>> have you heard of this jodi amp -- arias story? >> let her burn. >> it's like a snake pit. >> i have been doing this so long, you think i would learn. you know? >> it's the same old thing every day. it's a hard way to win. ji jail is terrible, it's no place

to be. we keep making the decision to come back. fina dean, i'm here for home invasion. my mom, my dad, everyone.

>> your mom? >> everyone is doing 18 years right now. >> for what? >> she has two more years. for the same charges as me. home invasion, i have eight different charges. >> was this the one with $100,000 of on electronic equipment. >> he put down equipment, but it was drugs, he was a dope dealer. >> here is the thing i would not do is rob a dope dealer. >> most of them do not call the cops. he will either go to jail or get killed. >> what about somebody else? >> i don't rob nice people. >> this is the latest crime in the list of a lengthy resume. she robbed the victim, tied them

up, and stabbed him with a sword, and then left him for dead on the floor as she and her pa partner robbed the home. all of her charges are felonies. don't be fooled. >> angelina key. i got nine years for being at the wrong place at the wrong time so and it happens. hanging around the wrong people, it happens. initially i was robbed. instead of calling the cops, i took matters into my own hands. and kicked open the door, and that is how it began, i was on ips because of it. and then they kept coming to my house. >> who kept coming to your house? >> my ips officer, he kept coming to my house and did surprise searches and found a gun that was inside my drawer.

and it was strictly for protection. i am gay, and had two women living in a home. the neighborhood was not that great, so they got me for possessing a gun. >> she is about to start serving a nine-year sentence. she plead guilty to second degree burglary. entered a home, stole items she was planning to sell and a phoenix, arizona police chopper spotted her overhead, and she fled the scene. hiding in the laundry room of a nearby apartment complex where she was arrested. she plead guilty for giving a false report to police officer and mare juan a. >> i'm armitea burks, i was sentenced a month ago and i will be getting out shortly. >> what are you in here for?

>> an accident, an aggravated assault with a deadly weapon that i did not -- >> whole, what possessed you to do it with a cigarette. what did he do to get it -- >> he aggravated me and provoked me so much. >> what did he do? >> he went and got liquor and i had not been drinking for a while, i did not want to drink anymore, i wanted to get my life together and get in church and he just is an alcoholic, he can't whip that drug abuse. >> how do you stay with him? >> i thought he was trying to progress as well as i was, so i allowed him to come here after me. >> armethea burks, a mother of five, and after a criminal history with three separate cocaine charges, possession of stolen property, obstruction of law enforcement and even prostitution, she is looking at hard time. hard jail time for aggravated

assault. after she gets into a fight with her boyfriend at a walmart and burns him in the back of the head with a cigarette and threatens to stab him with a knife and cuts him on the chest and neck. that could have been a murder, and now 5 children are without a mother. my name is marissa level. i have four charges, an aggravated robbery. dangerous, i have credit card theft. and then i've got resifting arrest and tamperring with evidence. those are my four original charges. i have already signed my plea and i am going to prison for four years for the aggravated robbery. she is no stranger to the legal system is. and her rights have been completely severed, she can no longer see her children. why? she was convicted for the possession of drugs and

aggravated dui and now she is looking at another aggravated assault charge after she goes into the home of an acquaint answer, steals the credit card and pulls the knife on him and when he tries to stop her, she challenges him to come at her. coupled with the ag assault, theft of the credit card, and resifting arrest and tamperring with evidence, the evidence, it's a bag of heroin, according to her complaint, she swallowed it or threw it away while fighting with police officers. >> my name is rosa leon, i've been in and out since about 2006. age of 25, i started to mess , i got in to drugs bad with a weapon and has not been the same. i got three children. two in cps and one on the way. i'm on probation for aggravated saul. nondangerous, nonrepetetiv --

