and i think well, i’ll buy it there for myself, i’m coming, but there are n’t any sizes either. well, there aren’t those sizes, it’s a good thing that there are volunteers there. for example, volunteers who were engaged in sewing women’s uniforms. i accidentally came across them on instagram. i immediately wrote to you. i want to order uniforms from you. i immediately deleted all their parameters emphasized the fact that i'm tall, well, i have long legs, my problem is that i always wear short pants. but if in civilian life, short pants are a fashion for jeans, you know that it's fashionable to the bone - it's cold, but really especially now it's already cold, i can't be fashionable here, it's a bit beautiful because i'm here. i have to dress normally, and it turns out that hmm, luckily, i came across this page, uh, they offered me that they could send me this uniform for free, i refused, i didn't say no, i'll buy it from you because i understand that they themselves collect money for uniforms for women, which they sew, and i paid 2200 for this uniform, that is, the cost

price, that is, i paid for the fabric for the work, they did not charge me, that is, hm. well, i actually got a female uniform again no one wants to raise the issue, no one wants to dispel treason there, but winter clothes are even for men . as far as i know, not all military personnel are still provided for, even though the government allocated funds for this. but why was there such a late reaction with orders from the state? well, it is not clear that everything is due to volunteers, everything is due to international organizations. somehow it's very strange strange strange but i don't know the explanation why there isn't, not because there is such a problem of winter form, but there is not yet, but, for example, well, as we were promised that it will appear in us in two weeks, that is, there

write this form, they will sew it up soon, it will reach us, but it is specifically for our battalion there, because we are served by very good people who really knock out, who negotiate there, who spend a lot of time, energy and energy on this, i don't know how in other battalions, the truth is , the brigade battalions. well, i don't know, but it should appear in ours soon. but again, it won't be the same in my size. nastya ate it with bloating, and hygiene products are actually a big problem. you were talking about dry shampoo. but this you already have a certain luxury for yourself because the volunteers can give it to you, but the state doesn't particularly provide hygiene products for women. everybody understand well, i bought it all, i came with it,

and then the volunteers already gave us a ride, there are a lot of volunteers. it helps me when they drive me around, i try to give it to everyone, you leave a little there and share it with everyone, well, i don’t know, hmm should the state provide us with these hygiene products? well, i think that we will definitely buy them ourselves . are there any other possible problems ? clothes here more such problems honestly everything is fine ok then let's move on to the one that is probably the most painful and the question for you this war is connected with a personal tragedy i think the whole of

ukraine everyone knows your love story with oleksandr makhov then he is the groom who unfortunately died on the fourth of may this year in the village of dovgenke in kharkiv oblast, a fragment hit his lung and you recently told in an interview and showed the place where it happened, where this tragedy happened, i will not ask you how to survive these mountains because i know that you did not survive i will not ask atb how to deal with this pain because i know that it still hurts you very much. i will ask you how to live with this grief and with this pain because it is important that you give some advice from your experience to those women or families who also lose sons, husbands, daughters are still with cymbals there i

continue to live i wake up with i don't know i'm there every minute i still think about it eh hmm it's just not worth it i understand that i'm from the village that i'm very obsessed with this but all the same, i try to somehow distract myself with some kind of work , then do something, because hm. if i closed myself off from you all from the support of people close to me, and in particular you, too , supported me a lot with my age and you support me, it would probably be more difficult for me if i sat at home alone it is all in itself i kept it, but i had it for 20 days, i was 21 days, three weeks, but i had it after the burial, eh. i

just went to my sister in zaporizhzhia, my native place . that she hurts so much. how hard it is and i realized that i just need to go back to life in civilization, that is, i needed to meet my friends, i went back to work, uh . and loaded myself, so i thought up a lot of things for myself for the day, i just went home and went to bed without energy because i would be very tired, so, so, i got through the first part, well, and then i realized that hmm, i want to be among the heroes among

the heroes among the soldiers who later became brothers and sisters, and that's why i went on to the army, nastya. i'm sorry right away, my question may sound cynical, but i'm not asking you as a friend, as a journalist. i just know that you've always been brave and up to full-scale wars and such a very purposeful and stubborn girl in a good sense, but when you decided to go to war, first of all, these were your first feelings. it was bravery or a state of affect from loss, maybe it seemed so to me . i

