they said they liked it when you were over there because all of the food was good and -- >> that's because i have a passion for cooking. >> but when the subject of getting a job in population arises, steele suddenly changes his tone and accuses the doctor of having deceived him. >> you lied to me so much in the past about working out there in population that i don't know if i can trust you. >> that's understandable. when you wanted rtu i was saying i wasn't sure you could handle it yet. >> i never told you that. >> no, i said it. as time goes on, i think you'll see -- >> you can't be trusted. >> hopefully we can do things to change your mind. >> if somebody lies to me, i never trust them again. >> okay. well, like i said, trust is earned. the main thing is we want to get you back out to population and back out working. that's the goal. >> i think he's convinced that i am responsible for keeping him on a mental health unit.

and i guess he's right. i think if he were more open to us we would have a better sense that it would be okay to put him back out there. >> still playing chess? >> no. i don't play chess. >> no? someone told me you were a chess player. >> i don't know how to play chess. >> really? >> they lied to you. >> we checked back on steele's progress several weeks later. >> he had been telling the mental health staff that he was all ready to begin working in population. we made arrangements for him to do that. i believe they came to pick him up and he said no, i'm not going. so for now, he's going to stay on the chronic care unit and we'll go from there.

due to mature subject matter, viewer discretion is advised. >> msnbc takes you behind the walls of america's most notorious prisons into a world of chaos and danger. now, the scenes you've never seen. "lockup: raw." >> behind the walls of america's prisons we've witnessed the depths of despair. >> but i don't want to lose you and these children. >> we've learned the price of crime is often paid by the most innocent. >> i can't get out my daddy. >> we've seen creativity wasted. on destructive ends. >> i stabbed somebody with some jolly ranchers. >> we've also met inmates determined to be themselves, no matter how risky. >> oh, that's my school teacher look.

>> and we've seen them adapt to a life in prison. >> it takes a lot of anger and temper away. it makes it easier to cope in here. >> the thought of going to prison is frightening. it's really unimaginable. and for an inmate to survive behind bars, he really needs to be able to adapt. over the years we've come across some very creative ways for inmates to adapt to the environment. >> on the positive side, we've seen long-lasting friendships. inmates bonding with cats and creating their own prison cuisine in their cells. but there's a negative side to adaptation as well. any corrections officer will tell you there are way too many homemade shanks in prison and plenty of inmates willing to use them. we were at the penitentiary of new mexico when an inmate tried to break away from his escort officer and tried to stab another inmate with a unique

homemade shank. >> he actually fabricated this out of a piece of a pencil sharpener. you can see the rivet right in there. then he attached a paper clip to it and subsequently ran it back, put some plastic cellophane on it, put a rubber band around it to make it more easy to handle specifically when it gets full of blood if you were to slice somebody. he actually admitted he put this on there so he could have some control once he sliced the individual. he's pretty ingenious as far as how he makes weapons. >> the inmate is 30-year-old christopher shiverdecker, and his ability to craft ingenious weapons isn't the only thing that makes him memorable. >> the first time i met him, i was quite shocked by his appearance. i had never seen anyone before who had a giant bullet hole in his forehead. >> it's a tattoo i got a long, long time ago. it's just a bullet hole. it's like a bullet hole.

>> shiverdecker has had plenty of time to amass tattoos and learn the ways of prison. at an age when most boys collect baseball cards, shiverdecker was collecting convictions. >> first time i really got in trouble i think i was 10 1/2. i got grand theft auto. >> since then shiverdecker has spent far more time inside correctional institutions than outside. he's currently serving 45 years for assault, battery, and possession of a deadly weapon by a prisoner. a weapon every bit as creative as this most recent one. >> i stabbed somebody with some jolly ranchers. i took a bunch of jolly ranchers off the canteen, melted it down into a cone, let it get hard like a rock, and it's actually stronger than glass. and sometimes it's not always you're going to outmuscle somebody. you got to outthink them, you

know? >> at 4'11" and 100 pounds, shiverdecker must be creative to survive in prison. he also uses his size to his advantage. >> he's so small that he can slip his handcuffs, and he's got a little game with the new officers where he will -- they will put him in there to take the handcuffs off and he'll hand it to them after he slipped them. >> walk the dog. >> just because i'm small and i'm able to slip the handcuffs anytime i want, i'm a problem, you know? >> this handy talent enabled shiverdecker to elude sergeant rick ortega and officer michelle carpenter when he launched his most recent attack. >> within a matter of just seconds he just slipped his cuffs, tried to get away from her, and at that time i decided just to take him down because i decided he was a threat already.