>> what happened? >> i was hanging poster boards and i was high on crystal meth and started to act seeing like people, and i like, like i usually do, and it was really dumb and she accused me, it's a all over a guy, and she accused me of killing her with a hammer and i was like, you are crazy, and i told the police, and they said, you are high, anyway, you need to go in. and i did not know they were going to put me in for assault. and i lost custody of my children, think do not transport you here to cps meetings. she described her battle with drugs. you have to remember, she threatened to kill a woman, wielding a hammer, and scream lg, i'm going to kill you, and now she is facing ag assault charges. that is just the latest in a very long list of crimes on her

sheet. yes, she is a mother of two with a third child on the way. a child who is probably going to be born behind bars. before tackling mother hood, had he needs to deal with her own issues. will she lose yet a third child? who is here for the killing? >> who is here for the killing? i know somebody is. who is it? you? daddy's girl? was this about marijuana? okay. medical marijuana. first of all, who's sick? >> i am prescribed marijuana. >> for what? >> for my chronic body pains and different things. >> stephanie conley may not look like someone accused of murder, but allegedly when conley goes out to buy marijuana a dispute breaks out and it leaves one person dead with multiple stab wounds. conley faces charges of murder 1.

now she's pled guilty to marijuana in 2010. now she's heading to trial for murder. >> we are here in arizona in the estrella jail. a lot of people have asked why did i travel all the way to arizona. i'm very interested in jodi arias. i want to find out where she is every day and what she does every day. i have to find out what you think about arias. if anything. >> i know this probably makes me different and maybe that's why there's this evil thing, but i'm like what the hell did he do to her? you just don't do that to a human being. >> whatever happened back then, you know, that had her mind corrupted like that, i'll never know, but she's an amazing woman. she really is. >> what i'm hoping is that she's possessing from her higher power now that she wants to be more like him. >> have any of you all been watching the trial? >> i followed it in the newspaper. >> do you think she should have taken the stand?

>> no. >> that's what i'm saying. >> she should not have. >> listen. word to the wise. >> she incriminated herself. >> has anybody come in contact with her? >> yeah. >> what happened? >> she likes to sing. >> she does sing. >> she does sing really good. >> she's changed. >> why do you say that? >> it could be a facade. for all i know it could be a facade because she's in here. you know? >> she takes on the personality of what she thinks you want her to be like. and she said as much on the stand, that whatever the man in her life was, that she would be like a chameleon and she would become like that. so i'm just very interested in what she projects behind bars. >> i've never talk to her because i didn't really care for her. i don't know her so -- >> that's interesting that you said that you didn't really care for her. what i do you say that. >> i mean i don't know her so i don't really care. a woman does not go to the man you love and just totally do some crazy out -- >> he was going to take another

woman to cancun. >> that's nothing. who knows what really happened, though? >> why did she have to stab him in the back nine times? >> nobody knows the real story, though. only god and her and that man that's dead. hey, thanks for stopping by. you know, i've followed your character since the first episode. i'm a big fan, big, big fan... thank you. listen, your storyline makes for incredible tv drama. thing is, your drug use is very adult content. too adult for the kids. so, i'm gonna have to block you. aw, man.

yeahh... well. have a good one. you're a nice lady.

i get up thanking the lord for another day. i get up thinking that i haven't got a letter or a call or someone. >> we basically get up for medications, for breakfast.

then we have free time. >> i clean like every morning. i have a bunkie. we switch off cleaning. >> i takes my shower and i read my bible after my shower. >> the only television we're allowed to watch here is the food network. so some girls watch that. some walk around in circles, you know, trying to get exercise. >> really i just walk around or write or draw. i like to play spades because it keeps you busy during the day. >> i comes out and play cards or whatever and communicate with the other inmates. >> my day is immersed in enjoying the company of women that i never thought that i would be interested or intrigued by. and just eat chow and watch the food channel. all this good food you can't eat. >> then you know, at 5:00 we get our chow for dinner. and then medications again. and we go to sleep and start it all over again the next day. it's the same old thing every

