marriage. the judge ruled the 2004 voter approved measure to be unconstitutional. and finally, the first patient to test positive for the often deadly mers virus has been released from a hospital in indiana. health officials say the patient is fully recovered and the public is not at risk. and the patient reportedly got it while working in southeast asia. that does it for us, thank you. i'm bill weir. welcome to cnn tonight. well, yet again, donald sterling speaks, someone hits record and america shakes its collective head. this time he gets into the motivational for the racist rant, and it is downright creepy. >> and i'm talking to a girl, i'm trying to have sex with her. i'm trying to play with her. >> uh-huh. well, much the way rob ford gave us the o-- i only smoke crack

when i'm drunk defense. the clippers owner is trying the, i'm only racist when i'm horny. if you can believe it, it was 20 years ago next month that 95 million people tuned in to watch a white ford bronco roll down the freeway. some say that scene changed the american culture. and certainly changed the life of kim goldman, sister of the late ron goldman. they ta she talks about anger and the chance to get vengeance against o.j. and i'll talk to one mom who used the best kind of internet sensation. a boy who was diagnosed but helped as many people as he possibly could. and did he ever, to the tune of 12 million and counting. it is a story that will melt your heart.

but we begin, once again with the political fight over a well-worn topic, benghazi. check out the tweets john boehner announced today, the majority members on the select committee on benghazi, the only line missing, let's get ready to rumble." i am joined now by a man who says not only should democrats attend by that benghazi can actually wind up helping hillary in a run for president. joining me now, lanny davis, and author of the book "crisis tales" five rules for coping can crisis, in business and life. thank you for joining us. >> thank you, and talk about the word well-worn. i couldn't be happier that the republicans are helping to change the subject about why they can't answer questions about health care, jobs and all the things people care about. and are giving us a chance to talk about partisan republicans.

that is all they can do is investigate, investigate, investigate. well-worn, old news, been there. done that. >> now, the decision for democrats is whether or not to go along with this. so we're just you know, boycotted outright. what is your advice? >> look, when we have facts on our side i see no reason to boycott. i see a lot of reasons to embarrass them. for example, every time they say the word "cover-up" and the word spontaneous demonstration triggered by the cairo protests, those words have been used to show a cover-up by the white house. when we know the fact that they can't dispute, which is the cia wrote that sentence based upon then current intelligence and turned out to be wrong. will they are honest, or will we challenge them by showing up saying who wrote the words "spontaneous demonstration" are you willing to say the cia was in the tank for the white house when the deputy director who

worked for three republican careers over a 30-year career is being accused of what? no republican has the guts or the courage, certainly not congressman gouty who is driving this thing, saying the cia that wrote that spontaneous demonstration turned out to be protests? turned out to be wrong because he based it on current intelligence that changed over time. >> but the ben rhodes e-mail that was wrote recently you have to admit it was a screw-up in the communication shop from the white house. >> well, i know what he meant, he talked about the protests from the video across the middle east. we all know there were protests, there were demonstrations, it was about the video. i would have taken all of these talking points, 14 versions if i were in the white house and put them out to the american people immediately to show that the phrase "spontaneous demonstration" came from the cia. susan rice was left in the wind

while they talked about the points. that is why i would get the facts out to embarrass the republicans with something called facts, rather than the conspiracy theories of gouty, who believes that aliases were hidden, and spread around the world because of benghazi. this is the same person who will probably tell us that green martians will be in a conspiracy to take over the country next week. >> now, others say voters don't care about benghazi, four people died. do you agree? >> it is pretty harsh, i give a damn, secretary of state, president obama, everybody, hillary clinton, very close friend of ambassador stevens. of course, everybody has great grief and regrets that mistakes were made. intelligence was wrong. that more protection was not

granted. secretary of state clinton pointed ambassador pickering who served four presidents from ronald reagan all the way through president obama. and admiral mullen, the chairman of the joint chiefs two people who can't exactly be called partisan. she appointed them for a board immediately. they studied and came it with 29 recommendations. they say there was systemic failure. what did hillary clinton say? i take responsibility on implementing every recommendation. and she said recently her greatest regret of secretary of state was what happened in this tragedy. so i do give a damn. >> you know, they would love to get her in front of the committee to testify. how would you advise her? >> well, look, this is a circus. the white water hearings were a circus. the entire republican investigation machine only knows how to investigate and make a media circus. they don't know how to solve problems and haven't told us what to do about people with

