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harry,an i jus open meyes? ok, now op your ey. . oh, god. don't bu the pla down d don't on the of. ok? at the fk is thi anyway you ozing wi buds no. somethiwellwhat the yore havg an e pty? u're doi crank. do youant me to get y anythin i don'need anying. do youant me to get y anythinat is is? it's jusfriends om schoo and weust needomewhereto hang t. hmm.nd you wt me torop you f eachuesdyeah

yes. plee. that'd bgood. it'lbe our ttle sret. [ tickg ][ james do youotice anything? mm i n't know is it met to havchangedin a wee i dot know. [ attering here [ bill ] yep.eah, jusin frontof theamera. okay. anyou cansit downn it.