dre speaking. can create the tallest biggest and the most beautiful structures this is how massive churches are created. as the beatles starts april 12th on d w. i wasn't there when she died and she was probably all alone in a dark hospital room and then her life was suddenly over. the steps up by the by and i was crying because i was thinking where is the humanity where's the dignity in this pushing this patient into this it back so didn't. enforce

a bow it's unbelievable to see your partner lying all the energy in her body and the gameplay of a. different father so much i want to do i have dreams i want to live. my bridges carry on the living just his yeah you can't die along with every patient who doesn't make it that's how it is still. a funeral during the cold 19 pandemic a small group of mourners are keeping their distance there are no hunks new comforting about others just a final memory. my dad. had

a far longer isthmus eve at night and he broke his leg and was taken to hospital by the emergency doctor it's are they tested him and he was positive for city. on dying so he was put on the covert unit. and then things got really hard opt of us had specially of each. offered raft died 11 days later without his family being able to see or speak to him again. he had been married for 64 years had children and grandchildren a family man alone in a hospital room important as his life ended. up for so i tried to talk to the nurses to a doctor but they kept saying oh it's a holiday there's no one here someone will be in touch it was really difficult so i thought ok and the next day i called and kept calling then suddenly i got a call from my brother that the hospital had called him to say that our dad had

died. but if i feel guilty because i should have just done it for the family but i didn't manage to reach them and i keep picturing him all alone in his room. i was being too trusting too considerate to nice kids whenever i called they'd say there's a staff change over but there's no doctor here right now at cink i'd say no problem i'll call back that was the problem i should have been more assertive but now it's too late. we only die our own death wants what we experienced out of our loved ones over and over the feelings of guilt failure and helplessness have all grown during this pandemic. is the man you mentioned is artist a lot of people are experiencing these feelings of guilt. and i try to free them of these feelings. to encourage them to look at what they heard

when the person was the life of the relationship they had to not to put so much emphasis on those final days that it's hot yes. those final days are too much schneider's daily work he runs an intensive care unit in samson bird in southern brandenburg one of germany's covert 1000. here he needs to take a few deep breaths breathing is the involvement terry process that keeps us all alive he has lost many patients the pandemic overwhelmed everyone here including him. we talk about death rates death statistics or see enough 1000 deaths a day. but even i can put it in perspective yes in a 24 hour shift i witness 10 deaths that is my reality here that is what is really happening here what's real. but we can't transport this reality to people outside

just by quoting numbers from. the house of cards take it day by day and then out of this michael cult this spill a written response is the most difficult thing for me what has really changed is that we go to the patients fully covered in protective clothing to accompany them as they dying look as if we can't really touch them there's no skin contact or holding their hand or that's really miss that i would never have expected it. so far so good to. not just milk. said ina pingo can't count how many people she has seen die. yet graphic. death the coffee is hot ok well. talk to clinic has been pushed to the limit for months now relatives are not allowed to come close to the highly contagious patients even if it is the last chance to see them before they

don't work there are. nothing to give my chest as nurses we do our best to stand in for the relatives but what's missing is a few personal words what we can't do that because we haven't known the patients for years or some of the relatives tell their patients that it's ok for them to go . we can say that too but of course the patients feel the difference when we say it in the swans that when their relatives say it it really tells them they can let go last and it's. up to now the team has had to keep functioning in an emergency situation and no one knows how much longer it will last it's an extreme experience which has brought the team closer together. many of the emotions which had to break out erupted here in the unit that sort of it was something we had never experienced before with this i think every member of

staff here has broken down and cried in the corridor or at least once who are violent hot. for selena pink to there was a moment in the pandemic that changed everything for her. once bought us out of parts and it was the 1st patient who died who i had to put into a body bag. that was when. awful for me to miss a step that i was crawling because i was thinking where is the humanity and this where is the dignity of this putting the patient into this bag is it. just thought it was a feeling where i thought no this is not why i became a nurse something like it was too close to the. tics and i'll. not always being able to save people's lives is not unusual for doctors and nurses it is part of everyday life in the intensive care unit but the coronavirus has

opened a new dimension does it to it so it was thought there was this situation where you had to think about calling relatives 10 times within 24 hours to tell them that somebody had died it's. so important writing a 10 death certificate is what's going to they all have the same diagnosis or. want the same on the 8th or 9th call to the family you start to doubt your ability to deliver the news with the kind of empathy you'd like to have with you what's a predictable discovery. zar bence's work involves trying to see the light in dark times as a funeral director and grief they're oppressed she prioritizes self-determined dying and grieving she worries about health dying has changed with the coronavirus . ending is this above all death has become much

lonely yes i think that's what hurts people the most if not just those who are dying but also they loved ones that they can't say goodbye because they can't have physical contact that the visiting rules are so strict that making dying even how difficult that zahra bends has a video blog about death and mourning for which she produces films which she calls coffin stories. she says her aim is to build bridges. as a minister when i get the news that someone is dying then at 1st it's just something in my head from the way from my head to my heart is so much longer than just the distance between my hands it can be very helpful and comforting to really feel it to grow. but to really grasp it you have to be close by which the rules of the pandemic do not allow.