>> ortega, he's got to lose some damn weight. damn near crushed me. >> despite shiverdecker's violent reputation, oddly enough he got along pretty well with staff members. he will defend himself at all costs, but the staff never bothered him and he had respect for the fact they're doing their job. all he wanted to do was survive. >> he's actually a cooperative inmate. he was very concerned about the staff getting injured or assaulted during this situation. he had no intention of injuring or assaulting any staff members. he just had a mission. >> he told me make sure it's not a rookie escorting me. make sure it's you and the sergeant. then he said to watch myself today. so that gave me an indication that something was possibly going to happen. >> the more i spoke to him and in spite of his criminal history, shiverdecker believed in karma, and while we were there, he shared with us how he

was trying to improve his karma, and it had to do with a haircut. >> christopher, talk about your hair. what happened? why did you cut it? >> i just cut it off. it was long enough so i could cut it off so i could send it out. >> to? >> locks of love for the kids with cancer. >> why, though? >> why? why did i do it? i don't know. just something to do. i mean -- i don't know how you put it. karma. you do bad, you got to do something good to [ bleep ] level it out. >> but when it comes to someone as crafty as shiverdecker, even an attempt to do good arouses suspicion. not long after he cut his hair for a cancer patient, officers decided to confiscate it. >> it's been done in the past where they can make a head and glue all that hair onto a dummy head. an officer can go by and think he's asleep and it's actually a dummy head and this guy can escape. i don't know if it's escape

paraphernalia, but it could be. we're going to retrieve it now. >> hey, i need to get that hair from you. whatever documentation you have to send it out, give me the documentation with it. >> just put it in the envelope and send it out. >> i'll let the case worker do it. >> they want to make me look like a monster. i've been here over 2 1/2 years. i didn't do nothing. i don't disrespect nobody, don't cause no problems or nothing. >> we met a rookie officer who was about to find out if that's true. >> the inmate we're talking about, name his name and have you dealt with him before? >> shiverdecker, i believe. i haven't messed with him before. it's the first time. i don't know. >> shiverdecker. >> i have heard of the reputation and i wasn't too far away when he did his action last

week, but i'm hoping to anticipate a good day for him. he's not going to go all crazy, but we'll see. >> we were with rookie officer derrick ralph as he had his first encounter with shiverdecker. the prison feels there's an educational opportunity in a rookie meeting an inmate as clever and nimble as shiverdecker. >> stop right there. we know you're able to remove your restraints. we want to see if you'll do us -- show us a demonstration on how you do it. >> no. >> why not? >> this is prison. this isn't a playground. >> we want to train these officers on what to look out for, and you'd actually be a vital training element for this. we've got an officer here, a new officer. his name is officer ralph. >> it's my [ bleep ] safety net. >> i understand that, but if you can do it, you can do it. >> yeah, i know, but that's my [ bleep ]. that's my safety net. you know? i don't [ bleep ] do it just to do it, you know. if i don't like what's going on, of course i'm going to do it. you know what i'm saying? >> that's understandable, but

i'm just asking you for training purposes for this new officer, would you be willing to show us how you do it? >> no. >> no? >> shiverdecker refused to comply. but he did have some advice for the rookie officer. >> straight up, i mean, we're not your buddy. we're not your [ bleep ] friend. i mean, we're here to do our time. you're here to do your job. you know? if i feel like i'm in a bad situation and i've got to go through you to save my own ass, then so be it. that's what i'm going to do. you know? that goes for anybody. i mean, [ bleep ]. this is prison. >> go ahead and restrain him. put that a little tighter. hold up, shiverdecker. hold up. check this out. if you can put your finger in there, it's too loose. see how loose it was? >> yes, sir. >> best thing i can tell you, don't trust nobody.

