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the, [000:00:00;00] the consensus talked to about the type of the 28 punch, right? it says, and sometimes it's exhausting, trying to find it in about another student in the home. life can be exhausting. listening to people talk about pet t saying slight,

very important i could screen. but what good would that to and he just needs like jumping back and forth between 2. well the image of him spring is close. it's okay to enjoy yourself and just to now start but dealing with life and death, you have to process it. you can just shut details off from this. the field on november, november the full. every time i come to the hospice, i'm filled with a kind of joy. it's not that easy to talk about. so it's just anybody is picking them time coming up nice to meet you don't the time drowning and infinite sadness when i'm alone. but i do think about just a lot, and i think i find positive energy in difficult situations as well as in happy one that i because barbara always says, learn how nice that you're here. and every time i think to myself,

how nice that i get to be here, you have the highest and you have a i that and i present in the hi i'm yeah. when is the new present? is the dvd ash? 021 grams. so what does 21 grams refer to? that's roughly how much the human soul might weigh. it's not scientifically prove, and of course that's not what it needs the most have room for what. what does that leave room for? crap. okay. the ones we want to make dash less of it today and we want to talk with you about things. people don't usually like to talk about time. so again, i'm a companion for the dying, which means that i'm always standing at the crossroads between life and death, lima to, i've been doing this for 7 years now. and i have the feeling this way, cuz put way more intensity to how i'm living. because without death, there's no nice already and also be the stuff i the one on top of that. i've also

lost the siblings. so death is always played a big role for me. and then with my grandfather go. so i was 11 when he died and saw this decline, the other really alive, man. so it did so many things changed within just 2 months. i was there for all that. so that's been my experience with that so far. how busy you say you were at the funeral to be adding home about i was at the funeral and i saw him for the last time for the 2 weeks before he died. i visited him for the last time. it was already pretty far gone. he'd regressed a lot, he talked about his mother. he didn't really recognize anyone anymore, but he was still alive and still present somehow. or why his own grief helps us to see feelings more clearly. i'm sense most subtle and you're always getting mixed because grief doesn't begin with the death of a person. so what grief on you, just like this is a fact of life to companies. this is your dislike. i accompanied an 8 year old girl who loves to a 12 year old sister to bone campsite fund on dublin, you know,

doing the family rights off to the dad to come and sit by another with l. r. i noticed that she was sometimes the police side for a moment, a moment, and then she was okay and it's been divided. so we go back to play a piece of control up with this. like she jumped from one pool of sadness to the next box and then also that's the case with us adults that we think of just such a way of grief that we call and get house events. we will mess drowned and it then goes, i definitely noticed that some major differences between children and adults of oxygen and all the of the estimate assessed for a few weeks. so i've seen accompanying mandy who has a serious health conditions now soon she will die. she's on the waiting list for hospice bed of on demand vice funds divide, signed it. right. so let's just i was wondering about your bucket list or i would

have called the wish list of, of what you call a bucket list in there. for instance, tom. yeah, it's quite a funny story. i saw a movie wants to fill stuff to her in the hospital and they said to themselves, hey, i still have certain things that i would like to do or has the field before i kick the bucket, to go home and they still, before she moved up you know, and then it became so clear to me a pocket list which of those things that i would still like to do before i kick the bucket, to move up to the top feeder that you have so many or 40 or 40 to right. now . wow, now, and 2 of the ones that just codes you've done, those has to exactly i to feel the or shape them some houses almost all the time. it was funny in the beginning, when you think about it, what do you really want to do or experience in your life on? so that's where it's like, there were a couple of things where i thought to myself as well, hello. this might be exactly what i want from life general before to happen. for

example, i'd like to eat fresh strawberries or fly. i thought that would never really happen . then suddenly i found myself sitting in an ultra light airplane. and it was like, wow, well, because flying me kind of means interesting to me or probably because i had a near death experience. i felt this kind of freedom then to be honest, irish things i had a good handle from this. and how does it felt some of that again and this out for lifeline. just existing between heaven. and that was really fascinating for me to finish for some, you know, type decision. and when did you start writing all that down? just a moment of action for the no ma'am. then let's my little list immediately off to my last surgery from which was when i decided not to undergo any more surgeries, that was a very major operation because they had to do super late me 4 times. and it became very clear to me like no, i've had a total of 11 life saving hot interventions guys,

