being allowed out of bad and if as being allowed out of bad and if you lost weight you would lose the privileges. some of the care you received was brutal. oh, yeah. in that you were threatened or you were shouted at. a nurse would be up to your face shouting at you, threatening that they would force feed you? yeah. or there was one nurse in another hospital who used to, when we would be fighting and saying we didn't want to eat, she would wrap her arm around you, hold your arms down and just literally force you to eat. and there's one time when i was having a seizure at the table and she was about to start doing that to me because she thought i was faking to get out of eating, and fortunately another nurse intervened. i don't want to be damning all the nurses. it wasn't entirely like one flew over the cuckoo's nest, but there was a lot of brutality and a lot of shouting. and in this period you managed to do gcse in a short period of time. you managed to do a—levels, you managed to gain a place at oxford. how? by luck, really. i was very lucky. my parents were able to pay for me to go to a grammar school which let

you do gcses back then in three months. and they would bring me my schoolwork on the weekends and i would do it and they would bring it back and i did it that way. and it is without a doubt the thing that saved me and it was my therapist at the time who insisted i do that. the psychiatrist i had at the first hospital i was in insisted we all dropped out of school to focus on our recovery, which was another common theory at the time. and that would have been disastrous for me. by keeping up with my schoolwork, i always had a small eye on the outside world as much as i tried to block it out, so my whole world wasn't anorexia. the other girls i was in hospital with who were about my age or a bit older, who dropped out, it set back their recovery years and in some cases they didn't recover at all. was there a point where you thought, i don't want to still be living like this when i'm in my thirties? so it was, i think on my eighth admission and i was in this nhs psychiatric ward and the woman across the table from me was having a big temper tantrum, for want of a better term, about her toast, because she felt there was more butter on her toast

than on other people's toast, which was a very common source of rancour at our table. and she had just had her 32nd birthday. and there was a moment ijust looked at her and thought, i don't want to be having temper tantrums about toast when i'm 32. why do you think 90% of anorexics are female? girls express unhappiness through their bodies. that's kind of a truism. that's why the majority of anorexics are female. of bulimic are female. it's why so many girls cut themselves. you talked about what society expects of young girls and the effects it had a new and others. what has to change in society? a huge question. it is a huge question, and it's notjust about society. it is also how girls just internalise things. but yes, this expectation that women and girls are always pretty, that they don't upset anyone, they don't hurt anyone's feelings, that they must couch their demands in very gentle ways,

that they don't make demands at all. girls and women are humans as well. just sitting now i'm thinking about how i look on tv. but the first thing people see is how you look and thatis thing people see is how you look and that is allowed instrument. does that come from _ that is allowed instrument. does that come from parents, - that is allowed instrument. does that come from parents, from i that come from parents, from teachers? does it come from within? it comes from everywhere. grandparents would say he had good little girl or a mother would say to her daughter i do not want you to grow up, you are my cute little girl so the message is always stay little, stay pleasing. in the movie pretty woman the woman has no desire of her own, it is all decided by the

man and she isjust like of her own, it is all decided by the man and she is just like a of her own, it is all decided by the man and she isjust like a mannequin to be dressed up. we can laugh at it now but it was the biggest romcom of all time and that is still a very addictive idea to a lot of men and two women as well that you're just there to be looked at and controlled by men. what advice would you give to the parents of girls and boys with anorexia? get medical help as soon as possible. the earlier the intervention comes, the better chance for recovery there is. and don't make your relationship with them just about food and anorexia. it is all they're going to want to talk about. but that is not what your relationship should be with them. keep talking to them about what they're missing in the outside world, what their siblings are doing, what their school friends are doing. just keep reminding them there is a world out there that is not about calories and cutting back. is it possible to live a fulfilling and happy life having had anorexia? well, i think so. you know, i was as severe as you can be. and doctors told my mother, you know, to prepare for my death

and that there was a strong, strong chance i would never recover. and i haven't been in hospital since i was 17 years old, in 1996. you know, i went on to university. i have a job i love. i have three children. i don't think anybody would look at me and think that i was some wastrel from a hospital. hadley freeman, thank you very much for talking to newsnight. thank you. if you are affected by anything in that interview — help and support are available at bbc.co.uk/actionline. that's all from us tonight. kirsty�*s here tomorrow. goodbye.

