metropolis you know where you're a back series that. nobody seems like sure something new and i love you even want to show what a certain looks like this was like me right says 50 nations a 50 story. and if you carry personal tips on berlin's very best. covering with d.w. . munch mud than if there are days when i wish i had someone. i didn't mention me seen it on chi but there's no one. has i often feel like that here.

then i turn inward and ask myself why do i feel this way is this. my not some and some cut that i couldn't escape or the kind of loneliness i felt to present it was so overpowering that i couldn't avoid confronting it once it was the . french get me when i make peace with myself i don't feel anything the same way anymore. then i was myself and it's ok.

and some credit was offered for my socio learning is with shame which. is something i don't like to reveal. when i was all set to appear in this film my 1st thought was i don't want to tell anybody that i'm lonely serious crime. when all of inca moved away from berlin 5 years ago she dreamed of belonging to a community of friends in the countryside. you're. in and i know i'm a single parent i live in this house with my son usually who is 11. back to school i like the house i like the woods i like lots of things here and i

haven't regretted the move. but there are very few people living out here i've enjoyed i kept looking for fellowship. and then i thought i have to accept things the way they are. described as. clips mind of why no. sin even my friends don't always see how unhappy i am that i'm alone or how abandoned i feel sometimes. it's something i don't often show to the outside world. something i don't like showing. of course i'd rather be seen as a happy person and i am one that's not always like this. is. good.

and hope to duncan is the main reason i felt lonely was that i saw no future for myself. i was scared and nothing had any meaning and i felt like no one understood everyone was concerned about me and tried to help but they didn't understand. marcus has been living in the eastern german city of leipzig for the past year he overcame a crisis and rebuilt his life. which appears to do it i had studied economics and was highly motivated from the start. but when i was finishing my doctoral thesis i experienced my 1st crisis. the thesis wasn't moving ahead and at the same time i was hoping to find meaning in

a new intimate relationship. you know the 2 of i was in a difficult situation and didn't want to admit it. for ethical reasons i didn't want to end my existing relationship. i didn't want to abandon my girlfriend. but i was contorting myself pretending and that brought on panic attacks very severe ones just like. marcus looked for new ways to make sense of his life. going to i don't know where i got the idea from but i thought that yoga and meditation. would help calm me down. and in fact i did start feeling a lot better. i was more optimistic and reached a point where i thought the improvement was permanent. but then i had

a relapse. 2 2 2 2 2 2 mostly so i have to admit i never wanted to live in a senior citizens home not with all those old mummies. i didn't mind visiting former colleagues and friends but living one never. knows but here i am like a mummy myself. 95. after

suffering a stroke 5 years ago my lease moved into the marchese barr home for retired actors environment. i have lost so much strength in the 5 years i've been living here i have to say. old age. why am i still around. the world to try i was an actress for 45 years i trained at the starts to. feel on feel to by the end i graduated in 1944 on the world was still going on. i was playing the classics was what i enjoyed most.

then here in d.c. or when you see what it's like growing old in a home like this or in any nursing home it's shocking. this shrieking. and contact made in under mangers very little contact with other people. conversation is limited to good morning enjoy your walk. and so on their own for instance i still don't know who sits behind me and that's very sad and this is. one everybody goes to their own room and stays there all alone. living in the countryside isn't the only reason she feels lonely. and for them as my parents were always terribly busy both of them had full time jobs and my brother was disabled from birth. so i used to read lots of fairy tales

and i withdrew into myself. yeah i want to spend. yeah bush as a child i was very lonely and it was like being froze and. i began to feel that i wasn't important i'm not all right. i'm not interesting. and that's a factor in my current loneliness i still have this feeling that i'm not very interesting not important enough to be loved. unconsciously i carry this feeling around with me as a kind of premise with which i approach people. and they sense that. and burn the house.

as you wish but of course you can also feels lonely sometimes here because there just aren't many people around. him there's just the 2 of us. even have the feeling that he may have learned his negative behavior for me so when he makes a firm call he says oh they're not interested in me the same way that i do. i talk to him about it recently that like someone once told me a tiger makes 19 attempts before ripping into its prey to avoid and obviously people are preoccupied with other things. but that doesn't mean that i'm not ok. this is something i want to work on. i want to cut through this negative recurring fault. and.

marcus was caught off guard by his relapse he'd been doing so well. trapped in a vicious circle of negative thoughts he retreated further and further from the real world. and the. like i started to think i was in a place that nobody else could understand and that my thoughts were unique. to listening and little. or. no fun and i visited friends in hamburg and felt lonely when i was there simply because i was different and. not because my friends had changed but because i was different then one evening i thought i had reached the end in this.

