimes that is why they come home with us. and then you come home at the end of 1a hour days, and "wait, no, don't touch me or hug me" to the people you just want to melt into because you have to go upstairs and scrub your body. the children would get

into the habit of then asking me is it safe to cuddle you. my first day working on g9 and this is a covid ward. most of these people have been stepped down from icu or new patients who have covid. being made to start in the middle of a pandemic and having to learn on the job and having to adapt to a new city and a new culture, that has taught me so much and i have learned so quickly. keep the elbow straight for me. do you know why you're in hospital? it is like a new first beginning that has been quite difficult and a lot of anxiety going into the newjob. all done. as doctors, we are kinda redeployed whenever they're needed in terms of covid. we change wards all the time. we work on different teams. we don't know who our bosses are some days and we don't

know who the nurses are. but it's been more tiring just mentally having to deal with a lot of covid patients and more deaths than you normally would ever expect in the start of your doctor career. it's been a completely different year. one i would never like to live through again but one i have learned to manage and cope. we had 15 deaths in two weeks. we would normally have maybe five in a year. so for the team, that is quite hard. i think we all knew what was going to come. if you have any knowledge of medicine, you kind of half expected it to be like this. i think it is the severity of the second wave that was more scary because it is so random. be kind, that is my mantra for the year. it is very hard to be kind at times when you are under a lot of stress, changes are happening in your

professional life, you are not always happy about it, it is very hard to maintain that kindness, but it is very important to maintain that kindness. it is important that you are coming onto the ward and that we recognise and we can talk to you and you can provide support for us. sometimes they may have seen in a day during covid _ the number of deaths they might normally see perhaps _ over a year 01' even two. so a lot of nurses are kind of dealing with patients i they wouldn't normally deal with in all sorts of - situations they wouldn't normally deal with. - it gets painful at times i and i think we often feel the pain of the staff. we have lost a porter, we have lost a couple of nurses, - and i think everybody feels that pain, even if we - didn't know that person. because it feels i like it is part of our family who has died. are you allergic to anything?

i was tested positive for covid—19. it was a very weird experience when the ambulance took me to my own workplace and my own colleagues were looking after me. that was quite a scary experience, especially looking at the screen, at the monitor, understanding exactly what those numbers mean. every moment felt like an eternity. it was so obvious that my lungs were heavily affected. the leading consultant called my wife telling her that the chances of me surviving this whole procedure is only a0%. i had way much more chances to leave the hospital in a body bag rather than on my own feet. my wife, my boys, had to go through those very dark hours of me being in the hospital,

being very sick and at the brink of losing my life. it terrifies me. it was a really dark time and almost undescribable mixture of hope and despair and to be honest, i was constantly pleading with god, so i was just pleading and reasoning and ijust couldn't let him go. i couldn't let my husband go. after 35 years, i said he is too young, he is too precious, the love of my life. my boys, i know they are adults now but they need him. who's going to be the winner today?

my little soldier. he has been through the wars. my most challenging moments are in my social life. personal life. yeah. because at work you put on that uniform and you have that persona, people work with you, you work with people. you have that support network. because of my work and the fact that i have got links with the covid patients, i've kept away from everybody. i don't get to see my family. they are all local, and i haven't seen my mum since before christmas. or my dad. my children, haven't seen them and my grandchildren i haven't seen. the saddest thing that comes to mind, my granddaughter�*s birthday was in december, and we were locked down, but we were allowed to go to the house and we knocked on the front door, but she had to keep a part, the present

was put on the floor, and then i took a step back, and then she came forward and picked it up, there was no hugs or kisses. words, but that was really sad. i think that was the saddest part of my covid experience in my personal life. graham and i are very close. in the last year, it has brought us closer because we were working together, so a lot of our free time is just us two. i think it has been good for us. was i going to be bringing it home to my family? what fraction of that shape is shaded? good job. am i going to be good enough at teaching them when i am at home? george says the number is pointing to one half. so for the last 12 months,

there has been an urgent need to step up for my profession. but then everything else around us has fallen apart as well. and mummy is so tired that she can barely string two sentences together, so i felt that i was this dreadful parent who didn't have the energy to do anything and there's been an awful lot of time where genuinely, if i didn't have the boys and my husband to prepare a meal for at the end of the day, i probably would've just poured a bowl of cereal and then gone back to bed because it is just so tiring. let's have a runabout. there have been periods of time

