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the perception that germans out wide the ahead in blue ice has never been true and will never be too it's and. people always ask me where i'm from it's not possible to be german and black. from the moment i get up and leave the house in the morning i'm confronted with racist views images and syria types of people. as a child alice wanted to have white skin because i felt bed being black and not being able to blend in and i was kind of sticking hollow to. the group and being

you know different than the rest i didn't want to be different. i've. i am traveling around germany to talk with other black people about oh experiences with racism my 1st stop this hammock that's where i was born into how. i had absolutely wonderful parents and that helped me a lot in difficult situations. i mean i always had a lot of friends about it i do remember. that we played these funny games like who's afraid of the black man and tender little negroes that's called in german

soul and i remember that sometimes they ran after me and said yeah nothing can hurt in something like janice an african and as an african and the problem is that african men something bad. had 1st met sammy looks when i was a teenager and have today he's one of germany's most successful reface a hip hop on. the mic could be very much my machine i do. a lot of that as much as ever using. that i've come to see semi in a studio as you can see the label is not much this had a number of top 10 hits and has sold all the a 1000000 records. it's nice to. he also produces other musicians.

just. as if it was a kid i wanted to be white and cute. yeah as a kid white and as a teenager i really wanted to be black. that's nice only still needs to not have this ambiguity so it seemed so clear cut like on the white side and white people just knew who they were black people did to me i felt like i was in the middle i grew up in a white family in a white neighborhood it was definitely a challenge. the challenge of distance vision for me the feeling of being caught in between is something imposed on you from the outside i mean people always say don't you see taunton conscious blake and why do you feel of me out effect this yourself i don't find it unusual why should i have to choose sides inflicted by me against you one thing that caused me a fair amount of confusion right from the start was that i have straight hair. does

display meet in most of a machine in a one shot as in which he could sneak going on top of the stand in grade school if some kid called me the n. word and i reacted defensively or aggressively they'd say hey you're not really a nigger because your hair is straight with me so for me that was like ok i'm dark enough to get called the n. word but my hair isn't frizzy or curly enough for me to have the right to get upset about it that was the 1st contradiction that was imposed at the time i was reading harry potter book to my son in the evening at bed time and one night he said he wished he were white because then he could be like his friends in the moment and all you have to do is paint that thing on his forehead and wear around glasses and he'd look like harry potter to be loved that's in the else we have reports and i wish him good but that made me realize that there's an acute shortage of dark skinned superheroes so i wrote the song and made a really nice video to go along with it. his issue is with us we. have.

long. advice no. i don't think. i'm kidding that's exactly what they believe that. for. me you know. i might as well like going and i don't like things. like. last night's. sleep this long period of time that's maybe long long time so when i don't like. the last one like the sign down i like the straight talk. it's how i can remember when i was 13 i was an intern of ana and that's when i started going to politics and the other kids would say. why you're listening to that anderson be listening to black music i did and i liked it

more and then it was the black music scene whatever that means hip hop and r. and b. album from the school on down and is a c. in the and then all of a sudden yes a black person a part of the majority of i'm up on my own money and i mean and then when these positive associations pulls it's even us it's you and you had a son does it go with us well from a single i think that's one of the main reasons i became who i am and it's of the young where the rep thing this test of a rap was the 1st thing that gave me a home court advantage so to speak and i'm for tired houses i just had to let my pants hang a little bit lower thing less in the scope of my calf to the side and move like this until i saw the sign everyone was into it it looked authentic and it fit well with my exotic status those clothes if i did graffiti deejaying collected records started producing rasping and and beatboxing all the hip hop disciplines except breakdancing that was too much work so you're telling me in. just body type because

i'll. only with words. as a journalist i don't have a home court advantage. when i decided to become a journalist and when i became an anchor i was actually i think the 1st female black anchor and germany i didn't have any role models. to be nothing maybe i'll be happy because for me it's really important that children you know when this which on the t.v. that might see me and think oh right i can be on t.v. and read the news and i don't have to have a job which was filled the face the stereotypes for me that would be great if i could help bring dump areas in that sense.

