more planes and ships are arriving in indonesia. a coalition of nations pitching together to search for the mission airasia that's missing since sunday. right now at least 30 ships and 15 aircraft are involved in the search. earlier the head of the search and rescue agency said they are expanding to include land areas. for more let's brng in nbc's katy tur with the latest from singapore. >> it's morning here in singapore. the start of day three with still no sign of this plane. the search has resumed for the

morning but there are concerns bad weather could interfere with the effort. >> those severe thunderstorms that may have played a role in the plane's day peerance are still in the area. stay here with msnbc for more h updates on the missing airasia flight. now back to "lockup." due to mature subject matter, viewer discretion is advised. msnbc takes you behind the walls of america's most notorious prisons to a world of chaos and danger. now the scenes you've never seen, "lockup: raw." every time we step into another prison, we are amazed by the world that we enter. it's violent, it's loud -- very intimidating but through it all is a fascinating place.

>> the daily grind of prison life has been known to push some inmates to the brink. >> the agony in here, the torture, the poke, the prod. the constant frustration you can't release. how do people release their frustration? you build your body. you build your muscles. >> some use the time wisely. >> get that money. get that money, man. >> but other inmates self-destruct. >> i take a razor blade and cut myself up real bad, you know, and then it will all be all right. >> prisons are hate factories. they can't produce anything but hate. >> the first time i walk out of this [ bleep ] not one of you [ bleep ]. >> i mean, prison is extremely

boring when you're locked up in one place, extremely small place, where it is extremely crowded and there's really nothing. >> this is the living space right here. >> it's like telling your kid to go to his or her room and say that's where you're going to stay. >> we haven't met too many inmates on "lockup" who praise prison life. they all agree one thing prison life is perfect for is getting into shape. and over the years we have filmed amazing footage of inmates working out and pumping iron. >> for a long time i didn't work out because i thought it was so cliche, you know, dudes come to prison, they work out. you get big and strong and all that stuff and after a while i had too much idle time and i kept getting in trouble. a buddy of mine started talking to me about lifting.

just got into it. it's more of take out my frustrations. that's more of it than anything. it's a stress reliever. >> we work everything. all week long. you hit every body part at least once. like on monday you have a bench day. tuesday you might do shoulders, lats and traps. wednesday you do arms, and thursday you might have another heavy bench day. you've got a leg day somewhere in there. >> in the survival of the fittest environment, the weight yard is one of the few places where inmates can find encouragement. >> let's get another one. push it. push it. push it. >> that right there is 215 pounds. >> that's a lot of weight. >> yeah. i only weigh 170. about double my weight. a lot of these guys have motivation to lift that kind of weights. get off the bar. get off the bar. come over here and come mess with the big dogs. >> yeah, man.

get that money. >> we've met other inmates whose disciplinary problems keep them off the yard, but even confined to their cells, they're still determined to work out. >> the inmates that succeed generally are the ones that don't let their bodies completely deteriorate on them. >> i just focus on the street and where i'm going to be at one day. that's how i get by every day. >> they are constantly coming up with interesting ways to exercise. most of it is calisthenics. >> one, two, three, four. >> a lot of the inmates will fill bags full of water for weightlifting. >> and that kind of creativity is important because some prisons have permanently removed weights from the yard. >> so that's why we're out here trying to improvise and stuff.

you know, lifting garbage cans and stuff like that. took a good wholesome thing from us, you know. it is something that was filling people's time and taking away negative energy. >> some prison authorities see all this added muscle as a potential security threat, but others see benefits to having weights on the yard. >> i think the important thing for inmates is to keep them occupied. that's what we try to do here at the institution. >> john ault was warden at anamosa state penitentiary at the time we shot there. >> any time you can have inmates participate in some type of meaningful activity, it makes their time easier and staff's time much easier. i would much rather have them participate in something positive than sitting around with nothing to do and talk about how to pull a better armed robbery or plotting against us or fellow staff members. >> during our shoot at indiana state prison, authorities even allowed for a weightlifting competition.

