the headlines for you: french president emmanuel macron has announced a new four—week national lockdown from saturday. he said all but essential shops would close and home working should again become the norm. checks will he stepped up to stop public gatherings. cases have doubled since february to nearly 40,000 a day. 0n the third day of the trial of the white police officer accused of killing george floyd, prosecutors have played cctv of mr floyd in may last year, shortly before his death. footage also showed mr floyd repeatedly pleaded with officers not to shoot him. the white officer, derek chauvin, has pleaded not guilty. and in an interview with bbc news, the new director—general of the world trade organization has urged pharmaceutical companies to manufacture enough covid vaccine for everyone in the world, or to voluntarily hand over the technology behind their medicines to developing countries to make it.

it is just past 130am —— 1:30am. now on bbc news, in this highly personal bbc news documentary, four university southampton hospital staff explain the impact of the last year on their work and home lives. there were some days when you had to verify death after death and it was really hard to detach from it. when you are alone, you know, your thoughts just come back to you and there are no other things of focus on. it's just you and your thoughts in an empty house by yourself. if i could sum it up in one word, the word that comes to mind would be "guilt". i have had a lot of mum guilt and a lot of professional guilt. it was a very weird experience

when the ambulance took me to my own workplace and my own work colleagues were looking after me but also, it was very reassuring knowing that the best possible people will take care of me. the last year, both personallyl and professionally, it has been a completely different year. covid has taught me to be more supportive with each other - and kindness, - kindness, kindness. contemplative music a year of high stress. has he opened his eyes for you this morning? every patient that comes through the door, you don't know how they're going to be and how quickly they're going to deteriorate. how are you doing?

ugh. what's going on this morning? we love every patient that we have in our care, like they're our own. can you have a big cough for me? uh... i love them like they are my relatives and i care for them how i would want my own to be loved. that's what we do in icu. and sometimes, that's why they come home with us. yeah? and then you come home at the end of a 14—hour day, and "wait. no, don't touch me or hug me," to the people you just want to melt into, because you have to go upstairs and scrub your body. are you all coming to sit with me? we'll do it together, then. 0k. the children would get into the habit of then asking me "is it safe to cuddle you, mummy?" 49, 50! my first day working on g9, and this is a covid ward. and most of these people have

been stepped down from itu or new patients who have covid. they were saying it would be good if we could take some bloods, but i cannot find covid antibodies on a test. being made to start in the middle of a pandemic and having to learn on the job and having to adapt to a new city and a new culture, that's taught me so much and i have learned so quickly. alright, keep the elbow straight for me. do you know why you're in hospital? yeah, covid. it's like a new first day at work again — that has been quite difficult and a lot of anxiety going into the newjob. there you go. all done. as doctors, we are kind of redeployed whenever they're needed in terms of covid. we change wards all the time, we work on different teams, we don't know who our bosses are some days and we don't know who the nurses are, but it's been more tiring just mentally, just having to deal with a lot of covid patients and a lot of death — more deaths than you normally would ever expect in the start of your doctor career. it's been a completely different year, one i'd never like to live through again but one i have learnt to manage and cope. yes. he's going home

today, isn't he? yeah, he is! we had 15 deaths in two weeks. we would normally have maybe five in a year. so for the team, that is quite hard. ready, steady, slide. i think we all knew what was going to come. if you have any knowledge of medicine, you kind of half expected it to be like this. i think it's the severity of the second wave that was more scary, because it's so random. "be kind" — that's my mantra for the year. it's very hard to be kind at times, when you are under a lot of stress, um, changes are happening in your professional life, you're not always happy about it. it's very hard to maintain that kindness, but it's very important to maintain that kindness. it is important that you are coming onto the ward and that we recognise that and we can talk to you and you can provide support for us.

