zbljtsds with the to increase ever. welcome to nhk "newsline." i'm shery ahn. the group has ended their talks in france. they say they'll continue seeking ways to stabilize the global economy. the g-7 finance chief discussed ways of economic outlook. some of their biggest concerns are the deepening debt in europe and the slowdown in the united states. he later held a news conference.

>> translator: we discuss the need for a response to the economic budget situation. we must work on improving our finances to maintain growth. >> credit uncertainty in europe sent the euro down to the 105 yen level. that's the lowest it's been since july 2001. stocks in new york also fell sharply. they closed at 10,992, down 303 points from the previous day. sunday's the tenth anniversary of the 9/11 terror attacks in the united states. over a hundred audio recordings compiled at a u.s. university shed light on the hijacking of the four planes that led to the tragedy of that day. they include on-board conversations. exchanges between air traffic

controllers and the voice of one of the hijackers. >> nobody move. everything will be okay. if you try to make any move, you will endanger yourself and the airplane. let's stay quiet. >> in another recording, a female flight attend called the airline's operation desk. >> somebody's stabbed in business class. and i think there's mace that we can't breathe. i don't know. i think we're getting hijacked. >> another file features an exchange between an air traffic controller in boston and an official at the north american air space command. the download took place ten minutes before the plane crashed into the world trade center. >> we have a problem here. we have a hijacked aircraft headed to new york. we need someone to scramble to help us out. >> is this real world or

exercise? >> this is not an exercise. former u.s. defense secretary donald rumsfeld says he bush administration's war on terror has kept the u.s. safe for the past decade. rumsfeld spoke at an organization ahead of the tenth anniversary of the september 11 attacks. >> i surprised. i would not have hoped or dreamt that we might have lasted a decade without a major successful attack in america. >> rumsfeld said the united states has managed to avert another major terror attack on its soil thanks to key programs of the bush administration's war on terror. he said president obama initially opposed the guantanamo bay prison camp but continued them because he realized they're

the best options for keeping america safe. rumsfeld was applauded by the mostly conservative audience. but police threw out several people protesting the treatment of detainees. rumsfeld was pivotal to taking u.s. to war in afghanistan and iraq. he resigned in 2006 and due partly to revelations to abuse of terror suspects. interpol has issued the arrest for muammar gadhafi and other people z wanted for crimes against gadhafi. now on the alert to capture gadhafi and his son and al-senussi. interpol said its warrants will be a powerful tool in helping to

apprehend them. a message by gadhafi was aired on thursday. he denied rumors that he fled libya and urged his followers to keep fighting. one of libya's interim leaders has appealed for national unity in his first press conference in the capital of tripoli. he spoke as efforts were underway to negotiate a surrender by forces loyal to gadhafi. mahmoud jalil said gadhafi loyalists are still putting up proest tests. forces are surrounding gadhafi strongholds including his hometown of sirte. they're trying to negotiate a surrender by loyalists. the traditional council are trying to unite the people after months of deadly fighting.

there have been reports of loyalists being attacked and even killed after surrendering. north korean leader kim jong il marked the 63rd anniversary of the country's founding by watching a military parade with his son. the massive parade was held at a square in central pyongyang. soldiers marched past the square with weapons. participants formed letters to spell out kim jong il's name and words like glory. the timing of the event was unusual as north korea typically holds military parades every five year anniversaries to celebrate the country's founding. observers believed the leadership is holding the parade this year to highlight the smooth transfer of power from kim jong il to his son.

the son is expected to be the third successive generation of the kim family to rule the country. a legal requirement to use less electricity in japan has come to an end. electricity supply capacity fell after the fukushima nuclear plant accident in march. so the government started demanding a 15% cut in consumption in july. the requirement came to an end on friday night. that's sooner than originally planned. while the requirement was in effect, large users served by tokyo electric power companies were mandated to lower their consumpti consumption. car makers closed plants on week days and operatered on weekends instead. private homes were also asked to chip in. in the end, the power suppliers

didn't have to resort to planned outzages this summer. the ministry says the power-saving efforts by companies and homes proved more than effective. there are concerns about possible power shortages this winter. that's because a large number of nuclear power plants around japan have shut down for inspection. >> translator: we'll review the effectiveness of this summer's power-saving measures and study steps we should take in winter. we will try to avoid imposing an electricity usage limit again. and here is now your extended weather forecast.

