finished school, it was much better than it was in horlivka, no matter how difficult it was, it was much better, at least i was not afraid that my son would go to school and not return, this was the most important criterion for me, everything was completely destroyed, what was at home there, and home ceased to be home, slavyansk became home. somehow gradually came to the point that i went into humanitarian demining, here was such a chance to bring benefit to society, i went with a close friend and nikita, together we got into the same training course, completely learned, the course was given well, both theory and practice, and began performing duties near bakhmut, it was in... the beginning of the 21st year

, we were looking for a job that could bring the maximum benefit to society, people. demining is such work, where every ammunition found and defused, it is possible that someone's life is saved. when you are engaged in humanitarian demining, you work according to a list of safety rules. and there, if you don't break a single one, then... in principle, there is even the slightest chance of getting hurt. while still in training, we follow so that people come out prepared and follow all these rules. we hire people without experience, so the first thing we start with is theory, they are told about all the methods, all the nuances of the work. currently , we have 25 days of training, 5 days of theory, and 20 days of practice. our task is to find a mine and then transfer it.

the group leader and further stations in the emergency department, coordinates of the emergency department arrive and already decide what to do with it, i.e. either they destroy it on the spot or they transport it. our group consists of nine people, even if the area is very large, then several groups enter this area. if from my such interview, then... i had exactly more than 16 squares per day, we have two-meter passages of the dominaire, which goes two-meter passage and 8 meters only forward per day, i worked in mykolaiv in a field where there were anti-transport mines, and we had a football field nearby, of course the children did not play there, but i would like to do it sooner so that they could come in and the children already had some joy, this is from practice, this is one year of war in the country, 10 years on. .. while i was working in humanitarian

demining, i didn't find a single explosive object, maybe fortunately , maybe to my slight disappointment, on the contrary, i wanted to find it, eliminate the danger, i worked part-time for a year before winter, in the winter it's easy to start in halo, and so i settled in the winter. we met on february 12 in a local cafe. he rested in his company, which i also know, because they are halotrast people. and my dad is a commander in halotrast, he works. i went to rest with my girlfriend, and we somehow sit, glance at each other. you know, like in childhood, who who will be watched towards the end of the evening, i went to the bar and took a napkin.

and then the war. during these 10 days, while we were together before the war, she managed to become just a native. from february 23 to 24, we had a group vacation at vladyslav's house. stay overnight, wake up in the morning, go to work. lots of calls, can't understand what's going on.

read in any case our negotiation. i understood that the war would end, i would look at myself in the mirror and say: what did you do for our common victory? how will you look your children in the eye later? how are you later will you just live with it? you are a man to rule others with a samurai. i decided that i was going 100%. i just didn't know how to do it. i knew that his father was working in poland at that time, that he had turned from a businessman into... don't think of coming, stay there in poland,

don't worry about me, a few days passed and it occurred to me, i collect, i am talking about the fact that i study at the engineering and pedagogical academy, i received an invitation from... on the spot, he had a bit of such a heaviness, that is, he was kind of torn between two fronts, i still didn’t understand what it was for, he came to me and gave me his silver chain and said: give it to me during the meeting, he mumbled all this so much, i didn’t understand why he was giving it at all, i felt somehow embarrassed, and when he left, i

burst into tears, why did you give it to me, why did you make me cry, said that we will definitely meet again, i don't know when, but i will take her. we will meet again in any case, with these words we almost said goodbye. the feeling that he was leaving left me chain, then all the puzzles fell into place for me, and i had the feeling that i had just been abandoned by myself, the next day we went to the military commissariat, i had to wait for him, he was recruiting, he said, don’t wait here, they will send me to training in the sense of, well, that’s it yes when i got to the location, there was... there was an officer who recognized me. he also worked at halo. he says, will you go to my platoon? i will go like this, and that's how my distribution happened very quickly. i found out that he is serving. i dialed him, asked if everything was fine. i understood that