>> lions now lifting at 495. >> other penitentiaries get their weight up. this is how they are doing. get your weight up. >> that's 625. on deck. >> go! go! >> good lift. good lift. you've got it. >> of course, in prison, there's also a practical side to staying in shape. >> if you ever come against somebody who wants to approach you in a negative way, attack you in a fight or something, you don't want to be the person that runs out of air first. the person that runs out of air first is the person that gets hurt. >> in the combat zone you have to be combat ready. and we all know that any minute

this yard in two seconds can explode into violence. >> bill hankins, a long-term inmate at colorado state penitentiary, knows about sudden explosions. during a routine strip search, hankins snapped. >> i used to get real frustrated. i would be worked up, just wanting to, you know, get at them. >> hankins is serving life without parole for killing a grocery store clerk during a robbery. in this supermax facility he is not allowed contact with other inmates, but he is released from his cell for an hour of daily solitary exercise. it's what keeps him going. >> being locked down all day long, every day for 23 hours a day and coming out in a little room to work out, you know, was

difficult first couple of years, but then i realized, you know, i'm just giving myself high blood pressure. >> while "lockup" crews have shot dozens of workout routines, the strangest has to have been at the miami-dade county jail where the two inmates covered their faces to remain anonymous. >> i'm a trainer, you know? >> after a round of what they called bed lifts, they showed us how they do chin-ups in the showers. but correctional staff took a dim view of their workout routine. >> yo, man, you got to get off that bar. >> that's it? >> that's it for that. no more of that workout stuff. >> next on "lockup raw: the daily grind" -- >> i got a 6-year-old daughter. how can i explain to her when daddy gets upset he cuts and burns himself?

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while some inmates make use of their time in prison to build up their bodies, others tear them down. bryan murray is one such inmate. >> i'm in here for causing trouble. i cut myself and stuff like that. >> show me where you cut yourself. >> want me to stick my arm out? >> we met murray at iowa state penitentiary serving ten years for stealing cars. he spent the last two years in

cell house 220, also known as the hole. >> this is your maximum security unit inside of a maximum security prison. here's where we house all the inmates that couldn't be handled at another institution or couldn't be handled in our general population area. now we have to deal with them over here. >> during his time in prison and especially in the hole, murray has found a coping device in self-mutilation. >> i've been in here so long it kind of releases stress. >> how do you cut yourself? >> i was on razors but they put me on razor restriction and i find stuff in here, staples, plastic from deodorants and stuff like that. >> when was the last time you cut yourself? >> about two weeks ago. >> the next day on their way to another interview in cell house 220, our crew ran into murray as correctional officers were moving him into a holding area so that they could inspect his

cell. >> can you tell us what is going on? >> huh? >> can you tell us what is going on? >> we are taking him out to shake down his cell? >> why? >> because he has been cutting on his arm. >> so, bryan, what's going on with you? >> oh, nothing. just stressed out. >> what? >> just stressed out. >> what have you done? >> cut myself. >> he does it for attention, and we come down and we try to talk to him and get him to behave. generally he does for a while. >> kind of afraid i get forgot about. you know? >> is it because you are locked up all the time? talk to me about that. >> yeah. being in the same cell for the last six, seven years kind of gets to you. >> officers search murray's cell for his cutting tools. >> shaking his cell down to find any other plastic. he has a piece of plastic stuck in his arm.

>> and quickly locate the weapon. >> he has taken his cap off his toothpaste and had broken it off to make a sharp edge and had started cutting his arm with it. reopened his scars where he perviously cut himself up. >> so now what? >> nothing. go back to my cell and wait another couple months. i guess. >> "lockup" crews have encountered many other self-mutilators. >> some people self-injure as a manipulation because they want to get moved. some people self-injure as a cry of help. some people self-injure to get even. you know, i'm going to hurt myself, and i'm going to show you kind of thing, so anger. >> our crew got a rare glimpse of how prevalent self-mutilation is at the wabash correctional facility in indiana. >> i need to go on 11. >> 11.