we have heard comments already, haven't we, from the commissioner of human rights who said that he was horrified by the incident and he described it as a blatant disregard for the rules of international law. but we have heard of these sorts of comments before from un officials and nothing changes. what are you expecting this time around, i suppose? expecting this time around, i surmise?— expecting this time around, i su ose? , ., , suppose? very little. you rightly said that un _ suppose? very little. you rightly said that un has _ suppose? very little. you rightly said that un has made _ suppose? very little. you rightly said that un has made several. said that un has made several statements with their dismay, their horror, their disappointment, but very little has changed on the ground. the rating seem to be quite

comfortable where they are. united nations security council need to decide something. but the regime is comfortable but they have some buffer friends within the un security council like china and russia. �* ,., security council like china and russia. �* ., ., ., security council like china and russia. ., ., ., , , russia. and so going forward -- yes, as ou russia. and so going forward -- yes, as you point — russia. and so going forward -- yes, as you point out. _ russia. and so going forward -- yes, as you point out, it _ russia. and so going forward -- yes, as you point out, it looks _ russia. and so going forward -- yes, as you point out, it looks like - russia. and so going forward -- yes, as you point out, it looks like an - as you point out, it looks like an intractable situation. going forward, what is your sense of what might happen here? the forward, what is your sense of what might happen here?— forward, what is your sense of what might happen here? the reaching will continue because _ might happen here? the reaching will continue because both _ might happen here? the reaching will continue because both sides - might happen here? the reaching will continue because both sides vowed i might happen here? the reaching will continue because both sides vowed to the other. regine chief last month vowed that they will crush, because they blamed the opposition as always. and they claimed that they needed to bring back the country and bring back the stability. but the opposition side also know that the regine, the they have to crush it. both sides claim that 2023 would be a decisive year for them. both sides claim that 2023 would be

a decisive yearfor them. so both sides claim that 2023 would be a decisive year for them. so we would see that the fighting became more intense in coming months. editor of the b buried service. thank you forjoining us on the programme. around the world and across the uk. this is bbc news. it started in a pub. as often these things do a bit of banter between three men and they were arguing about who was fitter than who. and they said, well, get a bag of coal on your back and i'll raise you from the royal oak to the maple green. and thus was born the world coal carrying championships. i'm 76.

it's a bit emotional now, but, you know, actually doing it again. but, boy, it'sjust incredible. i was very surprised when. yes it was good. it was enjoyable. you're live with bbc news. brazil's president luiz inacio lula da silva begins his visit to china, after it was postponed due to medical issues. he will arrive in shanghai on wednesday before travelling to beijing where he will meet his chinese counterpart xijinping on friday. the trip's main agenda is to upgrade relations between the two countries, and seek new investments in brazil. 20 or so agreements are due to be signed as china is brazil's largest trading partner. well, to discuss this visit, iam nowjoined by andre pagliarini, a fellow at the washington brazil office and columnist

at the brazilian report. great to get you on the programme andre. in the first instance —— in the first why is lula seeking more chinese investments? thank you for having me. this trip is deeply concerned with expanding the relationship with china which is very important for brazil. brazil's economy is not as badly —— doing as badly as it was a few years ago. but it could be doing much more. and so i think a major part of the goal here is to sell more. traders always good. more trade is even better. now, china's point of view, this is an interesting relationship for them as well. there will be all kinds of conversations about brazil, potentially joining conversations about brazil, potentiallyjoining the initiative and deepening ties from —— in south america as well. so it's really a trip that is of interest to both leaders. i

trip that is of interest to both leaders. , ., ., leaders. i understand that lulu will be in china — leaders. i understand that lulu will be in china for— leaders. i understand that lulu will be in china for four _ leaders. i understand that lulu will be in china for four days. _ leaders. i understand that lulu will be in china for four days. that's - be in china for four days. that's double the time compared to the almost 48 hours that he spent in the us earlier this year. does not give you a sense about priorities with regard to how important china is versus other countries like the us, for instance? i versus other countries like the us, for instance?— for instance? ithink it does, buti also think we _ for instance? ithink it does, buti also think we run _ for instance? ithink it does, buti also think we run the _ for instance? ithink it does, buti also think we run the risk- for instance? ithink it does, buti also think we run the risk of- also think we run the risk of perhaps overstating just a little bit. you have to keep in mind, washington is quite a bit closer than beijing. so i think part of it isjust since he is going to be there he might as well do a lot more. for example on thursday, before meeting with xi jinping, more. for example on thursday, before meeting with xijinping, he will be attending former brazilian presidents inauguration as the head of the bricks bank in shanghai. so there is an agenda there of several things to accomplish once he is there. that said, i do think it is obviously a sign of how important china is to brazil. you mentioned it's the largest trade partner which is an important part of the

relationship. i also think there is a geopolitical element to this as well that brazil under the workers party has long played an independent role for brazil on the world stage, when the balances different, not anti—american per se, but one that is not —— that is willing to brush washington when necessary. and so china is a partner in that regard, and the united states as a partner in that regard. this is something he has been very clear about, is that he wants to work with diverse ideological partners to serve brazilian interests. thank you so much forjoining us on newsday. a pair of sneakers, or trainers, worn by basketball