pre-existing conditions while they want to repeal obamacare. this is a circus, would hillary clinton want to contribute to this circus? i suppose she would. but she also has the facts on her side and the fact she accepted responsibility. i figure they will probably call her just to increase the circus, but they're not helping themselves. they're helping the democracy party. i have no fear about these hearings. i think that is why the democratic party ought to show up. >> now, you had kind words for rand paul, who could be an opponent against hillary clinton. and he keeps dusting off these attacks regarding the lewinsky affair. i want to show you his tack today. take a listen on what he said today. >> absolutely, i think it is important to note for six months leading up to benghazi, there were multiple requests for security. she turned these down. what i would ask anybody is, is it ever appropriate for a 50-year-old man to take

advantage of, even if it is consensual a 20-year-old woman in the work place and have relations in the office? no one agrees with that being appropriate. almost any job in the whole country you would be fired. i think he harassed people. he was sued multiple times for it. so yes, i think what he did was absolutely inappropriate. is that being a predator? i don't know how you want to define it. but the thing is, most people would say it is contemptible. >> i wrote a column about that man disagreeing with everything he stands for, but saying he was an intellectually nice man. his dad called me and thanked me for the column. let me revise my view. nasty doesn't work in america, senator paul. you're a nasty person to viciously attack and lay that on hillary clinton when the american people long ago heard president clinton apologize for his private conduct. i would say that my first

donation for president of the united states in the republican party will be to rand paul, may he be the nominee. i hope he is the nominee and we'll win by a 50-state landslide. because he is nasty and nasty doesn't sell in american politics. >> lenny davis, appreciate your being here. >> thank you. >> and joining me somebody here who is familiar with the lewinsky scandal, and also what it takes to make a full recovery from the scandal. so in this week after the "vanity fair" came out, we want to reach out donnie know rice, who was sitting on the lap of hungagary hart, who was in his d run for the white house. but this week, donna rice hughes is devoted to make the internet safer for kids, with enough is enough. thank you for joining us. >> hi, bill, good to be with

you. >> what did you think when you saw the piece regarding monica and vanity fair, trying to take back her narrative. >> i applaud her for trying, i thought she was very articulate. my heart went out to her, bill, i think she has had a rough time for a lot of reasons. and it is very hard for anybody to really empathize with this sort of perfect storm scenario and not be able to get on with your life. fortunately i made some choics s that moved me along. there was not anyone prior to me that had kind of carved that path. so it is a difficult thing no matter what you are. >> you are i guess pre-internet, so you had relative anonymity. but what was it like seeing your face in news print? >> well, it was not anonymity at

all. what happened was when the real news goes tabloid, and the perceptions, it is hard to break through the labels and perceptions, so for me, it was like a year and a half. i came to a fork in the road where i could exploit it and make millions and further my career and other things, or just go underground because i really wanted the pain to count for something bigger than me. and so that is the point i came to. because credibility was important to be known for who i was and not for the labels. so i made that choice to get back to my faith. to get back to my roots. and that meant going underground. i didn't know it at the time. and little did i know seven years later i would actually be public again. and i heard somebody say in "the daily beast" or some article that was rewritten. that you can rebrand yourself.

well, i was not trying to rebrand myself. but what i was doing was following god and the way he directed me. and it just so happened i went back in the publiceye deal iing with an issue that actually pioneered a movement to help other people. so i've been really blessed and very fortunate. my heart just went out to her. >> well, monica at least, expressed a desire, one of the reasons for coming out of the shadow after that was seeing tyler clemente, the rutgers student that tragically took her own life. and wants to be an advocate for those who were shamed. what advice would you give her? >> well, actually i wrote a blog on tyler clemente, and that is what we do. i would say that is a good and noble thing because it is so important to be able to empathize with people who have gone through great public humiliation and brokenness.

use your pain to count. it is very redeeming not only for those you are helping but also yourself. the first thing i would tell her, before you make any big decisions get your life straight with god and he will guide you. >> donna rice hughes, good to see you after all of these years, really appreciate it. >> you bet. >> and a good case of laryngitis. we'll have the latest shocking audio when we come back. just $10 including creamy fettuccine alfredo, and our classic lasagna. plus unlimited soup or salad and warm breadsticks. signature favorites, just $10 all week long, at olive garden. nehey!r! [squeals] ♪ [ewh!]