day. >> we wake up every day and do the same thing over. >> one day is like the next. >> it's the sam thing every day, every day. just for months at a time. >> how long does it take you to get over having to go to the bathroom in front of everybody? >> i'm so comfortable now, it does not even faze me. i'm like -- >> you see the door shut? just stay down there. >> it's just different. >> it's so crazy because i'll like undress in front of the my roommate and not care. i mean like totally nude. i won't care. but i won't go to the bathroom with her in there. it's so crazy, i'm like bunkie, you got to go. >> you get the baby powder and clean the room out. >> with you being pregnant you have no choice. you've got to go when you got to go. >> it's getting a lot easier but the first time i went to jail -- the first time i went to prison it was like -- >> they're not in the comfort of their own home so the cell is their home. that's their living area 24/7. and so basically their cell represents them. and a lot of the females here

are super sensitive to cleanliness, and it's kind of known amongst each other that you need to be really clean or you're not going to do well here. >> i'm real, real particular on who lives with me. like most of the officers know that. i won't have somebody that doesn't clean or doesn't shower. i'm really big on that. has hair everywhere. i can't do hair. who spits in the sink. like that's a no-no. >> it's a little messy right now, but just basically keep magazines on your side, your paperwork. i don't do much writing although i do receive mail. i don't care too much for writing. my roommate does the same down here. she's a little more neater than i am. she keeps her stuff in her little bag down there underneath. and then we share the same obviously toilet and the same sink. we share the desk. >> pregos get the bottom bunk. so we sleep on the bottom, especially when we're pregnant. we get food, cheese and bread and fruit. we have to drink lots of bottled water, so we keep the old soda bottles.

we get our prenatals, we get jesus and stuff like that. we can have some books. keep our paperwork under here and pray in our dreams we'll get let out. >> i keep my room neat just because it's so small. you don't like to not know where your stuff is at. you know? it's just easier when everything's just in one place all the time and then you don't have to worry about -- i don't have a bunkie now so i just like to know where everything's at. but when i do have a bunkie, i'm even more aware of where my things are because i'm like i don't want this lady to be in my stuff. you know? >> i kind of have problems with roommates, but i just kick them out. that's the best way you can say, you got to go. i can tell them one time, but if they don't want to do it, they've got to go. that's just the way do i it. and the officers here are pretty good. as long as you don't go all out and go crazy or fight them and you tell them there's an issue, i've been telling this girl over and over again, it is just not working out, there's empty

cells, they pretty much just move them. >> we're in the control tower of the housing unit. this is basically the hub of it all. all the doors open and close from in here. one officer stays in here at all times. the officer that's in here at all times keeps a visual on the officers that are doing the walks and looking at the inmates and making sure that the inmates aren't doing anything they're not supposed to. >> the jail isn't supposed to be good. you know? but i mean there are people here, people that are for the first time. it is what it is. get from it what you can. so short. well, since yohad progressive's total loss coverage, we were able to replace your totaled bike with a brand-new one. the tank, the exhaust... well, she looks just like roxy! you know, i'll bet she's in a better place now. i'm sure she is.

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food is horrible. the food is disgusting. >> i think the food here is one of the worst parts for me. increments of 12 hours between meals. i mean, really? >> i ate the food here. it was not bad. >> what did you eat? >> did arpaio give me a rigged meal?

>> yeah. >> i had fresh bread, like a hunk. it was like a hunk. i had peanut butter. that peanut butter was good! >> it is good. >> i didn't open the fruit. it was a big old orange. >> i thought you were talking about the dinner. >> i thought you were talking about dinner. >> i wanted to see if arpaio gave me a fake lunch. what is the dinner? >> it's slop. >> you actually call it slop. >> it's called slop. >> was anybody here raised on a farm? >> no. >> okay. i was raised in farmland. and i know what real slop is. when you slop the pigs. you actually call this slop. okay, what is it? >> take a salisbury steak dinner and cut it up. no salt-o no pepper, nothing. potatoes on the side or just regular beans with no salt, no pepper. and that's it. >> that's because she eats it.

