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tv   Faith Matters  Deutsche Welle  June 3, 2019 12:30pm-1:01pm CEST

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just people live why do they keep such a low profile. of us snoop around to catch a glimpse. of the talk on. the disc of the super rich starts to tip the. lunch money they need there are days when i wish i had someone. i didn't mention me seen it on chi but there's no one. i often feel like that here. then i turn inward and ask myself why do i feel this way is this. my
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absence i'm cut block that i couldn't escape or the kind of loneliness i felt to present it was so overpowering that i couldn't avoid confronting it like it was the . bench when i am at peace with myself i don't feel anything the same way anymore. then i was myself and it's ok.
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and some credit was offered for i associate learning this with shame which. it's something i don't like to reveal. when i was asked to appear in this film my 1st thought was i don't want to tell anybody that i'm lonely serious crime. when all he can moved away from berlin 5 years ago she dreamed of belonging to a community of friends in the countryside. you're. a life i'm a single parent i live in this house with my son usually who is 11. tractors how i like the house i like the woods i like lots of things here and i haven't regretted the move. but there are very few people living out here.
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lloyd i kept looking for fellowship. and then i thought i have to accept things the way they are. described as. 6 men of why no. seen even my friends don't always see how unhappy i am that i'm alone or how abandoned i feel sometimes. it's something i don't often show to the outside world. something i don't like showing. of course i'd rather be seen as a happy person and i am one that's not always like this.
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in the hope that duncan smith and the main reason i felt no money was that i saw no future for myself little feelings i was scared nothing had any meaning and i felt like no one understood everyone was concerned about me and tried to help but they didn't understand. marcus has been living in the eastern german city of leipzig for the past year he overcame a crisis and rebuilt his life. which appears to do it i had studied economics and was highly motivated from the start. but when i was finishing my doctoral thesis i experienced my 1st crisis. the thesis wasn't moving ahead and at the same time i was hoping to find meaning in a new intimate relationship. no longer to me oh. yeah yeah.
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i was in a difficult situation and didn't want to admit it. for ethical reasons i didn't want to end my existing relationship. with you i didn't want to abandon my girlfriend. but i was contorting myself pretending and that brought on panic attacks very severe ones like. markus look for new ways to make sense of his life. from going to starting over me and i don't know where i got the idea from but i thought that yoga and meditation would help calm me down. and in fact i did start feeling a lot better. i was more optimistic and reached a point where i thought the improvement was permanent. but then i had a relapse. 2
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2 2 2 2 2 mostly so i have to admit i never wanted to live in a senior citizens home not with all those old mummies. i didn't mind visiting former colleagues and friends but living one never. really but here i am like a mummy myself. at 95. after suffering a stroke 5 years ago my lease moved into the marchese back home for retired actors environment. indian food. i have lost so much
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strength in the 5 years i've been living here i have to say. old age. why am i still around. for a short break. and filthy rich i was an actress for 45 years i trained at the starts to. feel on feel to the end i graduated in 1944 and this was the world was still going on. for us playing the classics was what i enjoyed most. here in does my order when you see what it's like growing old in a home like this or in any nursing home it's shocking.
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and corn tucked it in under a manger is very little contact with other people. one conversation is limited to good morning enjoy your walk. and so on their own for instance i still don't know who sits behind me and that's very sad and this is. one everybody goes to their own room and stays there all alone. living in the countryside isn't the only reason she feels lonely. and for them as my parents were always terribly busy both of them had full time jobs and my brother was disabled from birth. so i used to read lots of fairy tales and i withdrew into myself. yeah i want to spend. yeah bush
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as a child i was very lonely and it was like being froze and. i began to feel that i wasn't important i'm not all right. i'm not interesting. and that's a factor in my current loneliness i still have this feeling that i'm not very interesting not important enough to be loved. unconsciously i carry this feeling around with me as a kind of premise with which i approach people. and they sense that. and burn the house. as you wish but of course you can also feels lonely sometimes. because they just
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aren't many people around. them there's just the 2 of us. even have the feeling that he may have learned his negative behavior for me when he makes a firm call he says oh they're not interested in me the same way that i do. for mccain no. wonder. i talked to him about it recently that like someone once told me a tiger makes 19 attempts before ripping into its prey to avoid and obviously people are preoccupied with other things. but that doesn't mean that i'm not ok. this is something i want to work on. i want to cut through this negative recurring fault. and. marcus was caught off guard by his relapse he'd been doing so well. trapped in
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a vicious circle of negative thoughts he retreated further and further from the real world. of austin the kiss. of life i started to think i was in a place that nobody else could understand and that my thoughts were unique. to listening on the phone. or on. and off on and i visited friends in hamburg and felt lonely when i was there simply because i was different and. not because my friends had changed but because i was different then one evening i thought i had reached the end in this. new york uniform i travelled to keel. and wanted to throw myself off the high
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bridge lost. but i didn't do it. for me and paul and i had reached a point where i saw that i wasn't able to put an end to my life either. ok folks nothing except on his. own. it's or something so i thought ok so 1st you have maybe another 50 years to live and let him of anything for you so you'll survive the next 5 minutes. that is going to be your path in life.