the march 11th disaster. the september 11th attacks. two anniversaries, one source for in-depth coverage. join nhk world for "japan: six months on" and "9/11: defining a decade." our programming continues all week. then on sunday, september 11th we'll mark the anniversaries. 2:30 p.m. japan time for the 3/11 disaster. 9:40 p.m. for the 9/11 attacks. and that's all for this edition of "newsline." i'm shery ahn. thank you for watching.

hanukkah is a porn actress and rose to stardom. she retired in 2008. she now working as an actress and radio personality. >> last year she released her auto biography, life in a welfare facility, kidnap, sexual

abuse and the debut as a porn actress. she wrote about all she experienced in her 28 years i'm a director in my third year at nhk. i read her book and wondered how someone my age could be so open about herself. >> i don't want to think the i live was a disadvantage. i don't see it as one. >> i asked her for an interview. when i finally met her, she turned out to be a cheerful woman who laughed a lot.

>> i don't think the life i led is normal. so i yearned for anything normal. grow up normally. go to school normally. stay on good terms with siblings and parents normally and enter the workforce normally, marry normally and have children and get ode normally. all those simple things. >> she spoke calmly with a smile on her face. i wondered how she deals with the harrowing childhood. to find out, i went with her to her hometown.

hanukkah is the second girl in a family of seven children. she was born and raised in a beautiful sea side town. >> translator: when there were tetra pods here, i used to come here with my friend and we saying and danced, pretending to be idols. we played secco too and had so much fun. >> her real name is ai, meaning love. it was her mother who gave her that name. hanukkah has no memories of her mother's love. when she was 2, her parents divorced. saddled with debts, her mother worked very hard to pay them off. she was too biz to care for ai.

she put her in a child welfare facility. we went there together. >> translator: would you like to go inside? they say we can go inside? can i? i wouldn't know what to do? there for me this is the loneliest place of all. i remember this as a place where i felt lonely. rather than somewhere i hated. i felt alone to the max. >> translator: you mean your whole life? >> translator: yes. >> she came at the age of 3 and stayed until she was 5. this facility has been rebuilt and couldn't find any reminders of her time here.

>> translator: this is something. it's covered with weeds now. >> translator: is it exactly the same? >> translator: exactly the same. >> after we left the facility, hanukkah took me to her junior high school that closed down a year ago. she has a lot of fond memories of this school. we entered the music room. she remembered her own school days when she enjoyed playing music. >> translator: i tell you, this school was so much fun for me. my mother couldn't afford to buy me instruments or send me to after school lessons, so i couldn't go to calligraphy or

piano lessons even if i wanted to go. i was really happy to play instruments here. this is big. bigger than i remember. >> seeing her now, you might think she had a wonderful time at this school. but in truth, she had a horrible secret. one she couldn't tell anyone. she was being sexually abused. unable to bear it any longer, she turned to her mother. seeing her mother cry, i thought her living hell was over at last.

but her mother did nothing. >> translator: at that time i was caught up by the thought that i had been abandoned by my mother. i felt like she was telling me to continue what i was being forced to do. i felt she was telling me to endure and continued doing that. i couldn't believe a mother would do such a thing to her child. it took a lot of courage for me to speak to her and couldn't hold back tears as i told her, but she turned a blind eye to my desperate plea for help.