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well, if you have any secret recordings of clipper owner donald sterling you may want to get them out now before the market becomes completely saturated. for the second day in a row, they have released audio of him defending himself after the racist rant with v. stiviano cost him a lifetime ban with the nba. and in it he explains he was not really thinking with his head. >> when i'm talking to a girl, i'm trying to have sex with her. i'm trying to play with her. what -- you know, if you ever are trying to have sex with a girl and you're talking to her privately you don't think anybody is there. you may say anything in the world, what difference does it

make? then if the girl tapes it and releases it, my god, it is awful. >> meanwhile, as sterling and his estranged wife try to fight their exile, richard parsons, one of the most respected african-americans has been appointed as ceo. and joining me now, the nba player's association, roger, good to see you, thank you for joining us. >> no problem, thank you for having me. >> so where do we start with this latest recording? yesterday, i thought this may be a very sly way of damage control. like hey, let me pretend to defend myself and we'll pretend it gets leaked. but when you listen to that, even that doesn't make any sense anymore does it? >> it is a tough one. it doesn't. the damage is done here.

and you know, the more tapes come out you don't know what is real and what is not. but the bottom line is america and the world heard donald sterling's thoughts and views and can't really take that back. >> is there any impatience within the player's association when it comes to seeing action? it has been a couple of weeks now. and that first announcement from the commissioner it seemed like it was going to be more expedient than this. are you guys getting frustrated? >> i wouldn't say we're getting frustrated. we understand there is a process. you can't just you know kick someone out of the league overnight. and so we understand that. but at the same time, we're paying close attention. we're in touch with adam silver and the nba. and we expect a swift resolution. >> what is your reaction to this appointment of interim ceo? dick parsons? >> i applaud adam silver and the

nba, what a great choice. don't know him personally. but great reputation. i have heard a lot of wonderful things about him. and obviously he has been a very successful businessman over the years. so i think that is a step in the right direction for that organization. he is a model citizen. and somebody who is going to be great. so hopefully that is the first step for new ownership. >> now, we've heard yesterday from shelly sterling, donald sterling's estranged wife saying she is half owner of that team. she is not a racist. you can't take her end of the team away from her. and for some legal reasons she manages to hold onto control what would the players' reaction be to that? >> it wouldn't be good. i have talked to many guys in our league. i have time to go in different locker rooms and spend time with our guys.

and everyone pretty much is on the same page that there needs to be brand-new ownership. you know, and whether it is his wife or you know, whoever it is in that family we all feel like it is time for new ownership. >> is there a sense among the fellow players that this is a watershed moment when it comes to race relations in your game at least? >> absolutely. absolutely. it is, you know, this was a monumental moment. it was an opportunity for the league to step out against racism. and adam silver in the league did that. our players banded together and stood strong with that. so i absolutely think it is. >> and i want to ask about jason collins and michael sam who might actually be drafted today over in the nfl. do you think it is an equal watershed moment for homophobia, or do you think those two things should be separate? >> well, at the end of the day it is 2014. and we live in a world where

everyone has rights. you know, freedom of speech. freedom to date who they want, love who they want. and so absolutely. i think what collins did was terrific. the young kid, sam, possibly getting drafted is outstanding. you know, sports is an opportunity for anybody, all walkings of life to compete. and there should be no problem with anyone doing that. >> and finally, let's see. three of your former teams, you got the spurs, the wizards, the heat still in there. who are you rooting for? >> well, of course, i'm rooting for my heat. that is the team i was on this year. i was there the majority of the year. they're like my brothers and i'm down here in miami hoping we can get that done. but i still feel good about those wizards. those young kids are doing well. >> all right, roger mason, jr.,

appreciate your time. i'll go with the heat for no other reason than i love south beach. thank you, have a great weekend. now, this scandal is about recorded words and offensive ideas. 20 years ago the world was involved in one that involved two murders, names like ito and goldman two household names. none of us can forget the o.j. simpson trial. and coming up, somebody who cannot forgive either.

