long tall sally and trudy ferguson we leave you now with some of the music that mike in the lady. of. nikko he's in germany to learn german english because. why not learn with him d w z e learning course because vic. what we were. when we were now 80 percent of americans at some point in our lives will experience hardship that listen all. the talking. points.

the perception that germans out wide the ahead in blue eyed has never been true and will never be too. people always ask me where i'm from it's not possible to be german and black. from the moment i get up and leave the house in the morning i'm confronted with racist abuse images and syria types of people. as a child out. wanted to have white skin because i felt bed being black and not being

able to blend in and i was kind of sticking out of the group and being you know different than the rest i didn't want to be different. i am traveling around germany to talk with other black people about our experiences with racism my 1st stop is ham that's where i was born and. i had absolutely wonderful parents and that helped me a lot in difficult situations.

i mean ours had a lot of friends about i do remember. that we played these funny games like who's afraid of the black man and tender little negroes it's called in german so and i remember that sometimes they ran after me and said yeah nothing can hurt me in something like janice an african man as an african and the problem is that african men something bad. at 1st met somebody looks when i was a teenager and have today he's one of germany's most successful rappers and hip hop artists. for. the record food for my machine i do. a lot. of it is over using them don't think that i have come to see sammy. and it's doing the as you. say the way

he was this had a number of top 10 hits and it's a little the a 1000000 records. it's like today he also produces other musicians. but as a kid i wanted to be white and cute. yeah as a kid white and as a teenager i really wanted to be black to meet soon. that's nice only the only thing to not have this ambiguity it seems so clear cut like on the white side and white people just knew who they were black people did to me i felt like i was in the middle i grew up in a white family in a white neighborhood it was definitely a challenge. the challenge of distance vision for me the feeling of being caught in between is something imposed on you from the outside i mean people always say don't you see tall until conscious black and why do you feel. this yourself don't

find it unusual why should i have to. hide in fact that when you're going to few one thing that caused me a fair amount of confusion right from the start was that i have straight hair. does display mean and was a woman machine and when she wrote as and when she could sneak out going on top of the stand in grade school if some kid called me the n. word and i reacted defensively or aggressively they'd say yes and hey you're not really a nigger because your hair is straight with me so for me that was like ok i'm dark enough to get called the n. word but my hair isn't frizzy or curly enough for me to have the right to get upset about it to me that was the 1st contradiction that was imposed on me from the outside world and that's he wrote a song for us son about humans didn't you it's the song of the she does it so i told him i wrote the song in 2008 at the time i was reading a harry potter book to my son in the evening at bad times and one night he said he wished he were white because then he could be like. his friends means

a moment's notice and all you have to do is paint that thing on his forehead and wear around glasses and he'd look like harry potter mr mimic a blouse that snowden's e.l.c. harry potter is going to obviously in combat made me realize that there's an acute shortage of dark skinned superheroes so i wrote the song and made a really nice video to go along with it. a musician was with us we. have a 00000000000000000 advice to. come down to. i'm looking down at the way they look at the long haul that. i might as well like i don't like i don't like. a. lot of the last guy. was not a long time that fellow may be long gone sometimes selflessly don't like.

much money on the side but i like his rights talk. it's a high i can remember when i was a teen i was into novena and that's when i started going to pot to do stuff and the other kids would say. why you're listening to that anderson be listening to black music i did and i liked it more and then it was the best music scene whatever that means hip hop and r. and b. album it was cool on them it is a c. in the end then all of a sudden yes a black person a part of the majority of i'm up on my own money and i mean and then when these positive associations pulls it's you must it's you and you notice and does it go with us well from a single i think that's one of the main reasons i became who i am been through to the ring with this record thing this test of a rap was the 1st thing that gave me a home court advantage so to speak i'm for tired houses i just had to let my pants hang a little bit lower paying less in the scope of my cap to the side and. moved like

this. and everyone was into it it looked authentic and it fit well with my exotic status this close i did graffiti deejaying collected records started producing wrapping around and beat boxing and all the hip hop disciplines except break dancing that was too much work so you're telling me you're not just body type because i'll. only with words. as a journalist i don't have a home court advantage. when i decided to become a journalist and when i became an anchor i was actually i think the 1st female black anchor and gemini i didn't have any role models. did you not think maybe i'll be happy to come for me it's really important that

