i stayed with him his entire life so when they came to my teams as the ones i've got very difficult for me, then that's when i got the abuse from people. they found out that i was bored notices of sight of wedlock, which is a big mark to send a volume that statement just reject you back to you and just called your names for no, actually a reason. i couldn't understand why an old that's affected me growing up at the eventually then i went to a river to do away with myself because i couldn't take any more life. life didn't look back on june and i still have this insight, me all the time. like, you know, i really do the irish government has announced compensation plans, but only those people who spend at least 6 months in a mother and baby home will be eligible to have her to you is said to receive 40000 zeros. we're only getting peanuts we're only getting

a fraction when you thing like it. those 7 years take note of my life laptop. what i caught up for the nursing home, i presume like honest something you've taken over my life. i don't know anything about just and you must have taken away from you. that's what christ. in his early twenties, pj, i started looking for his birth mother. he asked neighbors and other locals and discovered that his mother was living in london. at 1st they exchanged letters. then she agreed to meet him. from his mother, p. j discovered that she had never wanted to get him away. for 5 years, she had knocked at the door of the home every day. but the nuns turned her away. she loved for me and she wants to do everything for me, but she was restricted. she told me. i was delighted to know that she didn't leave me there because she didn't like me or she didn't want me. which was nice to know that she did want to make sure the difference and to get me out. and that was

lovely like, you know, it cleaned it took a lot of your, you know, that your friends who are hillman, he over the power to the elementary is another thing like, you know, that your 2000 and what the image and more that i need to talk to and i think so it's going to not let us know the same definitely. and a quarter again, search goes on. she still doesn't know for sure what happened to her 2 brothers. she collects everything connected to the mother and baby homes, birth and death certificates. baptism, certificates and investigation. reports for search has become central to her life. and i grew up as an only child. she only discovered by chance that she had siblings after her mother's death. it's like somebody has given you a stage signs. the big wooden cudgels are

a big wrecking ball. it takes a lot of time to process it. my mother never had told me anything about her time into i'm home. people didn't discuss it because in a lot of case scenario, and this was there was a lot of shame attached being in a home. and i came across a medical report in documents held by the adoption authorities. an entry about her brother john read. he was a miserable, emaciated child with a voracious appetite and no control over bodily functions. what happened to discharge from birth to 12 months that he ends up in this condition, no control over bundling functions. and if john is dead, i contend he died and i'd like to him on nutrition in 2014 and i contacted the police. john's cause of death is under investigation. for brother, william is officially classed as a missing person. on the outskirts of

dublin, paul redmond lives with his adoptive mother. he helps look after his adoptive father, his dad is they were open about his adoption. it didn't really kind of occurred to me. what's adopted meant uncle. i was 7 or age. i'm gonna have a vivid memory of being in english and then the 1st mcdonalds in ireland, which i have a lot of mirrors at the time. i don't remember seeing my whole family in the queue and looking at the mirror, it seemed to everybody else in the family, a block here and i had red hair. so that was one of the 1st times i kind of realize that's what it really means to be adult. and i knew what it meant to be adopted, but that was the 1st time, but really a most of the hit me or his adopted those questions. i started searching as a teenager, i'm damn, i was 50. i took my bicycle, the sides of it to delta. after looking up the address of to adoption society in

the following book. i'd like an absolute show it to stay or nothing on the tour. of course, they just got ready to pull treasures the result of his search. it took 25 years to track down his mother, adeline. but on the telephone, she told him that she didn't want any contact. all the poll has is this letter. this letter is a personal touch. it's something she wrong with it, something she touched solace. if some sort of physical connection, the physical connection, it might not have a hold or a kiss, but at least you got something to talk to him, hold. i did find peace and bought a very straight and sort of piece. i kind of became no more about the whole team.

you can trace and you can search and they can do this. you can how so the government from mountain, so paperwork going to the end of the day. you cannot make somebody want that relationship with you. it has to be their choice. such a slight pain floyd. so i have the cold calls to believe. no. i'm going to go to the funeral and see how be laid to rest. so i can conclude said to myself, i've every very lucky man that i've got that much more. that signal was off. now p j would like to find the last piece and the person who was his biological father. he hopes a dna test will shed light on that. katherine cordless is helping him just

because it's like technical. if a test page you go with all the tests. i do participate until difficult difficult and codes. it's not the you stop talking because advise you in a records of even a distant relative of his fathers are held anywhere. p j will no more coat the whole truth and nothing. oh says catherine gets enquiries from all over the world. she looks for names and contact details of survivors, relatives with the help of dna test results and online databases. i faded gold. if i get answers for them, it's the same thing as to beat the system. a lot of those people who are born in the home, they are not allowed to see their own records, see who their mother is older father is that information belongs to the fish and

that's a sole sorrow. i've got a good feeling if i find something for that family, they're so happy there. so a time for i have changed their life. and what more could i ask? the results from pj's dna test will take a few weeks to arrive. paul redmond is concerned with one question above all. why didn't his mother try to trace him? not only the long silence of the state and the church are to blame over the years, a kind of our bar. so a lot of the monitors have been told that it was a terrible more to say to reconcile our having reunion with our child that was dropped and then took them into boulder and baby helps. i live with something that really stays with monitors, because a more to say it was towards the worst of the worst. i mean a rags up. there were bird or am. and if you come in or more to said,

do to have for all the charges, he changed my perspective on my natural most are by making me realize that she is in fact that we were both victims out survivors in the way as well in 2018 pope francis visited ireland as a survivor, paul was invited to an audience with the pontiff. he asked the pope to set the record straight about models and we all forget all the time. many single mothers were told not to see that children that this was a multiple saying, you know, i'm also saying for the irish adoption agencies saw a sudden jump in the number of tracing requests after the pope's announcement. i'm afraid of all the tales. we see that's the wall and the kind of stays with me the most and so blaze. i mean door motors and the top. these and all corners violent

and they'd be living and shame and fee or of silence for turkey. 145060 years old vibes of 5 lead the pope high. besides are free of all this nonsense. now, what is it the square you stuff, unknowns around the motor a baby holds have a sense the ignored want. the poll says they haven't tasted responsibility. they have and an offer to to call attribute towards re address for survivors. paul's battle continues to wants the irish government to pay compensation to all survivors, regardless of how long they were in the homes. he plans to go to the country supreme court if necessary. and still waiting for answers about what really happened to her brothers, john and william i'm hoping that they do find my brother.

i mean we're getting older and 67 this year. so my brother's into the seventy's, so time is running else. and there's more of a glimmer of hope there. this he is and i was, i made some he may not want to know me, but i just want to say so your life you survived. you don't like may's look like do i wish you a very happy days? i'm to. if you don't want to know, i'm just please leave. turn that letter for you. if you do want to know i'd be over the amount of bringing home i, let's do suits your needs and nephews a show you my show you where i live, bring use the countryside, show you where a mother was from, bring you to where she's buried. so then you are peace and you can send me the piece from the government has now announced it will have the remains in june exhumed. perhaps this will give an honest certainty about the fate of both of her brothers.

tga search also still goes on the dna test, didn't provide any leads about his father's identity. i have names being told to me like but to really find those would be lovely. but for the survivors, you know, might have still goes out to them. the silicon model is that what they're still looking for, their sons and daughters want to know where they are just to hold them because of the change. and hopefully one day that's what happened the kids, it's jackie, is changing. 6 years ago. he said he can't get any was, but it does guardians of truth. this time, excel gen,

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