but that's enough. or i didn't the same bread, so to speak. i decided to take this palliative rogia to those, and also to pursue these wishes. so if i could list of what i'd like to do and i'm, i'm, i still haven't got the final set. you've already had a near death experience. um, how does, what do you think happens after death and told me no, it's been for the stuff. what about sort while i'm totally convinced that i know because in this new test experience, i didn't see a bright light tunnel like some people to. i saw myself dying from a boss for me it was completely bizarre because i could hear and feel this crazy alarm sound. coming from the marta i could field and this is 5th. but at the same time there was also a complete stillness total silence. so it was completely quiet and noisy at the same time. and there was also the total piece. i noticed that i no longer had any questions. i also had this strange,

360 degree view without having to move in any particular way. this of this come give you, it became clear to me in the, in the end the 1st thing would be one mail from i noticed that before and then it was clear, well, hello, there you go. my fear of death immediately vanished. foster this near death experience phone, contact the number on the the money you take about item is gone. yes, it's going about that. that's what i'd like to ride the road coaster. okay. okay. but that was

pretty cool too. yeah. as to april, the 11th i meant hello or i said children's bereavement, great. i was leading just reply to a few months before had big sister died of bone cancer. she was only 12 and, and it was 8 years old. and somehow we instantly clicked. and since then i have a company the family show through that grief, joy, i'm dying gum. yeah. does ita sits in her folder? tell me what you're planning nice than done reading the document. yeah. okay. i'm yeah, i just have your mind right. i have my dissertation tell the guys, and we also, we've, i'm interested in the agency, is terminally ill children to nephew to vanish. and because i think that children on to involve nearly enough in this whole process when it comes to therapy meshes and just being included in the whole decision making process. it seems as though it is a handheld, though i think you should definitely let the kids have their so it's gonna be deed of course you could also consider the parents perspective, the design other actually assessing how equipped to their children or to decide on

these issues i'm going to non so it but the children should definitely be involved . you should ask about their opinions and wishes line and also about agency go to them. oh my god. so based on that, do you think that you find a company different families? so my doctoral thesis now for a few months. so for a year then i might get to many different perspectives because no 2 families are aligned to the i'm glad i then somehow incorporate them all come talk to me, nor would that still be scientific enough for them assistance drafters them. you know, does this contract qualitative social research? it could be really going into depth, not taking a broad approach if you have found it. and then it becomes less about having as many cases or families as possible. and more about looking at what are the very concrete subjective issues that come up and asking a terminally ill child. these questions ended up being done. and if you do that over a long period of time, you will need significantly fewer cases than if you were to just conduct a series of interviews. so i would 1st wait until you have the research design and use, and then you can look at the next step is done. how many families do you need to

answer your questions? fine. so that will be decided on the front of me for since june, the 15th. the thing for me that still inexplicable is how the time i spend in the hospice is imbued with the menlo de cool, nice, gentle rhythm of nice weather. adagio will presto, mine, arrow major. everything's held together by a structure, everything interact just with everything else. it's like values are we defined to man, i'm increasingly aware of the emotional depths that sign could face in the world itself and its inhabitants. hassan got as this is, this is i feel very, very comfortable here. i just have to say that over fee is i had to just go on. although i can't say exactly why i simply feel comfortable here and feel like coming good hands, you know, good. all school that's always for me, for me. i never used to feel this way, but eventually it's irrelevant whether i still have 3 moms or only for another 2

years, but it's just not important. tired, i'm enjoying this time that i have now like this is, it's beautiful because all the things that i have suffered in my cost don't match or any more than that versus the device. this is how was it for you to grow up in an alternate gmc guessing upset because of shape me a lot, for example, because that experience, i didn't want to come here. i didn't want to come to this hospice life isn't very easy. is it for you this too much ahead of you? you don't even know it yet. so that's something else that's good for me. i'm gonna look there's not much that can happen to me anymore. but i see on them are you afraid of death because it doesn't sound like its own me? well, no, not at all. especially since i was told that my dad would be simply losing my strength, losing the desire to do anything with the visa of of said it would be like slowly saying good bye to life and falling asleep. when the i'm and i will not resist this

study this, this, this almost, i think that death comes when it's supposed to come done. and that is quite reassuring to main transfer the mind like come names

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