>> but what else can you eat? >> commissary. >> but that's just junk food. >> it's all right. we make stuff. >> you make stuff. like what? what is a popcorn burrito. >> it tastes like eggs. so it's like a sausage egg burrito. but you soften the popcorn where it looks like scrambled eggs. you put it in the burrito with some cheese and some pork rinds and then some -- >> it's good for you. >> yeah. exactly. it's good. >> it costs $10 to $12. >> what do you eat? >> i put chicken, salsa on popcorn, chicharones and a little bit of cheese and i mix it all together and make a burrito. or you get the pretzels, cheese, mix with hot water and you pour it in and let it soak together and you eat one of those. >> put some hot sausage chub in with it. >> you get all this in the commissary. >> yeah. >> you can do so much. sour with the jelly and ketchup and mix it together and put it in with rice and like --

>> orange chicken. >> but the jelly and the oranges -- or the orange kool-aid flavor. >> it's like chicken made like they do -- >> yeah. orange kool-aid in it and then you let it marinade for a little while and then you put that into the rice you get out of the tray at night. >> sometimes you get mixed vegetables. and a pouch of the tuna with the rice and the mixed vegetables. >> the food that we get sometimes is rotten and moldy and half the time people are throwing it away because it's no good. it's not fit to be eaten.

do you have kids or -- >> i do. fortunately, i was responsible enough of a parent to give my children up and let somebody else parent them and be a mother to them, because i was in no position to be that. i was selfless by giving my kids up, but i was selfish by being a dope fiend. i didn't have time for my kids, to put it honestly. i didn't have the capacity within myself to love my children the way they deserved to be loved. >> okay. here's my first question. how do you stand being away from your family?

i mean, how do you do that? >> it's tough. >> it is. it is very difficult. >> it was the toughest thing for myself. >> i'm used to it. >> why? >> my whole family's been incarcerated since i was a kid >> do any of your children come to see you? >> no, i have five children. i have twins, too. >> god lord in heaven. you have five children. >> yeah, my kids are grown and i have the 5-year-old baby. my children are grown. >> who's got the baby? >> and my baby, the 5-year-old is with my 20-year-old that i came here to visit in arizona. so she has my 5-year-old. >> how do you stand being away from your children? >> that's hard. >> i'm so used to the one that's been abandoned in my life. it is by the grace of -- you might say god. this time around i abandoned. i'm the one who's just being abandoned and i abandoned my family this time so i feel really horrible. >> for me, it's very difficult. due to my circumstances, i don't

have my mother's phone number. i don't have contact with my brother. i barely have contact with my stepfather. so not having my freedom and being able to call anyone i want to when i want to is one of the hardest parts. it's extremely lonely to feel like you have no one. and when you're watching everybody else in the pod get on the phone and call their family and you don't have one to call, it's heartbreaking. so i think that's something that a lot of women here experience because not all of us have families with money. not all of us have families that write us. >> you have a little ink. let me see it. >> an a and a t for my twins. >> your twins. >> 8 years old. >> is it boy/girl? >> boy and a girl. >> are you going to try to get them back? >> my rights have been severed and my rights were severed in october. but the foster mother is very kind and she lets me maintain a relationship with my children. and my stepdad sees them often. >> do you like the mom? >> yeah.

well, i've been writing to my kids specifically. i don't write letters to her, but that's a very good idea. i should probably work on that. >> but i said do you like her? >> oh, yeah. she's wonderful. she's amazing. >> i've been doing this for like 33 years of my 58 living. i'm not proud to say that. and i know my daughters -- i'm very lucky that they don't despise me or, you know, just literally not acknowledge me. i'm very lucky for that. >> came here when i was pregnant. i spent my whole pregnancy here. they released me and they gave me a chance and i did really good. probably two years after being out i relapsed. took me four months to come back in here. i have a 12-year-old and a 3-year-old. >> girls? boys? >> my 12-year-old is a girl and my 3-year-old is a boy. >> do you get to see them? >> i get to see my little boy. yeah.