legend michaeljordan has sold for more than two million dollars — setting a record price for game—worn sports shoes. the basketball champion last wore the trainers in 1998. our north america correspondent nomia iqbal explains how the shoes came to be under the auctioneer�*s hammer. these sneakers are known as bread, which refers to the fact that they are black and red in style. it's the style that michaeljordan was known for wearing throughout his career, and he had these shoes on during game two of the 1998 nba finals, and it was on his way to game six. and what would be the last nba championship title for him. they'd been gifted by the basketball legend to the visiting teams locker room's ball boy. now, we don't know who sold the sneakers. we don't know who bought them. but what the auction house did say, they described them just to give you the quote, the shoes which have his name in silver ink on each toe as immaculate and pristine, consistent with use.

and it's worth mentioning that michaeljordan actually broke his own record when it comes to selling shoes two years ago in september, where his sneakers went for $1.5 million. and he's been collaborating with nike ever since the eighties. but the brand has really grown massively, largely driven by his successful netflix documentary, the last dance. the trainer industry, the shoe industry, the sneaker industry. it's really tripled in the last ten years. and now, according to a lot of statistics, it accounts for almost half of global footwear sales. and i did a documentary on this a couple of years ago and spoke to bobbito garcia. he was and is seen as someone who was probably the first to talk about the phenomenon of the sneaker industry. on one side the really functional. they look cool. there are an extension of your individuality. you can be created with them, you can paint them, you can customise them, you can own them, right? so that's

one pocket. the other pocket is that sneakers in and of themselves have been placed in the same way that people approach art. that's really the point that garcia has made there, that sneakers are seen as art. during the course of doing that documentary, i spoke to loads of people who said that they were prepared to pay that much money for sneakers, which they see as collectibles. so really, the price that michaeljordan's sneakers have gone for today, it's likely that they will get even higher as the years go on. and finally — people in taiwan who are frustrated with china's latest military drills near the island have found a novel way of expressing their anger. many are choosing to wear badges that depict a taiwanese black bear punching the animated character winnie the pooh — who often appears in imagery to represent china's leader xi jinping. taiwan is a self—ruled island with its own government

and constitution, but china sees it as a breakaway province. that's it for us. thanks so much for watching. do you stay with bbc news for the latest headlines. hello there. stormy weather is expected to continue through tonight and into wednesday. and that's because we've got this powerfuljet stream up above that weather system, developing very rapidly in the past 24 hours, giving those severe gales, unusually windy weather, a lot of rain to go with it. it means the conditions on the roads have been pretty atrocious. and now, we've got cold air tucking in around that low pressure across scotland, so turning progressively to snow several centimetres over the hills here, and even the showers further south following the rain band could be a little bit wintry. it's certainly going to be a chilly end to the night under the clearer skies further south, within a degree or two of freezing. but really, that's not the story. the story is these powerful winds once again battering many western

and southern areas during the day. we're expecting gusts up to, if not above, 70 miles an hour, which will cause disruption. bring down the odd tree. 50 miles an hour inland is really quite unusual. and given that it's already been very windy through tuesday, we're going to see some very large waves around the southwest approaches, through the channel into the english channel as well. and that could overtop the coast lines as well. so some dangerous conditions. it also looks on that north westerly to be a very windy end to the morning, start to the afternoon across northern ireland, and we will keep very strong winds around that band of rain across the northern isle. so nowhere really exempt. and there'll be a lot of showers after the bright start. those showers rattling in really quite cloudy and wet for much of the day, potentially northern ireland, northern and western scotland. still that snow risk on the hills, perhaps as high as 12 in the south. but really we will notice a cooler feel, those showers rushing in, becoming frequent with hail and with thunder and still around

into thursday, but fewer in number potentially. that low pressure withers in the north sea. it stays put actually through thursday into friday. but you can already see friday's rain is due in, some uncertainty on that. but temperatures might recoverjust a little bit more on thursday, given a bit more sunshine. but it might be then that as we go into friday, we get the next area of low pressure pushing more rain in with some fairly strong winds. it doesn't look as windy as the current stormy conditions, and perhaps starting to settle down as we get into the latter part of the weekend. and next week there's the hint that we might see the first 2021 of the year. but between now and then, a lot of nasty weather to come.

this is bbc news. we will have the headlines at all the main stories at the top of the hour as newsday continues straight after hardtalk. welcome to hardtalk, i'm stephen sackur. givenjoe biden's pride in his irish roots, his determination to be in belfast and dublin to mark the 25th anniversary of northern ireland's good friday peace agreement, comes as no surprise the us government continues to use its transatlantic leverage to try to ensure the peace holds, despite political tensions in northern ireland.