if she helped me then, things would have been very different. i would have been a person who can ask for more pp naturally. >> i found it hard to breathe after hearing her speak about the grim experience without even shedding tears. hanukkah sent her mother a copy of her book in which she wrote about yearning for her mother's acceptance. she doesn't know if her mother read it. she went to tokyo and became a nurse. she dreamed of showbiz and an irresistible offer to be a singer led instead to the adult

film industry. she tried to back out, but they told her she would owe six million yen for breach of contract. there was no way out but to become hanukkah, a porn actress. >> i thought nothing could hurt me anymore. i had gone that far i thought all i could do is look up because i hit rock bottom. i thought things couldn't get any worse than that. >> the girl from a troubled childhood transformed herself 100% into hanukkah, the porn star and tried to get out of the mess she was in. >> even about small things, i

wouldn't hesitate to speak up, confronting people if i had to. i was really nervous. >> even in private the hanukkah persona was -- >> yes. she was swallowing me up. so much so i felt like i didn't exist anymore. >> why did you write i? >> i didn't write hanukkah. she is a totally different person. i thought i wanted to be ai while i was there. >> when she was 25, hanukkah won the adult video of the year award, the top prize in the industry.

thinking it would help her enter showbiz, she retired from porn. aiming for acting jobs in theater and tv, hanukkah changed agents. her new manager thought hanukkah was trying too hard. >> translator: you might think she is opening herself up to you, but in fact she always keeps a good distance from other people. that was what i noticed about her. she didn't realize it herself, but she was wearing a lot of armor to keep herself from getting hurt. i wondered how i could let her take off the armor because i thought her real appeal was hidden underneath. in order to open up, she needed to reflect on her past. she advised her to write a biography.

>> i think what i have to do is watch from a distance as she struggles and tell her from time to time everything is already. it is okay to take off the armor. >> i almost forgot about ai's existence. writing was a great opportunity to take a fresh look at ai and how i can reconcile ai with my present self, hanukkah. >> she had to revisit growing up without her manager's love and accept both her former self and her mother. coming to grips with the past, she found her true self.

>> on her last day, we went to look for a place where she used to live, relying on her memory. ai was taken from the child facility by a man who was her mother's boyfriend at the time and lived with him. >> translator: he was with me all the time. so for me, it felt like a real parent-child relationship. unselfish. i felt as if he was my real father. >> her mother didn't know she was living with him.

it was an abduction. it was the only period in her childhood where she felt love and cared for. she is only happy memories of the days she spent with him. >> translator: have you been living here for a long time. were you here 25 years ago? >> no. >> translator: you weren't? sorry. thank you. i think i remember this. hello. can i ask you something? when i was little -- transtran

>> when i was 3 or 4 i stayed with mr. kawakami for a while. >> yes, you did. >> you went to the kindergarten by bus. >> i was going there? >> yes. >> don't you have a picture? >> yes, i do. >> unbelievable. >> i have just that. >> i think he took it in the neighborhood. >> yes, yes. >> you have grown up now. i never doubted you were his child. >> is that so? >> now she is working as an actress in tokyo. that's good. you were a pretty girl already

back then. >> thank you. >> are there traces are how she used to look? >> not at all. she had full cheeks. >> i was a chubby girl. >> i assume you have a stage name? >> ai is my real name. >> hanukkah. please stay well and keep up the good work. >> touch. wish you great success. >> thanks! i can't believe it. i'm so happy that i can finned someone who remembers me. until now i hardly met anyone who actually knew me. all i have got is people in my

memories and my mother. it was really good. >> you like that he was a kind man? >> yes. he was gentle, just as i remember him. i'm relieved and in a different sense i'm also glad that kawakami exists in that lady's

memories. >> her hometown was full of bitter memories. now she seems to be fully immersed in the warmth she experienced a long time ago. last week i went to my hometown and visited places where i grew up. how can i put this into words? it was a trip to revisit my past. hello. please come in. >> thanks. >> during her visit, hanukkah went to see her mother though she initially had no intention

to do so. >> after i visited this time, well, my feelings towards my mother aren't the same as before. they haven't changed much. when while revisiting my childhood, i thought about her wherever i went. that made me want to see her. while writing the book, i decided to stop waiting for my mother to speak to me, but realized this time i loved her all along. otherwise i wouldn't be seeking her. now what really matters is that i love her and that's a change from how i felt before. the trip changed me.