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most inmates with lengthy sentences usually find ways to adapt to life behind bars. but dealing with changes outside prison walls presents a greater challenge. particularly as their families adapt to life without them and they find there's nothing they can do about it. >> i have two boys. i have a 9-year-old and i have a 7-year-old. i gave birth to a healthy baby boy almost 20 months ago. >> we met christina meadows and kristine taylor at the tennessee prison for women.

both were eager to talk about their children, which made the graphic details they shared about their violent crimes all the more shocking. >> i did so much damage they said that i had to have a weapon, which i didn't. >> it was almost like an al pacino movie, i guess you could say. very brutal, bloody. >> christine taylor, serving 12 years for aggravated robbery and kidnapping, told us about the eight hours she held a friend captive and brutally beat her. she had accused the friend of stealing from her. >> burned her on her face. i burned her on her sides. with a 12-gauge shotgun i had pistol-whipped her on her hip. which took a chunk about a quarter size out of her hip. she was disfigured, i guess, you could say. her face, couldn't really look at her and see it was her. >> christina meadows also knew her victim. she and her cousin got into a fight that escalated into a vicious assault.

>> i hit her so many times in the same spot, you know, it made a gash from up here to down here. she was 6 foot tall and weighed 350 pounds. and i was about a buck 30. i did so much damage they said that i had to have a weapon, which i didn't have a weapon. when you hit somebody repeatedly over and over, especially in your head, it's thin skin, it's going to eventually bust open. but when you're hyped up on drugs, you're capable of anything. >> hitting her with just your hands? >> yeah. hitting her with my hands. yeah. >> what happened to your hands? >> nothing. >> meadows' hands got her into more trouble in prison. she had been at a minimum security facility but after several fights with other inmates was transferred to the segregation unit at tennessee prison for women. >> warden said i was a threat to the security of his institution, that i was a threat to his inmates, that he didn't have a program for me, that i -- my

behavior was too aggressive. >> meadows' sons are living with family while she serves four years for aggravated assault and a concurrent sentence for forgery. and she's concerned one of her boys might be following her example. >> first he stole like a dollar from his teacher and then he's stealing money from his grandma and i got on the phone and i asked him, why are you stealing money from grandma? he said, well, i was stealing $1 and $5 from her and she never knew, so i thought i would take a 20. he got in trouble for that and the whole family came down and did like this intervention thing and so i told him not to steal from grandma. so instead of stealing from grandma, he stole from the next door neighbor. i am having to deal with my crimes. forgery, you know, it's in the same tense. i stole the money. i forged a check. so to me i look at myself and i have guilt, major guilt of thinking, okay, my kid's a thief because i was a thief and what do i got to do to change it? >> christine taylor also

struggles with parenting from prison, especially when it comes to negotiating with her children's father. >> unfortunately, some events transpired in daycare last week that are horrible, and he's still letting our children go there, but there's nothing that i can say because i'm here and i'm helpless. >> later we noticed taylor on a cell block pay phone talking to the father of her children. >> okay. he doesn't like it, i don't want to go. does the lady still watch him? does she treat him any different? i mean, i don't know. shouldn't you be wondering these things after that incident? >> when we're filming in these prisons, i don't know if you call it luck or not, but we're there roaming around and we just happen upon these situations with some of the people we've been filming with, and they're used to us at this point and in some ways they become oblivious to us, as in the case of christine on the phone. >> why don't you come down here and see me and bring our children? why can't i be a part of your life no more? i'm sick of being in this

[ bleep ] by myself without you wondering what's going on. i'm trying real mother [ bleep ] hard to stay out of trouble and get my [ bleep ] together and it feels like i have nothing to come home to, like -- >> it encapsulates the loss one goes through when you're incarcerated. she's begging the father of her children to not leave her and to please let her see her kids, and this became this very sad, desolate situation, which she remarked upon afterwards. but it was the quintessential prison moment as far as we were concerned. >> i understand my choices have done this, but i don't want to lose you and these children. and that's what it's feeling like. >> i've been with him since i was 15. when we're 50/50, we're unstoppable, and ever since i made a few choices and i ended up here, it's put a damper on our relationship. it's very, very hard. coming up, a troubled inmate

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one of the most surprising experiences i had on "lockup" i was working in michigan city, indiana, my hometown at indiana state penitentiary and i actually ran into somebody i used to hang out with when i was a child. we were shooting in the visitation room and i kind of saw him out of the corner of my eye, and it was one of those odd moments because what do you do? i didn't want to interrupt his visit and say hello, but later on as we were interviewing somebody else he found me and came up to me and started talking to me, and talking to him for a good while and it was just the most interesting experience because i hadn't seen him in years and to be talking to him as he's now an inmate and, you know, when we were 12, 13 years old i would never have guessed i would have been seeing him in this position.

