to and i looked and i just started crying, screaming, crying, i think with her, she thought that she had it. so she also started crying to and are you ok? and i said to you to know where i am at the moment, i feel great. i've been good by the lighter we talked for hours pretender. i think what i think carrying here builds the loneliness that comes to orient. why didn't you tell me?

you know, you can tell me anything the. i mean that mom's under child. she's in the show. along parenting, she would have been okay. either way. now not so far behind i came out of one high in 1989 and i haven't been home in the valley job 7. frank gun this thing and i've been sticking around. i wrote a song about coming out of that you had to check the status and that's really what drove it along.

usually opposite of bombshell, the, the, the, the bed frame. what i actually did was i went on holiday to vienna. the last thing i did before i left the house was published the video on youtube, etc. then i got in a cab, i went to the airport and i, my phone was hopping, you know, with friends and people wanting to be supported for asking me questions or whatever . and i just got out of time, which i really needed to do. but for me, it's been transformative. now i feel like being hate chai, the i'm being out about it is actually just one of my super powers. i good. somebody. definitely. sorry. you know, i was thinking that here years ago when we were to man for the 1st time like you

would have them come and tell me your sorry, if i could put it in the face. yeah. and then so that i could play with them and not play. and it's just it's monster or here today and you're going to represent yourself. yeah. and, and there's one se, thanks, and i think that's really great. and i'm really proud. full sir. oh yeah, it is, isn't it? yes, alrighty. that's still cool. my name is aaron. that's somewhere around there. my name is erin. that's just what we're saying. obviously, i'm in the play. you're kept off stage and you are an armless. what's amazing show your face today. thanks a lot has changed since stopped play for me am personally professionally just life in general. and i've had a lot of reflection in the past 12 months. and for me i,

i've come to fire and i've seen too much to be hiding in the shadows and having somebody be me, you know, be, are in who is, are in the, i understand it's to the degree. i'm not saying it's easy to forgive, but i do have entity say, i know what it's like to react body. and i only know because i'm from the to unfortunately i go out to my ex spices throughout stanley, canada. and i need to get away from here. i can stay in this country. i'm from the country. i'm sorry,

what county associate she's from similar background. we've spoken about styles for actually the account exact to remember when i 1st heard about a one of those short term medical stories in the papers and you read about about cellphone. got about a few days later. now i think it had something to do with me. my name is eric sound, my real name. my name is r and that's just why we're site. isn't

it always the way when you leave your home country? to end up searching, i'm sure around initially she's been going support. she's been there quite support from me. she met me at the airport. she's letting me sleep in a bed and everything i still haven't told. i haven't told anybody here anything. i want to say to her, i want to share it with her. she's been such a good friend so far away from home. i want to be clear with her. she sitting across from me and our eyes around me. she's expecting to hear it now. she knows that something is going on. this is one of the 1st times i've ever said this is one of the 1st times i've ever told anyone. okay,

goes point 232. remember that fellow is going away? remember how to assign things ended pretty bunky. you know, when i'm talking to him, we should have anymore. so basically i have to have a house today like i shouldn't even be here right now. i shouldn't even be in this country, but i just needed to get away from home. you know, i just needed the space to figure this out. well, you know, i'm not, i'm sure i can tell. i know you can probably, i'll say i know i don't look too well to wait to the phone off me. i'm not on any medication because i can't bring it into this country. so basically that's why

that's why i haven't been nice off lately. and basically that's why that's why i haven't hung around too much really. she looks at me the she went into a face of anger and rage and told me, you are gusting. you are a disease. you are going to die. you are on the murder.

she went to get a black sack. she took on of the cups and forks to nice to plate. the 2 brushes in the background, she said you were going to kill everyone else in the house. how could you have done this one? are you gonna do? you need to get out of here. you need to get out with these countries and i did not know what to do. sheesh i did as she said, approximately golf and i left and i got out with the situation. and you know, maybe she did me a favor because i ended up getting on well, i'd work in friends and adventure. i mean the whole life. i feel sorry for that person. i think to forgive. i don't know. i think when you don't see those people and you don't talk about daily, as time passes on,

