i had left mississippi. probably due on my junior year because of the anger i had to go it out i needed to get out of mississippi are probably one of them away and. i came up to you ben arbor michigan to work on the harvest and work i couldn't do i couldn't make money at it so i came back and while i was in jackson i want to leave the induction center there and signed i believe comedy. album p n u to me. this is a cut military there were five textile mill sure and i want to run for about two months and looking for a job and finally. one of the old neighborhood greats had been around for years should get a job in the cotton mill. i want straight to the army recruiter. plan on coming.

here and i'm going to go to. a group in israel for i grew up in a little small town called apparently in texas just near galveston i remember sitting on the couch and watching. the first gulf war. two hours ago allied air forces began an attack on military targets in iraq in kuwait and watching it on the television seeing how quick the women and the reply afterwards i am from the liberated beaches. also great to be an american i had felt the we had lost the ghosts of vietnam. i remember sitting there on the cal said no i don't think unless you want to go into you know to go into the military.

and we got married on day thirty at the d.s.m. for ninety six the fire so and i left on january third of nineteen six to six go on a vietnam so i got spend more on a moment in vietnam along. we went from bonk out to ben was worried there for what they call orientation period you know to get used to the climate and to actually get used to the sounds of war.

the first couple of weeks i was terrified every not. and after my first briefing i want back to my bed not i just couldn't sleep. all i could think i was going to be going to shoot that many more because the next day nothing happened. and then somewhere after about three or four weeks we had an operation where they had thirty helicopters i was circling waiting on my turn to go in this l.z. or landing zone to put the combat assaulting up. and i heard the radio and the power of the one of the red flight said this is red laid we're taking fire and all i could hear in the background was. and i would try to relax and i try to forget about it and it would just come right by this paralyzing kind of fear of knowing that i had to stop and be shot at. the helicopter pilot you have both hands full so your gut instinct is to try to. hide. but

there's no place to hide you're looking through a clear with plexiglass wonder at the surrounding woodland and you see little flashes and you know the people are shooting to describe they don't hit you. from that point. i think i realized that it is possible that. we were about a bunch of thirty guys in a joint to have to on trucks put in as replacements no real training and we couldn't find the division. we finally found it in the first thing they said to us when we got their armor why did you take so long there was no welcome. being a replacement which is the most god awful curse you can have on

a human being. you're going to combat you don't know anybody they don't care about you and they were scared to death you were going to do something stupid and lift your head at the wrong time fire at the wrong time anything to attract fire that would get them killed. by january two thousand and three. i found myself sitting in the kuwaiti desert waiting to invade iraq. i told myself you know hey we're here to fight a war this is it you know this is so tough and this is what eleven years of training and you know has accumulated to my main goal was making sure that my men came home alive hello to me care about i had to say it but i

didn't really care about anybody that was outside of my platoon. once we crossed into iraq we were roll into these towns like a bunch of cowboys shooting the place. we went into the rashid. there was an actual military compounds in a huge military compound we pulled in there was an abrams tank that was parked at one of the entrances. and started asking me what was going on because there were some demonstrators down the road and. i asked him if any of them at any weapons and he said no. and so what do you think

the. you know they're going to stage a coup against sister anything like that and he said no they they're just down there are certain and you know chant and yell and i go behind my home beat and tear open an m.r.e. and all sudden i hear a gunshot i step out from behind my home be. as soon as i step out from behind mom be my marines are discharging their weapons and the demonstrators so on sling my weapon and i put the the stock up and. the butt of the rifle stock up on my shoulder and i start firing. and i'm hitting i'm hitting the demonstrators no i am. and of course i'm aiming at the head i mean. center mass but i don't know who called cease fire all i know is it was kind of like simultaneously we all just stopped firing. the lieutenant he comes up to me and he

goes what the hell happened. i don't know you tell me sir you're the lieutenant. i said i do know i heard a gunshot that went over our heads and i said did you hear he's heard i say well who opened fire. i don't know. where when we did the reconnaissance and as we're driving by. as we're driving by the bodies i'm looking down at the at the ground and not seeing any any weapons they were wearing traditional. jalapenos and. of course they were soaked in red with blood. now i thought to myself for a split second i said. you know these people didn't have any weapons we just shot at. bunch of one arm. protesters.

and then a little voice and then your head goes off in the service well that's war. that's what happens in war. i just i'll be honest with you chalked it up. i really did i chalked it up. you know. how did we know. so when after we arrived in coochie we didn't know that we had built

a basic out above these complex of toggles. so would lose people almost daily by sniper fire or at times of mortar fire. i felt that we had everything going against us where there was just the vietcong. the creatures of nature itself the snakes the spiders. and i know it's a different smile. it's space live you were in battle i know i've heard many people say you can't smell blood but to me that's a lie you you can smell it

i remember. early on i think it was then april. sixth the sixth we were out in noble woods and. it was people in a rice feel that we didn't know what they were the ad on the bike pajamas and it saw at and we had an hour and in that short period that we were there that everything in black pajamas was in a me so we opened fire on them. we were able to go and physically look at them and they had no weapons and they looked to be. teenage children are very are. you so you have that doubt in your my one

