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consensus, talk to about the type of the 28 punch, right? it says, and sometimes it's exhausting, trying to find in, in about another student in the home life can be exhausting. listening to people talk about pet t saying slight, very important i could screen. but what good with that to it was me. it's like jumping back and forth between 2, well the image i'm shipping, it's close. it's okay to enjoy yourself and just to now start but dealing with life and death, you have to process it. you con, distraught to telephone from this your tongue november, november, the 4th, and every time i come to the hospice, i'm filled with a kind of joy. it's not less easy to talk about. is just anybody serious with you them time coming up nice. the dispensing could make you don't the time drowning an infinite sadness when i'm alone. but i do think about just a lot. and i think i find positive energy in difficult situations as well as in

happy one that i, because barbara always says, learn how nice that you're here. and every time i think to myself, how nice that i get to be. so you have the a hi it's been you a honda and it and i'm present in the hi i'm yeah, one is the new present us the dvd ash. 021 grams. so what does 21 grams refer to? that's roughly how much the human so my way, it's not scientifically prove and of course that's not true, but it needs the most have room for what. what does that leave room for? oh, crap. thank if the ones we want to make dash less of it today. and we want to talk

with you about things people don't usually like to talk about time. so again, i'm a companion for the dying, which means that i'm always standing at the crossroads between life and death lead to i've been doing this for 7 years now. and i have the feeling this way cuz put way more intensity to how i'm living. because without death, there's no nice. nobody knows that stuff or the one on top of that. i've also lost the siblings. so death is always played a big role for me. and then with my grandfather go, so i was 11 when he died and saw this decline, the other really alive man's we did so many things changed within just 2 months. i was there for all that. so that's been my experience with that so far. how busy you say you were at the funeral to be adding home about i was at the funeral and i saw him for the last time for the 2 weeks before he died. i visited him for the last time. he was already pretty far gone. how he'd regret a lot, he talked about his mother. he didn't really recognize anyone anymore, but he was still alive and still present somehow or why his own grief helps us to

see feelings more clearly and sense most subtle. and you're always getting mixed because grief doesn't begin with the death of a person. so agree, so he just like this is a fact of life that accompanies us. it was just like i accompanied an 8 year old girl who lost a 12 year old sister to bone campsite fund on dublin. you know, i joined the family rights house to the dad to come and sit by another with l. r. i noticed that she was sometimes the police side for a moment, a moment, and then she was okay and it's been divided. so we go back to play a piece of control up with this. like she jumped from one pool of sadness to the next box and then often it's the case with us adults that we think of just such a well of grief that we call and get house events. we will mess drowned and it then goes, i definitely noticed that some major differences between children and adults of oxygen and all the on the

estimate assessed for a few weeks. so i'd be an accompanying mandy who has a serious health conditions now soon she will die. she's on the waiting list for hospice bed of on demand vice funds divide, signed yet. right. so let's just, i was wondering about your bucket list or i would have called a wish list of, of what you call a bucket list in there. for instance, tom. yeah, it's quite a funny story. i saw a movie wants to fill stuff to her in the hospital and they said to themselves, hey, i still have certain things that i would like to do or has the field before i kick the bucket, to go home and they still, before she moved up you know, and then it became so clear to me a bucket list, which of those things that i would still like to do before i kick the bucket, to move up to the top feeder that you have so many or 40 or 40 to right.

now. wow. and all the ones that just codes you've done those to exactly. i to feel the or shape them somehow. it was sort of and it was funny in the beginning, when you think about it, what do you really want to do or experience in your life or something where it's like there were a couple of things where i thought to myself as well, hello. this might be exactly what i want from life government for to happen. for example, i'd like to eat fresh strawberries or fly. i thought that would never really happen . then suddenly i found myself sitting in an ultra light airplane. and it was like, wow, well, because flying me kind of means interesting to me or probably because i had a near death experience. i felt this kind of freedom then to be honest, irish things i had good her from this. i'm not of the kind of felt some of that again and this out for lifeline. this is just existing between heaven and that was really fascinating for me to finish for senior type decision. when did you start

writing all that down? just a moment of action for the no ma'am. then let's my little list immediately off to my last surgery from which was when i decided not to undergo any more surgeries. and that was a very major operation. district where they had to be super late me 4 times. and it became very clear to me like no food was i've had a total of 11 life saving hot interventions disguised. that's enough. or that in the same breath, so to speak. i decided to take this palliative rogia to those and also to pursue these wishes. so if i could list of what i'd like to do, and i still have the final set, you've already had a near death experience. um, how does, what do you think happens after death and told me no, it's been for the stuff. what about sort? well, i'm totally convinced that i know months because i missed the death experience. i didn't see a bright light tunnel like some people too. i saw myself dying from a box for me it was completely bizarre because i could hear and feel this crazy

alarm sound. coming from the marta i could field and this is 5th. but at the same time there was also a complete stillness total silence. so it was completely quiet and noisy at the same time, and there was also the total piece. i noticed that i no longer had any questions. i also had this strange, 360 degree view without having to move in any particular way. that's what this comes with yet. it became clear to me that in the end the 1st thing would be one map. and i noticed that me from that it was clear, well hello, there you go. my fear of death immediately vanished off to this near death experience phone, contact number on the