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kim goldman, sister of the late ron goldman, and author of "i can't forgive my 20-year battle with o.j. simpson." thank you for joining us. >> thank you. >> is an anniversary like this more painful than the times in between? >> it is not more painful, it is getting a lot of coverage, the media is marking it. for me, it is just like last year and will be like next year. >> the title of it, i can't forgive, starts it all. there is a scene where you are driving in a strip mall parking lot and there he is, o.j. tell me about it. >> so i was driving in some mall, i don't know why i was there. and this figure presented himself in front of my car, i

stopped because i recognized his walk, the swagger, the little limp he had in his name. i knew the ripples in the back of his head after staring at it for nine months before. and i white knuckled the vehicle, i said i could mow him over, and nobody would know. i stopped. that is not who i am. that is not my core being. i thought of my dad and just would never put him through that. >> short of running him over with your car did you think about stopping -- >> no, it really was a purge of emotion, just that intense reach that he conjured up in me so so long. i was so shocked and then he just kept on walking and i took a deep breath and continued on my journey. >> i imagine the verdict might have been the lowest point. what were the ebbs of this, what were the lowest low for you? >> my gosh, burying my brother. obviously, that was the hardest

thing for me to -- to watch him get rolled down into the ground. that was horrible. the verdict, obviously was devastating. just to know that after all we had gone through and fought for that he was found not guilty. i felt really betrayed. >> but then came the civil verdict. >> the civil verdict. >> was there satisfaction there? >> yes, there was -- absolutely. we fought hard for that as a victim's family to be -- to feel empowered to be able to take ownership for your journey and fight. it was great to have 12 jurors to unanimously find him guilty for the crimes. and then he walked out the same door we did. >> and then he was sent away for the crazy thing in las vegas for the armed robbery, he is doing time now. you must have taken satisfaction for that. >> i did, i was a little giddy, maybe a little too much. you know, we had pursued him so strongly for a long time, and i think publishing the book pushed him over the edge. knowing he stormed into a hotel

in las vegas to steal stuff back. there was vindication, knowing he would be locked up. it gave me a chance to breathe. >> and you actually tried to visit him in jail, why? >> he had been so large in our brains and my home, i needed to shrink him down to size so that i could manage him better. i wanted to diminish the importance he played. i asked if i could come see him so i could see him in shackles and the orange jump suit and me finally be the one to walk away and sit behind -- >> no response? >> no, no response. i don't know that i was entirely surprised by that. but no surprise, tried to negotiate some terms with his attorney but it didn't manifest. >> few people can relate to what you went through with this, but i assume most therapists would say you got to let go of the hate at some point. it is not going to bring back your brother. and you're just living --

letting him live rent-free in your head. i don't know if that is naive or not. but what would you say? >> i don't think doctthere is a certain path we have to follow. i don't think there is a right or wrong way to do this. he is in a compartment tucked on a shelf where i don't need to have access to it and when i do, i get it. for me, i will have a happy life, i enjoy my life, i have success. i run a nonprofit for teens. i have a beautiful son. i manage my grief, anger, it is appropriate when somebody stabs your loved one in the heart that you hate them, but it doesn't debilitate me. >> you went on to do reali-- thy shows? >> i have no ill will, the only person i have ill feelings for

are the person who murdered my brother. it is hard for me to find closure and hard for me to move on like people want. because it is so big. and it is -- continues to still grow and still draw so much attention that i just -- take a lot of deep breaths and find my balance in it. >> and people should take a moment to remember your brother at these anniversaries and not just focus on all the other -- >> and that is what i do. and i appreciate that. >> yeah, kim, happy mother's day, best to your son. and thank you for coming in. the book is "can't forgive, 20-year battle with o.j. simpson" kim goldman. and coming up, i'll talk to a remarkable woman who knows all too well the crisis in nigeria is not the first time there has been a crisis there. she helps put girls back together. you have to meet her next. of complete darkness.