that people have been living in germany for 400 years but today they numbered about 1000000 from me in cologne of come to see. do support the yeah. he was born in 1925 been brilliant. why did your father come from chemical into germany back then coming one by cameroon with a german colony. in mind for you. just as people used to dream of going to america. at the time many young africans wanted to come to germany. says there was no such thing as what we know called racism. at least not as we know it today. you can only started to take shape when the young african started asserting themselves for instance by marrying german women oh. and the reaction

was there taking away our women for nothing prince in the name onset the following way. and now you appeared in ethnographic exhibits also known as humans zeus what was it like standing for debian imagine human being those of us being exhibited like objects literally exhibit worth press and from what they supposedly represented of namely africa with vast skirts drums dancing saunders. and. didn't the idea was that people under splay were foreign exotic. and we're showing spectators what their homeland is like this and. basically it was just a big show. me i am mad as i'm good i'm going the good numbers show evidence

how crazy is that us a german was supposed to imitate this was perceived. africa was just such a huge continent. and he's a consummate. with a high trot so i was and i'm a black man so of course i should be able to do that that's how it is it's in my blood and let's talk about the nazi era it's so hard to imagine because black people would obviously attract attention in every genre that was so racist as right as a member of the kind and. we didn't need to wear yellow stars. everyone could see we were aliens. did you know a lot of other black people in germany. who says sure everyone knew everyone and member someone colonial films made back then but many of us would meet up as part of the cast. yet that's me.

this is mine and that's my closest and i'm still like the fact that the shot a close up of me. and everyone who was in black was in that film. and. it was a good day i was 16 at the time. and it struck me i thought my god we're all here together with them. because they could take us away without anyone noticing or not . is oath. and that thought weighed very heavily on me this. is good thank god i never came to pass the but in vietnam we were too few in number to matter to the nazis that. when i die before you know all contact with

white women with the fair women horrible from the fields to the business of it i would have been sterilized still and in. the end i might also have been charged with racial defilement big ice and shunned. oh how do you say that you took great care not to get too close to a white woman. was it like how you being all trying to become invisible how can we imagine that i wanted to 1st see men the sleestak that's the right word invisible i could become the only of course with a face like this i could never completely disappear. but i tried. i think that's what i really did have some smoked and skipped as i and the main thing was to keep your head down can your mouth shut. i made sure i did that as was about and to the point that i started to starter the source. yeah i

started john black welcome and of so good listening to the difficult often horrible things you experienced. how did you find the strength to go on but yeah the w.c. well i have to say with god's help. i became a religious person league as i mentioned above. that's what you go. to don't you know michelle always says there's nothing in the german constitution that states what a german is supposed to look like but some people haven't gotten the message for them we asked the exotic. when i was a child complete strangers would touch my hand say it feels like a bird's nest. right. way to my gawd it's good to see you still see my watch breakfast t.v.

every morning i turn on the side and think it's like an afro german woman on german public t.v. be as we're so proud of you so sure and you do such a wonderful job of just 1000 was the story that the deer may look at your hair we have to talk about that yes we do. and then i will work in some culkin at all well. like. things on t.v. that yes i think it is enough not to love your curls ok then i would always wake up the movies are good these are the hurdles. right now i'm really

happy to be talking to s. that don't call out the founder of cause a number of cully hamner that's how sometimes i think that black people's hands really politicized it's like a political statement whether you have to have done it naturally the stereotype is that the hair is messy and wild that doesn't go all the bun in the professional but also how the afro hair just isn't acceptable. our society still doesn't comply with our ideals of beauty. look at beyond saying she's a black woman that she's a performer of the she's the embodiment of empowerment but she still wears a straight blonde we've made it's kind of anti you know i've met women who work in law offices in places like that we get into trouble if they wear their hair naturally that kind. of to happen can you tell us about the natural hand movement does is this sort of fell into the result i mean what. it's about allowing people

with afro textured hair to wear it naturally without causing a fuss or having to feel self-conscious. that's what life is about accepting yourself to get 7 limbs absence of times. change. to feel comfortable in your own skin that's the goal but it's not so easy. i think the problem is that if you see all these stereotypes about africa about tribes about being primitive of that barrier a native underdeveloped. it hits you. part of the problem on the images from the days of colonialism and the lin dance to streets named after german nice and colonialists it was ian berlin in 884 that european nations had a conference when they cost the f.a.