the the you take it by phone. yes. it's going to that's what i'd like to ride the road a coaster. okay. okay. but that was pretty cool too. yeah. as to april, the 11th i meant hello, i said children's bereavement, great. i was leading just reply to a few months before had big sister died of bone cancer. she was only 12 and, and it was 8 years old. and somehow we instantly clicked. and since then i have a company, the family show through that grief joy and then gum jovita sits in the tell me what you're planning. lice than done reading the document. yeah. okay. i'm yeah, i just have your mind. i have my dissertation. so bad guys. and we also have,

i'm interested in the agency of terminally ill children to nephew to vanish. and because i think that children onto involves nearly enough in this whole process when it comes to therapy meshes and just being included in the whole decision making process successful through. if it does though, it is, i can tell you, i think you should definitely let the kids have their side's when we did. of course, you could also consider the parents perspective, the design, other actually assessing how equipped to their children or to decide on these issues nobody to non so it but the children should definitely be involved. you should ask about their opinions and wishes and also about agency that with whom i got. so based on that, do you think that you for your company different families? so my doctoral thesis now for a few months for a year, then i might get to many different perspectives because no 2 families there were like, do the other than glad i then somehow incorporate them. oh, come talk to me. no. would that still be scientific enough? for them, assistance offers them, you know, does that come that qualitative social research is really going into depth, not taking a broad approach will feel of felt and then it becomes less about having as many

cases or families as possible. and more about looking at what are the very concrete, subjective issues that come up and asking a terminally ill child these questions into the seminar. and if you do that over a long period of time, you will need significantly fewer cases then if you were to just conduct a series of interviews. so i would 1st wait until you have the research design and use, and then you can look at the next step. how many families do you need to answer your questions, find something to that will be decided on the fine print since june. the 15th. the thing for me that still inexplicable is how the time i spend in the hospice is imbued with the menlo de cool, nice, gentle rhythm of nice weather. adagio will presto, mine, arrow major. good. everything's held together by a structure. everything interact just with everything else. it's like values that we define to, man, i'm increasingly aware of the emotional depths that sign coach facing the wood itself and, and its inhabitants. and so i've got this, this is, this is,

i feel very, very comfortable here. i just have to say that over fee is i had to just go on. although i can't say exactly why i simply feel comfortable here. i feel like i'm in good hands. yeah. oh, good old school. that's always for me for me. i never used to feel this way, but eventually it's a relevant whether i still have 3 months or only for another 2 years from that. it's just not important. you said you decide, i'm enjoying this time that i have now like this is, it's beautiful because all the things that i have suffered in my cost don't match row anymore than that versus a device. this is how was it for you to grow up in an alternate gmc goes into effect. so something shaped me a lot, for example, because of that experience. i didn't want to come here. i didn't want to come to this hospice life isn't very easy. is it for you this too much ahead of you? you don't even know it yet. so that's something else that's good for me. i'm gonna

look there's not much that can happen to me anymore. but i see on them are you afraid of death because it doesn't sound like it's only role is no, no says old, especially since i was told that my dad would be simply losing my strength, losing the desire to do anything with the visa of us and it would be like slowly saying good bye to life and falling asleep when the i'm and i will not resist this study. this was this almost. i think that death comes when it's supposed to come on . and that is quite reassuring to main transfer the mind like in

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items on the east august august, the 21st i'm leaving a message to me personally is supporting the people here and making their lives most beautiful because we so i want to push a smile on their faces and enjoy life with them. to the fullest or as much as possible. life is so precious and we only get one, even if he knows it's incredible. we assume you should still make on every my minutes and unforgettable quantities and maybe i'm taking on a bit too much for. but that's my goal. notice and you should always have a goal. and so i don't mind seeing how ok. so i think these need to go back. yeah, i said no, yes i had the same. so when i saw that it somehow doesn't fit to to, that's what will come, where do these blocks come from? the big data. there's only the pink one here now, to me that's a little too. so serena kind of drawn down. so, you know,

really fun up. some again, one's gonna exactly. so we're looking at what does this mean of nearing it like this? yes. okay. as positive matches look good. i work on the truck, us to very good. yes, great. then really, so i'm just clicking that and then i'm excited to talk about the back cover. takes things we can think about. the design is the back cover to hopefully look side to mit, twisting and come then, then maybe we can look at the whole phone. hold on in this paragraph, it's important to me that these 10 insights come across even stronger. does it, does it seem as if the books about coming, okay, this, the semester's bookstore and it's not just aimed at the people dealing with this to the phone number to sign conductress is, as you always put it so beautifully, people who are dealing with death don't need to take a mindfulness, cool. yeah,

