remove the hell in advance, so that you can get on with yourselves, volition and stop the hell in the moment, directly prompting the elements. kozhny krok

yadnannya s pryroday, dzikaya, old-timey, svaya elnya, belarus nathnyae. the most difficult, complex operation , when she came to her senses after anesthesia and realized what had happened to her, she fell into hysterics and began screaming, “to my husband, you deliberately made me disabled, because all your life you have been jealous of me for cinema, for my profession, for men. and

began to shout that i cheated on you with other men, she died in terrible agony, in 41 years old, actress who starred in my film, mikaela drozdovskaya. but you, to my unfortunate lot, bury even a drop of pity, just to hear your speeches, to say a word to you, then keep thinking , thinking about one thing, and day and night until the next meeting, the great russian actress vera nikolaevna came to vovik for a show of student works she was scolded, and after watching, she said to drozdovskaya, girl, now in

your youth you won’t play much, don’t be upset, with age, you will become a brilliant old woman on the stage on the screen, she starred, well, i won’t say that a lot, well, in episodes, in supporting roles, and the only main role she played in a belarusian film, originally from here. she was born in moscow, in a family of intellectuals, of course, like all girls, they staged performances, of course, with herself in the leading role, right from the very first show she entered the ovgik institute of cinematography and she was still a student invited to star in the film comedy for showcase of univerband, her partner was oleg anofriev, they had this kind of a little...

funny relationship that should have to set off the serious relationship of the heroine, played by svetlana druzhinina, such a cold, unapproachable beauty , michaela played such a simpleton, such a slightly puckered nose, a sharp chin, such a smile, that is, such a bright supporting role. what did i do, what? you don't know, right? i think your action is outrageous, you think that you have no place in the komsomol. this is your opinion, right? yes, my opinion. i am breaking off my friendship with you. and i will never talk to you in my life. okay, goodbye. you know. while

in the fifties and seventies in soviet cinema there was a huge selection of these actresses, highlighting the beauty and inaccessibility of the main character, these were supporting actresses , characteristic of such a role, or something, such little girls with laughter, such, well, even remember the hope of rumyantsev, rosa makagonova, lucyena ovchinnikova, lyudmila shagalova, maya krepkogorskaya, svetlana kharitonova, alla budnitskaya, beauty, friend, by the way, drozlovskaya, they were all supporting actresses, almost none of them had leading roles in films, here among them

there was also michaela, do you love him, i hate him, i tell her that you love him, hate him, love him, after a supporting role in a well, generally not funny comedy behind a department store window, she also had the role of tanya in the film there are volunteers. of the roles, that’s all, a lot is enough, irina, otaman kodr, natasha, the heirs, nadya, the seedling, maya, romeo, my neighbor, shura, give me a complaint book, masha, she

definitely included these episodes in the allotted film footage, but besides the episodes there were generally . tough nut, captured pilot, wake me up mukhina, student, legend of tila, widow of a werewolf killed, solo for elephant with orchestra, mother of two daughters, mimino, papishvili’s wife, busy. one masha, dasha, natasha, tanya, irina, a year, or even more than one, such is the fate of a supporting actress.

but proud moscow in its publications does not mention drozdovskaya’s role in the belarusian film from here. each of the heroes of the project, new people, chose their own path and achieved it. first great success, he cut his first icon in secret, we , in principle, even start with a simple gradually, step by step, climb up, and he himself - at home, uh, quietly carved out this icon, brought it to me, showed it to me, talented, brave, always ready to learn something new, he loves

to work on details, he’s the kind of person who admires everyone, that’s an element of his canvas, he begins... to play, you know, like a fakir who hypnotizes a cobra with a pipe, that’s exactly how lyosha worked wonders with the audience, today they are the pride of the country, at performances i didn’t even expect him to play like that, so assertively, without any constraint, everything is clean, about the new generation of belarusians, look at the project on the belarus 24 tv channel, we talk about the manufacturing enterprises of our country. the most important quality of our products is that they are made from natural raw materials, we have a large assortment, condensed milk with sugar, with all sorts of fillers, coffee, chicory, purposeful