can't economies. and he had a street festival and at forcing the city to change the name from was. unique. and i'm here was just crazy akins political scientists and activists why it's important for you to remain just as the term is one of the oldest words. person but look at the roots of the term has election and the greek roots morris and morris and guess that means doc or black but it also means stupid even primitive and so you see already in the origin of the work that there is this idea of black inferiority but then we look into the history of the street name if we see that the street was named quiet its name in the context of the brandenburg

involvement in the trans atlantic and slave meant and to prize how would you say that's germany dia with this colonial history i think there's a huge problem. a lot of aspects of german korean history are not widely known we can't even begin to understand national socialism without looking at the colonial and to see that it's because we find that they are ideological political but also personal continuity. linking german colonialism and national socialism. please and i set off to uncover some of the traces. soft colonialism in the german capital. ok i think i moved to berlin 10 years ago but this defers time i'm seeing this fresco can you explain why i'm a c. so we had the house and this here shows us the trail of tobacco so you see

and slaved african men harvesting tobacco then enslaved african women packaging the tobacco and it is sorted and weighed you know as a white overseer and then it's package further it's made ready for shipment and you see one of the white oversea has already lounging and having a smoke but then you see the ship departing and then not you can see it's berlin because you see the silhouette of the german the french don't so this clearly explains the source of the wealth that was used to build this place right but of course it also implicates the people that frequented here and the suffering that is also depicted here. make people often defined by this skin color the well known south african artist robin wrote place with the stereotypes he experienced apartheid in south africa now he's been living in berlin for 40 inches.

i. could tell you this year i can see you working on a new p.c.'s. i have a work in process and it's a world guy some modern man this is about myself african identity. and of course the africa is a strong some bull it's interesting that you chose here of course i can identify with that but what does i mean look at what the role of detail a for have play for you he became a way to to classify a place principles will place through he to. who did you pick to kind of the stand and the for the racial category. so saying that if they go through my hair they say it's f. i have i am exactly black on the public categorized as kind of has colored always mixed race. so if the goal waned we invaded to find you here because you

guys as white how were you classified as on the farm classified as gullit as if it is a person of mixed race and so on might be and so my grandparents and. in many ways my cultural background is quite complex because i know you know we don't associate ourselves with black and neither white. sorry but i know you view it as black d.c.'s german content what i think is in the german gone pics i'm viewed as out of oh really so that's actually pretty interesting. i use off as a way to subvert it also to to play with. you on the valvoline what these

kind of cultural labels off. this particular piece reading speed it means will be 18th if it needs to be defined it's going to be categorized and i'm trying to knob explore the notion of something that is completely in this new disconsolately and you find. i was born in 1981 and in the early ninety's we had a serious offer of racist attacks in germany and also placed in hot and high us to get it and so willing it must be backed by stand the skunk. during the attacks. it was really heartbreaking to see and it frightened me so much as a child. and i think that's something that is also very scary if you look at the recent vice and

racist attacks on refugees in germany and so few of the people who take them were caught and put on trial and i think that's a very dangerous message to everyone who experience racism because it means ok you can be attacked but you know you can attack people but you can get away with it in that it gives us the message ok people can do to you whatever they want they won't be put on trial. and that scares me a lot. about us an apprentice roof or working in the east end german state of sex and i'm hot he hasn't been living here for very long in 2013 he fled book enough icing for germany his job gives the 28 year old some stability was but otherwise his life is often difficult recently he will speak

not by of right wing thought i mean east and the town of pool where he lives as a few 8 months ago there were beaten up right here tell us about my. career i'm going to the school and saw amanda and if with the woman in charge. and he said in my didn't look at that i'm sure defusing the n. word for us to look at this black piece of trash with nigger i didn't say anything that when i went to the counter to pay this call and he went like this. and i said this is what do you want from me and he says i'll show you i went over there and he hit me 3 or 4 times like this. you know muscle history of how bad the way you have it many boao less do today i felt a lot of pain in my stomach losses and i come down the block for about 2 months. and more not holding. on but how does it feel when no one steps in to help you when

you're being beaten up and you often treat it with hostility and it's hard to expand on that how do you cope. with it in a country so i'm always afraid when i go out now in a sort to see who can i go to work i'm afraid of what might happen along the way the supply route people make just just like i'm going to cut your throat so i did see and they shout go back to where you came from shook me to do that to me every day. this is the courthouse in the town of stand up it's where the man who beat up he says i'm trying. how do you to be annoying you about to see the person would take it as just. i'm not afraid. i can't wait to see him again and look into his eyes to see enforcing them is you have.