but since my custody has to be behind glass, it is kind of the waiting just to get into visitation sometimes is so packed he doesn't have enough patience to sit and wait by the time they bring me down there. most of the time by the time i get there and see him he has to leave. >> have you found women here that have been pregnant before in jail that have kind of given you some advice or spoken to you about what it was like? >> we talked but not really. we usually talk about how the kids are and if we see each other ever again we'll say where's the baby now. you know, a lot of us get our kids taken away by cps. this time i don't want to lose my baby. i want to keep my baby. so i'm hoping that with my plea agreement and everything i can get out ten months -- no, what is it? six months from now. i got a year sentence so that will be about ten months i have to do. but yeah. us pregnant women, we'll remember each other. because that's the hardest thing is being pregnant in here. there's a lot of emotions up and down. >> i have an 18-year-old daughter and a 15-year-old son. in spite of me they've actually

been -- they've actually grown up pretty well. so my daughter has gotten accepted into college. she'll be going to u of a with a full scholarship next year, so i'm really proud of her. and my son is doing well as a freshman in high school out here. so -- you know. but that's because their dad mostly has done a really good job raising them. >> it is hard for my family to see me here. you know, i don't think anyone wants to see a loved one behind bars. my grandmother is real supportive of me. you know, she's 79. she comes up here every week. and i love her for that. it's hard to be a mom from behind bars. it's hard to be a family member here, period. and then you have people here that don't have family. and it's hard to see that. >> being without your family is definitely the toughest part. a lot of people come in here on drugs. they're doing drugs out there. this is their time to sober up. and they don't realize what they don't -- what they miss. they don't realize the family that's actually there by their side until they come in here. you know.

and by that time it's too late for a lot of them. you know, a lot of them are headed off for a long time. >> children who have mothers behind bars, how awful that must be for them. and i noticed that unless i pried it out of these women, they're very nonchalant about their children on the outside. they were very stoic, very calm about having all of their parental rights severed. i just can't imagine being away from my children and it not tearing me apart. >> i don't ask for sympathy. i just ask for little bit more help with some of the programs. you know? some kind of thing for the drug addiction. that's all. i don't ask for sympathy. because i understand i am a -- i'm a criminal. i deserve to be treated bad because i don't think about my children or youths out in the public. but i do ask for more programs.

>> people make mistakes. we make mistakes. and we're not the things that we've done. they are just things that we've done. we are individuals. you know, we deserve second chances. we deserve the opportunity to get life right. you know, i can only speak for myself when i say that, you know, this time -- this is my last time. this is my last chance. so i hope to get it right this time. >> if you go right back out you go back with the same people and get all caught up in the same stuff -- >> for me, when i leave these doors, you return to the party, the people are where you been? it's been like six months? like you came back for the party. >> they don't miss you. the only people that are missing you are your family. >> that is what it feels like. you go back to the party. >> you get away from something that was not going right for you out there. the man above knows the reason and you know the reason and just do some soul searching. figure it out. >> i just wonder sometimes, if you would have died out there -- >> i've been coming in and out of jail all my life.

and i'm finally done. but i'm done because i've grown out of the stupidity, i think. you know? i didn't get it the first time. i didn't get it the second time. i didn't get it the fourth or fifth time. you know? i'm at the age to where, you know? i need to do something different if i want to continue to live. you know the old saying, lookin' good, flo! feelin' good! feelin' real good! [ engine revs ] boat protection people love. now, that's progressive. call or click today.

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to nobody no more. everybody is trying to get somebody for something. if it is for commissary or money to get bailed out, everybody's trying to do something. it's like there's no more honest people left. >> there's always going to be that personality issue i think between some women, but we try to get along. you know, you become family with each other. that's all you've got in here. when you don't have your own family or the support of your own family, this is all you've got. >> i don't like to associate with many people because they are just so much drama. you can't trust anything anybody says. everything anybody says is usually just a lie or glorifying of their crime. >> it's hard to even discuss like my charges with people because they look at me like, you're in here for nothing. but to me it's something. but to them, it's like -- if it's not home invasions, murders or something it's considered small. >> sometimes it reminds me of a bunch of kids because it's a bunch of women who of course have their cycles and get