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only episodes, and you know, sinners, i also followed the lead of the people who advised me to go to moscow and choose actors, my assistant gennady belkevich went there, well, to play the role of the main character of that same... stepan zhikhar from stezhitsy, that was the name of ptashnikov’s story, based on which the script was written from here, he invited yuri kuzmenkov from the massaleda theater, he described it to me on the phone this actor, approximately his role in the theater, he is still young, a beginner, and i agreed with this, for the role of his village mistress who raised his son, volka, he offered me the actress mikaela drozdovskaya, i remembered

that this is the same actress , first and last name, which i remembered from my school years, and i thought, well, well, a moscow actress, a star, at least of the second plan, but still with a name, and i agreed that mikaela drazdovskaya would come to the audition. a student in the capital, but he didn’t learn to dance, why didn’t you plan this, you should have planned it better for yourself, go, go, he’s there, go, this morning straight from the moscow train to television, then it was the only studio in the communist one, and geno arrived belkevich... with mikae drozdovskaya, she immediately surrounded me with some conversations,

some memories, some of her village considerations, observations , we took her to make-up, she continued, continued to talk about something village, immediately show some scenes, and even you know, not these blitz shows of hers and not this is her translucent dress, which means, you know, some kind of melancholy? there was some kind of appeal in her gaze to the director: well, choose me , well, choose me, there was something like that in her, something broken, so i felt a little bit of her in these some fussy shows, you know, i must say that she certainly adored me , well, what is there to hide, an interesting young woman , she played well, she showed everything well, she played wonderfully just as a screen test, moreover, she played without a partner, she played herself,

as it were, well, there i was giving some remarks behind the scenes, getting ready, she read me the verse of an unfamiliar poem, my dear friend, you are like a guard, the choice of being comes to you, my path, it is not familiar to you, no, she smiled, i think maybe this is a poem dedicated to her, everything may be that while we were working for several hours in the pavilion , while we were filming it, the boyfriend who had arrived with her, illarion golitsin, of princely blood, sat on the bench in front of the television studio, he sat obediently, waiting until michaela, that is, to free herself, so the three of us went out, michaela, i, and

until the end of the year, and it was only the month of june, the role of the volka, which she had to play, well, you know, was particularly difficult. a single woman with a child, in a village, working on a collective farm, you know, the situation is quite typical, i probably couldn’t do much for her help, i couldn’t tell her the details of the village, because all my village, problematic documentaries were still somewhere ahead, you’re not afraid that people

will see something and tell her, you’re afraid, you were afraid, in vain, the war, in vain, sorry, i don’t know how, i got out of the habit, forgot how, after playing this, she suddenly told me a lot about her moscow surroundings, about how you are in her house, there are directors, screenwriters, actors, directors there , film directors, as they are called now, producers , that means there are fellow actors there, and i thought, well, why with such connections, and how, in general , she is an unclaimed actress, her acting talent is not fully revealed, and you know, i

could not find the answer to this, and the answer was in one of the letters that she sent me. put on fairy tales at the circus, shoot pictures about love, write songs when we play at love, find a good script, i sit idle, i do voice-overs for money, that’s all my work, thank you for the books and clippings, i probably sent her something , i don’t remember, then something amazing happened, i was literally dumbfounded when my hotel room in rogachev, near which we filmed on location with her participation, she dragged in a huge suitcase, opened it, and there were clothes there, as i later found out that they had been bought in the closed moscow store beryozka, where

they sold only for currency or for some other checks unknown to me, there was it. .. i have all the clothes on from head to toe, suits, sweaters, shirts, jackets, shoes, then i remembered that even during the audition, she casually asked me what my shoe size was, she said forty-one there , yes, two or three pairs of shoes, she says that's i’m telling you everything, mikaela, now i have a small child, my wife is on maternity leave, we’re paying for a cooperative apartment, there are dues, she says, nothing, you’ll pay it back when you can, you know, it was impossible to refuse, because well , she wouldn’t have brought it back, well, of course, i thanked this suitcase and then brought

it home to minsk, and it was very difficult for me to explain to my wife, i have all this, moreover, moreover, in the suitcase there were several very elegant, beautiful, colorful, little lights, for my recently born son olesya, then it turned out that she brought several things, two or three, on the same terms with subsequent payment to my assistant, genya belkevich, well, to me... probably in order to film her in future films, and geni, in order for him to remember her, in gratitude for inviting her to this film to karlova, and for recommending her to another director, on the very first free evening in rogachev, she pulled me to the local cemetery, i like -

i was perplexed what, but she walked, something i looked there, that's all. i didn’t ask, maybe she was looking for some relatives, i don’t know, then the same thing was repeated in the villages where we filmed location, in particular, i remember in the village of gusarovka, such a very nice picturesque village, also in the cemetery, it also happened that - to look, i couldn’t resist asking her, what is she looking for? she said: what if there are ancient metal crosses or... folded enamel icons on the graves, i thought, well , so what if they exist, so what of it? you know, you know, i was raised on the commandments of my mother and grandmother, believers who told me since childhood that

