how about taking a few risks you could even take a chance on one. don't expect happy ending. munch mud beneath there are days when i wish i had someone. i didn't mention with c.n.n. on chi but there's no one says this but i often feel like that here. then i turn inward and ask myself why do i feel this way is this. my not some and

some cut that i couldn't escape or the kind of loneliness i felt to present it was so overpowering that i couldn't avoid confronting it once it was the. bench get me when i make peace with myself i don't feel anything the same way anymore. then i was myself and it's ok.

and some credit was offered for i associate learning this with shame which. is something i don't like to reveal. when i was also to appear in this film my 1st thought was i don't want to tell anybody that i'm lonely serious kyra. when all he can moved away from berlin 5 years ago she dreamed of belonging to a community of friends in the countryside. you're. just going and i know i'm a single parent i live in this house with my son you he who is 11. back to school i like the house i like the woods i like lots of things here and i haven't regretted the move. but there are very few people living out here i've

enjoyed i kept looking for fellowship. and then i thought i have to accept things the way they are. described as. slips mind of why no. seeing even my friends don't always see how unhappy i am that i'm alone or how abandoned i feel sometimes. it's something i don't often show to the outside world. something i don't like sharing. of course i'd rather be seen as a happy person and i am one that's not always like this.

and i hope to thank you and the main reason i felt lonely was that i saw no future for myself. i was scared nothing had any meaning and i felt like no one understood everyone was concerned about me and tried to help but they didn't understand. marcus has been living in the eastern german city of leipzig for the past year he overcame a crisis and rebuilt his life. force which appears to be that i had studied economics and was highly motivated from the start. but when i was finishing my doctoral thesis i experienced my 1st crisis. but the thesis wasn't moving ahead and at the same time i was hoping to find meaning in a new intimate relationship and the law in the. next book

was you know the top i was in a difficult situation and didn't want to admit it. for ethical reasons i didn't want to end my existing relationship. i didn't want to abandon my girlfriend. but i was contorting myself pretending and that brought on panic attacks very severe ones. marcus looked for new ways to make sense of his life. i don't know where i got the idea from but i thought that yoga and meditation. and would help calm me down. and in fact i did start feeling a lot better. i was more optimistic and reached a point where i thought the improvement was permanent. but then i had a relapse. 2

2 2 2 2 2 mostly at least i have to admit i never wanted to live in a senior citizens home not with all those old mummies. i didn't mind visiting former colleagues and friends but living one never. knows but here i am like a mummy myself. 95. after suffering a stroke 5 years ago my lease moved into the marchese barr home for retired actor's environment. i have lost so much

strength in the 5 years i've been living here i have to say. old age. why am i still around. for a short break. we'll see i was an actress for 45 years i trained at the starts to. feel on feel to the end i graduated in 1944 on the war was still going on. for us playing the classics was what i enjoyed most. then here in these my order when you see what it's like growing old in a home like this or in any nursing home it's shocking.

and contact made in under mangers very little contact with other people. conversation is limited to good morning enjoy your walk on opportunity and so on their own for instance i still don't know who sits behind me and that's very sad on this is all we want is everybody goes to their own room and stays there all alone. for leakers has living in the countryside isn't the only reason she feels lonely. and for my parents were always terribly busy both of them had full time jobs and my brother was disabled from birth. so i used to read lots of fairy tales and i withdrew into myself. yeah i want to spend. yeah bush as

a child i was very lonely and it was like being froze and. i began to feel that i wasn't important i'm not all right. i'm not interesting. and that's a factor in my current loneliness i still have this feeling that i'm not very interesting not important enough to be loved. unconsciously i carry this feeling around with me as a kind of premise with which i approach people. and they sense that and burn the house. as you wish but of course you can also feels lonely sometimes here because there

just aren't many people around. them there's just the 2 of us. even have the feeling that he may have learned his negative behavior for me when he makes a firm call he says oh they're not interested in me the same way that i do. i mean i talk to him about it recently that like someone once told me a tiger makes 19 attempts before ripping into its prey to avoid and obviously people are preoccupied with other things. but that doesn't mean that i'm not ok. this is something i want to work on. i want to cut through this negative recurring fault. and. marcus was caught off guard by his relapse he'd been doing so well. trapped in

a vicious circle of negative thoughts he retreated further and further from the real world. of austin the kiss. of life i started to think i was in a place that nobody else could understand that my thoughts were unique dishearten looking under. or. going off on and i visited friends in hamburg and felt lonely when i was there simply because i was different and. not because my friends had changed but because i was different then one evening i thought i had reached the end in this. new york uniform i travelled to keel. and wanted to throw myself off the high

bridge last. night. but i didn't do it. from this point i had reached a point where i saw that i wasn't able to put an end to my life either. ok. it's or something so i thought ok so 1st you have maybe another 50 years to live. one would imagine this from so you'll survive the next 5 minutes. that is going to be your path in life.

