their parameters emphasized the fact that i am tall, well , i have long legs, my problem is that i always wear short pants. but if in civilian life, short pants are a fashion for jeans, you know that it is fashionable to the core, but in the army it is cold, well it's real, especially now it's already cool, i ca n't be fashionable here, a little nice because i well here i had to dress normally and it turns out that hmm i'm glad i didn't get to this page uh, they offered me that they could send this form for free, i refused, i didn't say no i will buy it for you because i understand that they themselves collect money for uniforms for women that they sew, and i paid 2,200 for this uniform, this is the cost price, that is, i paid for the fabric for the work, they did not charge me . after all, no one wants to raise a problem there, somehow dispel treason, but the clothes are even men's

. as far as i know, not all military personnel are still provided for, although the government allocated funds for this. but why is there such a late reaction with orders from the state? well, everything is not clear because of volunteers, everything because of international organizations, it's somehow very strange, strange, strange, but i don't know the explanation. there is no explanation for this, not because there is such a problem with the winter uniform, but it's not there yet, but, for example. well, we were promised that it will appear in two weeks, that is, they already write there this uniform is being sewn up, it will reach us soon, but it is specifically for our battalion there, because we are served here by very good people who really knock out, who negotiate there, who spend a lot of time, effort and energy on this, i don't know how other people really are brigade of battalions well, i don't know, but we should have it

soon. but again, the size will not be the same. i ate nastya with bloating. also, hygiene products are actually a big problem. you talked about dry shampoo. but this is already a certain luxury. you are there yourself because the volunteers can give it to you, but the state does not particularly provide hygiene products for women. somewhere all sorts understand well, i bought it all, i came with it, and then the volunteers already gave us a ride, there are a lot of volunteers. it helps me when they drive me around, i try to distribute it to everyone . with these

hygiene products well, i think that we will definitely buy them ourselves , what other possible problems are there ? everything is fine. okay, then let's move on to this one, which is probably the most painful, and the question for you is that this war is connected with a personal tragedy. i think the whole of ukraine knows your love story with oleksandr makhov, then he is the bridegroom, who unfortunately died on the fourth of may this year in the village of dovgenka in the kharkiv region he had a lung

fracture and you recently told in an interview and showed the place where it happened, where this tragedy happened, i will not ask you how to survive these mountains because i know that you did not survive, i will not ask atb how to deal with this pain because i know that it still hurts you very much i will ask you how to live with this grief and with this pain because it is important that you give some advice from your experience to those women or families who also lose sons husbands, daughters, all the same with cymbals there, i continue to live, i wake up with, i don't know, i'm there every minute, i still think about it, ah, hmm

, it's just not worth it. at this point, i understand that i myself become very obsessed with it - i became obsessed, but that's all i just try to distract myself with some things then do something because hm. if i closed myself off from all of you from the support of people close to me, and in particular you, too , supported me very much with my age and you support me, it would probably be more difficult for me if i sat at home and kept it all to myself, but that's in me it was 20 days, i was 21 days, three weeks, but i had it after the burial, eh. i just went to my sister's in zaporozhye , where i live. it's hard and i understood what i just need to go back to life in

civilization, that is, i needed to meet with friends, i went back to work, uh, i tried to arrange some small joys for myself there, small trips, i allowed myself this, and it distracted me and burdened me, but i have very, very many things for myself on the day, i came up with the idea of ​​just walking home and lying down without strength because i would be very tired, so, so, i passed the first part, well, and then i realized that hmm, what i want to be among the heroes, among the heroes, among the military, who were there later on, we i'm half-sister and that's why i went on to join the army nastya i'm sorry right away my question may sound cynical but i'm not

asking you as a friend as a journalist i just know that you were always brave even before the full-scale war and such a purposeful and very stubborn girl in a good sense but when did you decide to go to war, first of all, these were your first feelings . was it bravery or a state of affect from the loss, maybe it seemed so to me. to be honest, the first moments when i learned about it were that you were looking for danger for yourself i wanted to be where sashko was and feel what he went through. i didn't come here to look for death, i don't think that dying is true because i have a lot of plans for this