>> 11 range, thank you. >> prison psychologist mary ruth simms conducts group therapy with cutters and other self-mutilators assigned to wabash's secured housing unit. >> once i see my blood, i'm in another world, i'm somebody totally different from myself. that's the only time i can actually, you know, feel real, feel alive, feel like everything's going to be okay. >> simms says this particular group does not injure themselves for the typical reasons. >> they self-injured as a way to control their level of pain. that when they're in so much pain they don't know what to do, they are starting to feel like suicide, self-injury cuts their level of pain down. so it is pain control. >> you give the baby a bottle because he is crying, change his diaper. me, you give me something sharp to hurt myself with and i'm fine. >> you're communicating things are not okay to yourself.

>> if i don't cut myself at least once a week, i'm not right. >> some people here think there's nothing good in them at all, that they've messed up totally and they're totally worthless. >> i know the problems i have need to be fixed. i've got a 6-year-old daughter now. how am i going to explain to her when daddy getting upset he cuts and burns himself? >> inmates deemed not to be a threat to others are assigned to wabash's residential treatment unit where they are granted more time outside of their cell. that is where we met joe carr, who had a long history of self-mutilation. >> i was anti-social. i didn't want to be around nobody. i didn't want nobody around me. i wanted to be by myself. everything made me angry, you know? i would take a lot out of it on myself and i would feel better. i would take a razor blade and cut myself up real bad and then then it would all be all right,

you know? i did that scar ten years ago. i cut it from the ankle to the hipbone all the way down to the bone and cut across sideways so the surgeons had to take about 12 hours to sew me up. you got seven layers of skin you have to go through before you get to the bone, you know, and when you're going through one of them days, you don't even feel the pain. you don't even know you are doing it. it just happens. >> carr, who has spent 25 years in and out of prison for robberies to support a drug habit uses tattoos to disguise his many scars. >> this whole arm, if you bend it you can see it was cut from here all the way down and around the main arteries. i just had it tattooed up to try the hide the scars so it wouldn't look as bad. >> when we met him, carr was still recovering from his latest self-injury. he had swallowed several pens.

>> it's still trying to heal up on my belly here where they took me to surgery and they cut me open. they had to go in there and take the ink pens out. they left one in so they had to retake me to surgery for the second time to get the other stuff out. that's why it's taking so long to heal up. >> at the time of our shoot, carr had only two years left on his sentence and had mixed feelings of his chances of survival on the outside. >> i ask myself over and over, are you ready for it? can you handle it? this is all i know. this is my world. this is what raised me. d.o.c. raised me. i don't know right now. ♪ coming up on "lockup raw" -- >> writing music in prison is my life. >> how one inmate copes with the stark conditions of prison life.

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at almost every prison profiled on "lockup," our crew meets a certain number of repeat

offenders who in some ways are more at home inside prison than out. at san quentin, we met one young inmate who compared it to a once popular tv show. >> it's just like that little show "cheers" where everybody know your name. [ bleep ]. you see all your friends, you know what i mean? you feel like, well, i'm cool here. these are my boys, you know, what i mean? this is home. >> but most inmates hold a much different opinion. >> prisons are hate factories. they can't produce anything but hate. all you have is hate, loneliness, greed, and just misery. >> when we met gerald mccullough at the river bend maximum security institution near nashville, tennessee, he was halfway through a 12-year sentence on a sexual offense charge. >> there's no way out. there's just nothing to do.

this is just a total waste of someone's life. >> despite his pessimism, mccullough had found a productive outlet to express his pain. ♪ they say it's raining in denver ♪ ♪ that it's really kind of cold but i'm just pulling time in nashville ♪ ♪ how am i supposed to know >> shooting in a prison in nashville, the home of country music, we decided it would be great if we could find a country singer, and so we kind of made a call out to the other inmates and officers and they came up with mcculloch and he turned out to be pretty good. ♪ said she never talked about me ♪

♪ somehow it never did seem right ♪ ♪ i've been pulling time in nashville ♪ ♪ wasting days and wasting nights ♪ writing music in prison is just my life. i don't sit down to write a song. something hits me and my best songs come with about two minutes and about two or three minutes i have an excellent song. and i wrote "pulling time in nashville at the walls" which is tennessee state prison, which is shut down now. ♪ tell the family to come and see me ♪ ♪ they can spare some of the time ♪ i let my feelings out in my songs and i wrote old-time country. i don't write anything but old-time country. when i'm under pressure and

depressed, i write all the time. all i do is write my songs and play my guitar and study the bible and try to stay out of trouble. ♪ oh you can't leave >> though confined to prison, mccullough confided he still had dreams. ♪ with a fool >> i just want to go into a studio and cut a couple of albums and try to make it. what i plan to do is get out and go to church and find happiness. and happiness is that valuable because there's not really a whole lot of happy people that i know. we may smile and laugh and joke, but we're not happy. it's hard to be happy in a place like this.