the attacker who has a long criminal record was found guilty of assault and sentenced to 10 months in jail but he appealed was just a reason for his hearing. the. cameras aren't allowed inside the consulate. after a 4 hour asked the constitution's. and peace out how was it for you today. i never expected it to go so well and yes it was very pleased to. see turkey. the conviction is upheld but the attacker intends to appeal again.

once you wake up in the morning and you switch on the radio or you switch on the t.v. you're confronted with all these stereotypes about africa and it's really difficult to talk about racism in germany because once i experience it when i talk about racism people say oh you're too emotional you're over reacting the company true i'm sure the person didn't mean it that way so they don't really take it serious and that is really hard because i feel like i am not taking serious but my experience. on this was worth it to the secret. i thought it was racism without regret because he should all gives. and and listening in the office display is the artist and writer. the story she's originally from particle but has lived for many years a 1000000000. for me it took

a lot of effort to research lecture me history because there was nothing that was presented to me in school for example what told us the silencing play in your eyes i think in the last words that i've been doing i'm very concerned with this question of silencing and speaking and with the with the fact that it's not that we have not been producing no words or have not been speaking but we believe in a system that constantly silence or make these knowledges. invisible racism is really with the for equally for me a ghost that our society never took care of and never cared because we live in these very white narcissistic society that don't want to deal with it and then she said well that's me you're not black i don't think that you are black. and she said that in a way as a. souse do me

a favor when did you. start feeling that no i don't believe this domino and narratives you just talked about when did you fade out and said no not this can't be it there must be something you know. i don't know if i can tell you. but i believe it has always been there. now as a mother i when i am with my children and i hear them bringing the topic of racism even though they are 2 and 4 or 5 it's just time 5. it is still i i see that the aware that is not right and it's extremely complicated to explain such a brutal history and this is the trauma of black people and of people from many other than aspirants who went through similar experiences collective experiences

that you cannot explain and apply any logic to something that is so absolutely love illogical and not aggressive eg because this is aggressive yet i call but i do not want to be better. let's not turn to a question that effort more times than i can count how come your parents are white the answer my biological father came from zimbabwe but your mother from germany directly after i was born in hamburg i was adopted by a german speakers. and from me late on her texts. this is india posh she too was adopted i grew up in best germany she grew up in the east we're inside an old guard tower from the days of communist east germany like the war divided berlin 110980 9 in the us biological father is from guinea he was

studying at the university of light see when he met her biological mother but she was married and her husband was in jail nevertheless he said he could imagine raising the child. ever stop money but he didn't know that i was going to look the way i look as a business that i would be a black child. aunties a man who died this is their lives and this man was a hard core rightwinger. and not my not what he got out of jail soon after i was born. it was obvious that i wasn't a white child. and had hired and he tried to be attempted to kill me. or and my elaborate him with my biological mother saw him dangling me out the window so in all likelihood she said before the child is killed i will send her away. if he had and at some point she decided to put me up for adoption.

sort of 2 thirds of. us who hired a lie in the last move warden's i think that subconsciously in any case you never forget that you were abandoned by a biological parents or you were born and were unwanted you take that with you to your grave is she in kin to me it still seems unfair to just give away a child like that. and to enforce over to him. a. coward joyce 00 quake struck. in the works as a doc trainer and has adopted several neglected dogs. we've asked them how was it for you and play school. yard probably mildly vast dozens thought one problem was the teachers who thought we shouldn't eat with the

other kids to finish with an argument as. we were supposed to wash our hands really thoroughly as if something could rub off on the other kids. we have all complete scene for months and thousands who are devoted to the concerts and we weren't allowed to nap near the other children. 'd and our manager gordon should my parents did everything to protect us. they gave up everything they had to be there for us kids they thought for us they did what they could and i think it was the right thing that they may have to east berlin. and the hospital is another thing you hear so often oh adoptive parents can never be the real parents but that is complete nonsense you really feel the loss they have for the children just like any other parents ever be ate and absolutely they protect you and do everything for