i think you just do naturally forgive. i'm just hope that they've educated themselves and i wish them all the best in the clinic. when the social workers gave me a number for somebody, a person's name is robbie. i just remember it was a day in dublin and i had that number. i don't remember the lane way that i was down and i rang him and he answers, and i think i sat down on the ground and i think we taught it for about one hour or 2. and i reached out to him. he was another person that had h i, b, and he just calm me down and just talks me isn't on the person. and it was important to me that i had that call and you know, obviously that just some of the somebody who is going to the same thing. you know me cuz i don't know any one of us that has a to be or no one that i can talk to that has the,

i knew i would have to distance myself from a lot of people in order to move my truth. and that is ultimately what happens if you are a say, see kids them and in case you already feel like there's something wrong with you and that you're disappointment to the people around you. and then when you drop out of college to pursue a life in night clubbing, had your acts as a woman, you really confirmed that you're like a huge disappointment since you've had people around when you kind of nice to make a go with that and build a bit of a life for yourself and some number of years later,

you find out that you are hate to have the positive. it's just one more way that you feel like the not good enough really the, the past about the holiday experience has been learned to undo all of that and, and pick all of those feelings and really shed that in a lot of ways. it's been such a get, but i feel like a free or happier person all of these years later for having gone through all of these experiences. you know, it wasn't easy, but i've been forcing via the stage and i just really wouldn't change it in

the a human time. this human billboard robins having a picture on a wall in place during this week in front of you, i think not particularly exciting. the

one of the phone calls is that there was to you, sean, what did you think i had to say and, and actually did you really? i did. and we had had some conversation about testing and about our sexual histories. and we'd also hides unprotected sex and it was my 1st time having unprotected sex. and i'm a hypochondriac. so i had a feeling that was huge. i mean, part of jimmy's, we met in edu all gets off of congress. are you? and i don't know why we chose the monica cases, the best bass for hate ivy and myself down so nervous. i'm like, oh, because regardless, if i know he's gonna take it whether or not, you know,

it's just retired like, you know, just as the force to reach somebody. diagnosis was that ramirez, i haven't really got my head around it. i haven't really got to know how do i articulate this to someone? and i remember going in and i was like, the closer you got to those seats because you are dependent on the secret. i'm in a restaurant off o'connor street. i'm in a restaurant. awful chemistry. he's the last one i have to me. on the last one he has to me. he walks in 6 in front to me. i say, this is the worst thing you could ever hear from me next. and i remember just gone . yeah, i knew it, like i knew it, i knew it. and then obviously does that like barrage of gives your own responsibility. you don't know who brought it into the relationship. so it's $500.00 the and like a sound from greece is planning. and as you ask, it's kind of surrealism. yeah. right. yeah,

i think for somebody to explain the concept look like i said you were diagnosed and i can only remember the feeling us release from the support of language members on human street. even going to i need to get tested. he went into, are you okay? i hear you say to me, i don't always remember though, that region hadn't really meant a lot. it wasn't even that long of a conversation by member leaving feeling so much better for you know, i think when we 1st started working together, that goes out point when there wasn't loads of people who were happy to be talking about in washington dc. and you know, their experiences and the diagnosis or things related to disclosure at all. obviously. like in the last few years, i changed a lot, but i'm wondering,

is there something that we can do together that basically brings our kind of full circle in that way. so that we've done this work wherever we have act as represented some people's experiences. but now we can do something where the community themselves are actually taken to the stage. and i'm not the owner of those that are they actually, if you think about kind of the workshop element to read. the reason why i can do why do today is because from the very beginning i got training on how to tell my story. because when you live a huge ivy and you never talk about as like your, it's a jumble in your head. and i always say story telling is meaning making for yourself and is just like the most powerful thing. so what we could do is a 2 fold events. one is advertised as a story telling workshop. so a space for hate to be positive people to come chat as always we can try to figure out what it is that they want to say. and we could ask, and we didn't want to go on to the next event. do they want to take that to this

agency to stay on there? that would be 7 o'clock that evening. did you get a nervous service? yeah, i don't know why it's not someone sharing my story. i think whatever the crowd is, kind of going to get i that's here just kind of thing on now. and that's the seo known and never have public speaking before. so i really don't know why it went to 3 of the so get up there, take the space, take a breath, enjoy yourself. everyone's here because i want to hear me. so how surprised? thanks so much for doing this is on 5. i so enjoyed moment. my name is robbie lauler, i live weight ivy and i've been living h i b since i was 21. and now i'm here today very, very special day to commemorate world aids day. the great thing about world days, they, it reminds me of pride and that because we do come memory dogs before us. but we'll also what we do is we celebrate where we are today. we don't have to be in