children you know when to switch on the t.v. that might see me and think oh right i can be on t.v. and read the news and i don't have to have a job which was filters the face the stereotypes for me that would be great if i could help bring down various in that sense. that people have been living in germany for 400 years but today they numbered about 1000000 from me in cologne of come to see. do you support that. he was born in 1025 and valiant. why did your father come from chemical into germany back then come on by your dotel room was a german colony. we've run for you. just as people used to dream of going to america. at that time many young africans wanted to come to germany. says

there was no such thing as what we now call racism. at least not as we know it today. you see you can only started to take shape when the young african started asserting themselves for instance by marrying german women oh. true following the reaction was there taking away our women the imprint seen the name on set the following way. now you appeared in ethnographic exhibits also known as humans zeus what was it like standing for the imagine human beings. being exhibited like objects literally exhibitor through the press and from what they supposedly represented of namely africa with ballast skirts and drums dancing saunders.

still. didn't and the idea was that people under splay were foreign exotic. and were showing spectators what their homeland was like this and. basically it was just a big show so i mean you know i might as good and one of the number of us show evidence how crazy is that us a german was supposed to imitate just received cuts off africa which is such a huge continent. and he's a consummate. window head shrug so i was sort of i'm not black. so of course i should be able to do that yeah that's how it is it's in my blood and let's talk about the nazi era it's so hard to imagine because black people would obviously attract attention in every genre that was so racist as right as a member of the kind and. we didn't need to wear yellow stars. everyone could see

we were aliens. did you know a lot of other black people in germany oh yeah sure everyone knew everyone and there were so many colonial films made back then that many of us would meet up as part of the cast. yet that's me. this is mine and that's my closest and it's not like the fact that the shot a close up of me. and everyone who was in black was in that film. and. it was a good day i was 16 at the time. and it struck me that my god we're all here together. he can take us away without anyone noticing or not

does his oath. and that thought weighed very heavily on me this. is good thank god i never came to pass but in the via we were too few in number to matter to the nazis that. when a guy who boy did all contact with white brimming with the fair women horrible home field. i would have been sterilized. and i might also have been charged with racial defilement big ice and shunned. oh how do you say that you took great care not to get too close to white women all gods. was it like how you being all trying to become invisible how can we imagine what it was that see men the sleestak that's the right word invisible we could be counted on the of course with

a face like this i could never completely disappear. but i tried. i think that's what i really did that's who smoked and skipped as i and the main thing was to keep your head down can your mouth shut. i made sure i did that as well. to the point that i started to study the source. yeah i started terribly. well the amount of food listening to the difficult often horrible things you experienced. how did you find the strength to go on i don't know yeah. well i have to say with god's help. i became a religious person the link as i mentioned above. that's what you have. to do when you're michele always says there's nothing in the german constitution

that states what a german is supposed to look like but some people haven't gotten the message for them we're still exciting. when i was a child complete strangers would touch my hand say it feels like a bird's nest. right. oh my god oh my god it's good to see you still see my watch breakfast t.v. every morning i turn on the set and think it's like an afro german woman on german public t.v. be as we're so proud of you so sure oh you're such a wonderful job does 1000 too much the story like a tear may look at your hair we have to talk about that yes we do. that will work in some coconut oil but we need.

to. cancel on t.v. that aside i think it is enough i love your curls ok then i would always wake up the movies are good these are the girls. now i'm really happy to be talking to instead don't call out the found out of cause a local all clearly have magazine that's how sometimes i think that black people's has really politicized it's like a political statement whether you have to head down naturally the stereotype is that the hair is messy and wild that doesn't go over well in the professional but also how her afro hair just isn't acceptable. our society still doesn't comply with our ideals of beauty. look at beyond saying she's a black woman that she's a performer of the she's the embodiment of empowerment but she still wears

a straight blonde we've made a scale and to unite met women who work in law offices in places like that we get into trouble if they wear their hair naturally that kind. of not tradition hat off to. can you tell us about the natural hand movement does is this sort of fell into it. it's about allowing people with afro textured hair to wear it naturally without causing a fuss or having to feel self-conscious. that's what life is about accepting yourself to get 7 names as absence of times. change. to feel comfortable in your own skin that's the goal but it's not so easy. i think the problem is that if you see all these stereotypes about africa about tribes about being primitive of that barrier a native underdeveloped. it hits you.