where ijust had to put social media down because people say the most awful things on social media. and that's always in the back of your mind. and everybody is so cross about the nhs is underfunded, but that's not what we've been thinking about. we have been thinking about patients in the beds, my husband's had to sit and just hold me while i cry and worry, and i don't normally do that. i normally come home to my babies and we live our life to the full because i know that it could be taken away from you tomorrow. i get about 30, 40 minutes on the bus, i think that it's time to myself really, not having to worry about patients on that bus, it isjust me thinking about what i will get to do

for myself, if i do some exercise or go home and watch some tv, like the feeling of leaving work is quite nice on the bus and thinking i'm on the way home now, trying not to think about what has just happened at work. i feel safe at home. it is my place. i can do whatever i want. there is no one around me. but on the other hand, sometimes i go home and it is quite lonely. going home to a flat by yourself, there's no one there, just being by yourself the whole night and thinking about doing the same thing again tomorrow and for the rest of the week and the next few months until lockdown is over. i think it is quite difficult, especially when you don't have a social life. there is nothing to take your mind off of work. you get home and i live alone so it isjust me thinking about work. the most i can do is call some friends and speak about it, call my family. hey, mum. it's been fine. pretty worried over- the situation over there. what have you been doing?

pretty much nothing as usual. just exercising. watching tv. nothing really. if you were here i could give you a hug and feed you. - all the food. we have been worried i about you and knowing, we have been hearing so much about the situation in the uk, i so please, please take care. especially since you're - on the front line and you go into the covid ward. we do worry that no one. is there to look after you. we have to trust you, right? even though i say that, you know i'm worried. i we are proud of you. 0k? bye. those days and weeks while i was in hospital,

all my work family has turned into blood family, simply because the connection and support was so close. i decided to stand up from the wheelchair and to salute them as a sign of respect and as a sign of gratitude towards everything they have done for me and my family. i can't even describe it, how good it was to get home, to be honest. every day is a gift from god. every day is a miracle. there is no hours passing by when i am around laszlo not to be reminded what a miracle that he is with us. steady. go. i cannot really describe how

much it means to be alive, how much it means to have a second chance, how much it means to see those faces that you love the most. i think going through such an experience is kind of like appreciating everything that we have, rather than looking to the things that we don't have. yes. when you were gravely ill, i would've given anything and everything. our house, even my life, just to get you back. i was saying let me die and let him live. that's just what i wanted, in that situation, want your loved one back. no matter what. and here i am. here you are. thank god. is that the first time having this procedure? you know what to expect then. to be honest, ifeel so

privileged to be back to work. it feels good to do what i do best. i will be next to you during the procedure. seeing things from the other side of the hospital bed, i think it made me more empathetic. i kind of put myself into my patient�*s shoes way much better. having you back amongst us, now working again after you have been unwell with covid is such an inspiring story for everyone. and i think it gave the whole uhs family an uplift and it was a good new story that everybody needed to be able to carry on after this sort of difficult time with the first wave, and now the second wave, because people are getting tired, but stories like yours just make us keep going.

it has been grueling, it has been felt at times like a battle that is never ending. people are tired. there is a sense that this has been going on and is still going on, we have patients in critical care and inpatients who are positive with covid in our beds. so it is still ongoing, it has felt quite hard to pull ourselves out after dealing with wave one and feeling that sense of relief and then hitting wave three, and actually that being worse than wave one. so we are going to need to make sure that every individual who works for us has had

a well—being conversation. there are people who might have posttraumatic stress as to what they have witnessed and need psychological support and others mightjust need support of a buddy or mentor. inclined to grab a coffee? let's have a coffee. do you want a posh coffee? the morning huddles. that we have every day, they allow me to catch up, just to make sure that - everybody is all right. notjust mentally, i but if they need any help around the ward. i bought one for you. with your sweetner in. i did bring some. there's a spare coffee. help yourself. it is really important - to look after your mental health and the team. everybody 0k? you haven't got your buddy at the moment because - she is not very well?