>> visitation often proves to be a place not only to find great stories, but to see inmates in a different light. >> when we first met jonathan hall, serving 40 years for second-degree murder at colorado's limon correctional facility, we wouldn't have guessed that one of the most emotional reunions we would ever see between an inmate and his child would include him. >> come to the door and cuff off! >> [ bleep ]. >> inmate hall, come to the door and cuff off. >> my first impression of jonathan hall was that he was an out-of-control, maniacal young man. he was screaming at me through his door. he was quite verbally assaultive. >> you can't buy my story. you can't [ bleep ] buy me. get the [ bleep ] out of here.

>> as time went on, i started having off-camera conversations with jonathan and quickly i saw a very different human being. he was trying to educate himself. he had come from a very difficult life, and he was calm and he was articulate, but the most striking thing about jonathan which shifted his personality from this very tough, hardcore inmate to a far kinder and even softer person was the second he started talking about his son. orion. >> this is me, my son, and my wife when my son was first born. i felt like my destiny was fulfilled, that that was what i was put on earth to do, was to have my son. >> my daddy. my daddy. my daddy. >> we were there when hall's mother, sister, wife, and 3-year-old son orion arrived for a visit.

the first with orion since he was an infant. but there wouldn't be so much as a hug between them. hall's prior behavior problems resulted in a non-contact visit. >> hey, you. >> hi. >> here's orion. can you say, i love you, daddy? >> i love you, daddy. >> i love you, too. i miss you. >> orion was a bright light from the second that we saw him. he was very aware of his surroundings. he was over the moon to see his dad. he knew oddly enough that he was in a place where his dad didn't belong. >> there's your daddy. >> is it really daddy? >> yeah. that's your daddy, huh? he was so excited to see you. he kept saying, i'm going to see my daddy, i'm going to see my daddy. you know what he said, too? >> what? >> he said, this is a castle. we're going to the castle.

>> oh, yeah? castle? >> he said he thinks it's a castle. aw. >> daddy. daddy. >> hey. >> he's stuck in the mirror. >> yeah. >> i can't get out my daddy. >> hearing that little kid say to his family i need to get my daddy out of the mirror was heartbreaking. and as you can see now, i well up very easily. and i was over in the corner bawling. it was just horrible. >> there's my dad. there's my daddy. my daddy. >> daddy. you look like your daddy. >> daddy. >> later on after the visit while we were still filming at limon, jonathan was shipped out to a much more restrictive prison, but he seems pretty resolute that he's going to try to maintain a relationship with his little boy. next on "lockup: raw" --

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we've interviewed a lot of inmates who are doing long-term sentences. i'm talking decades and decades of time behind bars. in order to survive, they have to find ways to make the absolute most of whatever small pleasures they can find. >> we should go get some bleach and make everything brighter and whiter. like a teeth commercial. >> james stone may still look like a young man, but his boyish face conceals a hard-lived life behind bars. >> when i first came to prison, had nothing to lose, didn't care about anything, and very violent. >> he is now 55 years old and has been an inmate at indiana state prison for more than two decades. >> they said i did attempted murder, attempted murder, deviate conduct and criminal conversion and kidnapping. >> in all, stone was sentenced to 101 years for his crimes. >> the judge puts you in here.

now, how you make your life in here is up to you. >> these days stone doesn't like all the changes he's seen at indiana. especially when it comes to the younger generation. >> they have no respect for theirselves, little less anyone else. back in those days you had respect for everyone in here. you didn't have to lock your stuff up. there was rules that we followed that was our own. i mean, sure, there was stabbings, there were deaths, but they were legit. they weren't over a box of cakes or something like that, you know? guy is a child molester wants to turn state evidence on someone or something. you know, he got knocked. these guys now, for a $2 rolly he's getting mugged. i mean, come on. >> but stone used to be a bit of a menace himself in his younger days. >> let's just say i hurt a lot of people. it seemed to be the best way to get aggression out. i was taking pills, drinking. because back in those days we had real liquor in here, not wine, not hooch. we had real liquor. >> stone used to be kind of a rebel.