in berlin. experienced that firsthand when the virus claimed his mother's life. i took 4 weeks off from everything i was written off sick and then i just spent 4 weeks grieving lost in my thoughts. i thought about my mom and about the finite nature of life and this. is why i'm still but i wasn't there when she died. she was probably all alone in a dark hospital room and then her life was suddenly over that's not how anyone wants to leave this world and this is. what i kept thinking how could she have caught the virus and she never left the care home she was in her wheelchair or in bed she was always on the same floor. i

thought what if she caught it from me i had these thoughts what if i in fact in her i always went really close to her although i was wearing a mask when i put my hand in front of my mouth and talked to her as best i could i'd never be able to forgive myself i. will never displayed any covert 19 symptoms but back then he was never tested. ability of being responsible for his mother's death still haunts him as does the thought of her lonely and anonymous death just a statistic in the pen demick his mother. says she died on october 31st and on the 1st of november i heard the statistics. i don't recall the numbers exactly but at the end there was a one and i thought that number one of the end and that's my mom.

he wasn't allowed into the hospital where she died so he couldn't be at her side he could only say goodbye to her grief. i decided to write her a letter and i put the letter into were great for me and that was a ritual a way of saying goodbye. now he visits her grave regularly. but i haven't processed my grief yet it's constantly for me it's all very new for me and it was taking a long time. i come here once a week even if it's only for 10 minutes or so in truth i think the cemetery here is beautiful but i live nearby i often go shopping in the market hall nearby and i think this is the right place for her still that i can wave at her when i go past.

here in this care home the harsh gift in southern germany people have not processed their grief either normally it's an open care home but today its core doors are deserted 17 residents died at the start of the pandemic can you laura and her husband were infected he did not survive. the seizure i was so sick. it all happened so fast doc while all of a sudden he was gone i couldn't do anything about it and mixed a big mark and i couldn't really say goodbye to him he'd already been moved on wheels and then a nurse called me and told me that he was on a ventilator but he didn't want to go and what did i think of that in the us nation so i said well if he's fighting it and he doesn't want it we're all finished. go. 50 years abruptly ended without comfort without consultation without

human contact 1st if i didn't like it but it's not in our hand it's also why. no one was allowed to enter or needs a home presidential unit one was turned into an isolation ward too many patients were infected the bed vacated by 100 doors husband was needed again immediately contact say he saw that's really how it happened the husband died in hospital and i had to tell father earl of the news of his death after which people make love most and that same afternoon we had to move 3 of the residents to follow basically on the isolation ward fully packed it was a truly awful moment i just want guns guns surely moment. for weeks on end the people in the home had to find a way to manage between functioning and grieving. but in valley we

weren't expecting it at all it was in our residential community and it hit us like a tornado on the other sockets my we were powerless to stop it mom was having we had all the protective measures we followed all the rules but still so many of our residents caught it had so were so many deaths it was very hard for us this early mass for us yeah sure half bad. no one was expecting this young woman's death either she had no underlying health conditions the funeral took place among her closest family members but it was just a click away which is how she would have wanted it. return your karma a young influencer from hamburg lived in and for social networks she addressed her last public words full of hope to her fans and followers. whoever is with me

knows no grief whoever knows me can only laugh and forget their troubles at least for a short while with god's help i will get through this. almost 2 weeks later brittania died of covert 19 she was just 29 her life was snatched from her says her fiance manu they had plans they wanted to celebrate their wedding they had their lives ahead of them. let's unleash i'd stand enough to calm the seas at the end when i got the news that she hadn't made it. i was allowed to go and see her to say goodbye but seeing. you on the other says it's a cliché. on 1st say above it's really unbelievable to see your partner lying or know with no energy in her body. and the gimp that's on for i wouldn't wish

their own anyone interest me one. man who wishes he could have held her hand once more when she was still alive that he could have been by her side now he has friends and his faith to give him strength in his time of grief feel 5 beaten pray for shows. together. to put in every free minute we find if we pray for. and for us that we will all stay side. she's still with us in all forms and that makes the last a little easier for us to pay phones or food for. the patients admitted to the co but intensive care unit in this stuttgart hospital are getting younger we were often here in the 1st wave when most of the patients were over 80 but now many are around 65 and often have spent weeks here. i show you jerk heads the units nursing staff at the moment her patients can only sense

the empathy she feels for them. toilets had recently a patient said to me she must you know you do so much for me but if i met you on the street i wouldn't recognize you. with sinister friend if it upsets me that i wouldn't recognize you i wouldn't even be able to think you know because i can't see your face shopper privacy so even now imagine how that is for the patient they have to trust you although they can't see your face but often i should knows nothing about her patients either because they are in a coma and their relatives are not allowed to visit them elizabeth has been here since mid december after weeks in a coma she is finding her way back to life likely my colleague will open up the speaking valve here and then you can communicate with us but also come on it's we are getting you know it's hard to know hello everyone. in fact hearing her

speak means a lot to her family was there you know it's only since he's here and i'm on they've been there for me since the beginning. but no one is allowed to come in come on otherwise they'd be here every day but i have said to you right yes it does come as have you been able to talk with your family yes we've already spoken on the phone i can do that. how was it should lovely really really lovely. and i've gone back with them soon did. you know. so it's patients like elisa baker to give i sure hope this fandom make has been the biggest challenge of her professional life the 49 year old is a marathon runner so she's used to the long home but her view of life has changed.