you and your family whether someone gave birth to you are not absolutely for me blood relationship is meaningless. behove new groups for one traffic are good for me too and for me it's immaterial and fragmented and as my parents told me about how they drove to the children's home and lights where i was. and i crawled straight into my papa's arms. for me it was clear that's my papa and that's really great but this might impact your and yard as well today as to tire sharon and that's how it was until the end we were really close. best resuming a father no. it wasn't until the age of 17 that india hametz her biological mother. bends and you had no one going off. we went for

a walk and she said that you and i didn't want you to turn out so black yes that was the very 1st sentence i heard from my biological mother. and i'm happy. and i said. oh ok well as if i wanted to expect. 'd talking with other effort germans about all my experiences gives me strength that's one reason why i'm a member of the initiative of black people in germany every year they want to end you know meeting this is the 1st time i'm attending. normal of either but the crowd through the chef in the kitchen inside the alf garden by ness the poster i'm so whole in the house and temperate too it's a control on tissue it's put off sharon to do it sure is holding us on cheney's rating up to the final round 270 people have come to the initiative and you know

meeting others hearkened a group was formed over 30 years ago. take a day or less in the steering committee. and. if that diet you tell me how was the initiative found it. it was thanks to 2 happy coincidences the 1st lord was in berlin because i'm who was i don't you know she was an american writer from the black feminist movement in the u.s. but she was teaching in berlin if you buy it because over the course of her time there she made a lot of black women who came to her readings and you know i discovered that they didn't know each other. so she hit on the idea of connecting them so that they could exchange experiences on dot com she also brought out what i believe is the 1st book of stories on by black people about black people in germany. to the secret mission to mention that i am

a black man everyone is welcome to read aloud at initiatives me to you and when i look at a white man i mean i reveal what i think. knowing in the growing of the night why don't i. just say the theme of this meeting is somehow meant in south korea what does it mean. because our compartment. empowerment mean showing black people especially young people there was a lot they can do with themselves and from that they can take charge of a lot of things develop themselves and establish new perspectives of self care within a society influenced by racism and entails ensuring that he was a black person stay healthy protect yourself and grow stronger in the mission it's a mixture it involves politics but also drinking smoothies or doing yoga or sports or.

the buddhist. cycle give it a somewhat. go. and to 2011 he played in the german national team. you have a special respect. and a day in the life of someone. and good night even custody of us the very 1st black german national player but you were also one of the 1st i know yes to give you as i started playing for germany in 2001 how was that give up us for distance i would have been possible by i was not trying to cross that it was more

happening what does that mean and how it is by your mother but having to go. this is a i was the 1st really black was here she was the 1st black africa and that's why. i felt it was an easy for me back then to decide. i could have played from ghana i was told off for going back to have decided to play for god the time of golf that's the figure must mean i'm i was in uganda but then they didn't play music on the go i went back to germany and germany was very insistent and at some point i said ok i'll play for germany it was a very rewarding very interesting oh it wasn't easy but it was nice too but it wasn't easy. and there's some people some idiots mind using who don't want to accept us and that was my big problem and i want also to see my you do something for your country but you're still the black guy here's an example i was team yourself after the world cup in 2006 we came in certain people accepted us and then suddenly a month later you get the food and call the neighbor during

a match and that was a moment where seriously consider no longer playing for germany you heard it i had a little. bit of a courtroom after hanging out this so-called booth get someone became a household name and today he's the man itself psychist on the 28th weeks he was going up in guyana. i you come back out of the no i'm from among 5 hours away from uncle vic farms and climate was a small village where people didn't have much notice when after school we play soccer with balls made of socks hides when i look at myself he has everything he doesn't know what to do with money possum i had to struggle to get 2 square meals a day. so that was how i grew up and it affected me to be told when to stop michele that made me said goals and say i have to give my all to achieve something so harsh on a sometime over the coming where i honestly don't know that. i

can no longer understand why as a child i wanted to be white even if it takes a lot of strength and energy to deal with racism to hold your head up high i wouldn't want a different skin color but anything and never. being black means so many syrians it means me that i'm seen differently but what's going on inside that something else. is just me it's nothing more than a skin color and i hope my blackness blooms and becomes my beauty ya can wear all the same 1st and foremost i'm a person with a yes at my age i wouldn't want to change anything about who i am is what were truthful about but i'll tell you one thing lacks are pretty cool cool don't you

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