♪ i know she's gone i never thought i'd ever be this scared ♪ and watch you lying there ♪ ♪ when i close my eyes and watch you lying there ♪ next on "lockup raw" -- >> i chose to be executed by >> fear, despair, and violence. "lockup" crews travel to death row.

i'm dara brown. the search continues for missing airasia flight which went missing sunday. dozens of assets are in the

search area with help dispatched from the u.s. and china. jeb bush has resigned from another corporate board. bill de blasio will meet with several police unions today. he's faced criticism after the shooting death of two nypd officers. "lockup." due to mature subject matter, viewer discretion is advised. it commands a breathtaking view of the san francisco bay, some of the most dangerous inmates in the country. on death row at california's san in many of the prisons "lockup" crews have visited death row is a quiet place where inmates are

much more concerned with filing that's not the case here. >> i feel like i consider everybody in here, every inmate >> our producer met two officers assigned to keep watch in the quentin's most violent death row inmates are housed. the daily grind here is bleak >> the mentality is i'm on death row and there's nothing you can do to me. if i assault you today there is tomorrow. you can only kill me once. >> assaults are so common here that any contact with inmates, officers to suit up in full riot gear. >> but that doesn't stop them from gassing, which is where they throw a variety of substances, can be anything, urine, feces. >> from the time you open the

food port, there's an opening >> death row at san quentin is a really scary place. the adjustment center is the feeding. a guy had to get there before dawn and suit up. to wear to shoot they wouldn't >> the footage camera operator captures the extreme precautions officers to serve this breakfast >> the inmate might try to grab so he can break it or stab it or >> it reminded me of, you know, it was a particularly creepy experience. calmer atmosphere when we shot

bend maximum security but correctional staff warned our producers appearances can be deceiving. >> as you see here, it's real quiet. complacency. that is the worst enemy of a staff person working on death row. here play by the rules, our crew dangerous exception. >> he has cut two of our throat of another inmate, set the most dangerous inmate we have here right now. we have to treat him with extra caution. he will hurt you or kill you any henry hodges, requires a team of escort him whenever he leaves his cell. inmate was a harsh reality check

>> officer robert mosley was one >> got medical on unit. >> i took the flap down. to apply the handcuffs. and i got distracted. grabbed my arm and pulled it in and drew a razor blade down my it blew themy away. i didn't know what actually happened. >> mosley's sliced arm required 59 stitches and the scar isn't >> the psychological effect never goes away. i think you learn to adjust to it, but you can't take this job these guys are not here for the right reasons and the reality of it every day is there. keep your eyes on the inmates at all times. don't ever take your eye off them, especially on death row because these guys got nothing to lose if they were to injure you. our producers on camera. ironically, the prison videotapes his every move. goes when he comes out of that

cell just like you're filming me so we can maintain some kind of discipline. >> but when we travelled to utah state prison we met one condemned man who was willing to speak with us. at the time of our interview, room so that we could talk to him. making sure the lightning is just so. rapport very quickly. and ralph and i started to have a little bit of small talk. i will never forget, i asked him, hey, what are you watching on tv these days? and he told me he was a big fan of the "oc ". >> i see "oc" all the time. >> i got to be honest with you, i love the "oc." >> who is your favorite

>> yeah. >> his interest in women became the details of his crime. brutal one. he kidnapped a female from a up one of the canyons, tied her to a tree and then cut her throat and then left her there. i've done a lot of things in my life, you know, that i'm not proud of. i just come to the conclusion that karma bit me in the ass. either overturn my case, my execute me and get it over with. whereas now you don't know if it's going to be five years down decide.