how does the problem of the images from the days of colonialism and belin dance to streets named after german nice and colonialists. and berlin and $884.00 dead european nations had a conference when they cost the f.a. $10.00 to colonies. and yet a street festival aimed at forcing the city to change the name from was. neat. and here was just a crazy akins political scientist an extremist why it's important for you to rename districts the term is one of the oldest words. person box look at the root of the term it has an action in the greek groups morris and morris and

yes that means doc or black but it also means stupid heathen primitive and so you see already even the origin of the work that there is this idea of black inferiority but then we look into the history of the street name if we see that the street was named quiet its name in the context of the brandenburg involvement in the trans atlantic and slave meant and to prize how would you say to us germany to deal with this colonial history. i think is a huge problem. a lot of aspects of german korean history are not widely known we can't even begin to understand national socialism without looking at the colonial and to see that it's because we find that they are ideological political but also personal continuity. linking german colonialism and national socialism. please and i set off to uncover some of the traces. off colonialism in the german

capital. ok i think i moved to berlin 10 years ago but this defers time i'm seeing this fresco can you explain what i'm seeing so we had the house and this here shows us the trail of tobacco so you see and slaved african men harvesting tobacco then enslaved african women packaging the tobacco then it is sorted and weighed you know as a white overseer and then it's packaged further it's made ready for shipment and you see one of the white overseers is already lounging and having a smoke but then you see the ship departing for them not even you see it's berlin because you see the silhouette of the german the french dome so this clearly explains the source of the wealth that was used to build this place right but of course it also implicates the people that frequented here and the suffering that is also depicted here. vic people are often defined by this skin color so when known

south african artist robin vote place with the stereotypes he experienced apartheid in south africa now he's been living in berlin for 4 changes. i. could tell you to see you i could see you working on a new piece yes. i have a work in process and it's a world guy some alderman this is about myself african i did. and of course the african is a strong some bull it's interesting that you chose here of course i can identify with that but let us i mean look at what war detail at a for have play for you he became a way to to classify a place been sold to a place through he to. who do depict

a kind of the stand and before the racial category. so saying that if they go through my head they say it's f. i have i am exactly black on the public categorized as color that is colored always mixed race. so if the coal way and we invaded to find you here because you guys is white how will you classify this on a farm classified as call it as if it is a person of mixed race and so on might be and so my grandparents and. in many ways my cultural background is squire i complex because i know you know we don't associate ourselves with black and neither white. sorry but i know you view it as black d.c.'s german content what i think is in the

german gone pics i'm viewed as out of oh really so that's actually pretty interesting. i used off as a way to subvert but also to to play with. down the valve will watch these kind of cultural labels off. this particular piece reading speed of me if it needs to be defined it needs to be kept to good eyes and i'm trying to knob explore the notion of something that is completely in this something that is completely undefined. i was born in 1981 and in the early ninety's we had a serious offer of basis to take c. in germany and also placed in hot and high us to get it and selling it must be backed by stand the skunk. during the attacks. it was really heartbreaking to see

and it frightened me so much as a child. and i think that's something that is also very scary if you look at the recent rise in racist attacks on refugees in germany and so few of the people who take them were caught and put on trial and i think that's a very dangerous message to everyone who experience racism because it means ok you can be attacked but you know you can attack people but you can get away with it in that it gives us the message ok people can do to you whatever they want they won't be put on trial. and that scares me

a lot. about us an apprentice rufo working in the east and german state of sex in the on hot he hasn't been living here for very long in 2013 he fled book enough oxygen for germany his job gives the 28 year old some stability was but otherwise his life is often difficult recently he will speak not by of right wing fuck i mean he send the town of war where he lives as a hero 8 months ago you were beaten up right here tell us about that. i listen to this little and saw a man and it with a woman and child. and he said why didn't you look at that i'm sure did you say the n. word for us to look at this black piece of trash when they go i didn't say anything that. i went to the counter to pay their school and he went like this. and i said that's what do you want from me and he says i'll show you i went over there and he

hit me 3 or 4 times like this. you know muzzle history of how bad a way you had it in a bowl i list to today i felt a lot of pain in my stomach losses and i come down the block for about 2 months. and more not knowing. how does it feel when no one steps in to help you when you're being beaten up and you often treat it with hostility and it's hard to explain and i'm it how do you cope. with it in a culture so i'm always afraid when i go out now in a sort to see who can i go to work i'm afraid of what might happen along the way roads people make just just like i'm going to cut your throat so it is seeing and they shout go back to where you came from shocking people do that to me every day. this is the courthouse in the town of stendhal it's where the man who beat up he says i'm trying. how do you feel knowing you're