i miss lisa. at the end of the day, - we need to look for support and if you can't get it face—to—face with - the family, you need i to look at other areas. covid, i think, has- changed the way that we work in the hospital. and i'm hoping not to go back to how we were. i i think we are more conscious. that we need to be more talking to the patients and talking to each other, talking - to the team, i think we have learned that from covid - more than anything. that supporting each other, being there for each other. i still very much the efficient nurse that i've always been. i've always liked to think of myself as a role model at work from a professional standpoint. i think the pandemic has taught me to role model in a different way at work in that i have started

to show when i'm not ok. where as i don't think i did that before. i don't think i've had any choice but to stand up and say, "i haven't been 0k." the days when there are just lots of covid deaths, it made me feel very hopeless. and that after all this training, we think about going into thejob, being able to save lives and help people, get better, but all he you can do isjust, there was nothing else you could do. you just see death after death. it is really hard to then think about yourself after seeing so many deaths that you end up and i end up worrying about my family and other people that i know who have covid and it is really hard to take time for myself to think about my own mental health and how i can detach from it. i try to speak to someone and tell them how my feeling, especially my mum. and try to do things for myself, do a work—out, do some mindfulness, take time off and not think about what has just happened at work. during the recovery process,

what i found was talking about my experience and not bottling it up, i took proper time to chat with as many people as possible. it helped me so much in recovering mentally, psychologically and emotionally. and not having any side effects, not experiencing any thing negative as a result of this experience, clearly, talking about it has helped me to recover even much faster. there are, at southampton, some of the most extraordinary people that i have ever come across. everybody just worked

like this well oiled machine. you just look at them when you are working under extreme pressure and they really are magnificent. it can be the worst shift that you ever had, or the best day you've ever had, but ultimately, you all have the same goal, you all will do your best and we all have laughs and tears, but we are all in it together. i am not the real hero in this story. the real heroes are the people who never gave up on me, including my wife, my kids, my work family, members of my church, all the neighbours, everyone who was supporting us in an extraordinary way. i think i have achieved a lot. i think i have learned so much, and to think that i've actually been a part of this pandemic and being able to help patients makes me feel quite proud

of what i do and that five years of medical school did pay off, being able to help in this sort of time. one of things i've learned in the past year is that. you appreciate each other, because you never know. what is going to happen around the corner. - what i'm looking forward to most when the lockdown restrictions are lifted is definitely meeting people outside of work, getting to know them, becoming friends with them, and you know, developing a social life in southampton, which is a new place for me. i'm looking forward to what the future holds in terms of career progression, it only go better from here, really. you can do it. laughter. we have all been home—schooling for children that don't want to learn and we've all been trying to work from home and we've all been absolutely exhausted

and missing people that we adore, notjust the nurses. i think for every mum, dad, human being in the country, we need to start getting back to normality. ready for the summer? in the next few months, i am looking forward to going to see my family in their own homes and having a cup of tea with my mum out and my special mug and going on holiday. not necessarily sunshine, but definitely to see friends abroad. that is what i can't wait to see. we are not dreaming of sandy. beaches, 5—star accommodations or all—inclusive, we just really want to see our l family and our parents. that will be probably - the biggest gift of lifting of the lockdown measures. i am a hugger. and i can't wait to hug...

i can't wait to hug my family. good afternoon. it is something around ten or 11 degrees out there this afternoon. this is eastern england, just a short while ago in kent. in northern ireland, look at

the different colour in the skies. this is a sign of things changing. many western areas will see skies this colour this afternoon. with that, as we go into this evening, we expect to see some rain and strengthening winds. widespread gales could see 50 to 60 mph over the uk. bouts of heavy rain will push its way eastwards. it will not be quite as chilly as last night with temperatures between five and 9 degrees. a bright start in scotland— make the most of it, because relentless rain will be pushing into western scotland as we go through the afternoon. a damp start in northern ireland and parts of wales and the midlands. in the east, it should stay dry with some breaks in the cloud and some sunshine. it will be a windy day with winds gusting over a0 mph. temperatures between 16 and 70 degrees in —— 16 and 17 degrees in eastern parts of england.

i'm rebecca jones with the latest headlines... covid boosterjabs may be available as early as september, with the over—705 and front—line health workers first in line. lockdown eases in wales — the first uk nation to lift travel restrictions within its borders. the mp kenny macaskill announces he is quitting the snp to stand for alex salmond's new party at the holyrood election. security forces in myanmar are reported to have shot dead at least 20 people protesting against the military coup, after a show of force from the army. the japanese owner of the giant container ship blocking egypt's suez canal has said an effort will be made

to free the vessel by saturday night, japan time.