emotional and get, you know, all these different feelings that happen and all this he said/she said and -- >> i've known some women here for a long time so i -- just keep around what i'm used to, what i know and stay away from what i don't know. >> i feel out of sort sometimes. but when you get to know each individual in here you become friends. you know? i feel like it's a lot of innocent people here. maybe i'm too trusting. i don't know what it is. but i've come to grow as a family with a lot of the girls here. they're really nice. >> two, four, six, seven. how many do we take if we don't -- >> try to get in. >> yeah, i always keep to myself. as people you sort of let them come to you is what i learn. you go up to people, they pull away from you, like who are you? because you hear a lot of comments. you're just a crack whore. you're just a crackhead prostitute. especially when the drug dealers

come in. and you're like, get out of here. >> i see a lot of stuff in here, believe it or not. and it's crazy. i just sit back and watch. you know? that's all i do. i don't get involved with it. you know, i don't -- i just let it be. it is what it is. you know. then afterwards when everybody's done, a lot of people do come to me to ask for advice. i'll give my two cents. >> there's always, always an ulterior motive behind -- there's always a hidden agenda. everything you cannot take anything for face value. from anybody. you know? i mean you can swear, oh, well i've been doing time with this person for so long. you know? there's a hidden agenda. >> come on, ladies. let's go. >> when you go to bed at night, what do you think about? do you think about your children? do you think about just getting the hell outf here? >> personally, i think about whether or not this next nine

years that i have to do is going to go by quick. how i'm going to spend it. what i'm going to do to keep a clear head and not fall off track and fall into a depression mode or -- >> i think is this going to be the time to change my life. because so much has happened and nothing has opened my eyes. so is this what needs to change my life? is this what i need to actually go? because i've had many opportunities in life. i've had really good people in my life. i've had a really good support team in my life where i've had opportunities to do so much with my life but i still chose to go back to the neighborhood and gang bang. i've been moved to oklahoma. i've been moved to scottsdale. i mean, i went to the best high school, chaparral high school in arizona. like i've had opportunities, but i chose to go the other way. am i finally going to get the tools that have been given to me and actually use them? >> i hate the fact that i'm going away for so very long, but hopefully this time will be the last time and hopefully this time i'll have learned my lesson

and that i'm in some ways lucky because for me this might be the one time that saves me. it could be the one time and the last time that changes me. i'm a recovering heroin addict and i've been in and out of the system for quite some time now. i'm tired and ready for a change. hopefully this four years is go to change that. >> i'm done. i'm definitely done. i'm too old for this. you know, i'm 43 and my health is not good. so i regret that i chose a lifestyle that i lived in my past because i didn't have to. >> change. i need to change. i change -- i admitted to my probation officer that i've been doing drugs. so i'm hoping like to change now. you know. i'm hoping for some kind of change, something. you know. >> come on.

>> people can come in here and they can complain, but somebody's always going to have it worse than you. like no matter what you're facing, no matter how much time, somebody always has it worse than you, whether you're getting 25 to life or natural life, death penalty. when women come in here and they complain like, i just feel like everybody should be responsible for your actions. exactly. like i don't like this life. you know what i'm saying? but i'm not going to come in here and start like crying about it when i'm the one that put myself in here. >> if they want to go into what happened to them as a kid or they've been raped or this or that, but even us as inmates, as cops, everybody, even probably you guys, everybody's had a bad life. it is what you make of it. we chose to find another way out. you guys build a better life. sometimes you have to go to counseling. we don't know what's behind somebody else's story so stop trying to make excuses and blame everybody else. you did this. you get out and you still go back to the streets. it's your fault.

so stop coming here. that's where most of the animosity comes in here, is the complaining. and somebody crying. god, you did it. shut the -- up. please. you did it. and then they come in like six months later and the cops get used to it, the cops can tell you, they see the same things over and over again. >> it's a revolving door. >> i know. i've been here many times. they're like, you back again, dean? i'm like yep. it's true.