you can’t take a berry or a flower from a cemetery, these are all of them, the property of those who lie here, you don’t need to take anything, and michaela, as it turned out, was going to take not a berry in cemeteries. and not a flower, these expensive metal crosses, folding icons, but you know, in belarus somehow all the burials were post-war and metal was only on the fences of the graves, this is probably so that the dead don’t run away, or something, i don’t know, where is this from? in general, it was a strange ritual, or something. the same thing happened again in vilnius, she also dragged me to the old cemetery, but catholics

don’t have such rituals, and we didn’t find anything there either. and then i began to understand where michaela got all these imported things, those that she brought me, those that genya brought, and how she herself was dressed, always. came in something new, came to the voice acting in some two, in my opinion, unimaginable noises, in some small essay after her death, the following was written slippery phrase: mikaela was interested in icons, but you can’t call it interested, she simply tore them off, collected them, brought them home, restored them and you could... understand where this connection with currency stores came from, she sold it all to foreigners, you know, foreigners in

those years, in the sixties and seventies, they were very interested in russian ancient art , they bought icons, mortars, for some reason mortars were of particular interest to foreigners, and they were sold in thrift stores, these icons floated abroad, you know, and it’s good, very good, because i’ve been abroad, well, in dozens of museums and seen hundreds, hundreds of russian, orthodox, ancient icons, some of my height, in fact, four names stood in monasteries there in monserat, in spain, on the mountain, from where, from where, and this is all , probably, emigrants exported and exported by foreigners, and it’s good, because there it was preserved, but here, and here , the ten-year reign of khrushchev, the iconoclast, who destroyed the temples that

the twenties began to destroy , has just ended , thirties, and there was no guarantee that this would not happen again under some new leader of the country. in general, i could not imagine then that in my... destiny there was a meeting with a person whose some kind of very twisted, very complex fate would be associated with my fate for some time, and that i would become a witness the life and career of this beautiful, very talented, but such an unhappy woman.

i don’t know at all what the captured food is in the life’s tone. to one degree or another, in any case, physical activity is the very hormone of happiness, which makes you look younger, which allows blood to run through your veins, as they say, increases metabolism and so on. golf is a sport that, in such conditions, allows a person to always be, that is, with nature, to be in development, because in one game you need to go 8, 10, 12 km, versatile people, who have something to convey to future generations, my task is give the child the opportunity. the choice that she will make in the end will be only her choice, nasaray timofeevna, and we

we are glad to have six grandchildren; we are pleased that they are absorbing the life lessons that we provide them every day. look at the history of wonderful people on fridays, at the belarus project, make plans for the super final or the route home, this is exactly the choice that the participants of the show have, i know, you put me in an awkward position, yes, that there is either graffiti or graffiti, well, there is one it's called a law, and it's wrong. since if the voltage increases by 30%, then the resistance should decrease by 30%. most knowledgeable and the bravest guys will try to find answers to all the questions. i answered yes, because the current changes in amperes, and the resistance in volts, it seems. if we have two legs equal to 3.4 cm, then the hypotenuse will be equal to 5 cm. they will compete for valuable prizes - the honorary title of winner of the show.

she doesn't fly, she only runs, if i'm not mistaken, why? i don’t know, i’m lazy , yes, we’ll probably assume, look at the project, i know, on the tv channel belarus 24. at the beginning of her personal life there were such, breakdowns of a romantic nature, she got sick, and her parents admitted her to the clinic of the second medical institute, and there the department of cardiology was headed by professor vadim smolensky, also a man with secular manners, a professor interested in art, and mikaela and vadim semenovich

liked each other. a romance began, he had a family, she was married, as she later told me, there was an architect, her husband, well , he says, some kind of komsomol figure, but such a cynic, she got divorced, and he got divorced, they started a family, lived, i must tell you, very amicably, they had two girls, we built a four-room apartment in the center of moscow. and do you know where? tverskaya, the current, former gorky street, vasilyevskaya street, well, no wider than the passage , here in our courtyard in front of the entrances, here is the entrance to the cinema house, and here is the entrance to the house where drozdovskaya lived, literally across the street, you know, when in the house cinema, in a bohemian restaurant. but still