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my least longs for interactions that she can't find in the senior citizens home. as of maranatha palin. when i 1st came here my neighbor was mentally very active place the. book she was happy to converse with me. how do we work closely but it got to be less and less. this filled 0 people regress and become confused for. a. device the she doesn't know what season it is. she says it's may when it's autumn the of the on the money may i. see this an experience it i don't say anything because it's painful. the tool yeah can you understand that
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. if you can. because you see i'm talkative mange and. behold i need people around me people i can talk to con. feared me a contact i thought there'd be much more interaction here. do beast if i've made an effort but i'm always so dreadfully alone when i come back to my room. and this it's a sad feeling. that's loneliness i'm saying. is that sometimes the feelings that prevent me from calling somebody are not even conscious they're unconscious i feel that it's my own fault that i'm alone you're alone because of the way you are. so i can't really put it into words but it's
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always the 1st step to make myself aware of it. so i would really like to have contact with somebody and that's ok. it's ok that i want contact with people whose . look i'm almost crying who has been and it's ok that i want to be alone i mean that i want to be in contact. i'm allowed to one thing. it's my right i have a right to want that a right it's a wish that is justified it's ok. and i know that and it's funny but this is the sentence i didn't have a religious upbringing but sometimes the sentence god loves me helps it does something for me although as i say i don't have any relationship to god otherwise. but apparently the simple word of god that stands for universe and world and world
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solo something. it acts a bit like a switch. i am loved yes. from the 1st we set the boundaries as you saw on the website there are rules for cuddling that are important for you and me. just so we understand the framework of our interaction. it has to be absolutely clear that the client doesn't expect anything personal from a cuddler both. of if that happened it wouldn't be tragic but it would lead to the cuddling sessions being terminated that's really important and it's not for.
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a father and i want to pass on to other people all the experiences that did me good and that i've learned. about physical contact say physical contact in a defined and protected framework. that's what helped me when i was alone my. co-host not. sure nice wonderful that feels so good when you haven't been out for days on end.
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open sesame look you benches in the sunshine. yes right in the sun. this is for her friends they ought to mean a lot to marley's. then says alan stilts when things get really bad i safely she always knows to come when i'm really down in the dumps. and then climb back up and then you appear see that's right. i think that you're here. and i'm glad that you're here.
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together with the fellow clown my ts take it entertains the residents of a senior citizens home in brandenburg. one of the residents has written a poem. if you rush on ahead through life. you miss the beauty surrounding you and the meaning of life. you know or you remain a lonely. to my eyes most of them like you to give them a big hug. when
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i put on my clowns know it's like throwing a switch. as a visitor. it's as if a light goes on. and then i'm transported to another dimension. then i mean i mean it was if you know and you as a female is very active. saying she's happy. she's also the provokers have at times. said he hopes she hops through life through life and flies through life and is never the less sensitive she senses a lot of things but she maintains a lightness which is her strength. as much it has an influence on my life but there's a separation in my own life i'm not like you as a female if you know. you're
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. a little. club source in potential i don't think there's a sure fire remedy for overcoming loneliness because everybody's different. for me it was essential to come to terms with myself to look at myself and not avoid what i saw. you know that now i have reached a point where i'm more at peace with myself and always more so. if i'm doing well i
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think i can also be happy when i'm alone. when i go for a drive listen to music sing sit here at the lake do what's good for me. and then just. happy. to. help me to feel tough i don't have all that much strength anymore there are so many things i'd like to do especially for other people. and to spend time with them the things that i think but these things are self-evident. and. it's so
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simple. and my head of when my grandmother was dying she said i haven't lived at all but. it was dreadful to hear her say that. it was certainly a warning to me one that i'll never forget i hope as well i for. i don't want to be on my death bed with the feeling that i've never lived an eclipse will harm. somebody.
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so. much good guy and i enjoy giving i give security i give you love i give comforting words. and cake or whatever. i like doing that i like cooking for people and having visitors i can fuss over with a person here this and that i like doing that. and of course i miss that when there's nobody for me to fuss over. who. is. reaching an age where you know you have just a few years left if you're lucky. if you had me never again try to cope with my moods on my own i still need the people i found and
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. the moeller made by lone if paul who are not to mention. a full novel. does it's something i think about when i'm down in the dumps the shift for a nice guy has been in the killer when i want to switch off completely. i did read it does him oh no. he did still i still come back and think of people you still have them all. kinds of will you can still talk to them fully. to be you aren't entirely alone because not all alone. my book it's like goodness here i've been talking so much but i had to tell you my story if we're.
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coming.
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out of the house into the workplace. ok lost by job or take on her own money. in a real india women though work are still the exception. but this is beginning to. as more and more women call to. leave the 3 that are subject to 30 minutes on.
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eco india the poisonous business of turning leather it's time the environment's people for many decades. now know it can come to an end new technology might detoxify the industry but a simple all of the solution. no longer toxic but even at a. 90 minutes on the double hook. for the father it was the beginning of a long ordeal. for the son a traumatic memory. for all the amazing open. talents where. 30 years after the chinese capital
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a father and son tell their story. elements. today in the day m d w. i was issued when i arrived here i slept with 6 people in a room. it was hard i was fair. i even got white hairs that. learning the german language head me a lot this gives me an anklet help us maybe to entrust the flavor you want to their story the mud's her fighting and reliable information for migrants.
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