life. about my sashka hm, then some will appear for me, well, they are appearing little by little. that's right, but i didn't come here to die. that's for sure. i don't want to die. i don't want to look for death, but i have a dulled fear. i won't say that it's cool here, it shouldn't be like that because there should be an instinct the instinct of self-preservation when something flies you hear you have to fall that is, i have it but i won't say that i have no fear at all no it is but this fear is dulled well the instinct of self-preservation is there for me when i hear something flying when i

hear are there any exits or something else? i fall to the ground as it should be. and how did you manage to get to the place where oleksandr makhov was near and where he died? how did it happen? is it by chance or did you want to be exactly where it is? it's not by chance it's not like that it happened by chance i i myself found opportunities to serve in this direction. well, it is in order to continue what sasha did not finish. defending the motherland, you mean the motherland, and well, in this direction, where he was. because he fought here until the last 70 days, 70 days he was in such hell. hell is terrible

. when we went to that long village not far from here , and when i saw this village, it was really big, and when i saw how broken it was. well, it was erased. it’s just an owl. you know what my first question was, and how is he, my sasha ? also i tried them here for 70 days. well, he was there for a long time, and he himself was there for 70 days. but the last ones were there. well , he was there for less than a month. that is, i don’t know how he was able to stay there intact for so long because, well, some of the products there are terrible from those bombs i don’t know how everything was erased there. i just wanted all ukrainians to go and see what hell our military was

in in order to realize and understand because well, i understand that there are journalists who show it all, but the picture on television is not conveys that no conveys tell me now when you are there near the place of your personal tragedy of your pain forever what do you think you made the right decision that you are right there it's just like pouring salt on an open wound constantly bringing yourself back to these thoughts every day and so on even while physically present so close anzhelika well, okay, there were leeches in kyiv, every street every street where we went with sasha, cinemas, restaurants, my god, everything is the same, yes, the same, the same , the same, well, that's why well, i don't regret it, i'm where i am

now, i think i'm needed there where i feel comfortable hmm i still need to move on. i still need to go to luhansk. the children, oleksandr makhov, are just from luhansk , and i will remind everyone. yes. and he really dreamed that in luhansk he would return to ukraine again, as this should be, and it seems to me that it creates motivation for nastya, you will go there, i must be in you i must, i told myself, no matter how long it takes. well, i know for sure that we will liberate luhansk, it will soon be in luhansk, donetsk, my kherson oblast, all our territories will return to us, well, that is, now, as we see , how the intensive weapons of the forces of ukraine are liberating a i understood that every counteroffensive is a lot of blood,

that there is russian blood on the drum. i don't care for them and the land is glassed for them, but it is the blood of our defenders. i also understand that for every piece of our land we have to sell blood, just like that, just like that, these lands will not return and even when i didn't join the armed forces of ukraine, i said to myself that no matter how long it takes me, year 2 5 10 20 i don't know, well, i hope it will be as soon as possible, but i'll pass luhansk, i'll pass our today's yellow it it must be the fact that once again sasha did not have time to do what he dreamed about, he dreamed about it constantly , constantly told me about it because he was in pain because he was in pain what is there in luhansk, that tricolor

is disgusting, just as it hurts me that now the tricolors and kherson oblast but this is temporary, soon we will all return home nastya, you are extremely brave, i will honestly say when i imagine myself there at the front i am very scared i am very afraid, i do not understand how i would be there, what was i doing there i can't, i don't know so i have such thoughts you know lost maybe stones will be thrown at me now, because many thousands of female military personnel are currently on the front lines. i honestly do not yet feel such readiness, you changed at some point, you found this courage in yourself. well, how do you explain it? well, again, i thought about it for three years. when

you constantly live with these thoughts, then one day you will do it. i just think that i have dragged it out for three years. it's just that once i shared my thoughts that i want to go to war with my sasha, and he then filmed a story about women i showed me the first thing in the war i saw this plot, it hasn't aired yet, he says he likes it look how it is there and it's scary there and conditionally has how will you be there in your i explain but you understand i say that i have such thoughts and then he himself said if well if you if you think about it , then you will be there and then i, sasha, packed things in front of full-scale authorities in two days , that is, a large-scale invasion, i packed things for him because already then they announced the mobilization of reservists , and this is what they fought for 15-16 years, so i packed