yeah. kind of does. instead of a guess, i don't want to write this book. i need for people who are confronting death right now, but for everyone, because this is a subject this effect so. so i'm going to swing willow, die at some point, and that's why it's so important to somehow deal with the subject before hand. it's what i answered when dest eventually happens, it wouldn't be as difficult to manage the a hi, food store breeze lost a cool, that's totally sweet of you. after that, so in your bucket, less than that, yes. and the fresh from random beg look really fresh to thank you very much on christmas. you will one right now a loved one. great. so it's good to say i haven't eaten strawberries for ages. so

yes, that was a great idea of yours. my pleasure. p z, there was still plenty of though. yes, that's great. i always loved them as a child to my grandmother had a huge god and back then i'm from the 3rd. if it was filled with strawberries and cards, things like that. i was just really present whenever i was the you don't the find me in the god. mm hm. because that does also, it also has a lot to do with your childhood, right? strawberries or not. so do you want people 2 weeks to please at your funeral, whatever, whatever, what do you think about it? so you know, some people really liked things like that for you, for example, i could totally imagine people drinking coffee at my funeral. i think that's kind of cool because i also like to drink caufield, the timeframe depends like i'll be downstairs and some to do to you can drink something. this doesn't time for me. so then i'm not quite sure

about it as a medium. usually i don't wear black, i make out the 1st genetics most again. that name is that ok let's most of the fair cool, very cool. it's somehow much smaller than i expect. i know it's good that we can look so much speaker on tv. oh, of the diesels, in line with a 27 year old company. the diameter. yes. and then i got that question fairly often, and i always think to myself, why wouldn't i miss of the bottom it? why is the scene is something that said the queue? yes, yes, it's something that everyone finds so difficult and they say, hey, why you doing this? why are you dealing with such a heavy subject to such a young a end table for me? for me, it doesn't feel heavy for me is for me it's more question of why isn't this a normal thing for us to do it on?

is it, is this without something i just don't because i want these with teeth for me on this that this, that and so for relationships, liam, on this emptiness and fall and just being in this pure existence, poor dogs line. i think that's what makes me feel even more life and screwing less high is china. i've got lucy here. yeah. it's just way too much going the flour, but we don't have to cool of it. let's see. no, that's right. you can types of mouse so much color flour. didn't know what to do

with so much cauliflower. i think i tend to the overestimate to that. when. okay, no stress the yeah yeah. nonsense i'm. i made the 19th. he passed away on speakers. they said he wouldn't peacefully in his sleep. i know it must have been a relief for him to find any go. but it's still hot. do you mind? do i go to visit with him 4 times dried how designed his eyes were always shining until he couldn't type in the many more. then he was just sleeping speechless, mixed only later did i realize how much these meetings had changed me. the interplay of life and death accompanies us every day. we don't want to acknowledge it, unless dest directly affects us sole someone in all family media. you boss, just as was still ringing my ears. he was never afraid of death thought he was only afraid of life, but i'm leaving. why not be here?

you go, thanks. have a good flight for 14. okay. and then please check in with ms. britsky in room 13 to see if he's ready. i know i'm bringing you. not sure. this looks delicious, missus. shiva kinda oh oh my god, i've got it always sounds delicious. this is fantastic. right. wow. just great. i had hoped for this. i think you requested asparagus potatoes in him? yes. because identification today's friday. right. it smelled like face didn't it? and i was like, yes. yes, that's a much better. now let's tend towards meet them. i can ages everything is the my milk is this. so everything is good, we've got everything. yes, of course. good. thank you. shouldn't go unhappy. t. c, late to by accident on november,

november the 18th. every now and then i experience moments of doubts. even though i'm set this, i found my life cooling, working in a hospice. there are also times when i feel pushed to my limits and some things. and i wonder if i can really do this, come accompany people on that journey. understood like like well, we're christening the book. i think congratulations . thank you. is that september the 6 inch thick from time to time when i forget to when my name tag, people asked me how long i has been a patient here. the total cost is my end fault because i deliberately shaved my hat, but was mind hot uplift the unless i've been thinking of shaping my head down to 3 millimeters for a while. you publish it. so now let's, i've actually done it. i feel a lot more feminine than i did before,

simply because it feels so much more comfortable. so if you want to feel that maybe i'm always looking to do something extremely extremely causal tava. since then, so april, the 16th a musical often noon in the hospice, the year is the last sense. 3 organs has stopped functioning. apart from that music transport so much more than just a few notes. it's beautiful to see when it looks something in a person's mind and causes memories to come flooding back. now, yes, i'm the guy with arkansas now for version blown vision mission yet. so to me it looks great. wow. and so this is the nazareth and now look, i know right. and may the 13th the she was

asleep. i sat down with her intuitively and started to speak. i'm sure if she could hear me or not. it's not me. i took her hands and started to cry. i could not understand how such a special person could be destroyed by this disease. the defense then, the corners of her mouth turned up and she pressed my hands tightly to her hot time . i can't remember a moment in my life that was full of looms, love and energy as this one is. uh the, and that's how good truman. and if it was funny you think so. i really like it. so call me writing desktop. say what do you think about the screaming for a little behind? why here, man, well then you can just like to. so last of it that's, it works out maybe ok and or sadness or even just to feel really happy because i still saw it because sometimes it's just nice to scream at all. okay. but then you

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