new york uniform i travelled to keel. and wanted to throw myself off the high bridge cost. but i didn't do it. from this point i had reached a point where i saw that i wasn't able to put an end to my life either. inside or something so i thought ok so you have maybe another 50 years to live and what i mean anything for you so you'll survive the next 5 minutes. that is going to be your path in life and the.

majlis longs for interactions that she can't find in the senior citizens home. as a matter of not burden. when i 1st came here my neighbor was mentally very active place the heat. but she was happy to converse with me. how we work closely bers but it got to be less and less. on this field 0 people regress and become confused for. a. device she doesn't know what season it is. she says it's may when it's autumn the of the on the. many. susie to see this an experience

it i don't say anything because it's painful. the tool yeah can you understand that . if you can. because you see i'm talkative mange and. whole of i need people around me people i can talk to con. fear me a contact about i thought there'd be much more interaction here it would do best i've made an effort but i'm always so dreadfully alone when i come back to my room and this is a sad feeling this is that's loneliness and 9. most of your freedom sometimes the feelings that prevent me from calling somebody are

not even conscious they're unconscious i feel that it's my own fault that i'm alone you're alone because of the way you are. so i can't really put it into words but it's always the 1st step to make myself aware of it. yes i would really like to have contact with somebody amounts ok it's ok that i want contact with people. look i'm almost crying. and it's ok that i want to be alone i mean that i want to be in contact. i'm allowed to want that it's my right i have a right to want that one right it's a wish that is justified it's ok. and i know that and it's funny but this is a sentence i didn't have a religious upbringing but sometimes the sentence god loves me helps it does

something for me although as i say i don't have any relationship to god otherwise. but apparently the simple word of god that stands for universe and world and world soul or something. it acts a bit like a switch. i am loved yes i've been to song. from the 1st we set the boundaries as you saw on the website there are rules for cuddling that are important for you and me. just so we understand the framework of our interaction skills. it has to be absolutely clear that the client doesn't expect anything personal from a cuddler of the path. of if that happened it wouldn't be tragic but it would lead

to the cuddling sessions being terminated them that's really important and something. i want to pass on to other people all the experiences that did me good and then i've learned. physical contact say physical contact in a defined and protected framework. that's what helped me when i was a long way and i'm talking. about.

nice wonderful that feels so good when you haven't been out for days on end. open sesame look you benches in the sunshine. yes right in the sun. this is for her friends they ought to mean a lot to marley's. then said alan still it's when things get really bad i say. she always knows to come when i'm really down in the dumps. and then climb back up. and then you appear see that's right. i think that you're here.

and i'm glad that you're here. together with the fellow clown my ts take it entertains the residents of the senior citizens home in brandenburg. one of the residents has written a poem. if you rush on ahead through life. you miss the beauty surrounding you and the meaning of life. you remain a lonely. to my eyes most of them are like you to give them a big hug. as

vanity says when i put on my clowns know it's like throwing a switch as a result time this is you know it's as if a light goes on. and then i'm transported to another dimension. then i me as if you know i mean it was if you know and you as a few know is very active. she's happy. she's also the provokers have at times. said he hopes she hops through life through life and flies through life and is never the less sensitive she senses a lot of things but she maintains a lightness which is her strength. as much as it has an influence on my life but

there's a separation in my own life i'm not like yours if you know if you know. the if. you're. a new. club source in potential tipples i don't think there's a sure fire remedy for overcoming loneliness because everybody's different. for me it was essential to come to terms with myself to look at myself and not avoid what i saw. it but now i have reached

a point where i'm more at peace with myself and always more so and if i'm doing well i can also be happy when i'm alone. but then i go for a drive listen to music sing sit here at the lake do what's good for me. and then just. happy to. help me to feel comfy i don't have all that much strength anymore there are so many

things i'd like to do especially for other people. and to spend time with. the things and then i think but these things are self-evident. and. it's so simple. and i had of him when my grandmother was dying she said i haven't lived at all. it was dreadful to hear her say that. it was certainly a warning to me one that i never forget i mean help us all and france would. assist me so i don't want to be on my deathbed with the feeling that i've never lived in a clinic so hard.

to. give guy and i enjoy giving i give security i give you love i give comforting words. and cake or whatever. i like doing that i like cooking for people and having visitors i can fuss over with a cushion here this and that i like doing that. and of course i miss it when there's nobody for me to fuss over and it was all sleep in. their minds what i did is. reaching an age where you know you have just a few years left if you're lucky. if you had me

never again try to cope with my moods on my own i still need the people i found and . the moeller made by lone if paul who are not to mention. before. own does it's something i think about when i'm down in the dumps the shifty very nice guns. when i want to switch off completely. redid the emotional. he did so i still come back and think of people you still have them. be dean kinds to do all you can still talk to them really. you aren't entirely alone. not all alone.

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