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a stunning report by amnesty international today backs up the allegations that some villagers in northeast nigeria who claim officials were warned of a

pending attack by the terrorist group boko haram on that all girls school but not enough soldiers could be brought to respond. with over 200 girls still missing, the nigerian president denies those allegations today and he insists he is just as upset about their disappearance as the rest of his nation. >> we must work with the global community to make sure that we bring back the girls. complete with the parents, the father and the president of this country i feel pain. i will not sleep with my two eyes closed until these girls are brought back to their parents. >> and joining me now, sister rosemary nurumbay, one of time magazine's 100 most influential people. ladies, both, thank you for joining us.

lauren, please just school us a little bit on boko haram. who are these guys and what do they want? >> well, they're a militant islamist group. they have been operating in northern nigeria for over a decade now. but really they are insurgents who came to the fore in 2010. since them, they increased in strength and geographic reach. they are conducting attacks almost daily in the northeast these days. >> i have heard reports that they can almost out-gun the soldiers and police in the area. >> those are the reports, and that really left the nigerian forces on the back foot a bit and left them defensive about their operations today. >> who are their links to al-qaeda? >> well, we don't know for sure, but they do definitely seem to have links to al-qaeda. we're not sure exactly what their ties might be to any other al-qaeda grouping internationally. >> and based on your knowledge of this group, what is it that

is to their advantage? is it the geography? the topography? can these drones help? what is the smartest way to round them up? >> it is a pretty remote part of the country. this is not the sort of triple canopy dense forest that you see in central africa. but they have caves. they're operating sometimes in a mountainous area along the cameroon border. and if the girls have been split up it will make it very difficult to find them and rescue them. >> well, sister rosemary, you do fascinating working in fact, you got a standing ovation. let's play a listen to find out why people love you so much. >> i'm really not only to speak but to shout about the pain of these women. and it is no longer an option for us. it is a duty for all of us to

get involved in healing the wounds of these women. >> you work extensively with women who have escaped joseph coney's resistance army. based on what they tell you when they get out, what do you think about these girls that are missing now? do you think that they have been moved to other parts, other countries, do you think there is any hope they will be found? >> it is possible that they might have moved them to other countries. but i don't think it could have been very far. and i really still think that they can be found. the thing is that all of us have to become very, very firm in looking for these girls. everybody should get involved. and in case they are moved to other countries everybody show pay attention. they should get these girls and really take them back. >> i'm sure you must support the awareness campaign, michelle obama and thousands of others

around the world, even the single hash tag, do you think it helps? >> yes, it helps, i am supporting it totally. i have already put myself there. and of course i would like everybody to be in the shoes of these mothers. let everybody feel the pain of these women who are praying for their children. and for us women i think it is very, very important to come together and tell these mothers they are not alone right now. we are with them. and this will help them understand that we are together with them, we are feeling the pain. and we're also going to continue as i say to shout to the world, let everybody get involved. we're looking for these girls. >> and if the stars were aligned and so many prayers answered and the majority of these girls could be rescued what is the challenge psychologically for them? what is the healing process? how long does it take? >> you know it is a long process. and i think there are a lot of

people who take it easy and think it is easy to treat these girls and heal them in a month, two or three. that is just a disillusion. because these girls have gone through a very painful process, psychologically and physically. it will take long. the thing we all have to accept and be convinced about is that we need to work with these girls. we need to accompany them and build in them confidence again. then they might be ready to talk. but we have to show them that we are listening to them. we are with them and we are going to bring them from where they lost hope. we have to say hope is still there for you. and we have to tell you that your dignity is actually not stolen from you. we have to restore their dignity. even their education which is being robbed from them now, we must say you still have a chance. we must give them the opportunity. >> sister, you're doing amazing work. thank you for being here and sharing your story. lauren, thank you for your

story, as well. rosemary nirumbay. >> and coming up the inspirational story of a teen who wouldn't go down without a for you to. and a catchy chorus and a huge loveable soul. his message of love and living goes on thanks to his mom. and we'll meet her. ♪ ♪ ♪ all day, everyday. olive garden's signature favorites, just $10 including creamy fettuccine alfredo, and our classic lasagna. plus unlimited soup or salad and warm breadsticks. signature favorites, just $10 all week long, at olive garden. i live in a world oi am totally blind.. i've been blind since birth. i lost my sight to eye disease.

