ah for the 1st time in 4 years, amanda returned to the site of the massacre. she was shot on the dance floor of the shooter open fire and was critically wounded by 4 gunshots. her good friend, chris, until it was murdered. that night. i wish i could've done more than you amanda only survived by hiding under the bodies of the victims. it took a 3 r hostage situation and confide before police shot omar martinez dead. his motive so unclear to this day, shortly before the attack, he swore allegiance to the so called islamic state. i remember crying and

screaming and pleading to please no more enough is enough. then we hear a blast when a fire and police came in there with the fees and paramedics and saying that, you know who stated who they were and that were safe now. and that they killed them in no say from them that they need us to try to get out as quick as we can. so they could get us to the hospital. i had to tell him that i can't walk. i can't really move. so i had to dragged my body across the bathroom floor. jasmine, ralph amanda's wife, accompanies her to the memorial on the 5th anniversary of the shooting. oh, i can never, ever forgive him,

ever. will god forgive, but you can't forgive amongst you like me a practicing christian. she asked the murdered victims what she should do through prayer. busy big rainbow. so that was my sign from them saying, you know, do it, do any, go be any t fire, fire paramedic. go help people in this world that really need help and trying to save their lives. so hopefully something like this or anything else in the world will happen just just to be there for them in amanda, followed through and successfully and training as an emergency medical technician. and give me a sense of purpose to know that you know when i'm out there and i'm helping somebody, whatever the situation is, whether we have to do cpr or somebody i was in an accident or an elderly maybe have

fallen just to know that the day that they see us and they know that we're going to take care of them. it's just, it's just gives me just a warm feeling and sign and just happy that i can help somebody and in need. just in working with ivy brenner for the past year, the shifts are 12 hours long. sometimes longer they do with an average of $8.00 to $10.00 medical emergencies per day. the tight space in the ambulance have allowed them to get to know each other well. me. the best person to talk about it with somebody who's been through if i've seen her interact with trauma patients. she's great. i see that twins,

but she's moving through it. i know this job because sometimes depending on what we go to sometimes you know tragedies like when it was technic, it's hard because i know what she's been through me. and during

your day good. how is yours? her home gives them enough strength and a feeling of safety. she and jasmine have known each other for a long time. a year ago. they got married and now live with jasmine children. as a family you like it? i think you look at 2 times and i feel it makes me feel helpless like i just wish there was something more i could do, especially in times like when we're on the beach and they start the fire work start and some expected because it's daytime or something and she just starts running and you know, she, she's looking for somewhere to go to run from you know, gunshot sounds, you know, because that's what it sounds like to her. and i am chasing her and i'm,

we're trying to go some more save somewhere to so that she doesn't have to hear that and feel that way and bring it all back. you know, so, so like i said, flashbacks, that i get when that happens. so, but you being there it's that's, that's enough for me that, that is doing something. so i don't want you to feel like amanda and her whole family, including her parents and her brother live in temple, an hour and a half by car, from orlando. and i now always had a good relationship with her parents and her brother, but they have gotten closer since the shooting that night. the had all celebrated her father's birthday afterwards. amanda wanted to briefly go to the club to dance with her friend christie. she had been there only half an hour in the hall began 911 recordings portray people waiting in panic for help to arrive. ready ready

ready i don't know what's the location of your emergency call for, and i need you to stay where you are. i'm going to try to cheryl in a police department, but we have multiple calls coming in. they're working the shooting out there. okay . ready ready ready ready he's still inside the shooters, inside what address coca cola, the amanda caught her mother from her hiding place in a bathroom stall. the phone rang, i immediately look at the clock every time. the 4 if, because like is and so if it's late i'm i panic, so i jumped, i answered the phone and all i got was mom. i've been shot unlike amanda, where are you? she she said was paul some like wars. paul, she says orlando, i said orlando, i said amanda, where in orlando is paul. so i don't know, mom, please call 911 i've been shot and then i got

a dial tone or my sister's always been the type of person that will just give us your offer back. she's always been a very loving accepting person. i know we joke around about about her, but she truly is an awesome person. i don't say that because she's my sister just. you can just see it from her. she always wants to help people. we always make a joke that if she's got $5.00 in her pocket, she'll give you $10.00. and so how this changed her, i feel is just more of an advocate, more to help people and understanding of what happened to her and but not let her define her. i couldn't even imagine moving. it was thought it was rough. i get like the only one i think amana or talk to somebody about it, but for the most part, you know, we're just happy family and just happy that she is here with us to continue life. mm brendan wolf. it's also a survivor who there's

a lot that has to be done to stop things like pulse from happening. we have to have a conversation policy wise about how we treat guns in this country. it is far too easy for dangerous people to get their hands on weapons that are designed to kill as many people as quickly as possible before the attack. brandon was a manager at starbucks. now he's active is fighting for stronger gun control laws and against anti l. g, b, t, q discrimination. what happened at pulse was not an operation. it was an avid ability. the ingredients, the l g anti l g b, g q, violence are ever present. they're the same ingredients that show up when a trans kid had give slammed into a locker, they're the same ingredients that exist when a black trans women has gone down on the street. when i was growing up, church wasn't a safe place for me. school was on

a safe place for me. home was not always a safe place for me. and that's true for a lot of l g b t q people. for that reason we carve out the safe spaces like whole as sort of lifelines where we can be authentically ourselves without having to be afraid or. busy look over our shoulder 1st. ah, i oh, i amanda and brandon on meeting for the 1st time. exactly 5 years after the massacre from all over the world, people is just coming together as a community and just kinda lending their, you know, their shoulders and their hearts. and you know, if we needed help or anything like that and just coming,

trying to be like united. so that was, that was very lovely when they, when the world was doing a re commitment to a world where we can be ourselves unapologetically and do it in honor of the people that were solving from ah, great, really. derrick g, front of by the mash shooting and the pulse club shouldn't tie the fact that the members of l g b t q community have to live that the daily threat in this same country where as the president himself has termed it, gun violence is an upper demick oh oh i. ringback i

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