poetry. i believe or i will go in the woods or i think. that i was a good soldier. but you know most all go on the other side and i think i'm just a good. player this is artsy and now the main stories we're covering for this are europe's most wanted war crimes suspect is to appeal against his extradition to the hague places genocide charges despite claims right from that it should have been massacred up to eight thousand muslims and nine hundred ninety five crowds gathered in serbian capital will use. terror and disaster writes yourself for washington wants to warn the public of possible threats to

present new additions and measures the u.s. has present place since nine eleven but live in secret say the government is taking a fear factor too far. and. europe is pushing its preferred candidate to take over if again as the new plunges deep into debt was still russia india china and south africa found in should get the job. though news in the heart of last time first we assess what it means to be a good soldier our special report is next or not. there was one particular incident there are still stores. i wish i could take to. give. we went into an area near the baghdad stadium and came into our area and actually stopped about seventy five meters in front of my vehicle that

tells you how far the vehicle came into our program. and. which is why we lit it up. we had three of the. victims in the right that there were expiring rapidly we pulled them out of the car and we started doing it for a state i called a corpsman the corpsman came and got the three bodies and took them back to the patel i and surgeon. called me came back dump the bodies on the side of the road and i went over to the corpsman i asked him i said what were you doing how can you bring in a back and need to get him out of your you need to get him back to an area where they can see the surgeon and corpsman there's nothing we can do for him

so you can leave you know you can leave the bodies on the side of the road and i said yeah we want to see the new spouse or so i want to pass them up so they don't i'm on the side of the road and. the guys brother he come running over to him and he just said they're holding them well they roll around on the on the asphalt on a highway. and rolling around in pain they didn't even give many morphine. the guy's brother he kept he kept running around and he had his hands in his and his and his face. and he's just crying and sobbing and he's saying why did you kill my

brother. we didn't do anything to you we're not terrorists. remember i remember i just want to i wanted to close my years i didn't want to hear it and i just sat there and he's time that he said it. it was like it was permanently being. burned into my brain. and. i lost that's the last night or gotten a good night's sleep the night before that.

and then on. the next morning lieutenant you want that to mean he said sas are. you are you all right you seem a little distressed a little agitated. now sir i said not all right and. i'm pretty pissed off what we're what we're doing over here. and he said will you give me your interpretation of what we're doing over here. what we're trying to accomplish over here. i just looked at him most of the well so long as he feel that we're committing genocide. he didn't like my answer and he stormed off towards the. c.e.o.'s vehicle.

i knew at that point that my career was done across the line and i knew i had to watch my back and grow our eyes so after that night i pretty much slept with my not a millimeter underneath my poncho liner within easy reach. me in the door the door to us. when i first came back from vietnam in one thousand six to six i saw protestors speak it. badly want to hear it i did believe it to get away from it i put in a ten forty nine a call back to vietnam because i was what it's our and we you. and i don't think it

would have taken much for me to take one of the protesters out failed had i stayed here i would have ended up killing some people and i could do it legally in vietnam so i put in a ten forty nine to go back i think i was looking at just the four cation of doing what i would do out of killing. it was all they do on my second tour when i began to realize that stopped them with. when i came back to the states i went to washington d.c. to the white house or a car without a mexican just say that i would not go back to vietnam. when i arrived back stateside i was ordered to report into a mental health clinic in twenty nine palms. the. psychologist looked at me and she

said why don't deal with conscientious objectors and. just about last. for them to label me as a conscientious objector that's the ultimate slap in the face you called me a conscience subject here i just killed thirty plus individuals for you and you calling me a conscience and character. stood up and us. ma'am if you want to label me as a conscientious objector for not wanting to kill innocent civilians then i'll see you court. i went down a hard attorney. a man by the name of mr gary myers. and. mr mars was represented there in the may lie trials and.

mr myers in the marine corps came to a very discrete mutual understanding i was on or billy discharged december thirty first two thousand and three and here i am. so i came back i think that that sense of a long term planning was gone i went through a divorce some things i did recklessly probably in the back of my mind i would not have minded. but. i went through a period when the p.c.p. cook and i are on. and about it and thought of mainz. up a long period of severe drug abuse. i finally got

to the point to write had no woman. i had no work or i had long since moved out of my house and could not come back home exactly where do you go from here. and it was when the national guard needed someone with my i'm not experienced in teaching people how to fly the armed helicopters the cobras and i was asked to come in and help train some of those folks and the money was. you know i think twenty thousand dollars a year for part time work and i carried a retirement with it and even though i had a kind of change of heart about wars i needed the money

you first come home and you immediately forget about everything. and you go to mcdonald's you go to all your favorite restaurants and you do all your favorite things and you're having a great time and you know and then all of a sudden you wake up one day and you're like wait a minute i'm not having a good time anymore. starting to think about this i'm starting to think about that because all the newness has worn off your whole life i got my arm i got my legs i'm alive. but then the mind. and the mind starts catching up. with everything else. i find myself going through my gear prepping like i'm getting ready to go to combat. i mean i even look for suicide bombers you know anything out of the anything out of the ordinary. once you