>> major robert cabanaw was a correctional officer when stone first arrived. >> me and stone got to know each other quite a bit when i was in charge of cell houses. i was the captain in charge of cell houses. and i used to walk the ranges a lot. >> that's when it was fist fighting with officers was allowed. if they opened up your cell door and told you to step out, it was punch for punch and forgotten about. there wasn't no write-ups involved. you know, it was all about respect. get your teeth knocked out, next day everything's forgotten about. can't do that now, though. now they call it spouse abuse. >> he would go around and drink, smoke, be getting into different kind of things like that. >> i was on pills. i was popping all these bull [ bleep ] pills. anything i could get. what the [ bleep ]. i mean, you know, what, i got to stay healthy or something? you just put me here, i'm more or less just a zombie that ain't just -- but i'm having fun, so

screw it. i'm going to stay bombed and high and everything and go around, beat everybody up that i can, because that was my hustle, collecting for the dope guys. >> he was a hoodlum. >> but by the time we met him in 2008, stone had matured and found satisfaction in things beyond fighting and drinking. >> he knows that he's in prison, and he's going to make the best of every day. he is social. he has friends. he likes his job. >> it's a bird, it's a plane, no, it's the bio bucket man. >> he wakes up knowing that he has a purpose, although it's not his ideal purpose. he never questions it. >> to the bat cave. >> indiana prison officials allowed us to give certain inmates personal cameras to tell their stories in private. stone used his to tell us about some of his healthier choices. >> as you see, there's plenty of vegetables. i grow gardens here and i try to

eat as healthy as i possibly can because we don't get it in the chow hall. down there you see vitamins. i take vitamins every day. just part of my daily routine. i like making stuff out of garbage, recycling. here is clocks and stuff, chests, clocks that i have made with recycled material out of trash. old scrap lumber that was gotten rid of. >> but there's one thing that turns stone's life around more than anything else. >> get a little purr machine. before i had a cat, believe me, i wasn't a person that you wanted to know. as a matter of fact, i wasn't a nice person at all. >> at indiana state some inmates are allowed to adopt cats from a local shelter that might otherwise be euthanized. but the program started when stone first helped out a newborn stray more than ten years ago. >> i've got a lot of knowledge and way with animals from the

streets, and i helped deliver some kittens that was caught from a wild cat in here, and one of them, he was deformed-looking. nobody wanted to even handle him he looked so weird, and i wasn't going to let him be killed or go to the pound or anything like that. >> it was hard to think of james stone as being this, you know, rabble-rouser, you know, just seeing him be such a nice guy and friendly to everybody. it was hard to imagine him in his skull-cracking days, as he said. i think his first cat had a lot to do with that. you know, i would have liked to have seen him back then just to see the contrast between the two. >> this is jinxster. this is my little buddy. i've had him since 2005. because my first cat died in 2005, and they replaced him with one that looked similar to him. >> hey, jinxster, smile for the camera. that's what i'm talking about. >> and i have to tell you, this guy loves his cat, loves, loves,

loves. he talked about his cat more than anybody that i had met. he had built this elaborate cat house, this two-story -- it almost looked like a doll house. it was crazy. >> as you see, it's got everything to it. it's got skyline windows, the whole bit. i keep everything so it's more or less catproof. i don't have things down where the cat can mess it up. you know, because a cat is a cat. >> his cat was his best friend. his cat was his roommate. he was probably his confidant. and know, most importantly, this cat talked him down. you know, if anything got on his nerves, that cat, you know, probably heard an awful lot. >> i mean, he takes a lot of the anger and temper away. makes it easier to cope in here because when i do feel like i'm about ready to go and do something stupid, i just hold him on my lap, pat him, stroke him a few times, and you look at those big bette davis eyes and you think, hey, this guy depends on me. i got to take care of him.