i have the opportunity to help him, but i talked to him and realized that i can't do anything. he is a very proud person, everything was given to me, i have everything. then he tricked me. in his life, how he came to this decision, i saw this man, that he grew up very much, all these events that were in his life, they hardened him and he became very strong, i saw that this man, this man , with whom it is worth being friends, because he shares my

values, all the information that i gave, all the information that i gave to my relatives and acquaintances, this is that we sappers protect us as much as possible, because we... every day before going to sleep, i always prayed for him that everything would be fine, but something went wrong, our separate 104th territorial defense battalion bakhmut was at 12 points , this is the direction

of soledar, pastoral, from kostyantynivka to donetsk, to kurdyumivka, we were constantly there. and that's how i served until august 9. he was supposed to come to kyiv on august 9. and i went to kyiv to see a friend, and all the way i had such a very creepy feeling, as if i was out of place, in a group of us were there, friends on instagram corresponded there, he didn’t have much time, he constantly had some combat missions there, he could tell us little, well, what he could tell, there was a moment when i was a moment when i shot a video, quickly, a selfie with the words that the three of us are leaving for a combat mission, i will write back when i arrive. in short, that's it,

folks, we're going to a special velaska, i won't be back, i'll write back right away. come on, take care of yourself. i have never unsubscribed from this group. it already happened that he was going somewhere, and one day, two, three passed, they are somewhere there, it's a war, then they came back, well , every time, of course, they worried about him there, but somehow they got used to it. the most beautiful thing i saw with my own eyes during the war was the eyes of a little girl, very beautiful, big blue eyes of a child, and then i wrote a post on instagram about what those eyes were, so that they would not see the war and for them to flatten out in the peaceful morning, i am at war, i remember my last sunset, the extreme sunset that... spent in the outfit, i saw with my own eyes a very beautiful sky,

a bright pink color, such as in movies another landscape, destroyed, everything, broken, only rubble, stones, everything is broken under the foundation, and here is this pink pink sunset, this is the last thing i saw with my own eyes from the beautiful. dials an unknown number, says, yes and yes, i ’m arthur there, we serve together, vlad blew himself up , i say, he’s alive, he says, yes, his face was burned, something happened there, a mine detonated, but what and how, he didn’t say, i say where he is, they took him to the bakhmet hospital, we started calling the hospitals, kramatorsk, druzhkivka, sloviansk, bakhmut, i.e.... they didn't give us any information anywhere, even though i introduced myself everywhere as a bride and as a wife , they said no, and i realized that

he is most likely not lying there anymore, because they got in touch with an acquaintance of the military, who was also wounded, he said that he was immediately transported to mechnikov. together with the commander and another experienced sapper, we went on a mission. urgent combat demining against infantry. accumulation holes were made for planned detonation, and ammunition began to be isolated. i managed to isolate 84. self-destruction worked. after one, all 84 broke. two or three seconds i came to, because i remember how i was in my arms. i'm sitting on my hands, blowing up, blowing up. and i'm sitting on the ground

, no pain, loud ringing in the ears and darkness , nothing else, august 9, mid-afternoon, and i got very cold, i felt very, very cold and passed out, woke up 10 days later in kyiv in a hospital, 10 days of coma. you know, if you talk about... which i generally don't believe in, but they say that for that person who doesn't come back, it's quite clear to him that these 10 days are happening, that who is let back, for him this time is erased, i don't know if this is true or not, for me these 10 days are as if they never happened, on august 9, on august 9, his colleague called me and visited... he informed me, that vlad was injured, on the same day

i am expected to go to work, to leave, but i cannot leave, there are no tickets for trains or buses, i was only able to leave poland in four days, the most important thing for me was, i had to come to the moment he was brought out of his coma, i had to be the first. no, they say, no, he will be transferred to kyiv. i say until what number? on the 13th, he was transported to kyiv. we went to intensive care, intensive care. we go in, knock on the door, a doctor comes out to us, wearing a mask, hat, and gloves, i became even more scared. i say: vlad yeschenko, yes, do you want to come in?