wanted to be where sashko was and feel what he went through. i didn't come here to look for death. i don't want to die. it's true because i have a lot of plans for this life. i'm talking about your sashka hmm later some will appear for me, well, they are appearing little by little. that's right, but i didn't come here to die. that's for sure. i don't want to die. i don't want to look for death, but hmm, well, i have such a dulled fear, eh, i won't say that that it's cool here, it shouldn't be like that because there should be an instinct, an instinct of self-preservation, when something falls

you hear it must fall that is, i have it, but i won't say that i don't have fear at all, no, it's there, but this fear is dulled well, the instinct of self- preservation is present to me. so when i hear something flies when i hear some exits or something else and then i fall to the ground as it should be and how did you manage to get to serve in the very place near which oleksandr makhov was also and where he died how did it happen is it by chance or did you want to to be exactly where it is not by chance, it is not like that it happened by chance, i myself found the opportunity to serve in this direction, well, it is in order to continue what sasha did not complete, to defend the motherland, you mean the

motherland, well, in this direction where he was because he fought here until the last 70 days 70 days i was in such a hellish hell, terrible . when we already went to this long place near me, and when i saw that village there, it was big in general , and when i saw how broken they were. well, it was simply erased. this village, you know what my first question was. how is he at all, my sasha is still trying 70 days of them here. well, he is a long time for me, and he himself is in 70 days. but the last ones there are less. well , he was there for less than a month. that is, i don’t know how he was able to stay whole there for so long because

well, some products there are terrible from those bombs and that i don’t know how everything was erased there. i just wanted all ukrainians to go and see what hell our military was in in order to realize and understand because well, i understand that there are journalists who show it all, but the picture on television does not convey that does not convey, tell me now, when you are there near the place of your personal tragedy, your pain forever, what do you think? you made the right decision that you are right there, it's just like pouring salt on an open wound , constantly bringing yourself back to these thoughts every day and so

further and being physically so close anzhelika well, okay, there were leeches in kyiv, every street, every street where we went with sasha, to the cinema, restaurants, my god, everything then well, the same, the same , the same, well, that's why well, i don't regret it, i'm there, where i am now i think it is necessary and where i feel comfortable , i still need to move on, i still need to go to luhansk, the children oleksandr makhov is just from luhansk and i will remind everyone yes and he really dreamed that in luhansk he would return to ukraine again, as this should be and it seems to me with your motivation you are nastya you will go there, i am in you, i told myself how much there is. well, i know for sure that we will liberate

luhansk, it will soon be in luhansk, donetsk, my kherson region, all our territories will return to us, well, that is, now, as we see, as an intensive weapon of power ukraine is being liberated. and i understood that every counteroffensive is a lot of blood, that there is russian blood on the drum, i don’t care for them and the land is for them, but it is the blood of our defenders, and i also understand that for every piece of our land, we have to sell blood, just like that, just like that, these lands not i myself will return, even when i did not

join oleg of the armed forces of ukraine. blue and yellow, it's definitely something that sasha didn't have time for again, what he dreamed about, he dreamed about it all the time, he always told me about it because he was in pain because he was in pain that there in luhansk that tricolor is disgusting just as it hurts me that now tricolor and kherson, but this is temporary soon let's all return home nastya, you are extremely brave, i will honestly say when i imagine myself there at the front i am very scared i am very afraid, i do not understand how i would be there, what was i doing there i can't, i don't know these are the thoughts i have you know, loss is possible they will throw stones at me right now, because many thousands of female military personnel are currently on the

front lines. i honestly do not yet feel such readiness, you changed at some point, you found this bravery in yourself. well, how do you explain it? well, again, i thought about it for three years. and when you constantly live with these thoughts, then one day you will do it. i just think that i have already dragged on for three years. it's just that once i shared my thoughts that i want to go to war to my sasha, and he then filmed a story about women on he showed me the war, i saw this plot for the first time, he hasn't aired it yet, he says he likes it look how it is there and it's scary there and conditionally has how will you be there in yours i explain, but you understand i say that i have such thoughts and he himself then said if well, if you think about it