while reality deal you know. what did i kill that i kill innocent kids i was a call that base of course and that's never answered how. it looked. that experience should be fired if i had to stop. unnerving so i. asked to be transferred to the armed helicopters because they never stopped they shoot rockets and machine guns. i don't think i really thought about what your job was. but. at some point. you come

upon a situation where you see people you have to show. and you have a machine we call it down because it looks like your conscious brain. seeing people move. and seeing. women and children go into a house and being told that this is an enemy location. you. have to. add this building and you have to fire either rockets from machine guns and if you're far enough away it's still not quite like shooting tape. but i think that it presents a problem for most people if you think about taking a gun and shooting some. most people can't. a soldier has to be trying to do it so. initially it was pretty tough i tried to.

not see or to hope that it didn't hit anybody or the only cell the building exploded didn't see the table. the day i got hit the weather was exactly like this it was cold it was dead it was foggy was damp it was september in northern france. we left for done that morning we were to cross the moselle we were on one side of the river and you were being destroyed by artillery shells coming the other way. i was digging a hole. in the dirt because we knew we were going to be attacked by artillery and i

was had michele in my hand and then suddenly i was flying through the air like a huge huge sledgehammer to get me thrown me way into the air and i didn't know it has come back to the ground going up and up and up and then suddenly i fell back. put my hand up and i felt the peace of. some in my head and then i looked at my hands and my would just scarlet with blood and i looked at my back at my butt and my butt was the you could see the white fat in this huge hole in my but i remember i was lying there and. the medic came over and he tried to fix me up and he was leaning over me and i watched the tip of his nose disappear a piece of shrapnel cut off the tip of his nose and then the blood from his nose merged with my nose and the next thing i knew i was in

a stretcher i still hung hawk yet because i was still paralyzed on my right side. and then i had the operation on my head and what i still remember i gritted my teeth is he i didn't have any honesty here and they drilled with a drill to start taking all the stuff out and i can still remember it felt like i had put my head on a railroad track and the train had run on. what i remember he was being treated with the most enormous tenderness and. sometime in may of six this way. neighborly general my company was found out.

we were like can a pig where we were to be hit and the cop unaids were converging and wiping the enemy out. there was a bright night you could. see long distances by the moment we had been out for quite a while on this patrol and hadn't seen anything so we relaxed. all i want some bad kong stepped out of the bushes. and it's dago going down to see australia and it startled me and. he was firing and i didn't how my weapon was but on the die i'd go on my way up iraq. so on my own is to get. hand grenades off my belt. cos the couple grenades.

now the to god. then we could see as far as we could see there would be a call that was coming up to our parameter. and we called in for and our red fire and couldn't get it we called in for permission to return we couldn't get in because my comment was getting over wrong. so welcome on the cole if you just try to find a place and spend the night there. we took the marshy and he was on the one that was kill and one at a bomb crater and we sat there on night. eventually the mechanize unit came in and we loaded the marshy on.

his brains actually fell out as well we were we were moving in. the i was still a still good good three and. then remember it said in that corridor on i was. aggro on them but it is a it sounded hollow. but it was easier to go back and kill more that's part of what what drove me. it was very day and.

to sleep. sleep. sleep sleep. sleep. sleep sleep. sleep. sleep sleep. sleep some people love to hunt i love to hunt animals. deer move or sail or whatever whatever suits their fancy. but i can also tell you that there is no other feeling in the world that comes close to hunting another human being. that's what you're trying to do. the drawback to it is the fact that you want to do it again.

because you enjoy it. it's almost like a drug and you become addicted to it but after a while like with any like with any addiction. you know series you're fired and you get that first burst of enjoyment. they don't last so long and the high comes to a load after wears off if felt to me like everything was muddy dark waters feels like swimming in a in a big well we've referred to in the marine corps as a shit hole and. you find yourself. looking forward to the next. mission or your role.

you get all right it's like oh. i don't know why you do it but it's first kill is. same hard you should think about especially. if you have to kill the clothes cordy's. it up and you know where i killed with. weapon i. might hate what it was built in our forty's people and i wanted to kill. i felt good at the time when i when i did it bother me if i. didn't

get a chance to kill someone it went beyond and outside the call of duty it turned into something i said. that i hate that i had had growing up in the solve i think had expanded. because of what was happening and in vietnam because so knows and people. i feel i've become an animal i. feel no remorse. i literally saw young men turn into psychopathic killers. but the great thing about the marine corps is the training process that the young men and

women go through gives them all the ability to kill at least one time to put that warrior ethos in effect and then once you've done it then it's on you. as so many things happen in a war that put you at odds with your sense of right and wrong. i've seen things that would be described as is war crimes. the sergeant who had the ring of ayers who. is not a secret i mean he's walking around with a big wiring with human ears pushed through the low been there all hanging on the ring they are people he has cut off their ears to try to get information.

shooting civilians. you don't really call it it's not like you're shooting a scene. it's like. collateral damage. hungry for the full story we've got infested the biggest issues get a human voice ceased to face with the news make us.

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