outside of my heart or. just think this all i can think about is seeing my family again the next the greek the next war is coming to gaza invest if something happens to them before i can see them that's it that would destroy me but this. beast you won't let me out nobody's knocking you walk with an invalid passport if i turn off the camera. first thing frustrated i'm so frustrated.

need to tell bill thank his dream come true his own café in berlin his cafe is a favorite among artists in berlin locals and foreigners alike needle has been living in the german capital for 8 years he became a german citizen 2 years ago. new doubt was born in palestine and grew up in the gaza strip. i was. when i was a boy in the gaza strip i used to dream of having my own cafe on the other side i wanted to open one by the beach in gaza and then the but that's not possible with the situation as it is there and there's this man i didn't know my life would take me to berlin but now here's ballboy which means nightingale to go. needlework todd to make a new home for himself in the rain but the situation in gaza has him increasingly concerned. as think now all i can think about is seeing my family again

the next war is coming because. if something happens to them before i can see them that would destroy me. i can tell that my family isn't doing well that they need me and my strength and i want to spend time with my family and be there for that in that manner for me that south of and on the band. out of worry for his family knew down made a dramatic decision. from one day to the next he sold his café. all he wants to do now is see his family in gaza. other what a shame if you come back one day right that's why god is god then someday i'm. going to give you a hug i think. over the past 10 years new doubts parents intensively lived through 3 wars in the gaza

strip now the next conflict seems to lie ahead. in 2007 new down lost a leg as a result of the conflict between israel and the palestinians. he was working as a camera man when he's car was struck presumably by an israeli rocket. the car veered off the hill and his right leg was shattered. their own 4 listen to the accident happened at 10 in the morning that they sent me to the dawson medical center in jerusalem where i needed surgery right away and that was impossible in gaza one for.

at the time nidal worked for an international news agency. they organized his treatment at the israeli hospital for this new focus and will never forget how the head doctor explained my options. they said my leg was destroyed so badly it couldn't be fixed now that my kind of other spines now they could leave it the way it once but i wouldn't be able to walk anymore this moment but i'd have to spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair. or i could have my leg amputated and then use a prosthetic and it was entirely my decision. but i was struck speechless in this convent book so i was lying in bed and i heard everything so i told him the 2nd option of 2 on fire. i don't feel like i have limitations i enjoy my life more than most people i mean look at it it's pretty cool and.

i wanted to be able to stand on my own 2 feet and lead my life because that wouldn't have been possible in gaza so i came to germany. that was in 2010 a fellowship allowed nidal to start a new life in germany upside down this year and i put a lot of time and energy into understanding the mentality of people here and the focus here. but here in. berlin is now my 2nd home. now need is saying goodbye to his 2nd time he's not sure if and when he'll be back . but that's the best way to fall. for this when i fall and miss me i don't get hurt. but that's my job and i'm not sure whether to pack my winter clothes. or just my

summer ones. he doesn't know how long he'll be away 3 weeks 3 months 3 years anything's possible. he sold his cafe but he's only someplace his apartment for a few weeks there's tons of this i can't take it all. at 5 the next morning he takes a taxi to the airport. my heart. i'm getting more and more anxious. that's worth it.

in theory only a few hours of travel time separate nidal from his family in gaza. the shortest route from germany to gaza is to fly into tel aviv and then tried to the erez crossing after the palestinian uprisings began new regulations were imposed in 2000 now palestinians need a special permit to cross the checkpoint and then nearly impossible to get that's why nidal is flying to amman jordan from there he plans to cross into the west bank then continue through israel until he reaches gaza. work of katrina the conversion of the airport in a moderately looked around 5 pm and. there's no problem in jordan he enters with his german passport then he goes to buy a few gifts for his family. that was then he heads to the border with israel.

that. he'll 1st need to pass through the jordanian and then the israeli border control that. is in the mouth of a half an hour will be at the border to palestine i hope we get into day for the feel of the one called. this bridge after her let's go so to speak. needle has a german passport. will israel recognize it unless impasse since he's palestinian by birth will they require a special permit to travel through israel blood for them and just in case. on the jordanian side there's no problem they let him through with his german passport then he takes a short bus tried through the no man's land to get to the israeli side. the lights

of the city of jericho in the west bank flicker in the distance but 1st he has to pass through israel's border control after a wait of 3 hours he's told that israel won't recognize his german passport and the israeli authorities say they never received his application for a permit to pass through the country. need our has to go back to jordan. the city i don't understand this isn't. just on his.

back in amman friends take him in. and in the bubblegum from there he tries to obtain permission to travel to gaza things are looking good but no one can guarantee that he will be allowed back out. on the back because of. you the mother argument they're all saying you're returning them or if you're returning. so will i keep hearing that word in hebrew alphabet now in arabic to operate. that's the fear i live with that means he might find himself stuck in gaza indefinitely a lot of the islam most likely to happen i was but indeed i have 2 choices. i can sacrifice my freedom and honestly in my entire life. and take that risk and

so i can see my family is good for my own so there is in all my love for me letters in. the blood and i might end up trapped there i will die in fact or i can choose my freedom from enough i had to turn back. and not see my family. those are my 2 choices. a short time later needle receipts word that israel has cleared him for entry he's told to go to the border. i was going i presented my german passport yesterday they stamped it and wrote in

my palestinian 900 number. and then this for the moment that means i can never enter this region as a german i know doesn't come here are. some fun freedom it's absurd and in europe when you want to visit your family and the only decision is do you want to fly or travel by rail and. you have so i have this press card these are much i worked really hard for hour by the on the slab i pay my taxes and this and that this passport is worth nothing here about you that if any other german can enter and exit the region with no problem probably knows. that it upsets me.