if you come to jail and you like it, keep doing what you're doing. if you come to jail and you don't like it, it's simple. stop doing what you're doing. make different decisions, and you'll have different choices. >> i used to have all these dreams about when i would see my fiance again. i would dream i would look up and he'd be there. and they were so real.

but do you ever dream -- what do you dream? what is the dream? when you walk out the door, what happens? >> i don't walk out the door. i'm always at home. i'm just at home. and my mom tells me, you don't remember? you got out. you don't? and i tell her, no. it's like -- you know, and i walk outside and the sun's shining on me. i can feel the heat from the sun and the fresh air and everything. but i never walk out the doors. i'm always home. >> why does that make you cry? >> because i want to go home. it's all i think about, is my family. >> sometimes all you need is a good foundation. >> exactly. >> all you need is a couple of months. all you need is a few years to get you rolling in the right direction. this may be the last time. i hope and i pray that this is the last time for me. and that my life will get better after this. >> i tend to think that every time i come in here i'll change, i'll change, i'll change. but i just feel the drugs pull me back out. you know.

not even -- however long it takes me to go back to my old neighborhood, it's hard because that's about my sober time right there. so the bus ride over there. there's a lot of dreams and goals and situations that we dream of. but as soon as we hit that fresh air, it's over. >> most of us have dreams that we'll never -- we'll never see realized. and that's a hard thing. but as far as doing the things that i wanted to do, becoming a doctor, you know, things like that, that's never going to happen for me now. >> anybody have a message you want to send out? >> julissa, if you hear me, i love you and i'm sorry. and i just want you to be here for me. give me another chance. i never meant to abandon you guys. >> i just want to say i love my twins very much. they know that. e.t. phone home. my mother, please contact me. it's been quite some time, and you know i'm here. please get in touch with me. my brothers, i'm sorry. my stepdad, you're the bomb. i love you. >> i just wanted to say to the foster care parents, thanks. my kids shouldn't suffer for me

being a drug addict. and i just appreciate you guys and god bless you. >> i just want to thank everybody that supports me because they still have faith when i don't. >> and what do you want to say? >> i just want to thank my sister and erica for being there for me through this whole entire thing, every single day, no matter what. they don't miss a beat. i love you guys. >> i love you, jen. i love you, mom. and franny. all my mother-in-law, my brother-in-law. i love you guys. and thank you for supporting me. and i'll see you guys soon. ]dc(ñqgñ/twg

you know, i could blame it on everything, but when it comes right down to it it was me. you know, i made the wrong decisions. i made the wrong choices. you know, everybody has free will. and my free will was always on a path of destruction. >> i just look at it like i can't let my time do me. i have to do my time. i chose to put myself with that crowd and with those people, you know. so i have to of course accept the consequences that are given to me. and i have no choice but to go and do the time. >> it's what we deserve,

actually, being incarcerated in here. we don't think about who we're hurting or whose moms or what children. we don't think about none of that stuff. our own children are incarcerated. >> if i could do it all over again, i would never lose my freedom. because freedom is one thing that we have that we don't have in here. you know. and freedom is very precious. and when we're out there, we take advantage of it. you know? and it's not something that you play with. it's something that you guard and you cherish. you know, because freedom is everything to me. >> if you come to jail just stay to yourself. it's not a place to make friends. you come here by yourself, you'll leave by yourself. >> can you say good-bye friend in sign language for me?

-- captions by vitac -- www.vitac.com ♪ i'm in a woman's prison with bars all around ♪ ♪ i caught my darling cheating ♪ that's when i shot him down ♪ i caught him in a honky-tonk with a girl i used to know ♪ ♪ the door to my cell is open wide and a voice cries out, oh no ♪ ♪ there's a crowd outside screaming ♪ ♪ let that murderer die ♪ but above all the voices i can hear my mama cry ♪ ♪ i'm sitting here on death row

♪ ♪ and lord, i've lost my mind ♪ for love i killed my darling ♪ and for love i lose my life ♪ come on, ladies. come on, leon. let's go. ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