>> stone's cats have even eased tensions with old adversaries. >> what's up? >> thought i'd bring big boy over here for you to see. >> jesus, i can't believe how fat he is. look at that guy. he's a cow. what's up, dude? >> just goes to show fruits and vegetables ain't necessarily good on a diet. >> how you doing? he's too fat to catch anything. >> no. but i don't have to worry about that big-ass halt anymore. when he was a kitten he almost got picked up by that hawk pap. that hawk tried to swoop down, to get him. looked like a little chipmunk. >> i think i have lost a couple to the hawk and the coyotes. >> have you? >> yeah. >> that might be why he's so fat too. figuring that bird can't -- >> i can't believe how big he is. he's huge. >> he's not as big as jinx was though. >> no, no. >> jinx was longer and taller. >> jinx wasn't that heavy though. >> no. he was strong. >> he was more lean. >> he's my little buddy. >> i'll see you. see you, jinxster. >> he's more dependable than anything i got in here.

i will do without before he will. i give animals more respect than i do people because they deserve it. they deserve it. they're not the ones messing up the world. we are. >> up next, the gender-bending ways of the inmate known as holly mary. >> i like to look sophisticated. >> ain't that something? ss! see that's much better! that was good. you had your shoulder pointed, you kept your eyes on your target. let's do it again -- watch me. just like that one... [ male announcer ] the durability of the volkswagen passat. pass down something he will be grateful for. good arm. that's the power of german engineering. ♪ back to you. and these come together, one thing you can depend on is that these will come together.

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virtually no privileges. it's also where some of our most dramatic stories are found, and the holman correctional facility in alabama proved to be no exception. that's where we met marcus thomas, who prefers to be called holly berry. >> okay. i knew that i was born a male. i know that. that i do know. that's just reality. but i live as a woman. i see myself as a woman. >> that's my school teacher look. yes. i like to look sophisticated. >> i refer to holly as she because she asked me to, and out of respect i'm happy to do that. but in reality she's a man. the first time we met her she was in lockup. she was being taken out to have an interview, and our cameraman brian started to follow her and i watched his facial expression change because holly would do

these exaggerated mannerisms which she thought were a woman and her hips were swaying back and forth as she walked down the tier. and, of course, all the inmates start hooting and hollering everywhere she went at holman prison she created a scene. >> hello. >> holly was in ad seg because his various relationships with other inmates led to disruptions, but he's no stranger to troubling relationships. he's serving 25 years for murdering the man he considered to be his husband. >> he and some of his colleagues were having a little ball, valentine's ball. he come in and i'm associating with another guy, you know, just talking, and he just grabbed me and one thing led to another. he drug me outside, started to beat on me. beating me, beating me, beating me, and beating me. i just -- i stabbed him.

he fell. i stabbed him again. >> holly did not let prison end his love life. he told us he's had three prison husbands so far and the current one figured out a way for the couple to be close to one another in the crowded general population dorms. >> well, let me tell you, he would actually pay the guy that slept next to me, he would actually pay him to sleep in his bed. mm-hmm. sure would. just to be beside me. ain't that something? >> the inmate holly considers his husband asked to remain anonymous to prevent his family from learning about the relationship. >> i never thought in a million years i would be in a relationship like this. >> i'm his first, his only, and his last. >> the prison, of course, does not allow inmates to marry one another, but that didn't stop

holly and his boyfriend from exchanging rings and vows. but soon after the couple landed in ad seg after another inmate jumped holly and his boyfriend retaliated with a beating. holly's boyfriend was eventually released back into general population. but holly remained in lockup a year later. >> well, back to my hot little cell. >> please open m-57. please open. >> why are you saying it like that? >> and clean that pigsty up. >> you leave my house alone. >> the hardest thing about being in lockup is not being able to sit, talk to him, prepare his meals for him, to iron his clothes, to wash his clothes. i mean, i enjoy doing all of that for him.

going out on the weight pile and, you know, him coaching me and, you know, spotting me as i'm doing my little squats, you know. >> shortly after this interview, holly had a meeting scheduled with warden grant culiver to plead his case for getting out of ad seg. but before the warden arrived, holly broke down. >> what's going on with your man? >> i can't do this. i can't do this. >> it's okay, you're fine. >> i can't do this. >> from my observation, holly would burst into tears whenever she thought it would gain her some advantage, either getting sympathy from somebody -- at one point we were arguing about me referring to her as either she or him, and i had to remind holly that, in fact, she had a penis which was why she was in a male facility, and she just went into this big greta

garbo routine just wailing and bemoaning the fact she did, in fact, have a penis. >> what you crying for? >> they was -- they wanted to do an interview of me, and -- >> you don't want to be interviewed? >> they just -- they act -- they asked if i'd seen [ bleep ] -- >> that caused you to cry? >> because it hurt me. >> because me asked you if you'd seen [ bleep ] it hurt you? >> [ bleep ]. [ crying ] i swear to god, it hurts. >> why, why, why? you ain't going to win no academy award on in [ bleep ]. quit crying. i don't want to hear you crying. i'm not even going to talk to you about this. they want me to talk to you about being released to general pop.