given a choice between lethal injection and the firing squad. and when i asked ralph the very sobering question of what method have you chosen for your execution, he, in no one certain firing squad because the only injection and that's what they do to dogs when they don't want i'd rather sit up and take it. if they're going to shoot me, look at who they're killing. >> next on "lockup raw: the daily grind" -- it began as a simple interview but turned into one of the most bizarre incidents captured by our cameras. >> i guess i perceive myself to lighting is just perfect. arguably the happiest prisoner

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on the first day of production at california's kern valley state prison our producers set out to shoot a simple story about how the inmates in segregation deal with the monotony of being locked in their cells 23 hour as day.

they pass reading materials and other items to each other through a process called fishing. >> go ahead. take off. >> though fishing is against prison rules, inmate, tracy washington, was willing to demonstrate how to make a fishing line. >> this is just a string made out of the waistband of our boxers. we take the string apart and then we put a little piece of soap and plastic to give it weight and slide it across the floor like this. officer might come in here and take my line now that he know i got it, but i'll have to make another. >> shoot it out. >> but our producer was about to find out that there was a far more dramatic story surrounding inmate washington. >> i went to the crisis bed on

suicide watch last week and i just came back. >> why? what happened? >> they was trying to send me somewhere i didn't want to be. >> so what did you do? >> i cut my wrist with a razor blade. >> washington went on to explain that he cut his wrist to prevent the prison to transferring him to the sensitive needs yard, or sny. it's a place most inmates want nothing to do with. >> sensitive needs yard is certainly for inmates that meet certain criteria, mostly your rapists, molesters, dropout gang members. it used to be pc yard, protective housing yard. >> washington's neighbor and fishing partner told us how a move to sny makes an inmate damaged goods. >> sny isn't just so much rapists and child molesters, it's weaker guys, especially guys who are doing life sentences like mr. washington.

any time he is seen by his peers, the guys on the main line, they are going to consider him a piece of ass, a piece of [ bleep ]. >> hey, washington, i'm giving you a direct order to go to c yard. >> i ain't going to no sny. i'm not sny. >> serving 25 years to life for crimes including battery on a police officer, washington claims to be an active member of the bloods prison gang and going to sny would send a signal to other gang members that he's a snitch. >> on what grounds do i meet the criteria? i'm not in here for no rape, no child molesting, i haven't told on nobody, none of that stuff. i'm sorry for yelling too loud but you're making it seem that i fit a criteria of being a pc. >> not in your crime sense, but you requested the sny. >> i did not request it. >> i have no authority to change

it. whoever needs to go through your file and reverse that, they can do that at that time. >> suddenly washington makes an abrupt 180 and agrees to go to sny. >> i tell you what, send me over there right now. i'm going to go. >> what are you going to do when you get over there? >> i'm going to go in my cell. i'm going to follow the directions and go over there. >> you aren't going to hurt nobody or hurt yourself? >> you can't hurt nobody over there. they're already hurt. >> just a short time later, correctional officers arrive to escort the inmate to sny. >> we got it. >> we got it. >> but washington surprised our crew once again as he began calling out to his fellow inmates that his stay in sny would not last for long. >> i'll be back in about an hour. i'll be back in about an hour. if you don't see me, hey, if you don't see me before the day is out, hey, go ahead and write me off.

it's going down. >> i think the officers who escorted tracy out to the sny area of the prison knew something was up because they could tell that when he mentioned to his cellblock, hey, i'll be back in an hour, i think they knew that he was working the system. >> during the long walk to sny, washington finally cleared up the mystery and admitted that he had, in fact, requested the transfer but he had no intention of following through. he had another motive. >> when they was trying to send me to a prison way up north about 1,000 miles away from where i live in l.a. county, i told them that i needed protective housing because the only purpose of me saying that was that that prison doesn't have an sny yard. once they changed the inmate to this prison, i came. as soon as i got to the

reception doors i told them all that was a lie so i can come back to the main line. i want to get visits from my family so i lied. that's the bottom line. you know what i'm saying? i'm a blood. i'm an active gang banger. i got a lot of people that are scared of me. >> as we walked with him we were all kind of looking at each other, i think each of us thinking we'll see how fast this goes. >> if i stay over here before the day is out i can never go back to a main line. because my reputation would be ruined. i'm now considered a no good. so i have to get off this yard. >> finally, washington is escorted into the cellblock housing sny inmates. >> when tracy walked into the cellblock it was all pretty routine until he stopped, threw down his bags. >> this is as far as i go. this is it. >> threw down his cane and said, that's it. i'm not going. we all looked at each other and

