it's all false now and here in my state this is all t.j. a general one came down to just find say it's tradition from serbia to the hague tried you know on charges of ordering the killing of thousands of muslims in the polls meanwhile meanwhile friends gathered in belgrade savoy sanga that the man is being sold out so blue cross holds. the u.k. is stepping up pressure on colonel gadhafi by deploying of crunchy attack helicopters in libya with bunker busting ball my decision critics say is moving far

beyond me humanitarian objectives. the u.s. government now has a system which can send emergency text of us to everyone but they're all concerns the measure is actuating the climate of the panic in the country. now when you follow the journey is a full veterans of find out what it means to be a good soldier american soldier about special report up next to last. handgun on the ground it's not only the duty. to be a soldier was a very important thing in a young man's life and to be not just a soldier but to be a damn good soldier and to be in combat and to. understand how colby.

managed that's where you blown. and that's the southerner in me in time of war that's where you belong and. i had left him a sentry. probably two or my junior year because of a anger i had a girl what i needed to get out of necessity or a problem with. the came up here and then harbor michigan to work on the harvest and that work i couldn't do i couldn't make money at it so i came back and while i was in jackson i wanted to live in the option senate and signed up i believe. i want to paint you. this is a cotton mill and there were start textile mill sure and i want to run for about two months and looking for

a job and finally one of the old neighborhood grapes had been around for years and perhaps get a job in the cotton mill. i was straight in the army referred to. the company. i grew up in trailer park i grew up in a little small town called apparently and texas near galveston i remember sitting on a couch and watching. the first gulf war. two hours ago allied air forces began an attack on military targets in iraq in kuwait and watching it on the television seeing how quick that way and the reply afterwards and from the liberated beaches. are so great to be an american i had filled the we had lost the ghosts of vietnam. i remember sitting there on the cal said and

thinking of us of you know to go into you know to go into the military. we got married on the thirtieth of december of ninety six the fire show and i left on january third of nineteen six to six go on a vietnam sword where i spent more on a moment in vietnam on the wrong. we went from falling tower to been lost where there for what they call the orientation period you know to get used to the climate and to actually get used to the sounds of war.

the first couple of weeks i was terrified everyone. and after my first greeting i went back to my bed i just cannot sleep i all i could think i was going to be there to shoot anymore because the next day nothing happened. and then. somewhere at about three or four weeks we had an operation where they had thirty helicopters i was circling waiting on my turn to go in this l.z. or landing zone to put the combat assault in. and i heard the radio and the power of the one of the reply said this is radley were taken fire and all i could hear in the background was. now i try to relax and i try to forget about it and it was come right by this paralyzing kind of fear of knowing that i have to

start and be shot in. the helicopter pilot you have both hands full so your gut instinct is to fight it. but there's no place to hide you're looking through a clear plexiglas window and the surrounding woodland you see little flashes and you know that people are shooting to decide they don't hit you. from that point although. i think i realized that it is possible. that. we were a bunch of thirty guys in a two and a half ton truck put in as replacements no real training and we couldn't find the division. we finally found it in the first thing they said was already got there i remember that why do you take so long it was no welcome. being

a replacement which is the most god awful curse you can have on a human being. you're going to conduct you don't know anybody and they don't care about you and they were scared to death you were going to do something stupid and lift your head at the wrong time fire at the wrong time anything to attract fire but that would get them killed. by january two thousand and three. i found myself sitting in the kuwaiti desert waiting to invade iraq. i told myself you know a we're here to fight a war this is it you know this is so tough and this is what eleven years of

training you know has accumulated to my main goal was making sure that my men came home alive hell i didn't care about i had to say it but i didn't really care about anybody that was outside of my platoon. once we crossed into iraq we were rolling into these towns like a bunch of cowboys shooting the place and. we went into the rashid. it was an actual military compound it's a huge military compound we pulled in there was an abrams tank that was parked at one of the entrances. and started asking me what was going on because there were some demonstrators down the road and. i

asked him if any of them had any weapons and he said no. and so what do you think the. you know the united states or coup against mr anything like that and he said no they they're just down there said and you know chant and yell and i go behind my own v. and terrapins an m.r.e. and all sudden i hear a gunshot i step out from behind my home be. as soon as i step out from behind my humvee my marines are discharging their weapons and the demonstrators so on swing my weapon and approach to the stock up on. the top of the rifle stock up on my shoulder and i start firing and i'm hitting i'm hitting the demonstrators no i am. and of course i may be out the head i mean we. center mass but i don't know who called cease fire all i know is it was colic

simultaneously we all just start firing. the lieutenant he comes up to me and he goes what the hell happened. i don't know you tell me sir you're the lieutenant. i said i do know i heard a gunshot that went over our heads and i said years. to say well who opened fire. i don't know. and when we did the reconnaissance and as we're driving by. as we're driving by the bodies i'm looking down at the at the ground and not seen any any weapons they were wearing the traditional. jolly pose and. course they were soaked in red with blood. no i thought to myself for

a split second most of the. you know these people didn't have any weapons we just shot at a bunch of the norm. protesters. and then a little voice and then your head goes off and this is well that's war. that's what happens in war. how does i'll be honest with you chalked it up. i really did what choice did a person you know. how did we know.

so on after we arrived in gucci we didn't know that we had built a base kept up with all these complex soprano's. so with those people almost daily by sniper fire or at times a mortar fire. or felt that we had everything or in against us right there it was just that the car on. the creatures of nature itself the snakes. spiders. i don't know it's a different smile. especially if you were in battle but i know i've heard many people say you can't smell blood but to me not so i.