, then you will find him there, then i composed sasha things in front of full-scale authorities in two days , that is, for a large-scale invasion, i packed things for him because already then the mobilization of reservists was announced, and they fought for 15-16 years, so i packed things for him and caught myself thinking, i think so and so that i, as a woman, would need it. that is, i already understand that putting things together is also a procedure. well, all the more, i already understood that it is enough to think, you need to act. that 's it, and you know, i'll tell you that fear is normal. angelica, everyone is afraid and men are afraid and women are afraid, and it's normal, it's normal to be afraid, because this is war, there's nothing shameful about it, and you're not ready now. god forbid that

later, when you want to, you wo n't need it and you won't need it. god grant that already this war ended rather quickly and we waited for the victory, but fear is normal and you yourself will understand. think about it now, everyone will gather and go to fight, and who will remain on the information front, who will tell the audience about the war and about the most current news in general what will happen to ukraine and the world dominate, you understand us, libra, well, it's not proportionate to the information front - it sounds beautiful, but the military is at the front and we are in warm studios . who will add so who will collect money for military personnel there for the same clothes, i don't know about

drones over drones for everything well, i, you, who will do it if everyone starts now and comes here? er, i refer to men who er, are not in the war, i answer everyone that it is completely calm. i am against handing out summonses there under the church at gas stations or at a bus stop. because here in the army they have to understand. well, i consider a volunteer to be those who voluntarily asked for it well, then these people are motivated, and then, god forbid, you will be there. well, there on the battlefield, on the battlefield, they will not set up their brothers for they will start to run away, but on the contrary, they will cover them, they will go forward when it is necessary. and if a person is not motivated, then what can you expect - it is not it is possible that way, that way, and such moments, and yes, those

men who remain in the rear. they all work, they actively report there. well, maybe not all of them, but there are bigger ones, yes, they are actively 12 and support the ukrainian good, so not all of them are raked up all at once and sent to war it's not possible, everyone should be on their own front. well, probably everyone is in their place for now, how ready are you for this particular position, for this activity, nastya, i remember that before you washed me with me that you were not in training, you told me exactly during how you studied and then you sent directly to the front line, you told me a lot about your plans to do a lot of things in memory of oleksandr makhov, about your

beloved fiancé unfortunately, he is no longer with us and you succeeded in renaming a street in kyiv in honor of oleksandr makhov, why we are all very happy zholudeva street it was renamed on oleksandra magovo street in the sviatoshyn district of the capital, but you told me that you wanted to finish the documentary, which was in the plans of sashka, and you also want the square . i'll take you to see you, there's no such possibility to do it, so it's like this until the street. thoughts about the street appeared on the day when i buried sasha in the evening . as well as i just wanted him to be

talked about and remembered, this is very important to me regarding the documentary sasha really wanted the documentary to be shot on the phone and he wrote to me saying do you know what my documentary will be called i say how and he says a journalist because that was his call sign and he says i will be myself, he says i would tell the camera about all the battles and interrupt the video, he says that i didn’t shoot uh, of course. there are still not many of his comrades , but other comrades serve as his comrades, and i understand that his comrades should tell about all the battles that sasha described and filmed. therefore, make it now. this is a documentary film. i can't , er, i have to wait for the victory of

sasha's comrades, and already then. to start working on it, i thought of making this somehow differently the documentary is something somehow, but no, i want it to be the brothers who were together with sashko, so that they tell and work on this documentary myself, almost, well, i have never done a documentary, not by myself, you know, the stories were there for 3-5 minutes, maybe 10 minutes, i did but well, a documentary is serious, so i still need the advice of professionals who did all this, help, because well, i definitely won't be able to do it alone. i 'm sure that after the victory you will definitely come back and we will all work and help you forever sashka and finish his work on victory for the last time. nastya, you said that soon we will

definitely liberate your native kherson oblast there, for my dream, a blue-yellow flag over the part that is temporarily occupied now, as well as donetsk and sashin luhansk, but these are not all our territories there is still the temporarily occupied crimea since the 14th year, of course, of course, what they want is a total one hundred percent victory, how do you feel, it is not far off, well, to say that it will be there in a week, two or a year, you better know to tune in to what it will be for a long time and then be happy that it will be quick. yes, we will let you all go, but prepare yourself that you will be there for six months, and everything will be over. no, in 2-3 weeks, we do not use it, we are not loan sharks. i say, i