said, now what's going to happen? >> [ bleep ]. you lucky. you lucky. most of you [ bleep ]. neither one of you all was on this tier when i walked in here. [ bleep ]. you [ bleep ]. they put me in that cell, i guarantee you the first time i walk out this [ bleep ], every one of you [ bleep ] out. >> washington, you're done. we're taking you back, buddy. put a lid on it already. >> i ain't got nothing in my file that say tra no coward. never in my life. i don't shot so many [ bleep ] it's pitiful. you can ask my momma. i was the craziest [ bleep ] on my block as a little kid. you know what i'm saying?

you don't come up with coward. >> following his outburst, washington is returned to the hole. >> hey. is it longer than an hour? is it longer than an hour? >> when our producer checked in on washington a few days later, she found him working out in his cell. >> since i last saw you, you were refusing sny. so tell me what's going on. >> they got me in the hole. they charged me with a 115. probably transfer me off to another pen. i'm reputable. i have been walking these lines for 20 years. i'm not no coward. coming up on "lockup raw: the daily grind" -- >> the last time i was here me and the boyfriend lived in the same cell.

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at the spring creek correctional center in alaska we encountered a number of inmates who assured us despite the natural beauty surrounding the prison, they felt it was hell on earth. >> okay. >> currently in the worst cell you can be in. you got a concrete slab for a bunk. you have a [ bleep ] where you sleep. you got a [ bleep ]. it's no good. it's all bad. >> then we met an inmate with a very different approach to prison life.

>> i guess i perceive myself to you know, wherever i go there's lighting is just perfect, i'm always funny with just the right line. there's like a studio audience somewhere and all eyes are on orlando's playhouse. that's just me. the queen. creek for a second stint, this williams was determined to show us not only was he gay, he was >> talk about being homosexual >> people have this perception >> like if you watch "oz" it is not. please. first of all, people don't rape homosexuals. you know, the thing about getting raped in prison, or aren't homosexuals. who rapes homosexuals?

most of them if you scream at them real hard you can marry first criminal conviction. and we warn you. he likes to talk. >> i'm feminine. i always want odd be a woman. i seen these women on tv and in be like. then i found out i can dress up like a girl. this is where i make me, the people i were meeting because i was prostituting myself, the guys that i would so they don't know that the character i'm being really isn't me. prostitution became -- it was i got to, you know, i have drama and bad times, but, hey, it was fun. then i started going to jail, first for the little prostitution and being under the influence of heroin. i obsess over the drug. i don't just get high, i get high and high and high and high

>> to orlando, incarceration >> i got to watch out how i walk so i don't swish too much. >> be yourself. don't worry about it. >> i get to be me and i meet undercurrent homosexual whatever is going on in jail. some guys are under the don't catch. whatever is going through their head. it doesn't matter. it doesn't matter. i got to be susie homemaker in doesn't find prison life to be a terrible grind. >> this is my uniform for work. the boyfriend lived in the same cell, with the matching comforters or matching jackets. we were a couple. you know what i'm saying? >> williams returned to spring creek to find his boyfriend was

this time he is in no hurry to find a new relationship. misunderstanding. prison? >> i didn't say that. i didn't say that. celibate. oh, my god. going to go without. please. hi. i won't act like i'm surprised because you've already seen me how are you doing? >> at the time we met him he had prepare him for a career on the outside. bartending. >> i don't think that would be good for you. place where i get to do all the

attention at all times. >> i still think you would make a good hairdresser. >> you know what, i don't think because i'm too anal. >> despite his generally upbeat surprisingly bleak prediction of life ahead. it is time to go home and they open the door and say good-bye. out of here with maybe enough money to live off of for a week. i'm not going to be able to support myself which eventually will lead me back to selling dope and if i'm selling dope i'm going to indulge in dope i sell. getting high again. one thing leads to the other and i'm back in the life i was in before i -- yeah.

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