which is straight after this programme. our first ourfirst picture our first picture together. our first holiday. the wedding. the first holiday. the wedding. the first trip to my country, ecuador. the mountain we had

dreamt of climbing. my husband said, and i imagine what our family thought it would look like, so we didn't think how much that path would cost us. that is why i took my camera and decided to tell the story. seven yea rs seven years ago, we found out that we are infertile. the doctors said it was my hormones, his slow sperm and now my age. so we got on the

rollercoaster of in vitro fertilisation. this is our fourth attempt.

now my eggs, and my husband's sperm are going to meet on a lab plate. against all odds, my baby won't be the result of a passionate night. medical report: 32 eggs, 26 fertilised. in the end, six embryos. of those six, only one healthy to transfer to my uterus. a possible baby? i imagine my belly growing, sharing my body with them, myspace, my life, to

discover everything again together, us three. to finally complain about the sleepless nights. this is happening to us and one in every six couples, and one in every six couples, and it is a taboo in many places. my friend laura also went through years of fertility treatments. and then she surprised me with some news.

so we are getting one of your embryos that has emerged fully intact, it is starting to expand which means the embryo is alive and is to keep doing that over the next few days and then we will plant that into then we will plant that into the endometrium. fingers crossed for you both. it's ok? i will show you when we are doing _ it's ok? i will show you when we are doing the _ it's ok? i will show you when we are doing the procedure. l it's ok? i will show you when i we are doing the procedure. i will give you some information.

0k? 0k, ok, so it is there where it should be.

day nine after the transfer, it's almost time for the pregnancy test. i home pregnancy test. i home pregnancy test, and it makes me panic. in all this time of trying and trying, i have had so many negative results that i have developed a sort of phobia to the test. but here we go

again. another negative. another lost embryo. and my womb, empty.

(baby cries) (shushes)

natalie was born in argentina where law, each patient can access up to three three fertility treatments per year.

in my country, ecuador, there is not such coverage. and the united kingdom, where i live, a lottery decides how many chances you get. i got one. when paying for it is only option have, the high costs make it impossible for many.

during this journey i have learned so many new words. follicles, embryo culture, vitrification. i have gone through so many moods. i have fallen down and i got back again. i don't know how long i will keep trying. sometimes i think there are other ways to be a mother. even maybe not being one at all. i don't know how this story will end. but i have learned that infertility is just a chapter of my life, that left its mark on me but doesn't define me.

if you have been affected by this story,: hello there. well, temperatures struggling to get much past freezing by day. and once again, it is the coldest night of the winter so far. now lots of lying snow, particularly for the northern half of the uk. and there could be some issues with snow melt over the next few days or so as the air turns gradually milder from the north and the west. lots of flood warnings still in place. not too much rain falling out of the sky. it is going to be mostly dry, but other issues will include icy stretches and freezing fog. but this is the temperature anomaly map as we head through the next few days, so you can see marked in blue here on the map. this is where it's colder than average at the moment. then it turns milder and warmer across northern ireland scotland into sunday. eventually the milder air will push further southwards and eastwards for the start of next week, but it's a slow process.

as we head through saturday, this cloud gradually pushes further eastwards, freezing fog patches across many parts of england and wales slow to lift and clear, reducing visibility on our roads. but a patchy light rain and drizzle into parts of western scotland, with the wind picking up for some irish sea coast but some sunshine later on in the day for northern ireland. sunny skies too, with the colder air further east, but again temperatures for many won't make it much past low single figures. and it stays cold too on saturday night into sunday. perhaps not quite as cold as on friday night, but temperatures still well below freezing for many, particularly towards the eastern half of the uk. for these western coasts it is turning milder. and if we just take a look at the pressure chart, you can see the high pressure gradually retreats further eastwards, taking the colder air with itjust allowing these weather fronts to introduce milder conditions across northern ireland and again for scotland this time on sunday, where temperatures will start to pick up. watch out for that snow melt though, of course. so the winds pick up towards the irish sea coast. there will be some outbreaks of rain pushing across

the western isles into western scotland. further south, this is where we'll see the best of the sunshine, and temperatures here won't make it much past four or five celsius, but ten in western scotland, in northern ireland and towards south west england too, and that milder air will eventually win out, pushing further southwards and eastwards as we head through monday and tuesday. so if we take a look at our outlook for our capital cities, then you can see that by the time we get to tuesday, we're back up into double figures across the board, mostly dry in the south. some rain, though at times further north. bye— bye.

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deadly wildfires continue to rage across los angeles. 11 people have been killed and more than 150,000 residents have been ordered to evacuate. hello, i'm carl nasman. welcome to the programme. taking you straight to a press conference happening as we speak in