i'm not going to sit here and listen to you cry about some other damn man. >> i am sorry. i'm sorry. i said i'm sorry. >> why should i release you to pop? >> because, mr. culliver. >> why? >> i learned my lesson. >> what kind of problems do we have with you when we return you to population? >> i don't know. >> huh? >> i don't know. >> yes, you do know. even though you call yourself being one individual, do you not have people that are coming after you all of the time? yes or no? just yes or no. >> well, yes. >> okay. do you not like that attention? >> no, sir, i don't. >> i cannot stop these guys from coming after you, and you know somebody is going to make a play for you. somebody is going to either try to cross you out or try to cross [ bleep ] out. basically they're going to try to cross [ bleep ] out to be able to get to you. you already know this.

and then we've got an incident. so why should i send you out to pop? >> please, mr. culliver. tell me why? >> just give me a chance, please. >> i don't want you to beg me. i want you to give me one good reason why i should turn you out to pop. >> i made a change. i'm not coming back to lockup, mr. culliver. i promise i'm not coming back. please. please, just give me a chance. i'm not coming back. >> i'll think about it. i ain't convinced right now, though. and the reason i'm not convinced is in the past your past tells me if you go to general population you've got about 60 or 90 days in general population and there will be problems. >> i bet you're wrong this time. i bet you're wrong. >> we'll see. you can go. >> if you could say anything to holly now, what would that be? >> i would let her know that i

love her and miss her, need her, i'm waiting on her. >> no matter how long she's locked up? >> no matter how long. >> it must be love. >> yeah. >> as for the future, holly looks forward to spending a life with his boyfriend outside prison walls. >> i'm going to give him the best life he could imagine. i said baby, i'm going to show you what real love is. you know. you ain't got to look this way or be this way or be that way to be accepted. coming up, some of the prison's top chef inmates provide a taste of their cell-made cuisine. >> just eyeball that. it flavors up the fish real good. >> makes a pretty good meal. better than the food they serve you in the chow hall. mallon brothers magic?

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♪ among the first questions asked of "lockup" producers by their friends and family at the end of a long prison shoot is usually how was the food? when we traveled overseas for "lockup world tour," the answer was pretty good, actually. a belgian inmate gave his prison's kitchen nothing but rave reviews. >> food here they give same way they give in any belgian restaurant. any belgian traditional restaurant, what they give, they give also here. same taste, same everything. it's a five-star hotel. >> the food seemed equally pleasing in eastern europe as well. especially at a serbian prison called zabwa. >> to me it was vastly different from the kind of food served in american prison. loaves of bread. the food looked fresh. it wasn't processed.

and it was ladled out, served out fresh. it was a different visual for me in terms of seeing the food. we walked into this one area and there's massive vats of dough and yeast being prepared for this homemade bread that they serve the inmates. so they offered us the chance to try it. i just delved into that bread. it was so delicious. this bread was probably the tastiest bread i've ever had. it was that good. >> but most inmates we met prefer their own culinary concoctions to prison fare. james meek, an inmate at hmp shots prison in scotland, is a self-trained saucier and keeps an impressive collection of spices to turn mundane prison grub into something exotic. >> spices. to make curries and that. but you've got to wash out the meat and things like that, you know. and then you make your own sauce and put the meat back and then add your sauce together. because some of the curries they make are rubbish.

so i make my own up. >> not to the outdone by their peers overseas, american inmates often choose to forego the chow hall and create their own meals with food they can purchase from the prison canteen. we met chris at the limon correctional facility in colorado. >> take one whole sausage and slice it up long ways. four different ways in quarters. you make quarters out of them and then cut that completely in half and then sometimes i'll put a little bit of honey on top of the sausage and then i'll put the cheese over the top of it and then cook it in the microwave for a minute so it melts it down and it makes a pretty good meal. it's better than the food they serve you in the chow hall. >> but one other limon inmate, ray slagel, took homemade prison cuisine to an entirely new level. >> honestly, cooking is my hobby. on the streets even. i love to cook.