quite a bit so that makes you really pensive you are aware of how fragile it is humans are very fragile so you do all you can then still you lose the saudis or. the cool death is a part of life then we just carry on small mindful fight on and leave the living need us to us who can die along with everything and who doesn't make it too that's how it is. while we were following i shed work a 63 year old died on the 18 bed unit i sure had an admitted her a few days earlier still optimistic about beating the virus. family counselor. has invited the relatives to bid farewell. we will ask him if will cope with death is a lonely one. business just depressed yet we don't know what the patients

are really aware of we just don't know and they get medication there calm them down to stop the pain and the breathing difficulties are so bizarre we say that this shuts down their sense of what's around them. there is often what we don't know what they really feel that is good for the maybe they sense something on a higher level than we know ones so i really don't know if it's lonely or as i desire just. amid all the darkness hospital chaplain chef on pfeiffer has to give the people comfort and support he finds it in his face. but the 37 year old knows that's not true of everyone some cases have affected him especially deeply. is pinned form. i was called into the intensive care unit 3 for christmas by a young woman 35 years old and seriously ill with coziest psystar can't think of it more and to. see mission of mercy she wanted to have

a blessing to her has always entering her room the woman still had her phone in hand she was just saying goodbye to her husband she knew she was about to be sedated because she would be put on a ventilator and would no longer be conscious and she didn't know whether she would survive it was not on his. or start on the top this i stood next to her and heard the telephone call to us it was heartbreaking and sleaze an obvious normal. positive i took what i've heard into the prayer and gave the blessing to both her and her husband live and the tears were rolling down her face and slade as he then it all went very fast she was sedated and put on a ventilator it was very effective when. the patient survived but as a cleric vie for knows how important farewells are for the grieving process it's an issue which occupies him a lot currently not everyone is willing to go through with his pain at the end. i

also hear some people say my mother is dying can you come and give her last rites thing and then i say please come and say goodbye to her and i say no i can't do it because of the coronavirus or that i feel they sometimes use it as an excuse that worries me because i wonder how they will grief after with this if they've missed this chance it's really important to say goodbye to the person you love from someone who's had such an impact on your life it's a minimum. stephon goal survived coated but only just now he's fighting for every breath in physio therapy after $108.00 days in the i.c.u. in a clinic in munich his money is seriously damaged. but as i go into a minute and you really feel your limits it's a huge problem just to climb the stairs and afterwards i feel like i have to read them more air than can possibly fit into my bloodstream because all these

interfaces have been badly damaged by the virus it was going through the shittiest . normally who wouldn't want to take them recently they did a c.t. scan and the radiologist said your lung doesn't look good there are some parts missing or holes as he put it and that i should think about getting a transplant what we want to transplant of throwing stuff on goal is still haunted by his coma dreams his late mother but also strangers appeared to him in that world between my life and death. if you wish does it i saw myself on the wire. there was no t.v. but i saw what they were doing to me with about a 10 minute time delay and i thought to myself if you can still see this then you're not dead yet you can see what they're doing to you your mom. the 64 year old's life is not like it was before his illness his lungs kidneys and heart have

all suffered damage he was in an artificial coma for over 2 months and underwent 3 into bishops believed we don't know when i woke up out of my coma stockers and nurses came from all over to see me they were glad i was alive so. if i feel a great sense of belonging to this country because they really look after the people who live here all i can say is it's brilliant if i were in england or america i'd probably be either dead or totally broke by now. patients like stefan gold who survive the virus are a ray of hope for hospital staff it helps to see that their work is worthwhile in spite of all the deaths. oh hello dr. thanks for everything great to see you super i'm feeling much better. it's wonderful to see you standing here in front of us without any kind of help. the

rest will follow 2 there is still dynamic yes there still dynamic left. 76 days in a coma was he afraid of dying. and i know. that i thought there's so much i still want to do i still have dreams i want to live up to though i never thought that i'd give up i wanted to see my children grow up and i have other dreams. fungal made it look so far nearly 80000 other people in germany didn't so many goodbyes in times of social distancing what can really do if they're not all now to go. and see the deceased. has produced a video reconstructing scenes with a friend. and i would encourage everyone to ask the nurses to take. off a lock of hair or take a fingerprint and you can do that with an end pad and a sheet of paper it doesn't take too much time.

was. that way you have something to look at something to touch to feel that someone's dilators. zora bent thinks it's time for us to deal more openly with death. when i really wish is that along with all the tragedy the pandemic has brought us maybe we can spot a few opportunities for instance to charles to ask how we want to say goodbye what is important what maybe we should bring the deceased a little closer to us because we realize now how important it is to say goodbye with all of our senses that it's time for a discussion about this that's what i wish. the pandemic as an

opportunity to talk about the end of life coburg 19 has changed how we die and it will leave its mark for a long time to come. co

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