about to see the person would take it as just. i'm not afraid. i can't wait to see him again fuck and look into his eyes dizzy and fall saddam is sure. to . be a tech guy who has a long criminal record was found guilty of assault and sentenced to 10 months in jail but he appealed which is the reason for his hearing. the police. cameras aren't allowed inside the courtroom that the. up to 4 hours the conscience. isa how was it for you today. i never expected it to go so well and of your

surprise and very pleased to. see. the conviction is upheld but it's teka intends to appeal again. once you wake up in the morning and just switch on the radio or you switch on the t.v. you're confronted with all these stereotypes about africa and. it's really difficult to talk about racism in germany because once i experience it when i talk about racism people say oh you're too emotional you're over reacting the company true i'm sure the person didn't mean it that way so they don't really take it serious and that is really hard because i feel like i am not taking serious but my experience it's. worth it to quote the secrets. i was racism without regret

because he should all use. and listening in the author of this play is the artist and writer. the story she's originally from particle but has lived for many years a 1000000000. from me it took a lot of effort to research lecture me history because there was nothing that was presented to me in school for example what told us the silencing play in your eyes i think in the last words that i've been doing i'm very concerned with this question of silencing and speaking and with the with the fact that it's not that we have not been producing knowledge or have not been speaking but we believe in a system that constantly silence or make these knowledges. invisible racism is really with the for equally for me a ghost that our society never took care of and never cared because we live

in these very white narcissistic society that don't want to deal with it and then says well but only you are not black i don't think that you up. and see that in a way as a. suzumiya threat even when did you. start feeling that no i don't believe this dominant narratives you just talked about when did you fade out and said no not this can't be it there must be something you know. i don't know if i can tell you. but i believe it has always been there. now as a mother i when i am with my children and i hear them bringing the topic of racism even though they are to me for 5 it just turned 5. it

is still i i see that aware that is not right and it's extremely complicated to explain such a brutal history and this is a trial of black people and people from many other than for those who went through similar experiences collective experiences that you cannot explain and apply any logic to something that is so absolutely lost illogical and not aggressive anyway because this is aggressive yet i call but i do not want to be better. let's not turn to a question that hurt more times than i can count how come your parents are white the and south my biological father came from zimbabwe but your mother from germany directly after i was born in hamburg i was adopted by a german speech. and for me they attack.

this is india passion she too was adopted i grew up in best germany she grew up in the east we inside an old guard tower from the days of communist east germany the war divided berlin until 1989 in the us biological father is from guinea he was studying at the university of lights it when he met her biological mother but she was married and her husband was in jail nevertheless he said he could imagine raising the child. star bunny but he didn't know that i was going to look the way i look at it as it's not that i would be a black child this aunties a man who died because i'm leaders and this man was a hard core rightwinger. and it's not my not what he got out of jail soon after i was born. it was obvious that i wasn't a white child. and had hired and he tried he attempted to kill me

for. all and my left him with my biological mother saw him dangling me out the window bag so in all likelihood she said before the child is killed i will send her away. if he had and at some point she decided to put me up for adoption. out of the influence of. the us to hire. a law in the last move wardens for i think that subconsciously in any case you never forget that you were abandoned by a biological parents you were born and were unwanted you take that with you to your grave the sheer kin to me it still seems unfair to just give away a child like that. kinde the end for us over to him. i mean you know joyce oh like. in the other works

as a doc trainer and has adopted several neglected toss. the vast and how was it for you and play school oyo b.r.d. problematic via dustin's thought one problem was the teachers who thought we shouldn't eat with the other kids to finish with an argument as. we were supposed to wash our hands really thoroughly as if something could rub off on the other kids . we have all complete seen for months and thousands who are voters can they aren't we can't and we weren't allowed to nap near the other children. or and our manager gordon should my parents did everything to protect us. they gave up everything they had to be there for us kids they fought for us they did what they could i think it was the right thing that they may have to explain it. in the

hospital so we can assume you hear so often oh adoptive parents can never be the real parents but that is complete nonsense you really feel the loss they have for the children just like any other parents. absolutely they protect you and do everything for you and your family whether someone gave birth to you are not absolutely for me blood relationship is meaningless. we're hoping. for one trafficker good for me too and as for me it's immaterial and fragmented and as my parents told me about how they drove to the children's home and life sick where i was. and i crawled straight into my papa's arms so for me it was clear that's my papa and that's really great man popular and yet as wild as to tire churn and that's how it was until the end we were really close. that's was on