things for him and caught myself on thoughts i think so on it men's set i'm putting you together and so that i, as a woman , would need it that is, i already understand that putting things in is also a procedure well, all the more, i already understood that it's enough to think, you need to act that 's it, and you know, i'll tell you this way that fear is it's okay angelica, everyone is afraid and men are afraid and women are afraid and it's normal it's normal to be afraid because it's a war there's nothing to be ashamed of and you're not ready now god forbid that later, when you want it, you won't need it and you won't need it god bless us all so that this war will end as soon as possible and we will wait for the victory, but fear is normal and you yourself will understand. think about it now, everyone will gather and go to fight, and who will remain on the

information front, who will tell the audience about the war and about irrelevant news in ukraine in general and the world, who will come to us, you know, do you understand, terezi, well, after all, this is not a commensurate information front - it sounds beautiful, but uh, the military is at the front and we are in warm studios uh, sometimes there may be no light, but these are so insignificant things in comparison with what he is experiencing every defender and defender think about it and who will add so who will collect money for military personnel there for the same clothes, i don't know, hmm, drones over drones for everything, well, imagine who will do it if everyone starts now and comes here , that's why it's just me someday they asked me how i relate to men who are not in the

war, i answer everyone that i am completely calm. i am against handing out summonses under the church at gas stations or at a bus stop, because here in the army they have to understand. well, i consider a volunteer to be those who voluntarily kind of wanted it and then these people motivated and then, god forbid, you will be there. well, there on the battlefield, on the battlefield, they will not set up their brothers for they will start to run away, but on the contrary, they will cover them, they will go forward when it is necessary. that's why there are moments like this. and you are there, yes , those men who remain in the rear. they all work, they actively contribute there. well, maybe not all of them, but there are bigger ones, yes, they actively support the ukrainian army. therefore, not all of them can be raked up like this at once and sent to war.

maybe everyone should be on their own front, well, probably everyone is in their place for now, how ready are you for this particular position, for this activity, nastya, i remember that before you washed me with the news that you were already in training, you told me exactly at that time how did you study and then you were sent directly to the front line, you told me a lot about your plans to do a lot of things in memory of oleksandr makhov, about your beloved fiance. unfortunately, he is no longer with us and you managed to rename a street in kyiv in honor of oleksandr makhov, why are we all very happy , zholudeva street was renamed oleksandra magovo street in the sviatoshyn district of the capital, but you

told me that you wanted to finish the documentary, which was in the plans for sashka, and you also want the square . i spent you, there is no such possibility to do this, so you know that before the street, i have such thoughts about the street appeared on the day when i buried sasha in the evening . which i just wanted him to be talked about and remembered by such people, it's very important to me , uh, regarding the documentary, uh, sasha really wanted the documentary to be shot on the phone, and he wrote to me saying, do you know what the name of my

documentary will be? i say as and he says a journalist because that was his call sign and he says i will tell the story myself because the camera is about all the battles and interrupts the video tell me which one i did not shoot uh, of course well, there are still not many of his brothers, there are not, but other brothers they serve him and i understand that his comrades should tell about all those battles that were described and filmed by whom. therefore, make it now. this is a documentary film. i ca n't . otherwise , make this documentary something, somehow, but no, i want it to be the sisters who were together with sashka, so that they tell the story and, well, work on this documentary myself, almost, well, i am a documentary

film. i spent 3-5 minutes there, maybe 10 minutes, but i did it, but the documentary is serious, so i still need the advice of professionals who did all this, help, because well, i definitely can't do it alone. i 'm sure that after the victory, you will definitely come back and we we will all work and help you to eternalize the memory of sashka and complete his affairs for victory for the last time nastya you said that soon we will definitely liberate your native kherson oblast there for my dream the blue-yellow flag over the part that temporarily occupied now, as well as donetsk sashin luhansk, but this is not all the territories, we still have temporarily occupied crimea since 14 years old, of course, of

course, what i want is a total one hundred percent victory, how do you feel, it is not far away, well, i can say that it will be there in a week or two or a year, well, you better be prepared for the fact that it will be long and then be happy that it will be quick. i always say i set myself up for the worst there and then i see that oh it turns out not as i thought it was much easier there is simpler or something else simple that i will repeat for er every object of our earth must be shed blood and, unfortunately, sugar in of our defenders.