sometimes, you know, - they may have seen in a day during covid, the number of deaths that they might normally see perhaps i over a year or even two. so, a lot of nurses are kind of dealing with patients - that they wouldn't normally deal with, and all sorts - of situations that they- wouldn't normally deal with. it gets painful at times. and — and i think we often feel the pain of the staff. we've lost a porter, we've lost a couplel of nurses, and i think- everybody feels that pain, even if we didn't i know that person. because it feels like i it is part of our family who's died. first of all, can you just confirm are you allergic to anything? i was tested positive for covid—i9. it was a very weird experience when the ambulance took me to my own workplace and my own work colleagues were looking after me. that was quite a scary experience, especially looking at the screen, at the monitor, understanding exactly what those number means. every moment felt

like an eternity. it was so obvious that my lung is heavily affected. the leading consultant called my wife, telling her that the chances of me surviving this whole procedure is only a0%. i had way, much more chances to leave the hospital in a body bag, rather than on my own feet. my wife, my boys, had to go through those very dark hours of me being in the hospital, being very, very sick and at the brink of losing my life. ah, it terrifies me. it was a really, really dark, dark time and almost indescribable mixture of hope and despair.

and, to be honest, i was constantly pleading with god, so i was just pleading and reasoning and ijust couldn't let him go, i couldn't let my husband go. 35 years, i said he's too young. he's too precious. love of my life. my boys, i know they are adults now, but they need him. who's going to be the winner today? yes! ah! my little soldier, because he's been through the wars. my most challenging moments are in my social life, personal life, yeah. because at work, you put on that uniform, you have that persona — people work with you, you work with people,

you have that support network. because of my work and the fact that i have got links with the covid patients, i've kept away from everybody. i don't get to see my family. they're all local, and i haven't seen my mum since before christmas, or my dad. my children, i haven't seen, and my grandchildren, i haven't seen. the saddest thing that comes to mind, it was my granddaughter�*s birthday was in december and we were locked down but we were allowed to go to the house. and we knocked on the front door, but she had to keep apart. the present was put on the floor and then i took a step back and then she came forward and picked it up. there was no hugs, no kisses. words, but, um, that — that was really sad. that, yeah — that, i think, is was the saddest part of my covid experience in my personal life. what are we going to

have in here, gray? graham and i are very close. in the last year, it's brought us closer because we were working together, so a lot of our free time is just us two, so i think that's been good for us. was i going to be bringing it home to my family? how many? 0ne quarter. good job! am i going to be good enough at teaching them when i am at home? "george says the number is pointing to one half..." so, for the last 12 months, there has been an urgent need to step up for my profession. and — but then, everything else around us has fallen apart as well. and mummy is so tired that she can barely string two

sentences together. laughter so, i felt that i was this dreadful parent who didn't have the energy to do anything. and there's been an awful lot of time where genuinely, if i didn't have the boys and my husband to prepare a meal for me at the end of the day, i probably would've just poured a bowl of cereal and then gone back to bed, because it isjust so tiring. you have been ever so good, mate. but let's have a runabout. it's either walk or more home learning. there have been periods of time where i have just had to put social media down because people say the most awful things on social media. she sniffles and that's always in the back of your mind. but that's not what we've

been thinking about. we've been thinking about patients in the beds. my husband's had to sit and just hold me while i cry and worry, and i don't normally do that. i normally come home and i come home to my babies and we live our life to the full, because i know that it could be taken away from me tomorrow. i get about 30, a0 minutes on the bus, i think that it's just the time to myself really, not having to worry about patients on that bus, it's just me thinking about what i will get to do for myself. you know, if i do some exercise or go home and watch some tv, like the feeling of leaving work is quite nice on the bus and just thinking, i'm on the way home now, trying not to think about what's just happened at work. i feel safe at home.

i can do whatever i want. there's no one around me. but on the other hand, sometimes i go home and it is quite lonely. you know, going home to a flat to yourself, there's no—one there, just being by yourself the whole night and then thinking about doing the same thing again tomorrow and for the rest of the week and the next few months until lockdown�*s over. tv: a nice squat... i think it's quite difficult, especially when you don't have a social life. there's nothing to take your mind off of work. you get home and i live alone so it is just me thinking about work. the most i can do is call some friends and speak about it, call my family. hey, mum. hello. how are you? alright. it's been alright. yeah, pretty worried over the situation over there. i so, what have you been doing? pretty much nothing as usual. watching tv. just exercising. nothing, really. mm. wish you were here i could give you a hug and feed you. - right? with all the food. sure, we have been worried about you and definitely -