my least longs for interactions that she can't find in the senior citizens home. as a monad burden. when i 1st came here my neighbor was mentally very active i stay here. but she was happy to converse with me. how we work closely abers but it got to be less and less. on this field 0 people regress and become confused for. a. device the she doesn't know what season it is. she says it's may when it's autumn the of the on the. may be. suzy to see this an experience it i don't say anything because it's painful. the tool yeah can you understand that

. if you can. because you see i'm talkative mange and. behold i need people around me people i can talk to can. hear me a contact i thought there'd be much more interaction here it would do best i've made an effort but i'm always so dreadfully alone when i come back to my room and this is a sad feeling this is bet's loneliness scene's am saying. no magic medicine to get food in sometimes the feelings that prevent me from calling somebody are not even conscious they're unconscious i feel that it's my own fault that i'm alone you're alone because of the way you are. so i can't really

put it into words but it's always the 1st step to make myself aware of it. so i would really like to have contact with somebody and that's ok it's ok that i want contact with people. look i'm almost crying. it's ok that i want to be alone i mean that i want to be in contact. i'm allowed to want that it's my right so i have a right to want that right it's a wish that is justified it's ok. and i know that and it's funny but this is the sentence i didn't have a religious upbringing but sometimes the sentence god loves me helps it does something for me although as i say i don't have any relationship to god otherwise. but apparently the simple word of god that stands for universe and world and world

soul or something. it acts a bit like this which. i am loved yes i've been to a song. from the 1st we set the boundaries as you saw on the website there are rules for cuddling that are important for you and me. just so we understand the framework of our interaction. it has to be absolutely clear that the client doesn't expect anything personal from a card largely involved the path of if that happened it wouldn't be tragic but it would lead to the cuddling sessions being terminated system that's really important and something.

i want to pass on to other people all the experiences that did me good and that i've learned. a couple physical contact say physical contact in a defined and protected framework. that's what helped me when i was lonely and. a host not. sure nice wonderful that feels so good when you haven't been out for days on end.

open sesame look you benches in the sunshine. yes right in the sun. visits from her friends they ought to mean a lot to miley. then says alan stilts when things get really bad i safely she always knows to come when i'm really down in the dumps. and then climb back up. and then you appear see that's right. i think that you're here. and i'm glad that you're here.

together with the fellow clown my ts take it entertains the residents of the senior citizens home in brandenburg. one of the residents has written a poem. if you rush on ahead through life. you miss the beauty surrounding you and the meaning of life. you know or you remain a lonely. tonight's most of them like you to give them a big hug. the .

president has. said when i put on my clowns know it's like throwing a switch as a visitor. you know it's as if i'm like goes on. and then i'm transported to another dimension. then i mean as a phina i mean he was if you know and he was a funeral is very active. she's happy. she's also the provokers have at times she said he hopes she hops through life through life and flies through life and is never the less sensitive she senses a lot of things but she maintains a lightness which is her strength. as much as it has an influence on my life but there's a separation in my own life i'm not like josefina if you know. the

reason that. you are. a little. club source in potential i don't think there's a sure fire remedy for overcoming loneliness because everybody's different. for me it was essential to come to terms with myself. to look at myself and not avoid what i saw. also watching. how it's been going but now i have reached a point where i'm more at peace with myself and always more so and if i'm doing

well i think i can also be happy when i'm alone. and. then i go for a drive listen to music sing sit here at the lake do what's good for me. and then just. happy. to. help me to feel tough i don't have all that much strength anymore there are so many things i'd like to do especially for other people. and to spend time with them. and then i think that these things are self-evident. and. it's so simple.

and my head of when my grandmother was dying she said i haven't lived at all but. it was dreadful to hear her say that. it was certainly a warning to me one that i never forget i mean help as well and fast. i don't want to be on my deathbed with the feeling that i've never lived an eclipse so hard. to.

give god as i enjoy giving i give security i give love i give comforting words. and cake or whatever. i like doing that i like cooking for people and having visitors i can fuss over with a cushion here this and that i like doing that. and of course i miss that when there's nobody for me to fuss over. is. reaching an age where you know you have just a few years left if you're lucky. if you had. never again try to cope with my moods on my own i still need the people i found and

. the more moved by lone if paul who are not to mention. before know. does it's something i think about when i'm down in the dumps the shift for a nice guy has been in the killer when i want to switch off completely. i did read it this is emotional. i still come back and think of people you still have them. begin constable you can still talk to them fully. you aren't entirely alone. not all alone. michael j. it's not good news here i've been talking so much but i had to tell you my story because the.

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humans love interactive sometimes you don't have a if you're about what provided that's great they're going to replace people in manufacturing they're going to replace doctors and lawyers they're going to replace people and jobs you would think but now if all the work is being done by machines what do you must do they try and keep getting better and better to get them and take the more and more advanced jobs or do they end up doing other things making art having social interaction with each other are we going to have enough humanity to make it possible for everyone or some people who want to say i want everything and the rest you guys have to be for a guy that allows individuals to discover their new reality they have to learn a new meaning for life and do things to do. that's a social revolution that hopefully we can move through slowly.

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