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say "hi" rudy. [ barks ] [ chuckles ] i'd do anything to keep this guy happy and healthy. that's why i'm so excited about these new milk-bone brushing chews. whoa, i'm not the only one. it's a brilliant new way to take care of his teeth. clinically proven as effective as brushing. ok, here you go. have you ever seen a dog brush his own teeth? the twist and nub design cleans all the way down to the gum line, even reaching the back teeth. they taste like a treat, but they clean like a toothbrush. nothing says you care like a milk-bone brushing chew. [ barks ]

i'm 17 years old. i have been told i have a few months to live. but i still have a lot of work to do. i want everyone to know. you don't have to find out you're dying to start living. >> wise words from a young man with a giant soul. while many of us might wither under a medical death sentence at such a tender age, zach put his soul into song and became an international phenomenon. >> i'll go up, up, up ♪ ♪ but i'll try real higher ♪ go up in the clouds ♪

because the view is a little nicer ♪ >> with no record label or wide play, clouds hit number one on itunes a year ago. his story has been seen by over 12 and a half million people on youtube. all of it, an answer to the prayer his mom uttered when they got the devastating diagnosis, okay, lord, you can have him. but if he must die i want it to be for something big, somebody's life to be changed forever. that is her new book, fly a little higher. great to have you here. >> oh, thank you for having me. >> i have been teary all day watching the videos reading through the book. happy mother's day or is that such a thing, do you equate that with a loss? >> kind of, may is a big month for us because of zach's birthday and he died on may 20th of last year and then of course mother's day. but he was a great kid. so i am blessed to be his mom. >> try to explain for us the im

for writing the book and his message, he was so ill. he wanted to perk up others who didn't know how to talk to him through this. take me through it. >> it kind of started, after we found out there were no treatments left and he was terminal, i asked him if he would consider writing letters to his loved ones. because i wanted the rest of us to have something to hold onto. after he was gone and -- he thought about it. he tried, he told me he tried to write letters but it was just not coming out right. and then it turned into songs. that was the way that message came through and that's what he left for us. >> when it picked up and caught viral fire, what was that like? >> we had two million hits on

clouds. it was surreal. you really can't, when you're in it, it's hard to stand out of it and get the scope of it all. but it was fun at first. but then as zach got more sick, it was just kind of something that was happening out there. and it didn't have a lot to do with what we were enduring at home. >> right. i know you wanted to write this to help other folks out there who are going through this. you describe yourself as being in two separate worlds. there was practical mom world, and my son is dying, i don't want to do this world. i have a 10-year-old little girl. i can't fathom. what do you tell parents who are going through the same struggle? >> i think what we learned rather quickly the way you do it is truly one day at a time, you know. and that was kind of our mantra. we said okay, we're here. this is where we live, in the present. and you always have that backdrop of death. but if you -- if you live there

all the time, you lose the joy that can be found right here. and so we learned to live that way. and that would be my greatest advice to somebody going through this. it's just learn to live now. he was lucky. you were lucky to have him, i can tell from the clips. the folks who sold pancakes, rainn wilson's group did an amazing documentary. but he really appreciated you as well. and you can see your parenting. this is zach talking about mom and dad. >> mom and dad, the best parents you could ever ask for. i only wish i could have kids and raise them like you raised me. because you did one hell of a job. you're the best parents anyone could ever ask for. and i love both of you so much.

and thank you for being my parents. >> oh, my gosh. it's the good ones. why the good ones? >> yeah, it happens a lot. >> how about amy, his girlfriend? there is just a sweet moment in the doc where they had a picnic date at the metrodome, and they talked about getting married and maybe trying to start a family, figured death until us part. is she doing? >> she is doing so well. she is a remarkable woman. i've said, like i say it in the book too, she is the strongest woman i know. because she came into this after we knew zach was terminal. so that was a decision. and she was -- she was a rock for me. she was a rock for zach. and she is doing remarkably well. >> this sort of thing could divide a lot of families. and kill a lot of faith out there. >> right. >> it seemed to make yours stronger on both counts? >> you know, that was one of the

reasons i wrote the book. i wanted to show people. i think it's easy watching the videos to think that we're a perfect family, and we're not. you know, we had struggles. it was hard. and i can totally understand how families fell apart. there is a lot of stress there. but we made a decision that we were going to come together and we were going to fight through. and we're stronger for it. >> well, "fly a little higher" is amazing. >> thank you. >> it will make you want to hug your mom or your baby. and also very instructive in talking to people who are going through such enormous grief. again, happy mother's day. >> thank you. >> thanks for being here. >> oh, my pleasure. >> let's go out with a little more of zach's song. >> that sounds great. >> we'll be right back. ♪ but i'll fly a little higher, go up in the clouds because the view's a little nicer ♪ ♪ up here, it won't be long now ♪

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