a closet anymore. we're going to change this country for the 10. thousands of us may drive you out there. we're taking a stand and we're going to do that through the power of story. was diagnosed with hate with you in 2013 in venezuela. if you're leaving the hedge ivy today, and you don't be going to have to say just to go with the world, it's not going to change, but your own world will change and i'm 300 percent. sure. i'm going to be re added testimony from someone who happy here today. 7 years on this december, since i was diagnosed, i have come to realize i don't latch courage just because of public. some of the greatest moments of courage are doing the underwriter leaving here in island, leaving with h a b, things, a lot of discrimination and stigma surrounding h. i v, especially for migrant people. how can we overcome these? there's only one word empowering my friends. my name's ours,

and i was diagnosed with each id when i was 21 years old on the medications that keep me alive were fun, died for. and it's important to remember when we talk about the change and how each ideas manage and help people who live with they drive you to. they are treated when it comes to each idea to change this from concerted, organized direct action by the people most effective by the age crisis and our closest allies. i want to say thank you to all the hate type, the ip that there, that everyone living with h i b. every single one of us is very important to each other. those of us in a privileged position where we can share our stories, no more important than those who cat or choose not to. i was diagnosed positive when i was 19. when i said these 2 people, i say is holding my head high because of the looking part of my life, i could be talking to whatever. and then when i mentioned the positive i looked on and i looked under the suffering shame. one of the things that i decided to do was

to be open about being positive. so for you out there, if you're positive furniture, say that to somebody don't look down, you know, look, look at them and then i end intracellular and effective on that says that's what you, what i've been hate to be positive since i was a teen idol. obviously i was quite lucky because i had access to meds like so many people didn't when they were diagnosed because the only thing i have to really worry about was my own internal shane that came with us. but it's opportunities like this just to be able to cope and share my story with people like you is really helpful for me. i'm sean dunn allison working very closely with a tiny positive community in our and for the last 6 years we made a theater project which was all about disclosure. a lot of those people felt that they couldn't self represent at the time. one of the course stories in the show that we made was from a mind called aaron. always always say in the say,

my name is aaron. that's no my, sorry, that's not my real name. my name is aaron. that's just what we're saying. because we couldn't use his name and i'm so honored and privilege start today. i really is here to tell his own story. so i'd love to introduce you all to michael the i think this is up. and so yeah, i'm mike of an iron mike story stars is down the country size and then it's moved away. i ran away and i was completely lost and i turn into friends and it was the 1st time slow year. i know, unfortunately the reaction,

watson goes, that was one bad reaction and it stopped me for many years. been able to be me and i think that has changed. so last year i suppose i, i met this great guy and i just felt as i told him and is the best we actually ever go. you know, he just came around the table and gave me a hug and said, i'm proud of you. and that doesn't matter. i just put those words, it just changed everything. so i guess here today why i want to do this was, you know, i suppose everyone knows me is, are from the play. and i'm michael and i'm retain that back. ok. thank you. price michael, i'm so proud of michael, i know. and since it hasn't turned in the very 1st person advocate pair support to and to see you from that day and you work for tragic,

you understand the 1st time i know you're on stage as my goal? honestly, it's one of the proudest moments of my life seeing you just shine so bright here today. thank you very much. the there is a community. definitely. it's not community that's always looking at each other now. what it is there. and you can feel the high hold back a little bit. i'm being too preachy about the coming out experience. it's not for everybody and it's totally about you on your returns in your time. but for me, i felt great solid diety, with other huge id,

positive people. and some of the people working in the community here are just such incredible people and they've become like new friends, and it's a really great treat to be far, to be honest. i love life. this is supposed to be people who is my belief. this is my drawers. this is my story. and maybe we make people see. okay. so it's not that bad at all. yeah. hate to be for me has been a blessing in disguise. i wouldn't change a team because of each id. i got to see the bravery. i could see the resilience, seed humanity, so many people in our overcome adversity. the conduction,

which on experience and all this hearing stories. i've never been stronger because of that. it really has been support and we need to get the the

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