my eyes have become big, i say, come in? i recognized him from behind the window, and there is such a large panoramic window. tattoos, he's got a tattoo all over his chest, and my legs are starting to sag, and we were all worried how his bride would react, like her, when she he will see him for the first time, we all kept our fingers crossed like that, i am standing over him and i don't even know what to say, my tears are starting to flow, i stayed for 5 minutes, that's probably all, i can't take it anymore, i'm leaving. he is lying down, and she has been stewing in all this for three days, i go, look at her and think, i met lera, she took me to where, oh my god, baby, where do you have so much strength , well, a healthy man cannot stand such a thing, that she endured, i went into the ward, i

saw him, i see his face completely twisted, i can't see his face, well... i know i was told that everything is very difficult, i see that he is cut by fragments, i approach, take his hand, and i feel a response, he squeezed my hand once, went to my dad in the intensive care unit, i don't remember whether he didn't feel well or something, we waited for him for a long time, he talked to him for a long time, but he came out with a little relief, because he already saw... i left there to the surgeons, i said, can i ask a question, but i know what the question is you bet, 20:8, 20 on 80, i won't lie, 20 on 80, 20 on what will survive, so bring it here

and they sent him by helicopter, from this department he was transferred to the infectious intensive care unit. and that's when the most difficult thing started, there he was coming out of a coma, when we start to wake him up, yes, we try to communicate with patients, if the patient can't hear, it's difficult for us to explain something to him, it was, yes, it was problematic a little bit, until we understood , which ear is better, how loudly to say it to him so that he understands something. when i regained consciousness, i saw myself from the side, i remember how i am sitting in a chair, my hands are tied, i am in front of some such through the panoramic window, a bunch of devices are connected around me, i have a phone in my hand, i try to call, i can't, i

try to write an sms, i can't, i 'm going crazy, i'm losing consciousness. reached him, took his hand firmly and said: dad is here, i 'm with you, he grabbed my hand with both hands and shook his head, he couldn't speak, then he had an intubation tube, i said that i'm no longer with you , and without me, you're going nowhere, not a foot, that's all. i knew he could hear what i was saying and what was being said very badly i hear, i had to. talking loudly, no hearing aids, nothing , he had eardrums from the blast, i told him i knew you'd come back alive, uh that's 100%, i knew you were going to get out, that people like you are so easy don't give up, he felt our hands, our faces, and already, he knew by touch , who approached him, knew where the nurse was, where

the doctor was, who was who, wait for the nurse, i didn't see her, she periodically, when bent over to do something or change the bandages, i constantly hit her with my hands randomly, constantly i apologized, but i can't apologize , i can't say anything, i stroked her head with my hand, and she understood that i was apologizing, asking for forgiveness, poor nurse, i consider the main feature of my employees to be humanity, and i always ask that all my colleagues, subordinates treated... patients as they would their loved ones, their relatives, because at the moment when patients are in our department, we are the closest people to them. august 21 is modern. august 1 is my birthday, i come to him, he one night he was spinning, he twisted the receiver and started talking, such a wheezing through the receiver,

he spits out something from the bronchi, but he is talking, and i think, cool, he wished me a happy birthday, close friends constantly came to see me, lera was my bride every day, father was there every day. at first they didn’t let me go for a long time, they only allowed me to take them out for a walk for two hours, they took me out connected to the devices, in addition , he recovered very quickly, there i arrive , he already says, with a throat tube, he can talk, the doctors say, but not like that was it is impossible, he was able to talk already with a tube in his throat, then they came to the street, they rolled him out on this bed, he is already... walking gradually, we take prints, we take all the devices, we walk with him, the most difficult thing was to say so, that he, that he has no

eyes, because yes, a young guy, the fact that there was a burn on his face, er, injuries, it's all possible, it's plastic surgery, yes, it can be corrected, polished. and to regain peripheral vision is, well, at the moment, probably unrealistic, she came to him an ophthalmologist, she washed everything for him, took off the bandages, he asked her, she, well, was not ready to answer, i was forbidden to touch my face with my hands, i put my fingers to my eyelids , i felt that i had... moved my eyes, i understood what had happened, the most important thing for me was to know that the eyes were in place, i moved them, they move, i think, now the medicine