he's back at the border crossing. as he was told israel has given him permission to transit but they want him to board a bus directly to gaza. most nicely want to get on this bus but i won't. so i won't enter. he's afraid that if he boards the boss he won't be allowed to leave gaza. he'd be stuck far away from his life in berlin. no one here can or will give him a guarantee that he'll be committed to leave gaza or again. the. new das conversation with israel's border control gets a bit hated times. going on. but if.

you want to. know. one of the board offices is also from germany he's only in israel to complete his military service don't want to. you have to understand people you have to understand me to. these families you won't let me out no one's looking you up yes you are turned off the camera. first frustrated i'm so frustrated. newtown returns to amman jordan. in germany he'd already suspected that visiting his family in gaza wouldn't be easy. but he wasn't prepared for how upset

he. was instead of what is real so afraid of the. bus is what is so dangerous about. me but i'm not allowed to go to my own territory . i've been in germany for years i'm just coming back to visit my family and i should be able to do that freely i can't understand. from israel's point of view they have good reason for their stance. of it she was the former head of the civilian branch of code get an i.d.f. unit that's responsible for issuing travel permits the palestinians through israel

. let's not forget the gaza strip is controlled by a terror organization hamas ok it changes all the reality for us other israelis and for palestinians also understand that the people are caught in between. forcibly at the end they are the ones who are paying the price after all on one hand and israeli policy against dato entity if he is inside his travel in gaza do you know what he's doing there can we know what who is doing what the what he's doing there. ok that's what it takes to understand. that somebody from terror organizations in gaza like hamas islamic jihad isis are already in gaza somebody met him somebody is trying to convince him to do something somebody is trying to use it. to check those things.

there's a lot of mistrust on both sides and that doesn't look set to change any time soon. things that might be commonplace under other circumstances like visiting your family become an insurmountable hurdle. needles parents don't know yet that he's visited one take place. there are only 2 ways into gaza one is through the rafa border crossing in egypt that's usually closed the other is through the israeli crossing areas. journalists diplomats aid organizations staff and palestinians with a special permit are allowed to enter. once it becomes clear that needle won't be able to visit our camera team continues without him that way nadal's family will at least get the gifts he purchased even if he can't be there himself.

around 2000000 people live in gaza and life is difficult here in 2007 the militant islamist hamas group took control of gaza israel and egypt established an economic blockade corruption and mismanagement on the palestinian side have exacerbated the situation. about half the palestinian people rely on united nations food deliveries. needles family live in a quiet area to the south of gaza city. his parents and where him are hopeful will have 6 sons 5 daughters and 18 grandchildren they've been looking forward to nidal to visit. but instead of a hunk coming they have to make do with

a telephone call. from the we. want to go to the family and. we could hardly wait needle's been gone for years and we were so happy when he said he visited. he checked in with me every day and told me he was going to visit maybe today maybe tomorrow. now i've given up hope. he said this was his last try for now. it didn't work i feel terrible i think it's so painful. what's going to be. left in germany. is the wealth of those this life because of. this.

that is not sure this boy is what. we call the future. of the food issue. is if. he can see what is. being shown the. war 7 7 for years the gifts are a welcome surprise. you tell us older brother jamal has 2 children the youngest is a year and a half old needle has only ever seen. and him in pictures. dalia is needles younger sister she's the only one who isn't married yet and lives with her parents. out of the dolls 10 brothers and sisters 7 have university degrees but none of them have an income. this sense of futility about the future is one

reason why so many people want to leave gaza. nido loves our food in gaza he especially loves it when i cook. he doesn't like it when the plates are empty and there are numbers but all that is not on the dance mother is the only member of the family who's been given a permit to visit him in berlin nadar offered to sponsor her and minutely but she told him an old tree company operation. dalia is just finishing school and for him to go outside just 3 because. the situation here so difficult you can move freely. no personal study no we're going to study an altercation. and every few years there is another war. so as a good thing that he wasn't here. by way of the bad things i was there were. i

love to see him. achieving his dreams and with the thing he saw he won. and you know everything he won he just of the. women. that's how jamal little's oldest brother sees things to what he might have also didn't come to the gulf he's asked you all. will be in awe of them but isn't it. enough in the spirit seeing him know. the prisons so give the money all over think it's a gift. it's not being as. or we're used. to seeing him we miss him since he said he fears that all the religious said sir do. cause us feelings bonds of being me.

what you find is. many dream of leaving and seen the world but only a handful do. to most of the residents of gaza the reality is that they are stuck here the only way out is a permit from israel or egypt. those permits can be applied for here at the palestinian civil committee after an initial review they pass on selected applications to israel. ordinary applications are processed on the 1st floor. urgent cases for people who need medical treatment go up stairs whenever tensions rise between israel and hamas fewer permits to travel outside gaza are approved. is male carter but is deputy head of the palestinian agency. he has access to nidal to file.

and work with. the law. we received a permit for him to return but he was afraid he wouldn't be able to leave dancer's so he stayed in jordan. in principle it's possible to get an exit permit but it's very difficult entering isn't easy either amend the whole amount was once you're in gaza you can't count until the israeli security forces clear you but one never knows how long that will take but it could be a month 3 months or maybe i'll never get an exit permit. in my. israel says the lengthy process is necessary to ensure security. for israel it's all a question of security for the billboard family it's

a deeply personal matter. they just want to be able to see nidal. he's now returned to 1000000000. i tried everything but i couldn't make sure that i'd be permitted to leave gaza again my family also told me not to come this. they didn't want me to be trapped there they wanted me to be able to return to berlin like. they want us to. be done up but he. was for i won't give up hope that i'm going to see my family soon.

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