under security according to soviet laws, it closed at 10:30 p.m., they didn’t hang out there, then everything that was half-drunk and half-eaten was carried across the street, and took the elevator up to drazdovskaya’s apartment smolensky, and the fun continued there. of course, there wasn’t enough to grab, but in this house there was always something to treat the guests and , most importantly, something to put on the table in bottles, and these were scarce, even then imported drinks in moscow, michaela and her husband vadim semenovich had common interests , they wanted to appease, somehow win over the directors and screenwriters, so that they would film michaela more, so that she would be more busy

in her main profession as a film actress, but this just didn’t work out very well, it didn’t very, immediately take the initiative, talk to konstantin konstantinovich, you tell him this, tell him, i want, you know, i dream of being in the theater, but you have already prepared a fable, prepared, to record music for our film, i’m from here, we are with the composer, my friend zhenya glebov came to moscow, the orchestra recorded music, after that we were at mikaela's, he had dinner, zhenya went back to minsk by train, and i stayed in moscow for several days on film work, four-room apartment, flowers, alive in flowerpots, two girls, foreigners come, i met everyone, got along with vadim semyonovich, dartagnan’s dog, then, in

some room, i see, there are stacks of dark wooden boards, these are the icons she brought from the expedition, which she... .... i haven’t yet had time to restore the icons in the apartment, there are restored icons everywhere, so ready for sale, the walls are draped with damaged vestments, priests, bishops, crosses, these huge icons of the estate, the whole apartment was filled with this, suddenly one day she gives me the keys and says i won’t be home for 2 days, well, i was minding my own business, i had some other meetings in moscow, at the cinematography union, that’s all, fortunately it’s across the alley, across vasilievskaya, suddenly one night i

woke up from some kind of excited, unrestrained conversations in the kitchen, and lyask metallo, she was walking around the villages of northern russia with prince golitsyn. climbed through these very abandoned, abandoned cemeteries, these metal folds, collected old icons and now showed them to the crowded people at night to vadim semyonovich's husband, this is his brought loot. of course, we started a correspondence with mikae, she sent me photographs of her endless screen tests , she really wanted to act with the director in she attached a photograph of herself in a terrible make-up in general, like an old man, and a letter: i am attaching

a photograph of what ruslan and lyudmila, naina are doing now , i and the old actress cecilia mansurova are auditioning, ptushko wants to take her, i. i’m worried, she’s his old friend, they’ve already worked, i’m idle, and, as always, i’m moping, in this photo where she’s in monstrous old age makeup, notes, how beautiful, i like her, they didn’t take her, didn’t approve, this again hurt, hurt the actress, but again the gatherings , night salts in her house, she is majestic, proud, happy, housewife, housewife, housewife life.

directors alexander allov and vladimir naumov were preparing for the launch of their great film running according to mikhail bulgakov. michaela had already starred in their film the legend of tili. in the film shine and burn my star, the white guard officer was played by vladimir naumov, and she played his wife. you can't even call it a house like that. there is only one line in the panorama: seryozha, where are we going to spend the night? well, here the systeli are straight, well, again, you won’t lie down until the end, but you know, it won’t work, the soldiers need to place fodder, ask the horses, and apparently, in

one of the feasts, mikaela pressed one of the directors, most likely naumov, that those, in order to sort of, well, maybe even just get rid of her, said , well, okay, take it while running, write a role for yourself, only of course, not the main one, write it for yourself, with this request, she suddenly turned to me , y at that time i had some kind of business trip to moscow, i was probably handing over some kind of picture, i came to her dacha, she told me about this, volodya, write me my role somehow through the whole script, through the whole film, i immediately had a thought, i think what? in moscow, maybe she doesn’t have any friends, screenwriters, craftsmen who would do this, well, i liked the idea, well, then mikaela finally asked, and i got down to

business, and i conceived of some kind of poetess of the silver age, there tsvetaeva, berberov, odoevtsev, such a star of the salons, the officers are fighting for the right to dance with her, capricious, with a long cigarette, pohitoski, then they were called, in feathers, majestic, like that. like this, here she is with the suitcases of these outfits of hers, ballroom, salon, rolling along with the retreating white army, fleeing from the reds, across the dusty steppes, on chaises, on carts, losing these suitcases, she becomes more and more one of these unfortunates , running south, she is looking for acquaintances, there is no one she recognizes, everyone