reach that level of of your senses being that high it's hard to turn it off it's like being in a cage tiger. let me out of a job. i got back in december of forty four there is nobody you can talk to you know it was nobody who had been in combat around. i can remember still seeing that glow red glow on the tip of the christ. and my god i was home. one day you're killing somebody they're trying to kill you and the next day you're sitting in a bar in new york city it's it's crazy. i don't nobody you know it's like your hand at work nobody you know you've got to

you've got a headache and you've got a hole in your head you can't see. when i wrote that i was wounded i had been in france from middle of august through i was. said to the newspaper reporter who interviewed him he was only there for a few days that was to me the only was a at that time not now was a real rejection of who i was as a man he didn't last he didn't make it he got here. and i think i didn't even understand it then but that started a decline in our relationship which spiraled downward and downward downward.

so you don't talk about it. you sit down. and say i was lucky i did not write and i both somebody you know guys do that or why did no for me why didn't i do this. i once tried i got on a stool and. i remember living in the wide new york city probably alone i don't seem to put my bathrobe sascha around on it. and why i got down was because. my friends. i had made after the war we'd been through the same thing i had and i kept if i get back to myself i would betray. the bond we had.

coochie vietnam on feb fourteenth nineteen sixty six by a.p. they call it hell's halfacre because of the american boy. that would be and still there counted well and be a koran sniper saddam most of the damage today was no exception on the subcommittee tired of the twenty seventh and for a tree that framed well fall outs and moved out to attack the snipers opened up from such perfect from account of five positions the most of the a copy what the whole day with c. an out of the enemy

a sergeant was here in the shoulder and leg as he rode over the third shop were up to his back. a medic groped for cover and rushed to his side as he dropped to his knees to be being given a bullet smashed into the stomach. both the sergeant and the medic to. and out till it up to the lay down to screen a squad going after the wall that the specialist fourth wanted in the help cross the deadly fifty yards without the fallen thieves he was hit again this was no doubt you were there yes it's hard it. they bring back to them well beyond all the birds.

christmas certainly they were building up to go into iraq i thought i think obama grandson. they were probably where if they had to draft they would be drafted so i think i know what i could do to protect them to keep them from. joining the military but the same reasons that the young people join now because it is the poor people out of people on the lower end of the economic scale but i want to fight these wars . even though rob are marking america came out years later and say if vietnam was a mistake it did not take the pain from me nor did it take the guilt that i ferret for killing people when i went to vietnam was

a car courts rule and i believed what i was going there was the right thing and i was a good soldier but no no soldier on the other side and i think i'm just as good. i sold my soul a long time ago i'm just here trying to know. more than i do for. people as we once you're free to go to prison i mean you're saying you're a war criminal. brother i'm already in prison this is veterans for peace chapter zero nine nine western north carolina hoping that this moment registers in everyone's mind that this is one of the total costs of war.

six hundred festooned who is a great war political war one wrote a vine war was a scene who stopped our clocks though we met him grim and gay and i know people who got the clock stopped so badly they never got beyond drugs booze women suicide whatever you want to call it and that happened to me and i think my clock was stopped for close to forty years before i got over it. i was ashamed i was ashamed that i had been wounded i was ashamed that i hadn't been a hero i never understood that my problems with my

parents my problems with my wife my ex-wife were buried in the fact that i had gotten blown up i never i never understood it repressed it totally and then. you can go to a coffee shop and i would hear the big bands of the night hundred forty five and i would weep like a baby pug i had no idea that what i was doing like a reply to was going back and try to fly that the little boy. and what happened. the fall of eighty four i was driven to go back to fly to listen for a spin and i dared to rent a car and file and find the place where i was wounded on september seventh one thousand and forty four. and then suddenly.

i found a bridge with a real cross that had been blown when i had been shot. i discovered to the hour at the moment where i had been moved to forty years before and i cannot explain it but that discovery began my feeling. my generation really were oppressed with the war was about we didn't want to talk about it we weren't allowed to talk about it and then slowly in the one nine hundred eighty s. and one nine hundred ninety s. this whole thing of the greatest generation occurred it was wonderful you know the greatest generation what a nice thing a college and we forgot what we had done we forgot that we had been animals for a law war is about one thing it's about killing you either

learn to kill somebody else or you get killed or wounded yourself and that's why i've come to so low the idea of war so i think that's our provos. nama zatanna sconce not what may i think of it everyday. the flashbacks from the to memorise still go to counseling for. and. it's is now worth it but what i did do as a man is to find some good in that war i think vietnam made me a better person and made me love people more. made me understand that we are all one one people throughout this earth. this is sort of not a guilt complex you learn to live with you compartmentalize it or unite you rationalize you unite all the excuses i mean i really don't have to make excuses

even if there are things i wish i had not done. but there's no way to change. the. last. laugh. when you come to the point that you're not sure you're actually not the more snot the way just so. i disagree. and i like the push for new york and i.

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