knowing, we've been hearing so much about the situation. in the uk. so, please, please take care. especially since you're - on the frontline and you do go into the covid ward. we do worry that should - you fall sick, no—one is in uk to look after you. we have to trust you, right? but even though i say that, you know i'm worried. - 0k? mm? so, we are proud of you. 0k? bye— bye. applause those days and weeks while i was in hospital, all my work family has turned into blood family, simply because the connection and support was so close. i decided to stand up from the wheelchair and to salute them as a sign of respect and as a sign of gratitude towards everything

that they have done for me and my family. i can't even describe it, how good it was to get home, to be honest. every day is a gift from god. every day is a miracle. there is no hours passing by when i am around laszlo not to be reminded what a miracle that he is with us. steady. go. i can't really describe how much it means to be alive, how much it means to have a second chance, how much it means to see those faces that you love the most. i think going through such an experience is kind of like appreciating everything that we have, rather than looking to the things that we don't have. yes. when you were gravely ill, i would've given anything and everything.

our house, even my life, just to get you back. i was saying let me die and let him live. that's just what i wanted, in that situation, want your loved one back. no matter what. and here i am. here you are. thank god. is that the first time having this procedure? have you had it before? i've had it about 20 times. you know what to expect then. to be honest, ifeel so privileged to be back to work. it feels good to do what i do best. i will be next to you during the procedure. seeing things from the other side of the hospital bed, i think it made me more empathetic. i kind of put myself into my patient�*s shoes way much better. having you back amongst us, now working again after you've

been unwell with covid is such an inspiring story for everyone. and i think it gave the whole uhs family an uplift and it was a good news story that everybody needed to be able to carry on after this sort of difficult time with the first wave, and now the second wave, because people are getting tired, but stories like yours just make us keep going. it's been gruelling, it's been felt at times like a battle that is never ending. people are tired.

there is a sense that this has been going on and is still going on, we've still got patients in critical care and inpatients who are positive with covid in our beds. so it's still ongoing. it's felt quite hard to pull ourselves out after dealing with wave one, feeling that sense of relief and then hitting wave three, and actually that being worse than wave one. so we're going to need to make sure that every individual who works for us has had a well—being conversation. there are people who might have post—traumatic stress as to what they have witnessed and need psychological support and others mightjust need support of a buddy or mentor. inclined to grab a coffee?

let's have a coffee. do you want a posh coffee? 0oh, i'd love a posh one. the morning huddles. that we have every day, they allow me to catch up, just to make sure that - everybody is all right. notjust mentally, - but if they need any help around the ward. i bought one for you. with your sweetener in. thank you. i did bring some. there's a spare coffee. please go and help yourself. it's really important to look after your mental health i ina team. everybody 0k? you haven't got your buddyl at the moment because she is not very well? i miss lisa. at the end of the day, - we all need to look for support and if you can't get it - face—to—face with your family, you need to look at other areas. l covid, ! think, has changed the way that we work- in the hospital. and i'm hoping not to go back to how we were. i i think we're more conscious - that we need to be more talking to the patients, talking to each other, talking i

to the team, i think we've learned that from covid i more than anything. that supporting each other, being there for each other. i yeah, so i've got a shared care in numbertwo... i'm still very much the efficient nurse that i've always been. i've always liked to think of myself as a role model at work from a professional standpoint. i think the pandemic has taught me to role model in a different way at work, in that i have started to show when i'm not ok. whereas i don't think i did that before. i don't think i've had any choice but to stand up and say, "i haven't been 0k." the days when there are just lots of covid deaths, itjust made me feel very hopeless. and that after all this training, we think about going into thejob, being able to save lives being able to help people get better, but all he you can do is just, there was nothing

else you could do. you just see death after death. it's really hard to then think about yourself after seeing so many deaths that you end up and i end up worrying about my family and other people that i know that have covid and it's really hard to take time for myself to think about my own mental health and how i can detach from it. i try to speak to someone and tell them how my feeling, especially my mum. and try to do things for myself, do a work—out, try to do some mindfulness, try to take time off and not think about what has just happened at work. during the recovery process, what i found was talking about my experience and not bottling it up, i took proper time to chat with as many people as possible. it helped me so much in recovering mentally, psychologically and emotionally. and not having any side effects, not experiencing any thing negative as a result