you can smell it. i remember early on i think it was. paypal. sex the sex we were our hopeful words and. it was people in a rice field that we didn't know what they were they had on the bright pajamas and it's all acts and we had learned in that short period that we were there that everything in bright pajamas was the enemy so we opened fire on them. we were able to go and physically broke at them and they had no weapons and they looked to be teenage children young

very young. so you have that power in your mind when one reality hit you you know. what did i kill that i kill innocent here i was a call that base of course and that's never answered. mark. colvin . thank. that experience of being fired here while i had to stock rise i nerving so i. asked to be transferred to the army helicopter pilots and because they never stuck they should rockets and machine guns. i don't think i really thought about what

your job was. but. at some point. you come upon a situation where you see people you have to. and you have a machine gun and we call it hasan unveiled because it looks like a conscious brain thanks to seeing people move. and seeing. women and children go into a house and being told that this is an enemy location. you. have to train at this building and you have to far you the rockets from machine guns and if you're far enough away it's still not quite like shooting people. but i think it it presents a problem for most people if you think about taking a gun. and shooting since. most people can't. a soldier has to be trying to

do it so. loosely it was pretty tough i tried to. not see or. out that it didn't hit anybody or you only saw the building exploded you didn't see the people. the day i got hit the weather was exactly like this it was cold it was there it was foggy stamp it was september in northern france. for john that morning we were to cross the moselle you were on one side of the river and you were being destroyed by a cherry shells coming the other way. i

was getting off. in the dirt because we knew we were going to be attacked by artillery and i was had my shovel in my hand and inside me i was flying through the air like a few sledgehammer had hit me and thrown me away end of year and i don't know what has come back to the ground i went up. to the seventy and fell back. put my hand up and i felt a piece of some in my head and then i looked at my hands and they were just scarlet with blood and i looked at my back and my butt and my butt was if you could see the white fat in this huge hole and my but i remember always lying there and. the medic came over and he tried to fix me up and he was leaning over me and i watched him from his nose disappear

a piece of shrapnel cut off the top of his nose and then the blood from his nose emerged with my nose. and the next thing i knew i was in a stretcher i still don't hawk yet because i was still paralyzed on my right side and then i had the operation on my head and what i still remember i grit my teeth you see i didn't have any honesty here and they drilled with a drill to start taking on the stuff out and i can still remember it felt like i had put my head on a railroad track and the train had run over. what i remember is being treated with the most formless tenderness and.

sometime in may of six the state's. neighbor and if you know my cop and i was sent out. we were like can it be where we were to be. and the other cop unaids welcome bergy and wipe an enemy out. there was a bright night you could. see long distances by them all we had been out for quite a while on this patrol and i am saying anything. we were. all at once some big car stepped out of the bushes. and it startled him to see that it startled me and. he was firing and i didn't have my weapon was behind the guy i thought my way up here are. so i

managed to get. hang grenades off my belt. cost a couple grenades. now with what i've got. then we could see as far as we could see there would be a call that was coming up to our program that. we called in for and are ready to fire including getting we called in for the mission to return. because of problem is getting overwhelmed. so welcome on the cold as you just try to find a place and spend the night there we told the marcy and he was on the one that was killed and when a bomb crater and we sat there on i. say

potentially you know mechanize you know they came in and we loaded go marching on. his brains actually felt hands when we were moving and. that's still that's still a good theory. and remember it said in that corridor on i was a. graham member that is a it sounded hollow. but there was a zoo to go back and kill that's part of what what drove me. i

was very thin. some. would. say. the. same. thing some people love to hunt i love to hunt animals. here sail wear whatever whatever suits their fancy. but i can also tell you that there is no other feeling

in the world it comes close to hunting another human being. that's what you're trying to do. and the drawback to it the the fact that you want to do it again. because you enjoy it. it's almost like a drug and you become addicted to it but after a while like with any like with any addiction. you know as soon as you fire and you get that first burst of enjoyment. it only last for so long and the high comes to a load after wears off they feel to me like everything was just somebody i'm dark waters feels like old swimming you know in a big well we've heard for a tumor in the marine corps as a shit hole and. you find yourself. looking forward to the next. mission or for

a combat role. so. you get all right it's like a rug. i don't know why you do it but it first kill the. same heart you should think about it specially if. you have to kill it at close quarters. it up and know where they killed with. whether or not i think. my words will build in our forty's people and i wanted to kill. i

felt good at the time when i when i did it bother me if i. didn't get a chance to kill someone it went beyond an arson a call of duty it turned into stopped and i said. that i hate that i had growing up in the south i think i had expanded. because of all this happening around here now so keep cool. and i feel i've become an animal i. feel no remorse.

i literally saw young men turn into. psychopathic killers. but the great thing about the marine corps is the training process that the young men and women go through gives them all the ability to kill at least one time to put that warrior ethos in effect and then once you've done it. then it's on you. as so many things happen in a war that put you at all odds with your sense of right and wrong. i've seen things that would be described as is war crouch. the sergeant who had the ring of the earth. who. is not a secret i mean he's walking around with

a big wiring with human ears pushed through the logan they're all hanging on the ring these are people he has cut off her ear to try to get information. we were. shooting civilians. you don't really call it it's not like you're shooting a scene there it's like. collateral damage. culture is the same effect taxpayers' money i mean i seriously have a real serious issues of relevance and even legion i'm missing as the jostling continues as to succeed and now disgraced so many trust.

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