will do everything, then it turned out that it was the muscles that moved, he and i have already started walking, that is, we are already 150 steps were taken confidently, and the walk is with us, we leave our bed with these devices. we leave let's go to the side, dad, there is no one around , i say, there is none now, for some moment i was a little broken, it was hard because i was alone, in constant darkness and in constant silence, i did not hear anything, if they shouted loudly to the left ear , i could talk to someone, and i was crazy alone, and these thoughts broke with me, so one evening it started like this:

why are you here, and why are you wasting your time on me, because in fact i died, and what all that's left of me is this body without eyes, i can't see anything, this is a completely new person. don't waste your time on her, she has no prospects, she has none of the future, get out of here, well, like, and i talked to him a lot about the fact that you have to respect other people's choices, we came to your hospital, we take care of depa, not because you asked us, we made this choice, well, accept it, please, our choice, not yours, ours, then, when i started to expose stories of storiz, help the authorities? and so on, there were people who wished for good, but they said: it's your choice, that is, no one will judge you, whether you leave him or not, it's your

life and so on, when we met in intensive care unit, i saw him, squeezed his hand , that is, doubts in general, even if there were any slightest doubts, they disappeared immediately when i was next to him, valeria behaved ... in such a way that i had no doubt that she would next to me , i had doubts about whether i want to ruin this girl's life, the girl is beautiful, smart, young, she needs a full-fledged life with a full-fledged boyfriend, a good relationship, romance, but that's not it, it didn't work out for me, it didn't work out and that's all, first, she wouldn't give up. second, artem pakhomov, i thank him once again, and he too still say, well, lira, why should i, her life will be, well, it won't be normal anymore, because i

can't see anything, i say, well, she's here. here she must have made her choice, and that's why she's here, he's like that, well, that makes sense. this was enough for me, on august 31, while i was in the hospital, i was educated in the hospital in altanza leri. she agreed, i understood that it is selfish, there is no such thing as incomprehensible, if you love, let it go, it's all a joke, it's in movies, it doesn't happen like that in life, it also has its own kind. romance, there is military romance in what happened to vlad, the way he is turned out to be completely different. actually , on august 9, i was supposed to be on my first vacation, to come to kyiv. i planned to get a certificate in kyiv. due to the fact that there was a very difficult situation there, they did not let him go on vacation.

they say you have to be more careful. in my wishes and dreams, because i still ended up in kyiv, only not on the ninth, but on the 11th. i still got my education, i did it in kyiv. the price, indeed, is great, but perhaps no greater than if he had perished. if i had a second life, the ability to rewind time, whatever.

guard, most of the operations, of course, took place while i was in a coma, then my face was stitched together, then the intubation tube was removed, the tube was taken out of the stomach , the debris was taken out when the head was split open, dad says: it’s very scary, but you know, no lies , no, they assembled you, you are handsome, but for some reason , he says... when he itches behind his ear, itches under his chin, he says: they must have mixed up something in the puzzles when they assembled. the fact is that all this time, as soon as he regained consciousness, everything was positive, it helped a lot, and not only to him, the guys who were lying nearby in the ward, they were surprised, well, how can you do that? sometimes there are patients who are not like that, seriously ill or

injured, but... some kind of morale is falling in them, they need to be supported, and this is their difficulty, to inspire them to live, a very important point is the desire to live, i stayed in the hospital for three months, everyone already knew me there, i visited all the departments where possible, also the girls who work there, they found us on instagram, they know our page, they wrote to us, we talked, voiced, corresponded, good day to all. i asked for help making a video to say thank you. when i come even for five minutes in the morning, i say that someone contacted me there, or one of the girls says: we saw someone's video, someone's photo on social networks, we are all happy about some new achievements, the recovery of patients, i i call them graduates, we graduated them from our department.