of this experience. clearly, talking about it has helped me to recover even much faster. there are, at southampton, some of the most extraordinary people that i have ever come across. everybody just worked like this well—oiled machine. you just look at them when you are working under extreme pressure and they really are magnificent. it can be the worst shift that you ever had, or the best day you've ever had, but ultimately, you've all got the same goal, you're all going to do your best and we all have laughs

and tears, but we are all in it together. i'm not a real hero in this story. the real heroes are the people who never gave up on me, including my wife, my kids, my work family, members of my church, all the neighbours, everyone who was supporting us in an extraordinary way. i think i've achieved a lot. i think i've learned so much, and to think that i've actually been a part of this pandemic and being able to help patients makes me feel quite proud of what i do and that five years of medical school did pay off, being able to help in this sort of time. one of things i've learned in the past year is that. you appreciate each other, because you never know. what is going to happen

around the corner. - what i'm looking forward to most when the lockdown restrictions are lifted is definitely meeting people outside of work, getting to know them, becoming friends with them, and you know, developing a social life in southampton, which is a new place for me. i'm looking forward to what the future holds in terms of career progression, it only go better from here, really. you can do it. laughter. we've all been home—schooling children that don't want to learn and we've all been trying to work from home and we've all been absolutely exhausted and missing people that we adore, notjust the nurses. i think for every mum, dad, human being in the country, we need to start getting back to normality. ready for the summer? in the next few months, i am looking forward to going to see my family in their own homes and having

a cup of tea with my mum out and my special mug and going on holiday. not necessarily sunshine, but definitely to see friends abroad. that's what i can't wait to see. we are not dreaming of sandy. beaches, 5—star accommodations or all—inclusive, we just - really want to see our family and our parents. that's going to be probably the biggest gift of lifting i of the lockdown measures. i am a hugger. and i can't wait to hug... i can't wait to hug my family.

hello there. despite there being more cloud around across southern britain on wednesday, we still manage to make highs of 2a celsius in the sunny spells across the far south—east. for today, though, it is cooler and fresher for most areas, here we have the warmth just holding on for one more day, but this area of high pressure with its chillier air starts to topple in from the north—west. that breeze will be noticeable across the north sea coast, feeding in quite a bit of cloud here. elsewhere, though, we should see the clouds breaking up to allow for plenty of sunshine. probably the best

of the sunshine, again, will be across this south—west corner. we change the wind direction, though, that north—easterly, like i mentioned, cool down the east coast. it will be a different feeling wind from the warm southerlies which we've had over the last few days. so temperatures struggling to get above 7—9 celsius across the north sea coast. 16—20 celsius, though, in the south—west — that's where we will have the last of the warmth. but that warmth ebbs away through thursday night, and into friday morning. the cold air is with most of us, and we will actually see some frost, particularly for the far north of england and in toward scotland. low single digits for the rest of england and wales. 0ur area of high pressure though really builds in, for friday. so there will be a lot of dry and settled weather, but it is chillier air blowing down on a north or north—easterly wind, and again, that north—easterly wind will feed in more cloud to northern and eastern parts of the uk. so it's staying rather chilly and grey here. with more shelter to the south and the west, this is where we will see the best of the sunshine. so, temperatures into the afternoon could reach 12 or 13 celsius, 9 or 10 celsius closer to the east. these temperatures actually closer to the seasonal average.

through friday night, though, it's going to be a colder one for most with the widespread frost, particularly central, northern and western areas. now, as we move into the easter weekend, although high pressure will bring a lot of dry and settled weather, it will feel cold, and then as we head on into easter monday, we will see a real arctic blast which will bring some wintry showers to our shores as well. so our area of high pressure dominates for saturday and sunday, then allows this low—pressure to sweep down from the north through sunday into easter monday. and that will open the floodgates to the arctic, a much colder blast of air than what we will have for the start of the weekend. and like i mentioned, that will be feeding in some snow showers, mainly to northern and western coasts on monday. but temperatures will still reach the low teens celsius with the sunshine on saturday and sunday.

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