always prepare myself. the worst and then i see that o turns out not to be the way i thought it is much easier there is simpler or something else simple that i will repeat for er every area of ​​our land we have to shed blood and unfortunately the sugar of our defenders what kind of victory do i see in general i want it to be a loud victory and that we loudly celebrate everything but personally, victory for me is not only when we return all the territories, it is when, well, victory will be when a lot of things change in the minds of ukrainians and they will understand that then, well, what some ukrainians think, what is the difference, what language do they speak there, yes, they listen to russian songs, watch russian

films there youtubers stream all kinds of gifts, yes, they look and say what a difference it is, when people will understand the price of this victory and that our language is the most powerful weapon and when we will cleanse our country of all tag who was waiting for three colorful then there will be victory, and when we destroy this russian empire, when it disintegrates, this is what you can do next to simply erase it. of course, no one will allow us, and we will not have such an opportunity to destroy all of russia, well, it won’t work, but i want it to simply disintegrate into small pieces and so that we don't have such an idiot neighbor, it's just that then there will be victory, not only when we return

all the land, but also victory here it is in our heads and here everything is first of all in the heads of ukrainians, it's true, you described the ideal recipe victory in which we believe nastya, and what will you do personally for yourself after the victory, because we talked about plans for sasha. i really want to wear a beautiful dress and heels. i don't know if i can walk in heels . it's nice to have a good meal with you, you understand that i want to travel, i just need some time to reset after my return, i hope that psychologically it will not be difficult for me to return to civilian life, because i communicated with by the military, well, somehow, after returning, it was difficult

, then it was difficult, i don’t know. well, i’ll tell you that, for example , when i went to kharkiv for one day, because i needed to go to the shops there, they let me go. well, i was no longer comfortable there, you understand, and i’m afraid this, but i understand that i will need time for a reboot, so i really want to travel a little and take off, take off pixel although i like your time so much, i also really like our uniform , it is beautiful, but of course there are also beautiful dresses, heels, did you come, do you want to wash your parents in for a while, they left the occupation, they left kherson oblast for the territory controlled by ukraine. and you were released and you saw your parents after

many months of your separation, how did they perceive the fact that you are now serving in the armed forces, because they did not know, yes , they did not know, i did not want to tell them about it because i finally already, well, as i kept discussing, you have to leave, you have to leave, i'm them, well, i'm there . if i put psychological pressure on them and said, and if they beat you, i won't even be able to bury you there, but you won't be able to see your grandchildren if you are there stay, well, because it was dangerous for people with a pro-ukrainian position to stay there, and therefore psychologically, i pressured them and my sister that they had left, thank god, i did not tell them so that they would not have a problem with this at the border, because if they had not asked whether maybe one of your relatives is working there, if it was there, no matter how bad my mother tried to lie, it's obvious when

a person is lying, and there they could calculate it somehow, that's why i didn't tell them about it, then i came to them to express my concern in his pixel shapes, they saw me and i said that i don't want you to me well, it's too late to argue, you don't need to argue i just want you to be proud of your daughter and just support me, it's difficult for my mother, she says hmm well, my mother came up with this for herself, that's what she thinks. what if i programmed myself that i work somewhere and it's easier that way i want to say that we are all very proud of you, we all love you very much, of course we all worry about you every day, thank you for being so brave, such a disease and you decided to leave to protect us, including our homeland, is an incredible act, every defender is a protector for

me over people, they are heroes, well, that’s not enough simply said with the word hero, i love you, i thank you for finding the time and we were able to talk with you about such important things about i wish your journey as soon as possible. victory, return alive and healthy, we are waiting for you at home. angelica hugs you , thank you, thank you infinitely, take care of yourself too, everyone, because you see that now it is dangerous not only at the front, but even just in the cities now, how are you all? i'm talking now you're in the same well, not exactly the same conditions, but it's still dangerous everywhere now i welcome this freedom life my name is vlasta lazar we are starting to release from the events in the kyiv-pechersk lavra representatives of the security service of ukraine