brushes her off, because everyone they are saved, everyone is running, she, having completely lost her former self, this gloss, shine, beauty, even her own, she becomes just a sliver in this bloody military whirlpool, becomes a nobody, absolutely useless to anyone. doomed, that’s how i conceived it, i came to moscow to drazdovskaya’s dacha, brought these two or three pages in total, well, she knew the script, she understood where it all should go, she retired, began to read, i played with her daughters, very nice girls , they were so funny, she came out of another room of this dacha, completely shocked, she was so

she started thanking me, well, hugging me there, in front of the children, thanking me for doing all this, and then i understand that she rushed to the directors with this, they, of course, accepted it, but everything that followed is clear from her letters to me , i’m filming with alov and naumov in sevastopol, they don’t do anything interesting for me, they’re afraid, time is passing, i want to work , play, i’m crying, write, volodenka a letter, make me happy, michaela is sad, here’s a letter already dated seventy years ago, after finishing work on the film. volodenko, sevastopol was a very hard waste of time.

every day they took me out to film, without having filmed almost anything, i’m idle, and as always i’m moping, plus we’re still getting sick with severe flu, bronchitis, kisses, roma, roma, roma, hello, it’s me, feed me, roma, take me to feed, if you please, come with me, oh, you know, he’s always in a hurry, it’s the last time we’ll come.” but in our rare letters, in even rarer telephone conversations, in very rare meetings in moscow, i did not remind her about the film running, i understood how painful it was. she continued to act in all sorts of roles, mash, dash, irin, natasha, something flashed somewhere in a good episode in the film mimino, these

ladas, what they think, i don’t know, they’re spinning under our feet, spinning, hiding, but with us don’t lada, volga, he’s lying all the time, listen, i was bothering you, wait, don’t bother me either, i’m sorry, at the very end of the seventies, while filming belarusfilm, there was beauty in my house. gennady poloka, she told me about michaela’s recent passing from life, except for regina, i learned the details of michaela’s death from various sources, here is the official version, her

invited to act in a major, major role in a film directed by arthur merkun, write letters, filming took place in the northern caucasus, all the actors were lodged near vladikavkaz in tourist houses, in the foothills somewhere there, the houses were not heated, filming had already begun on november 7, 78 year, the actors were all on a free day, they went on an excursion to the city of vladikavkaz, well, they probably had lunch there, and mikaela stayed in this house, and mikaela was given two lamp lighting fixtures. one larger, the second smaller, they turned it on, she she stayed in this house of hers to rest, saying she was tired. when the film crew and actors returned a few hours later, they immediately smelled harry in this house, there was smoke coming from under mikaela’s door, from above

, they knocked, she didn’t answer, they broke down the door, saw that mikaela’s blankets were smoldering, burning, they threw off the blanket , they grabbed mikaela , she didn’t come to her senses, she was sleeping, she was sleeping, they immediately took her to vladikavkaz by car, the doctors were terrified, they couldn’t do anything, they called her husband, the professor on a plane to moscow, she was urgently, in my opinion, even some kind of special flight. brought to moscow at the airport, she was met by vadim semyonovich, a whole cohort of medical professors in general met her, quickly looked at her at the clinic on the operating table, the consilium recognized that the only way to save her life was to amputate both legs, which was

done when mikaela came to her senses , who she has now become, she fell into hysterics and began to scream wildly that her husband had intentionally made her disabled, that all his life he had been jealous of her for movies, for rabbits, for all men in general, with which she filmed with her partners, but this is her dying, dying cry, because she really. died, died, barely turning 40 years old, when i informed the director of my long-standing film, sergei antonovich goncharov, who was from here, about michaela’s death, he said: what, you didn’t know that

you didn’t know that michaela was still with us... using strong sleeping pills every evening , i communicated, worked with her, lived next door in the rooms, i didn’t know that 11 years ago she was already heavily using sleeping pills, probably with over the years, these doses kept increasing, why did she sleep without feeling that she was already burning, the prediction of great faith did not come true. mikaela, not having lived to see the second half of her life, and not being a shuttered old woman, having played, in general , one of the main roles in our belarusian film from here, she has not exhausted all

her talent, all the energy that just oozed out of her, i want . to play, i want to act, i want to remember these letters of hers, i cry, i’m sad because there is no work, i keep thinking, why did this happen to this a talented person, maybe the circumstances turned out that way, maybe she herself was guilty of something, but what, she was kind , sincere, welcoming , hospitable, helpful, share, except maybe an unbeliever, otherwise there would be no replacement for the latter...