a father no. it wasn't under the age of 17 that indian i met her biological mother. once and he had no one going off and. we went for a walk and she sat him and he just i didn't want you to turn out so black yes that was the very 1st sentence i heard from my biological mother. and i'm happy. and i said. ok well as of what to expect. talking with the effort germans about our experiences gives me strength that's one reason why i'm a member of the initiative thought that people in germany every year they want to and you know meeting this is the 1st time i'm attending. normal of either

but the crowd through the chef in the kitchen in zinah alf god invited us the pasta and so whole in the house and temperate too it's a control issue it's put off sharon to do well sure is holding us on taney his rating up as he's on iran 270 people have come to the initiatives and the only thing i was harkened the group was from over 30 years ago. i had ls and the steering committee. is that my diet you tell me how was the initiative found it it was thanks to 2 happy coincidences the 1st audrey lord was in berlin because my and who was our great aunt yes she was an american writer from the black feminist movement in the u.s. but she was teaching in berlin when we were in because over the course of her time there she met a lot of black women who came to her readings. you know i just covered that they

didn't know each other. so she hit on the idea of connecting them so that they could exchange experiences come on down come she also brought out what i believe is the 1st book of stories born by black people about black people and german history crossing the secret mission to mention into i am the black not everyone is come to read aloud at initiatives me to you and when i look at and as a white man i mean. really what i'm. doing in the growing of the night why didn't i. just say the theme of this meeting is somehow meant in south korea what does it mean. because our compartment mentioned empowerment means showing black people especially young people because there was a lot they can do with themselves and from that they can take charge of a lot of things are found both will develop themselves and establish new perspectives of self care within

a society influenced by racism and entails ensuring that he was a black person stay healthy protect yourself and grow stronger in the mission it's a mixture it involves politics but also drinking smoothies or doing yoga or sports or. the buddhist because some clapper sika give it a somewhat. go. into 2011 he played in the german national team. yet.

a day in the life of someone. not good at it in cost today was the very 1st black german national player and you were also one of the 1st i know yes to give you as i have you started playing for germany in 2001 how was that give up us for this time last summer every possible why are you so much for the cost it was more half and what does it mean and how you buy it you are going to look at. it this is a i was the 1st really blackwater's was the 1st black africa and that's why. i felt it wasn't easy for me back then to decide as i could have played for john and i was told off for going back to have decided to play for god the time of golf that's the generous mood i'm i was in uganda but then they didn't play much on the field i went back to germany and germany was very insistent and at some point i said ok i'll play for germany are going it was a very rewarding very interesting it wasn't easy but it was nice but wasn't easy

escape for this some people some idiots when he's in who don't want to accept this and that was my big problem and i want also to see my you do something for your country but you're still the black guy so i thought was if there's an example i just see him yourself after the world cup in 2006 we came in 3rd and people accepted us and then suddenly a month later you get the food and call the neighbor during a match and that was a moment where seriously consider no longer playing for germany it hurt a hell of a lot of it was a cartoon i did after hanging out this so-called booth get a somewhat became a household coach and today he's the minute child shy kiss and the 23 s. he was going up in guyana. i have come back out of. 5 hours away from uncle vic. and it was a small village where people didn't have much notice when after school we play soccer with balls made of such. heights when i look at my side he has everything he doesn't know what to do with the. i would want to watch them i had to struggle to

get 2 square meals a day. so i was how i grew up and it affected me to be on the side michel that made me said goals and say so i have to give my all to achieve something else with russian and i sometime over the coming where i honestly don't know if. i can no longer understand why it's a child i wanted to be white even if it takes a lot of strength and energy to deal with racism and to hold your head up high i wouldn't want a different skin color or anything and the love. for me being black means so many syrians it means me that i'm seen differently but what's going on inside that something else. is just nick it's nothing more than

a skin color code by blackness blooms and becomes my beauty ya can't wear all the same i look 1st and foremost i'm a person but a yes at my age i wouldn't want to change anything about who i am there's no report about it but i'll tell you one thing lacks are pretty cool this include don't you think that the. planet. africa. loves and more is the way to save listen endangered species. own bills are threatened by environmental destruction. a south african project tries to protect the baby birds and lovingly rearing them by hand. but there's nothing to stop nature from calling eco africa. through him. d.w. . ruins

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. this is day w news live from berlin germans push back against corona virus restrictions thousands turn out in cities across the country to demand an end to closures cancellations and distancing nations but who is behind the growing anti lock down demonstrations we'll take a look. at south korea's president calls on citizens to stay careful as the country braces for what authorities fear could be a 2nd wave of the coronavirus after $34.00 new cases a conflict also coming up.