what kind of victory do i see in general? i want it to be a loud victory and for us to loudly celebrate everything, but personally, victory for me is not only when we return all the territories, it is when, well, the victory will be when a lot of things will change in the heads of ukrainians and they will understand that there are some ukrainians there they think, what is the difference? what language do they speak there? yes, they listen to russian songs, watch russian films, youtubers, stand-up artists of all kinds, yes, they watch and say, what is the difference? when will people understand the price of this victory and that our language is the most powerful weapon and when we will cleanse

our country of all tag, who was waiting for three colors , then there will be victory and when we will destroy this russian empire, when it will fall apart, this is you next, just erase it well, of course, no one will allow us and we will not have such an opportunity to destroy it won't work for all of russia, but i want it to just break up into small pieces and to not have such an idiot neighbor, just then there will be a victory, a victory, not only when we return all the land, but also a victory here in our heads and here everything is first of all in the heads of ukrainians, it's true, you described the perfect recipe for a victory in which we believe nastya, and what will you do personally for yourself after the victory, because we

talked about plans for sasha, i really want to wear a beautiful dress, heels, no i know if i can to walk in heels because here and there, i always wear boots, to dress nicely. i want to go out and meet people, eat delicious food, meet you, you understand that i want to travel. psychologically, it will not be difficult for me to return to civilian life because i communicated with the military, eh. well, somehow, after returning , it’s difficult, then it’s difficult, i don’t know. they they let me go. well, i was no longer comfortable there, you understand, and i’m afraid of this, but i understand that i

will need time to reboot, so i really want to travel a little and take off, take off pixel. although i like your time so much. i also really like our form, it is beautiful of course, there are also beautiful dresses and heels, come and wash your parents at some point they left the occupation , they left the kherson region to the territory controlled by ukraine and you were released and you saw your parents after many months of your separation as they accepted the fact that you are currently serving in the armed forces, because they didn't know, yes, they didn't know, i didn't want to tell them about it because i finally already, well, as i constantly discussed, you have to leave, you have to leave,

i, them, well, i'm there. if i was psychologically on them i pressed and said, "and if they beat you, i won't even be able to bury you there, but you won't be able to see your grandchildren if you stay there, well, because it was dangerous for people with a pro-ukrainian position to stay there, and that's why i psychologically pressured them and my sister i didn't say that they left, thank god them so that they don't have a problem with this at the border, because if they didn't ask if it was possible for you to have someone with a relative serving there, well, if there were, how could my mother not try to lie there, anyway. it can be seen when a person lies there, too they could calculate it somehow, that's why i didn't tell them about it, then i came to them and put my pixel in their pixel form, they saw me and i said that i don't want you to me well, you're refusing , it's too late, there's no need to argue, i just want you

be proud of your daughter and just support me it's difficult for my mother, she says hm well, it's not enough for herself, she came up with that. she thinks that uh, well, if she programmed herself that i work somewhere and it's easier for her. i want to say that we are all very proud of you, we all love you very much, we all of course we worry about you every day, we thank you for being so brave, such a disease, and you decided to go and defend us, including our motherland, this is an incredible act, every defenders is a defender for me over people, this is a hero, angelica hugs you, thank you, thank you infinitely, take care of yourself too, everyone what do you see, it is now dangerous not only at the front , but even just in the cities now, well, as i say , everyone is now in the same conditions. well, not exactly the same conditions,

but it is still dangerous now everywhere, both in the rear and at the front, so take care of yourself, please listen to that siren and it is better to stay somewhere in a bomb shelter thereby saving your life i hug you i love you very much you have the right close ones meet you very much see you enemy i will continue